Just wanted to say,
thanks for what you said to me,
as we chatted last night,
all be it briefly,
but that was yesterday,
now it is today,
and reality's set in,
just kicked me in the behind.
About time to I suppose.

Now as much as I want to
believe what you said,
about you also being scared,
I just can't believe you,
no matter how hard I try.
If you are, I don't really see how,
but it can't be
no where near as bad as I.
For at least you have had
some experience,
even if you say not much,
but it is still way more than I.

So please understand me,
I need more time
time ... why? For what?
That I don't know,
before I take
the next big step
for me ... for us.

I do know that I'll truely
never really be ready.
It's hard to explain in words
but I just some how know
as yet I can't.

Written: Thursday 29 November 2001
Goes with the poem listed in the My Poetry menu, entitled A WRECK.