Last night I had the worst argument with my brother, and we argue a lot lately. Two grown-up siblings can't live under the same roof, especially if there are only 3 rooms under that roof. Things get too claustrophobical! So I decided, though it's probably not the wisest thing to spend my hard earned money on paying rent, that I should move out. No bank is going to give me a decent loan till I pay back my student loan and I can't see that happening in the near future. And I can't live at home waiting for that to happen!

So I started going through the apartment listings and found one that I really lied. But that was, naturally, at the very top of my spending range... I still thought I could pull it off with my two jobs and all. And then, a few hours later, they announce that my extra job will be taken away from me. Of course, there were perfectly logical reasons behind that which I will describe later, but still.... Plus, I feel the shame like I've been fired for something I did (or failed to do). And trying to convince myself that it was a rational decision that didn't concern my person is more or less futile.

Ooohhh... the sweetest thing happened. I complained to my boss yesterday about not being able to get a decent loan and he just phoned me up with some suggestions. That made me a bit less bitter.

I'm sorry about the incoherent entry. I will review (and probably delete) it later but I felt that I just had to express myself somehow!

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