"Thoughts from the Crypt 12"

Thursday July 4 2002

2:02 P.M.

It appears that I'm being given no choice at all as to whether or not mine and Fogy's relationship remains open or not. He has informed me that he feels he may molest more children in the future if the relationship does not remain Open. I don't understand what that has to do with it, but since I don't know for sure if he really believes that, or if he's just using it as an excuse to punish me for having opened it up to begin with; and there is the possi- bility also ,that he may have come to like the idea so unexpectedly come to like the idea so much that he just has lost interest in anything but his own convenience and desires it so much so that he's not yet willing to accept us as a real couple at this time.

At any rate, I'm not going to make a big deal about it. I consulted my pendulum about the issue and it told me, that if I just keep quiet about it, when he asks me what I want for our first year anniversary I will get what I want, which is a monogamous relationship. In the meantime I am working on trying to talk him Into allowing it to be the way it was when we originally opened it up. That was to try people out on our own first to see if they were compatible to enter our circle. If we then wanted to get with them on our own, there was okay, which was never a problem for me. He just wasn't talking to me about anything he was feeling thinking that I was deliberately trying to prevent him and Dustin from getting together alone. I wasn't; I just didn't want to be here not being included while they were having all the fun they wanted to while I was being ignored. He says I'm selfish ; he needs to take a good long look at himself in the mirror of life. That's just the way it is.

I'm going now to ask my pendulum another important question. It's important to me anyway. I want to know, if I ask him again to allow the "open relationship" to go back to what it was originally supposed to be; will he agree to it? I won't be at all surprised if I get either a direct no, or no answer at all. If I don't get an answer it will probably just mean I need to wait a while, or just wait for the 1st year anniversary alone and approach him again with one or the other. At any rate I'm going now to find out what I can.

So long for now.

The Raven
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