Believe me here,
believe me now,
when I say to you,
that my love for you,
is so real.
It shall never die,
well not in this heart any way,
but instead grow stronger,
come each and every,
passing day,
we're together.

I long for the moment,
and I think that you do to,
Do you?
When we can finally spend,
the whole night,
in each other's arms.
Yes, I know that's my fault,
for letting others push me about,
but extreme confrontation, yes I do hate.

A little distant I've been,
these past few days, I know,
got some things playing on my mind,
I so long for a good sleep,
but can't.
I need to be able to find,
the right words,
of how I'm feeling,
but they just don't seem,
to want to come to me,
for that way then,
maybe ... just maybe,
you may begin to understand,
that as the inevitable,
edges ever closer,
the worse I become.
The nervousness,
the worries,
the anxiety ...
it all mounts up.

For, will I be good enough,
come the time?
Will I endlessly make mistakes?
Will I be able to cope with the pain?
Or will I just be the whimp, that I am?
So hope not!
Will it be wonderful?
Or will I wreck it all?
That's just for starters.

So ... there, now that you know,
I hope that you'll
bare with me a little
while longer.
Will you?

Written: Tuesday 27 November 2001
Goes with the poem listed in the My Poetry menu, entitled REALITY CHECK.