i spent the last minutes of last night and some parts of today talking to sir sonny on the phone. kinda like nung nasa cebu kami. kasi just about everyone slept in our room on the last night in cebu. (sir rex, sir chino, raissa, and jert. plus the real residents of the room, me, sensei celeste and sensei tani. so imagine how crowded we were.) everyone was asleep na except sir sonny and i. we just talked with out eyes closed. katulad kagabi. but don't get me wrong, i still don't like him.

i went to the optical shop today to get my eyes checked. i've been getting these headaches for the past few days. turns out to be just eye strain from the computer. but i still might be getting glasses soon.=(

tomorrow's the semi finals for the sabayang pagbigkas thingy. i really don't know what i feel about it. i want to win kasi i don't want the pilot class to win (no offense angel..matatalino kayo masyado!) pero i don't want to win rin kasi if we do, practice nanaman! basta whatever. i'll just leave it all up to the divine hand of God.

btw, my lolo just died. my mom told me about it this morning. i don't know if i'm just insensitive or what. people are all sympathetic and stuff like they're really sorry for me as if i'm all cried out about it. the truth is, i don't feel anything. my grandfather and i weren't really close anyway. he's all the way in bacolod and we never really bonded. so why do people expect me to be all broken up about it? when my favorite uncle died i didn't cry. favorite uncle ko na yun ah. am i that insensitive and heartless like my mom said when he brought up the "vincent" thing? pero, i'm not. i'm sure i'm not. ako pa eh, i cry at the stupidest things. have you met anyone who cried in a ren and stimpy cartoon? if you've met me then you have. or do i take people for granted? does it make me a bad person if i don't cry or feel any sense of mourning at all when people in my family die? or maybe because i believe that they're in a much better place kaya i don't feel anything, at all. or am i just plain heartless? tainah. tama na nga. eye strain..