How do I begin to write things that shouldn't
be written about
How do I begin to describe the indescribable
Emotions flooding my thoughts
Too many to deal with
Losing too many people I Love
Wish I could go to beautiful… India take me!
Gotta be strong now can't let my feelings show
Gotta put them away
I gotta put my wings away for right now
Can't leave yet
Too many depending on me
Pain is killing me
Rotting my bones
Cancerous pain eating away at my very being
Pain cutting me
Making me bleed all over this paper
I keep this pain secret
No point in everybody suffering
Amazing how someone else's death can kill you
India take me with you to beautiful…
Stay wishing that I could leave this vessel
Leave it hollow and soulless
I Love my mothers my brothers my sister my friends
and Tiff
When am I going to Love me!!!!!!!!!!!!!
When am I going to think about myself?
Hard to say goodbye to those you Love especially
to Tiff
But I gotta cut you loose
I Love You but
I also Love my brother
I understand now
I'm not mad
I just can't handle seeing the one woman
I ever Loved being with my brother
Because my Love for both of you I think its
best if I step back and move on with my Life
There's a meaningless relationships out there with
my name written all over it
DAMN!!!!!!!
My blood still spilling on this paper
These words don't even make sense to me at this point
I'm empty like gas tanks on "E"
But that don't mean a thing
Life goes on regardless of my feelings
Anger, Pain, and Frustration are my new friends
Gotta carry them on my back
Don't know how long they gonna be with me
I guess time will tell
I ain't got much of nothin' but time
Still my blood drips all over this paper
Dripping slowly like maple from the tree
I cry waterless tears that stream down my heart
I pray for any who have to feel this pain
Pain worst than surgery without anesthesia
Tried to drop you didn't work
Felt my heart getting loose falling from my chest
It's time for acceptance
What has been broken I can't fix
I'm out of blood to spill on this paper