Things no one cares about...

Ok, first...
A shout out deal, I wanna say hi to Keefa, Amie, Phillip, Erin, Becky, DD, Greg(who dosn't have the internet, poor boy), uh... Allyson, and who ever gives a damn. well now you get to read my mind.

Jan/22/05 Song of the day: Smile Emtpy Soul "your way"
I'm loosing my fuckin mind, parents are going psycho, and i'm fucking grounded to I can't call no one to pick me up from this shit, i'm tired of the emotions, the crying and yelling, i want to get out of here damnit, i'm sick of this retarded shit.

Jan/21/05 Song of the day: Jimmy Buffett's "trip around the sun"
I'm getting tired of my stupid house yay.... i'm bored to death, i'm in school now and it sucks, oh well, i'm just waiting until Feb for daytona, haha... and waiting to be 18, cause i can not wait to get out of this stupid house and go to a differnt school if any, jeeze... i'm ground and i'm allmost 18, that is retarded.when i turn 18 i'm gone. i'm moving to Arizona... i wish.

Oct/06/04 Song of the Day: Dire Straits' "sultans of swing"
Haha... It's been a long while, yes? I'm busy allot... a while back I Did loose my temper and punched Evan... He cried in the Office... pussy... anyways, I got yelled at... it was bullshit... had to sit in the office all day the next day... I punched Evan again last week, He did nothing... I think he gets the point that I just dont give a fuck... first time hit the back of his head cause he wouldn't listen to me when I was tring to warn him... 2nd time in the face and knocked his glasses off... stupid Bitch... Someday i will really hurt him... anyways... I'm still going crazy, ha... I'm a very angery person I guess... oh well. Someday i will really loose it... hehe... If I keep Reading Stephen King like this i will... King books are my only link to a sane world... and saying that ain't good... I'm reading Fire Starter now, it's great. It seems more real than this world, the only thing in this world worth living for is Phillip... shit.. I'd die with out him... he is the one holding me above the dark waters that try to take me down... If anything happen to him... I'd blow up the earth...

Sep/08/04 Song of the Day: HIM's "funeral of hearts"
Eh... I want to kill Evan.. yep... He is the most annoying person I've had to put up with... He best hope He dosn't run into me at odon tomorrow... hehe... hehe.... oh well, anyways, there's a new chick at school, she is cool, she just gave herself a mohock... (did i spell that right?) anyways, yeah...I'm goinf crazy.... AGH... I'm not really sure why... but I am Loosing my fucking mind... I'm sick of school, I want to drop out... i'm Fucking 17 years old... one more year and i'll quit... I can't tolorate this shit... I'm gonna get exspelled... or drop out... either way...I'm loosing it....

Sep/08/04 Song of the Day: Blake Shelton's "some beach"
Damnit, I hate school.... Yes... I had to sit in the office all day cause I punched Evan M. when he called my friend a whore... not to mention he has done several other things i wont post... oh well.... I'll get him good next time i go to Odon.... heh... fun... Dustin knows where he lives... so...haha... Man... I'm bored... damnit....Shit I want to kill that ass hole...

Sep/01/04 Song of the Day: "The Cure's "Friday I'm in Love"
I'm messed up, haven't slept more than 2 hours in like the last three nights... Jeeze... I went to a Metal Consert... Damnit, it sucked... wasn't worth Missing Bristol... Jr. won... anyways, that was last sat, my friends want me to go to anouther one this saturday... and there is race that night... damnit... i dont wana go... oh well, I added a new page, you might be a redneck if, thing... I'm Highper.....

Aug/25/04 song of the day: "montgomery gentry's "Speed"
I Took Three diet pills... I'm fucking highper, yay.... The truck Race is on today, Bobby H. needs to win! hehe... man... I'm loosing my mind, Evan is on my last nerve... i think i will kick his ass again... In shop class he's goofin off, and I have to work with him and some other dude. Evan is gonna be my trail to jail... jeeze... I dont really look forward to much to making picture frames any how... but jeeze i'm going crazy... oh well
In one year - one day, i'll be 18... yay... then i'll move out... haha...

Aug/23/04 song of the day: "Keith Briant's "chevys and Fords"
yay... not really, last weekend was to be fun and shit, but it sucked... best part was fixing Phill's Car, the rest of the weekend, allmost everyone was wasted... can't say much. had to take care af a friend whom was tramatized, drunk and couldn't walk, or throw up by her self.... tommorow is my birthday... i stayed hom from school today due to stress....

