Plea
– may 8th 2002-

over and over i have been lookin for someone to listen.
i sit alone.
my so called friends look at me, but continues to walk away
and laugh with their friends.
no body is going to read this anyways.
sometimes, i really don't see a point in living.
but i have to stay strong.
God will lift me up someday.
He has.
but sometimes it just seems like he dropped me... hard.
but sometimes it seems like he put wings on me and let me fly.
WHY DO I FEEEL LIKE THIS???
i see people laughing
smiling
enjoyin life everyday.
they have everything they want.
friends. boyfriends. grades. everything.
as for me, i just sit in my little corner and wait.
and wait.
and wait.
and wait.
nobody ever shows up.
just as i thought i found someone that would really care,
they leave me and stops talkin to me.
when will there be someone consistant.
someone that could actually BE there, forever?
I know... Jesus. I talk to Him all the time.
BUT i need someone to talk to..
someone's shoulder to cry on..
someone's big bear hugs.
GOD, WHEN are u gonna send my 'someone'that can listen to me??
I am starting to get really "isolated" from everyone.
coz i'm startin to build everything up inside
I would talk and talk to u every nite until i cry myself to sleep..
when ppl do ask..
i wouldn't be able to tell them everything i have inside coz that would be my whole life!
God pleez help!
I don't want to cry every nite anymore, God.
Pleez help.