Four Word Letter

I was looking at the leaves
Climbing to the tops of the trees
But you were nowhere to be found,
Just beneath all the green
You were buried like a little seed
Among the roots and underground,
I was licking at the leaves
But i was in short sleeves and you.
You were like some sickness that I caught.
My sweetheart moved away,
Swept off like garbage in the alleyway
I need more grace than I thought.

Brother, I'm far away from everything good!
She's like a hot cloth on a fevered head
And like a needle she leads me
(Well, I follow like thread)
Tie me up!
Untie me!
All this wishing I was dead is geting old...
It goes on but it's old.

I was swimming through the waves
For what must have been day
But could find no relief,
When I started sinking down
I thought for certain I would drown
Until I saw you in the ocean underneath
All the bright colored fish
Tell of a treasure in a dull shell,
"Such subtlely, so easily missed!"
You, my hidden pearl of pure and perfect love
And I'm a living example of 100 percent the oppisite of this,
If I ask the same questions
Well maybe I repeat myself from time to time,
But it's because everyone who answers me is a liar.

She's like a hot cloth on a fevered head
And like a needle she leade me
(Well, I follow like thread)
But you untied me - didn't you untie me, Lord?
And now I haven't even thought about
Killing myself in almost five months.