Welcome to page three of my journal. This is going to be monstrous someday... i can sense it...
May 8, 2002
HAHA so it's been nearly two months since i worked on this aspect of my webpage. currently i'm at work. i spent the first two hours doing training of a new employee and i've spent the last hour here standing. very interesting. there are also people in the lobby that MESSED UP THE COUCHES! grrr yes i do get anal about random things
its NHL playoffs time and once again i say GO SHARKIES GO! my beloved san jose sharkies *muah* i hope you kick colorado arse. cuz i really want to go further than we have usually. =( if we get to the cup finals... mannnnnnnnnnnnnn we have such a good chance... the east totally sucks...
tomorrow will be the third month. if you really wanna see of what, check out my "all about me" page. =)OMG some guy just wandered into the lobby dancing... that is just trippy... anyways i'm going through crisis again because i once again have no idea what i'm doing with my life. do i REALLY want to go to law school? i think i had convinced myself "heck i just sucked at criminal law so i'll do everything but criminal law, so i'll do anything but criminal." i mean intellectual property is interesting and so is sports and entertainment law but i'd have to have some massive bargaining skills and well i get rather darn meek. i have some decent mediation skills but family law will drive me up a wall and then some. =\ i've been told that i'd be a really good elementary school teacher because i'm really patient and i like kids and i work well with children and so on. i've never really been turned off to teaching - i've always thought it would be great and not the last resort that some people put it as. you always need teachers and in california the demand is always going up. we shall see...
i'm graduating in a year! i'll be very happy! oh and a belated happy birthday to my virgie pooh!!!!!! FINALLY she's out of her teens! YOUNG'UN!
MARCH 4, 2002
omg... so it has been like two months since i worked on this *cough cough* well tons of crap has happened to me in the last two months and some very bright spots also. right now i'm sitting in the college library trying to do research for a paper that i SHOULD have done about a month ago. damnit this procrastination is gonna come and bite me in the ass. i'm so close to writing off this quarter but oh well. my gpa takes a hit. damnit i worked so hard last quarter and my gpa was SOOO high and now BAHHHH!!! i need like 4.00's from here on out! and that isn't easy! and this stupid book search is being such a PITA! it keeps on restarting my search and i was like on page 8 of books... grrrrr new technology my ass... what a pain! you know usually i just check out the books early in the quarter and then renew them over and over but not this time i guess... d'oh... part of the grade is quality of research... i guess i'm gonna do it on whatever i can find huh... maybe i can go to the LA library but i doubt that they'll have good enough resources unlike what they have here... *sigh*
my personal life has taken an interesting turn though. oh before i start that... vanna and sueh visited me over president's day weekend! we went to disneyland and then santa monica the next day. it was so awesome having my two girlies here with me in LA! i miss disneyland and i miss having them around day in and out. =( we took pics with pooh and tigger and eeyore. i'll upload them sometime soon... just that i'm so busy... i have two papers to write, one of them which i have no idea what i'm doing, and the other i just need SOURCES!!! i feel so dumb... i'm doing so well in my asian am class (a+ on the midterm baby!) and i did so well on my british politics midterm but i kinda know i bombed the 155 midterm... and the 155 paper is gonna be hell and these stupid papers are worth so much! i like the social sciences but i HATE the paper writing aspect... which is why i can't be a professor... too much research... i'd have to write a freaking book! whoa i totally went off subject there...
so anyways my personal life has gotten rather interesting and i rather enjoy it. =) if you know me you have to ask for details but then i've probably already told you anyways. oh and i'm now one of the supervisors at the desk... which actually kinda sucks cuz i don't get as many hours as i used to ... this is interesting though... how they didn't want me before and now they do... bwhahaha... hehehe
January 15, 2002, 445am
YAY I'M 21! lemme do the quick birthday shout outs... sueh's 21st was january 10th, tim's 21st was january 11th, evelyn's 15th was jan 12th, and david's was jan 12th also. as a 21 year old i'd like to say that yes i can legally buy anyone alcohol. just a hefty fee you have to get through first. hehehehe.
i really don't update this as much as i should. i think most of it is because i'm either 1. too lazy or 2. just don't have enough time. and i'm making the situation worse as i see all these things i wanna do but i don't have time for it. it freaking blows. right now, i'm taking four classes, three of which have major papers due at the end of the quarter. i'm also in aca's culture nite this year, with rehearsals three times a week and who knows how many more if needed. i also have work. AND i saw this ad for this AWESOME internship. there's a ucla alumnus that is running for congress and would like some free labor from students. i would love to do this but i just don't have FREAKING TIME. damnit i'm falling back into my high school trap. so i don't know what to do. i feel bad if i drop out of culture nite. omg i also have my gov't work, as an SL in canyon. nearly forgot about that! it's just too crazy... and it's insane too. i don't know how law schools and future employers can expect THIS much out of one person, yet there are people that do it and sleep. i suspect they have no lives. i mean to work, intern, participate in a culture nite, be a part of their student government, and take 16 units a quarter? yes i am insane. *sigh*
i went to the job fair in ackerman today. i was looking for anything... preferably paid but i don't think that i can find that. i learned a few things. 1. my resume blows. 2. i don't have a major for the jobs that were being offered for norcal. 3. damnit i'll have to stay in LA if i get a good one. =\ i saw a few good ones but my problem is compounded by my lack of vehicular transportation. bye bye dreamworks. =\ i'm supposed to call the lady from artisan back on thursday because i was looking at what they may have for the spring. college credit would be sooo nice but my problem is I HAVE TO FINISH MY DAMN MAJOR AND MINOR! if i didn't have the minor it would be easier to graduate but i really want the minor. *sigh* i want artisan or dreamworks because i may go into entertainment/sports law so i figure... work in the industry... see if i wanna do stuff with this forever. right? right....
