Another day dies
The darkness swells
And devours my life
As the night closes in
The cold air reaches out
And grabs me...
Beckoning me in
Beckoning me not to let go.
Damned I am
Bound and wound
Destined for a sin
Give me a reason not to
I have nothing left to lose
And my soul
Is already pre-sold
At the stroke of midnight
I'll feel the stroke of the blade
My skin starts to crawl
As the blood starts to flow
And I stake another withdrawal
I start to drown
Too late to counsel
Too late to pray
And I feel the pain
Start to go away
I feel relieved
I feel numb
I feel the thing
That should not be
Is now over and done........
It was me.
~ Dragonspawned 1
nothing can ever please me.
I'm never fulfilled,
it only kills me.
Food has lost its taste,
nothing can break this shield.
This numbness will never end,
I won't allow myself to feel.
Alcohol and pills can control the emotions,
they can numb my brain.
After the drugs are gone,
comes the pain.
~ BrittMiseryWhip5
run out to sea
drinking me dry
and leaving me free
River Red
my dear old friend,
all my sorrows
at last, you mend
River Red
when will I find
the real world
hidden from my mind
River Red
release comes soon
and then i'll rest
beyond the moon
~ Icsk8grrl
I am all alone
I lay quietly, not to make a sound
listening to the noises of our house
I need to sleep, I am so tired
But too scared to close my eyes
My mind it drifts, dont go there!!
Quick!!
Think about food, calories and weight
I am numb, I need to feel pain
I reach over and get my blade
It is cold and smooth
I dont feel anything
Push harder, go deeper
OUCH!!
it hurts, the blood is running down my arm
I cut again and again and again
Just to feel my pain
Relief!!
I finally fall asleep
I wake up, its 6am
I turn over and look out the window
Its daylight, the night is over,
I survived!!
~ imustnotcry
With more battles lost than battles won.
Spending everyday fighting is too hard to bear.
Why can't living my life be like breathing air?
I wish I could do things without having to think
So that everyday things would not make me blink.
Words cannot express what I want to say
Will my life ever not be this way?
My mind is an odd place - a messy ball of string.
There must be a way to unravel everything.
I hate myself - this person I have become.
I'm useless, pathetic and rely on everyone.
I give nothing good to this screwed up earth.
With so many people who suffer, what is life worth?
My problems are tiny compared to many people I know.
They'd be much better off, if I were to just go.
If I step outside to my fantasy world
I feel as vunerable as a hedgehog uncurled.
Spiky or protected - that is the choice.
Both options are rubbish says my little voice.
Right now I'm drowning even though I can swim.
Sometimes I tread water; sometimes I just give in.
Swimming is tiring and something I can do well.
I need someone to teach me but just whom I can't tell.
There are many people who need help more than me.
People who yearn to be the best they can be.
Then there are those who just yearn a bit,
Because they hate themselves so much
they dont think they can do it.
They've ended their life before it has begun
with more battles lost than battles won.
~ Emmaduck
I know you do not care.
You can't handle me.
I am "too much to bear".
I'm sorry to have failed.
I'm sorry I messed up.
I wanted to fit in
But I guess I'm out of luck.
I guess my time is over.
I guess I cannot win.
I have nothing left to say
Congratulations world - you win.
~ unwell84