Aug/17/04 Song of the day: Tim McGraw's "live like you were dying"
Today was the first day of school, and BECKY was there, I was like, "WHAT THE FUCK?!" i thought she was still in WA, didn't think she could move in with DD, but it worked out. that's sweet, Now i have a real friend in school. exsept shop class, school should suck... yep... can't wait to weld.. hahahahHA

Aug/14/04 Song of the day: Blake Shelton's "some beach"
Yay... The tattoo thing was bull shit... don't listen to drunk dad anymore... he's like, you're gonna pay 4 em, and when he was drunk he said he'd pay for it, I'll be 18 in one year, so fuck it... I'll go crazy then... I tried to tell him what he said the other day, "DON'T Put words in my mouth" shit... oh well, or maybe if i'll save up enough, i'll get one of my adult friends to take me... got 3-4 friends over 18, 2 or so over 30, I'll get one... anarchy tatoo hopefully....

Aug/13/04 Song of the day: Rob Zombie's "demon speeding"
Just got back from two weeks of Ohio... it sucks... 4 hour drive to some city outside of datun, A little room, with four people, could not call Phillip but twice, no Speed Chanell, oh well, King's Island sucked too. oh well, It's so fucking good to be home, even better to get to Phill's house, there was a retirement house by the hotel, and i swear 7 people died there in 2 weeks, and the news in datun is retared, "Breaking news, 15 kids stung by bees" i for one dose not give a fuck, i'd rather hear about the murders loose in Datun... oh well, happy to be back in Indiana, I dont like travel, but going to a Busch race in Mexico may be fun, and an Arca Race in Salem Indiana(it's only like an hour drive, lol) oh well, I'll still miss Phil too much, haha... for once in my life i have a boy friend that's not an ass hole, yay. I went to Phil's today, we went to a subway... and i saw Kari... evil blonde bitch... I Gave her the Bird, haha.... school is gonna be interesting, I'm gonna drop Small Engines and take Art... I can learn that shit in the Garage... and maybe i can get the crack head of an art teacher to teach art history... i'm tired of, "DRaw what ever you want, and you'll get an A" Damnit... oh well, if i get straight A's for a semester, i can get all the tattos and pirceing i want, and i'll hold my dad to his word damnit.

July/30/04 Song of the day: Chris Cagel's "Chicks Dig It"
whee... I'm bored... I'm getting tired of Windows, Bill gate can suck a dick, I want a Mac. I got the Blue screen of death just when I Logged on, damnit. Windows 95 crashes: "Dad. Lets get a Mac" Of course, 98, then the computer just wouldn't turn on one day, "DAD... MAC" then XP... XP Worked good for like a Week... then got slower...slower... now this crap... and of course, it's my fault the computer is messed up... bull... well anyways, this site is turning into more than a blog... whee... It's got odd little things like facts, stupid laws, art, oekaki, yes... it will grow and take over the world... until windows eats it... >_<

July/22/04 Song of the day: David Bowie's "Fame"
Yay... I'm bored... I added more artwork, yay... I miss Phillip, He's got a night Job... I Fucking need a job, but, you have to have conections in this town to get one... i hate it... you have to be popular, or your familey work where you wanna work... oh well... my parent's got a 71 monte carlo, it's great, orginal paint... new carb, new heads, it's cool... great condition. my caprice, well, dad is gonna junk it to make room for the monte... i hate it... there is nothing wrong with having 9 cars in our yard... I'm gonna miss that car, after all the work... shit...

July/11/04 Song of the day: Cake's "The Distance"
Dose Anyone else think Nextel/Nascar Needs to get the fuck off Tony Stewart?!? I'm Tired of when ever Tony Bumbs someone They Think Tony is out to get them, or wreck them!! When Dale Sr. Raced like that it was cool with everyone, but now with the new rules poping up ever year, and a few mix ups Tony has been in, Everyone is going off on him. Damnit... And today, Casie Kane's Crew Freggin went off on Stewart's Crew... and they get mad at Tony?
/// ... Anyways... I'm A Big Tony Fan... Yes... um...

