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Wuhu! There is going to be a part XX. I am extremely glad I'm home. This is the world which I've become accostumed to. As much as I love Louisville, I will not miss the weather or the accents. At this current moment in time I miss being in love and the person I love. I mean it's fun looking around to see what's out there, but having a special someone is also very nice. I know that the instant I close my eyes it will happen. I also know that if I keep them closed too long I might pass up a great opportunity. The solution? Just to keep blinking. Sounds really funny, but it's the only thing I can do.
Moving on, knowing that I have time to do stuff is really relaxing. Life is moving on. The squabbles of today become the jokes of tomorrow. Who knows what's going on? I sure don't know. All I know is that my home doesn't exist. Or at least the place where I'm supposed to live for a really really long time. Dinner is almost here. End Part 20.

Here is Part 21. I got tired of Roman Numerals. I am really getting high on the pages count, aren't I? I want to write a poem but then again I don't. It would be another sad poem. Just wish I could get over Tyler! The instant I know I'm not ever him occurs just after I realized I'm completely over him. The truth is I still love him. I'm not in love with him but I still love him. Does that make sense? It does to me. I find him a beautiful person whether he believes that he is or not. He doesn't know that such a person exists within him, but he does. Damn pen ink ran out! Maybe this will last for a little while. Anyway, it's extremely annoying knowing the potential someone holds and knowing that they're not going to realize that for a really long time.
The internet is good. It allows me to talk to several people at once. My wonderful email comes through there. It is also a huge source of entertainment for me as well. My website keeps me busy. And it's a lot of fun to do research on. I consider it the window to the world. Without it I would have no friends from Louisville still with the exception of a few people. Ahhh yes, the many wonders of a computer.
I am going to be really busy this coming year with church and school. I need money too so I would like a steady job. One that pays decently. But that would require a car. Something I'm not going to get for a very long while. With any luck the GYC thing will fall through and then I'll get to travel frequently. That would be fun. I'm looking forward to making more friends this year. My school problems will go away if that's the case. I want to know what part I have in the Wizard of Oz though. I won't find out for a long while though. I have a tan, or at least for me it is. For normal people it's how their skin normally looks. I enjoy being pale though. It's going to same me from wrinkles someday. 'Night!
End Part 21

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