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How are you supposed to make decisions that will certainly change your life? Is there a formula other people follow that has been hidden from me all this time? How are you supposed to decide if you're going to take a job 1800 km away? How are you supposed to know if you want to spend the next three years in a foreign country? How are you supposed to know the money offered is not some petty change? How are you supposed to accurately assess your future living conditions when you've been to the U.K. only once and that was eight years ago? How are you supposed to know if the person you're going to share a house with for the next three years is even remotely compatible with you? How are you supposed to know that being in the company of other accountants 24/7 will not drive you up the wall? How are you supposed to decide if living in the U.K. is for you, when you decided you wanted to live there the first day you stepped your foot into the English class? How are you supposed to decide to leave your home when living abroad for awhile has been your dream, since you first found out it was a viable option, even for you? How are you supposed to decide when the phrase "wasting your life" seems to be synonymous with what you're doing right now? How are you supposed to decide when your father asks you if the firm's legitimate, if the man is not trying to exploit you - everything you've been secretly asking yourself? How are you supposed to decide when you offer your brother the Hellhole and he accepts but manages to convey his sadness still? How are you supposed to decide when the thought of leaving your friends behind fills you with regret? How are you supposed to decide when your vacationing mum calls from Vilnius and, upon hearing that you've been chosen to go, asks if she should come back immediately and announces that she's going to cry? How are you supposed to decide when you've been offered a chance to change your life, at the cost of leaving your old life behind? How are you supposed to decide? Can you decide?
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