Chapter 1.

My mind in always in conflict. On one side, there is good and the other side, evil. The good side represents all that I love and have. The evil side is all that I want to become. Do I want to be evil ? Maybe. I dont know... but the thought seems to stir up something sinister in me which I love and despise at the same time. They are the demons in my head (for the lack of a better term). What are they like ? For one thing, they're not scared of me and I'm not scared of them. Its like two equally strong armies facing each other in battle,... each of them ready to take on the enemy ... no fear... no room for mistakes in a fight to the death. We respect each other as much as we hate each other. Its something like that. The prize for victory ... me. Its a continuous battle, raging every mortal second in my mind. Given any situation, I always form two opinions about it. The first one is the right choice... what I should do. The other one... what I want to do. Invariably, one of the choices is throurghly influenced by my evil side. All those of know me well, will testify that I can be two completely different persons depending upon my mood... and its not schizophrenia.
 
 

Chapter 2.

What is it like when I feel like being bad ? Its awesome. Its exhilarting. Its fantastic. Its like getting high, but you aren't messed up. You can still think clearly and you KNOW what you're doing is bad, its wrong, its evil and you know that you're unstoppable. You feeling like becoming the most hated person alive. You love the sensation of being hated. Maybe u still dont understand me... this might help :
 
 

Chapter 3.

My favorite dark experiment -  Take a few thousand babies. Amputate one of the legs on them all. Sterilize them. Put them in a isolated location for a generation... let them flourish. They go thru life thinking that having one leg is normal.  Then one day, re-introduce them to mankind and civilization and the fact that they are handicapped.. Watch their reaction. Will human emotional strength triumph ? Or will they be devasted ? Either ways, it should be fun. I hate myself when I think like this.
 
 

Chapter 4.

What's it like when u're fighting them ? Like a mouse inside a maze... wandering around in a daze... lost for dayz... with a smile on my face... I NEVER WANNA LEAVE THIS PLACE !!! The world seems to twist and convulse... turned into my worst phobia... A CRAZY MAN'S UTOPIA !!!
 
 

Chapter 5.

The battle begins.... it starts off with a tempation. Any kind of temptation. The sensation u get is like something tugging at ur mind... something tugging at the FRAYED ENDS  OF SANITY...  the candle burns at both ends... u can feel the demons rise up within up, surging and swamping all over ur mind till they come face to face with U. Old habbits reappear... fighting the fear of fear... u wait for the horror the demons bring... like seeing ur own decapitated grinning head on a platter...  HELL, TIME, HASTE, TERROR, TENSION, LIFE, DEATH, WANT, WASTE, MASS DEPRESSION... the armoured black clouds appear over the horizon. u cant trust yourself.....BELIEVER,  DECIEVER !!! It's time again to BEGIN THE WHIPPING DANCE OF  DEATH, BLACKENED IS THE END. Try to reason it out....
 
 

Chapter 6.
 
 

Chapter 7.

          So... what do u do when the demons attack ???

Chapter 8.
 

Chapter 9.

Chapter 10.

Chapter 10.
 
 

Chapter 11.

  ... and now the demons are finally gone.

   As I wake up....

     I Can't Remember Anything
     Can't Tell If this Is True or Dream
     Deep down Inside I Feel to Scream
     this Terrible Silence Stops Me
     Now That the War Is Through with Me
     I'm Waking up I Can Not See
     That There Is Not Much Left of Me
     Nothing Is Real but Pain Now

          Hold My Breath as I Wish for Death
          Oh Please God, wake Me

     Back in the Womb its Much Too Real
     in Pumps Life That I must Feel
     but Can't Look Forward to Reveal
     Look to the Time When I'll Live
     Fed Through the Tube That Sticks in Me
     Just like a Wartime Novelty
     Tied to Machines That Make Me Be
     Cut this Life off from Me

          Hold My Breath as I Wish for Death
          Oh Please God,wake Me

          Now the World Is Gone I'm Just One
          Oh God,help Me Hold My Breath as I Wish for Death
          Oh Please God Help Me

Darkness !!!

     Imprisoning Me
     All That I See
     Absolute Horror !!
     I Cannot Live
     I Cannot Die
     Trapped in Myself
     Body My Holding Cell

Landmine

     Has Taken My Sight ........
     Taken My Speech ..........
     Taken My Hearing .......
     Taken My Arms .........
     Taken My Legs ..........
     Taken My Soul ...
  Left Me with Life in Hell !!!
 
 

By the way,... I wuz jes kiddin' about all this. All I wanted 2 do wuz 2 spook u out !!! Hope I did !... as u have just experienced, I'm an expert at making stories up from my head.  My sincerest apologies to Guns n' Roses & Metallica for messing up their lyrics on this page and using them out of context.