A New Beginning 4

 

Thursday April 29, 2004

 

11:59 PM

 

I would first prefer to start off with the semi good news of having found another job. I am using the term semi good news in that I have found a job, however it is paying only six dollars an hour, which is a two dollar pay cut from what I was making when I left Wal mart. Nevertheless, it is something until something better befalls me. For this and the fact that McDonalds my new employer, is being very compassionate and understanding in holding my position for me until I have recovered from the recent surgery undergone with reference to the Fistula infection within my left buttock. Fistula being defined is, A bacterial infection which forms a root system deep beneath the skins surface, which continues to cause massive and painful abscesses until such bacterial root system is completely removed from the infected area. Unfortunately my HIV status could well cause such a fistula to return again, hence the entire removal process would in that case be a requirement again. That’s enough about that.

 

There have been some enlightening revelations to recently befall my mind and spiritual path. About two weeks ago I had gone to the nearby gay and lesbian Pentecostal church known as the Open Door Community Fellowship. I love the people there even though key points of what they teach and preach go completely contrary to what I feel the Lord and the lady have given to me to understand about them and share with all whom will listen. The Lord and Lady have even impressed upon my spirit that they want me to write mystical teaching for them, which they have given to me the divine inspiration to engage in this command which has come directly from them to me. I am human, therefore fallible also. There is to be no doubt some aspects of that inspiration, I will somewhat misunderstand. For this reason I am making certain that I let this be known to the readers as not for them to receive the impression that any of this divine inspiration is without blemish or not open to individual interpretation. All that is within the text I mention is always to remain open to individual interpretation save “The Ten Qualities” and those words given to me which have come to me telepathically from our risen savior himself, who is the person of Jesus Christ.

 

The first book of these teachings I was instructed to title “The First Book of Shamanistian Gospel.” The Lord and Lady have called upon me to be their profit. They have called upon me Ravenschild, which is the Shamanistian name I have been given by them to preach, teach and uphold the sacred values and principal practice of Judeo Islamic Shamanistianity. These terms and references are explained in far greater detail within the text of these teachings.

 

One of the great revelations, which I seen has been in reference to me personally. I have had for many years a superiority complex for, which The Lord and Lady have seen no other way left to them but to inflict the agony of the fistula upon me. This was allowed to come upon me four times so far to bring me down from my attitude of superiority over others to a more humble state of compassion for others. This superior attitude towards others was getting no where fast with everyone I was meeting. My attitude was the same as I had learned from my arrogant Pentecostal church going childhood and upbringing. As far as I was concerned anyone who disagreed with me was wrong and unless they learned to understand with depth of clarity what I had, they would never understand spirituality at all. I was wrong and everyone who remembers me from those days I am deeply apologetic. Please forgive my ignorance and arrogance.

 

Another thing that the Lord and Lady have shown me recently is that an additional reason for the fistula showing up where it did has been my lack of motivation to begin the work they have set before me instituting the “Original Orthodox Temple of the Ancient Trinity.” This is the title they have given me to lay upon the establishment, which will be responsible for spreading the Gospel of Judeo Islamic Shamanistianity. For they have made me not only their profit but also the Shaman of the faith of community. This is a tremendous responsibility I have been entrusted with. I pray to the Lord and the Lady every day with intense sincerity that they will guide me and help me to always listen closely to their words that I may lead the sheep of their precious flock of believers into their eternal bliss of paradise.

 

Once this institution comes into being I pray with intense sincerity that the sheep of the flock will also pray for me to be a leader worthy of their love, respect and kind compassion. These are but a few of the basic principals, I have been instructed by the Holy Lord and Lady to instill into the minds and souls all Shamanistians who will allow it for them. They are purging my body and my soul clean from the unattractive Debris I carried with me into adulthood from my early brainwashed development. It is not attractive in a leader of any kind especially one who is a profit and Shaman. Although the pain has been great I have learned to embrace it in the knowledge that it has been a much-needed prerequisite to beginning the divine institution of Shamanistia. Behold the wisdom of the Lord and the Lady, for it is good.

 

Until I write again, Peace, love, kindness and compassion be spread widely within you and without. Yours in the Trinity Mother, Father and immortal Savior who is their Child Christ. As it is written it is also done.