June/23/04Song of the day: Placebo's 'come home'
I have to get my teeth worked on later today... great... maybe they'll mess up, and have to give me some good drugs... lol... I do not want to go... dangit... oh well... I Finally got my permit a few days ago... dad made me drive on a busy road, there was a horse ang buggy, on a hill... he's like "PASS IT!" and i told him i couldn't see what was coming or not... so... i checked as well as i could, tryed to pass, then the guy behind me desides he'll pass at the same time... allmosts got hit my a big untilty truck...then i get yelled at to pull over, i thought he's drive... then he still made me drive into town... aw well... it was interesting, I drove better with my friends mom when i DIDN'T have a permit... lol... opps...
I want to get my tounge pirced... of course, parents i have say no... to bad i couldn't do it my self, like my ears(which are holy.. lol... 10 holes... whee..) if i had the right tools i'd be tempted to do it my self... dont like to pay money for holes... when i could just do it myself... 28 dollars to get the top of your ear pirced now a days... or, a needle, and a cheep Wall*Mart earring, 2.99... lol... Damn i'm too higheper...

June/15/04
Song of the day; Radiohead's 'high and dry'
I'm bored... the power keeps blinking, and I'm with out a Steven King book... Phillip is reading my book 'the dark half' that is a great book... you all have to read it... haha... I want to start a band... yep... I need a fucking job so I can get a Bass Guitar... I keep Calling Jay C's, there like, "STOP CALLING" ...so... yeah

June/11/04
song of the day: Toby Keith's 'i love this bar'
I'm going crazy, I've got three paintings in prossess and i'm running out of paint.... and i'm broke... i'm really trying to get a job, but it's not working.... well, i plan on going to town with phill tommorow if mom lets me... i love him soo much... we were going to paint, and watch the hobbit, but dad dosn't like him cause he thinks, "He's too nice" what the hell... that pisses me off... I need paint... d a m m i t....

June/06/04
song of the day: The Cars' 'here in my car'
Stupid network... Nascar should be on fox or basic cable, none of that digital FX crap, dose the avg Nascar fan have a digital satalite? .. i donno. i'm going to my friend's house to watch it, err... anyways, I'm gonna finaly be able to take my test to get my permit... I'll be learning how to drive in a little caviler, and Julie might make me learn stick shift... great... well, then i wont have to bum rides of people... just gas money... lol... gas here is friggin 1.99! it's stupid.hey! there is now an Oekaki BBS, Draw on it! it's great, come on! lol.

May/31/04
song of the day: Placebo's 'nancy boy'
heh... changed my layout to Brian Molko, Squidward and the broken heart is done.. lol... i'm highper... 11:33 PM, should be getting tired... lol.... i'm bored... waiting for the reply for my oekaki from http://oekakiesbbs.com hehe... "achoolic type of mood, loose my clothes loose my lube" from the song of the day... hehe... Placebo is great.

May/30/04
Song of the day: David Bowie's 'space oddity'
Arg.... Men... and Females.... The last few days was a trip... I broke up with dustin yet again... i dont know why i went out with him the last 7 times... well, me and dustin dont really have much in common, he likes Rap and Death Metal, and i like... everything. and he... well, we are both very differnt people, and both stubburn, he is aggrogant, and since i broke up with him he has gotton worse, becoming everything i know and hate... but his brother is really cool, i've been talking to him allot when me and dustin fight, then i started to like him... o.0 then i wrote him a note asking him out, gave it to he's sister to give him, she lost it, but he wrote me a note asking me... ironic, we allmost have too much in common, so now me and phill are dating, and Dustin is having a cow... i feel like a home wrecker... i never wanted Phillip and Dustin fighting... but... i donno, i really like Phillip, i haven't talked to him in a while though, but... anyways, on the last day of school, DW(my ex girl friend who keeps yelling, "i'm straight now!") told me she was still bi, then she got all flirty, and my neigher Evan walked to my house asking me to take my shirt off, i soon beated him with a broom stick... i donno about who ever is reading this... but none of this makes since... oh well... anyways, i'm gonna try to make an oekaki for the site, i love drawing ya know...

May/16/04
Song of the day: Weezer's 'Falling for you'
This weekend was interesting, Friday I was to ride DD's bus home, but she wasn't home, so i road Dustin's Sister's bus to town, but she got off with her friend in the country, so i walked into town, went to DD's house, and they all ready left for bloomington... so i walked to dustin's for a while, then when they got back hanged with Becky, DD, Cody, and keshia, and allson.. watched a few movies, the next day Greg came and we all drove around Washinton and Odon... Watched Nascar... all in all. It was a desent weekend...exsept parts i wont say on here... but yeah... got my guitar tuned up, and now i'm downloading some music to try out...