October 8, 2001, 1:22am
no i am not up all nite by my own volition. i'm at work. i am cold. i am tired. i am sick of cnn going "this is cnn" every twenty mins. END THIS FREAKING INSANITY!
i guess that in a sense i'm tired of working right now. i do work an awful lot of hours. i need to find something else to do to keep me occupied an no school doesn't count. BAH! i think this job will drive me to the end of insanity. i'm sitting here right now because i really do not want to work. but then i'm stuck in a quandry because i need to keep working on campus somehow to keep my housing. i can't just up and quit. i'll be freaking homeless. *sigh* and then next year i need to find something. i really need to be hired elsewhere. as an ra, finally get hired at stc, any darn freaking mother pucking thing. wait, i take that back. i refuse to be a pa. seriously do. *sigh*
sitting here bitter sucks a monkey's... great i need to stop reading the desker book and picking up katie speak. hehe =) perhaps i should start reading or pick up the mess that i made. oh well. that's all for this update... i guess. =)
September 19, 2001
its been over a week and i'm finally caught up with this. it's been a crazy week. school starts again in six days. already got my books. that was fun. =\ all for now.
Sept. 11th, 2001
i woke up to the phone ringing. i was ready to scream at whoever was daring to wake me up at 9am when the day before i worked til 10pm and i was freaking exhausted. i pick up the phone and arjay goes "get up. now" i'm like "why" he says "we're under attack" i'm like "you're kidding me" he's like "no. they already hit new york and the world trade center." well that woke me up fast. "what? who did it?" "right now the democratic liberated front something admits it" (which they later denied) he then goes on to tell me "they hit the east around this time so you should get up NOW in case we're next" i'm like thinking "wtf we're next?!?!?!" so i get my ass out of bed, turn on my comp and switch on the news. i see that the world trade center... is gone. i'm like... what the heck... this isn't possible.
i turn on the tv and all i see is... nothingness. these two towers that used to dominate over the new york skyline are now gone. and i keep seeing an airplane crash into the second tower and the large explosion was just... insane to watch. the number of times that day i was going to start crying was so much.. then hearing that a plane has crashed into the pentagon, seeing the palestinan's celebrate (now declared that video was from 1991!) and that a FOURTH plane was hijacked. that's just too much to have to digest in one day. then i start freaking out when people say we're going to war and really mad when people say that we should nuke the country. you know it really helps if we knew what country to nuke! and second, we shouldn't have to nuke anyone in the first place. we should have learned in the first place from hiroshima and nagaskai. hello we are NOT the only country that has nukes. we all must realize that. even pakistan has nuclear weapons. i don't want a war. no. not at all. you can say that we need to bring these people to justice. i'm for that. but what other facets of our lives need to be sacrificed to do this. what rights are we going to wind up giving up to keep the country safe? could i be targeted someday because china won't support the us? even though i was born in this country, raised here, and have never been back to china? *sigh* but i can't propose a solution so i guess you could just tell me to shut up. yeah and when everyone is done preaching all their hate they can too.
here's to all the firefighters and rescue workers that have been working diligently to save those trapped in the building. here's to all the families that have lost someone in the towers, pentagon, or on the flights. my thoughts are with you.
As someone DILIGENTLY pointed out (and it wasn't vanna... hehe omg i have more than one reader) i haven't updated my journal in a very long time so here's an attempt.
What has happened up through the end of august:
I finished off summer school at de anza. it was really dreadfully easy. i left that school with a PERFECT 4.00. HEHEHE. damn i wish i could keep that GPA. but i got that 4.00 with minimal effort... so yes in some ways it did feel like high school all over again... but i'll live right? hehe. i got an easy 10 units transferred so YEEEEE! hehe. i'm on track still to graduate early. i just hope that i can get into all the classes that i need. that's my ONLY problem. =\
working at the book market was pretty cool. after the first week i really started to get the hang of it and get to know everyone there pretty well. sometimes i miss working with some of the people there, because i could talk to them about whatever was going on. my therapy sessions... and i got paid for it! hehe. i think the hardest part was lifting the boxes and cleaning up books after the kids. omg kids tear through book stores. i will have just cleaned the table and then booooooom ten books on the floor, misplaced, or put back upside down, you name it. they also like to leave their food behind on the table so guess who got to throw it out... ugh.
i had to go back to school on the 31st because my bro needed to move back into riverside. so i moved back to LA at the same time so my parents only need to make one trip. it was a loooooonnnnnnnggggg drive. the sitting was insane. i was asleep through a lot of i-5, and jimjim and noel from the sw msg board kept sending me text messages to keep me entertained. that was pretty nice of them. =) i moved back into my same old room... BUT MY INTERNET REFUSED TO WORK! cindy has no idea what to do... she starts hanging out in the computer lab so she can go online, and then the techs finally look at her room. after two failed cables, i finally was able to get online. oh and i also have a 25 foot long ethernet cable. what i've ALWAYS wanted. hehe! its rolled up behind my computer. hehe. LOL i felt sorry for the tech cuz my computer is just this huge maze of wires. =)
i went back to work at... where else... the front desk. i practically live there. geez. anyways that's what i do practically... work there. go out when i'm not. maybe i'll take up sewing. *grin* lol i'm kidding!