The song , Never Again is by Justin Timberlake from his lastest album, Justified.

Dedication: This goes to Keax and Jigs... my two partners in crime~

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Its only been only about an hour. You left my house after passing me the spare keys. And yet, I’m still wondering if I did the right thing? Was I actually going be strong enough to face the world on my own? Or should I just have turned a blind eye for the fifth time and hold you in my arms again?

Would have given up my life for you
Guess it's true what they say about love
It's blind
You lied straight to my face
Looking in my eyes
And I believed you 'cause I loved you more than life
And all you had to do
Was apologize…

I love you, Kaede. I would have done anything to keep this, whatever we had, going. I guess I just couldn’t take it anymore. All the lies and deceit. All the rumors and stories going around school. I was never one to listen but… my friends… I know they wouldn’t lie, like you did to me.

I actually defended you, when they told me. I said you must have had you reasons. But then… they told me you had your tongue in his mouth. I tried to hide my tears, the shame and my shattered heart behind my laughter and told them… perhaps it was a dare of some sort. But deep down I was hurting… crying… I even felt like running away, running from you… from him… from everyone.

You didn't say you're sorry
I don't understand
You don't care that you hurt me
And now I'm half the man
That I used to be when it was you and me
You didn't love me enough
My heart may never mend
And you'll never get to love me, again
No, no, no, no, no, no

I ran. To the only thing that I still owned, my home. I locked myself inside. Not wanting any company,
anything to do with the outside world. In my heart, you were still the pure Kitsune. The one I love. I
didn’t want anyone to polluted that image. I poured my heart out, remembering the times you sworn your love to me. You even said we made a good team, the best actually. All the thoughts only brought me back to the horrible truth… that everything was all a lie.

Sadness has me at the end of the line
Helpless watched you break this heart of mine
And loneliness only wants you back here with me
Common sense knows that you're not good enough for me
And all you had to do
Was apologize, and mean it

You came not long after hearing from the team that I was home. I was at the kitchen table, drowning myself with the eighth can of coke. You cupped my face and asked me if I’m ok. You actually looked concerned. Like you really cared. I was all cried up by then so you couldn’t have seen the tears that were shed for you. I didn’t want you to see them anyways.

I pushed your hand away, only to have them back on my face again. You even hugged me. I shoved you off. Not wanting to have anything to do with you. You looked a little shaken. I wanted so much to hold you in my arms and comfort you but I knew I would only be hurting myself in the end.

But you didn't say you're sorry
I don't understand
You don't care that you hurt me
And now I'm half the man
That I used to be when it was you and me
You didn't love me enough
My heart may never mend
And you'll never get to love me

I asked you about him. You remained silence, like you always have. I didn’t need an answer… I knew it was all true. I didn’t need my friends to tell me. I have known it all along, I saw the both of you together.

Laughing and smiling under our favourite tree. I knew everything. I just didn’t want to accept it.

It's like hell I could go back in time
Maybe then I could see how
Forgiveness says that I should give you one more try
But it's too late, it's over now

I told you to leave. You looked at me, hoping that I’ll change my mind. I turned away. I hated those eyes and yet I loved them so much. You apologized and tried to kiss me one last time. I gazed into your eyes and then I knew… you didn’t mean it…I kissed you back… knowing it would be our last.

I felt a tear rolled down you cheek as we kissed. I wondered if it was for me or for him. I wanted so
much… not to let you go and kiss till the end of time but I pulled away. You didn’t seem to mind. Maybe you did? I dunno… I didn’t wish to know. I turned away from you after that… and asked you to leave once more.

You didn't say you're sorry
I don't understand
You don't care that you hurt me
And now I'm half the man
That I used to be when it was you and me
You didn't love me enough
My heart may never mend
And you'll never get to love me
Again

I heard you moving forward, coming closer to me. I closed my eyes, hoping that you would hug me and tell me that everything I’ve seen and heard was just a mistake. At the same time, i hoped that you would just leave and let me be for all the pain you have caused me.

Again, yeah, yeah
Again, again, again, yeah, yeah, yeah
Never get to love me

You stopped at some point. I heard you place the keys you had on the kitchen top, muttered something and gently closed the door behind you. I didn’t cry after you left. Maybe coz I was all out. At that point a part of me wanted to know if you has actually loved me… the other part just didn’t care anymore. Maybe it was better this way, like it should have been all along.

Good bye, Keade.