wow...  so jen and I finally sat down face to face and had the 'talk' .  I must admit that I for one was very anxious about how things would go..would there be anger, hurt, emotional upheaval ?  there is usually little lacking in strong words and false accusations.. but I made it clear from the beginning I was done defending myself from those.  for her part she had apparently decided she would just hear me out without much responding... i forget how she worded it.  At any rate.. the point is we were able to talk... listen.  and not get heated.  that part was nice.   the not nice part was the reality that it was pretty much done.   As we finally got to the part where we both agreed that our relationship was past the point of salvagabitliy.  Ha,  I dont even know if that is a word.  It's always the sad part.  While I guess I am getting more and more used to it... it doesn't make it less sad.

To happier matters.  Bobbie and I are going to start playing again..   I am still hoping to hear from the other band about a possible audition.  it would be nice to have a somewhat paying gig over the summer, and ... well, that other path and choice I had to make.. It is paying huge dividends as well. 

There are many new and exciting changes taking place in my life.  I am eager to face some of the challenges that await.