May/13/04
Song of the day: Garbage's 'Stupid Girl'
yesterday i got a set of strings and fixed my guitar... but this kid my friend baby sits hit my guitar... i was about to hurt him, but he's only 10... oh well, I turned in two apps for jobs, Jay C's and Sub Way... Austin works at subway, and the drummer in my friend's band works at Jc's. hopefully i'll have a shot... oh well, I'll call them latter on... I'm gonna see becky this weekend! i never get to see her due to her crazy stepmom... her step mom is hitler... but we dont talk about that... AH! i need to play my guitar before I Fall asleep... Wow... I'm not depressed at the moment... i was earlier... i donno why, i just felt like crying.. nothing about what i would put online... i'll talk to becky about it this weekend... oh well... it's been a while since i ranted... bored to death... note the "..." trying to think. I'm reading this neat book, "After Dark" by Jayne Castle, it's great, if you like sci-f, read it. well... that's all for now... need to save up to get a bass guitar... DD got a five string... i envy.. but, i took a online quiz... lol
I'm 53% gay....lol... >http://www.channel4.com/gayometer

April/25/04
Song of the day: Dream Theater's 'fatal Tragedy'
I Donno about these song of the day things, it's just what I'm listening to when I type... wow, a Desent mood, hmm... content... didn't have school today, being Saturday, My friend Amie is here..., she passed out, it's only 12:38AM, oh well, all these rants must be boring if you dont know me, lol... and if you do know me you still dont give a shit, oh well, it's a... stress relieve, I only type on bad days(exsept today) which makes me look like a whinny Bitch, eh? oh well... i'm gonna put a Bio, and a Friend page or somthing soon, and a guest book... i need to make this interesting... well, Nascar is going to be interesting this week, fastest track... Hope Harvick or Stewart win... or maybe Rusty again, that'll be neat... Rusty could use anouther win, turn his loosing streak into a winning one... well, that's all the rants for today, and i'll work on more parts soon...

April/21/04
Song of the day: Jack Off Jill's 'American made'
A couple days ago, Cherra called the friggin cops on me for telling her i was going to kick her ass, when i called her a bitch. she must be scared of me or somthing, dammit bitch, I told the cop, Dean kith or what ever his name is, that i didn't tell her that and he's all, "Stop lying or there'll be trouble" but this site could be a threat in it self, who knows, To all you Goverment pigs out there, I wont start anything i finish it... told the cop her and her little friends were harrasing me, he's all, "STOP LYING"... that's why i dont like cops, they only listen to normal people, if somone has blue hair and black clothes, they gotta be trouble... now yesterday, KARI was driving around following me calling me a bitch and such, but she wouldn't get out of her car and take any shit back... I'm sick and tired of people saying shit that can't take shit back... there stupid. I hate stupid people. i allmost bought this shirt that says, "i'll be nicer when your smarter" that would of been funny... but i had to get brown hair dye, cause i cant get a job with blue hair... i go back to school tommorow, Joy that'll be fun... oh, i broke my guitar string on the 4th string... need to get new strings... that sucks.

April/18/04
Song of the day: KoRn's 'Right Now'
April 16th, friday was...interesting... I went to the office about these ass holes, not that it would do any good, well, they talked to them, but didn't do anything else... so I get to 5th hour class, and there doing it worse, singing, "Jesus loves you" and that typical shit they all have been doing for years... well, i'm like, fuck the school, I'll take care of this, Kari, and Cherra keep going at it, and this rage, that's been building up for years gets worse, and more fierce, I warn the bitch if she dosn't shut her mouth, i'll get her, she gets bitchy, and says, oh no! she'll beat me up she didn't believe me... when class was desmised, i walked to the doorway and waited for her to get out, Keefa ran off, not wanting to be involved, but then kari walked out laughing... i hate her... i raised my fist and she ducked, i got a few punches to the back of her head and neck, and stabbed her back with a pen a few times in a fit of rage, I was shaking, and not the least bit sane at the moment... but the bitch wouldn't fight back, her friends stared, not raising a finger to save there friend... she had a small wound on her back, from what i heard, but I walked off looking for cherra before i was sent to the office... damn the system... i told them i was at a breaking point... but they didn't believe me... no one dose till they see it... now i have five day's off school, cause they think i'll do it again... I will to if they fuck with me...if anyone dose... part of me wants them to go on... so i can beat the fuck out of them... but part of me justs wants them to stop, either way...my mood changes ever 20 minutes or so... back and forth between the feelings, not knowing what the hell is going on in my head, FTW... yep//////end