Fandom: Kyo Kara Maoh
Title: Love is Supposed to be Easier Than This
Written for the KKM Christmas Fic and Art Exchange
Pairings/Characters: Conrad/Shori
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: Um. Smut. Basically canon
through episode 71. Most of the dialogue in the second scene is taken
directly from episode 73. Spoilers for the rest of the
series. I’ll say it again: Spoilers, spoilers, spoilers. Events are
slightly mutated to fit the confines of the story.
Disclaimer: I don’t own them. But damn, I really wish I did.
Original Request: I'd like to see some Conrad/Shouri.
NC17, please. Sideplot is
always lovely, and I'd like to see their relationship develop from more than
just Shouri's stand-offish behaviour
to real trust, without being sappy or angsty. And
please, no replacement!fic.
Conrad should like/fall for Shouri for who he is.
Summary: Shori has issues. Conrad loves him anyway.
Feedback: I am a junkie, feed my addiction. I especially like constructive criticism. If you can find something wrong with one of my stories, tell me so I can fix it. Just let me know anything you think.
Author's notes: Here's one of the presents that I promised Regret. I hope you like it, dear! I wrote this in, like, 15 minutes...I'm sorry in advance for it probably not being up to par. :)
E-mail: moriavis@hotmail.com
~*~
The air was misty, humid and heavy in Shori’s throat
as he sat by the window, watching the reconstruction of Blood Pledge Castle.
His memory of the day before was somewhat obscured—all he could really remember
was the intense power welling up in him, the satisfaction of gaining enough
strength to rival any of the mazoku in the castle, the desire to keep his
younger brother from harm, and his mother, of all things. Shori sighed as his
eyes drifted toward the builders once more, ashamed that he had so easily lost
control over his majutsu. Yuuri might have forgiven him, and Shori was grateful
for that, but there was a large part of him disgusted with his weakness. After
all, according to the stories he’d heard, Yuuri had only used his powers for
the good of those who had been wronged—Yuuri hadn’t gone mad from the strength
of his gifts as Shori had. Shori brooded and stared out the window; the stormy,
wicked-looking sky above Shinou’s temple mirrored his dark mood.
Shori heard the door open and turned toward the entrance, half expecting Greta
to appear and drag him out with the others. Instead of the human girl, however,
Shori’s eyes caught on a beige uniform and calm, assessing brown eyes. Shori
scowled, defensively crossing his arms over his chest. "Yes?" he
asked cautiously; although his animosity toward Weller had cooled a little
since their assault on Shinou’s temple to find the truth behind the seals on
the forbidden boxes, he still found himself uncomfortable and resentful every
time he saw Conrad. After all, Conrad had no magic whatsoever, but he still had
a place by Yuuri’s side, while Shori could do nothing but watch as his younger
brother became someone he wasn’t even sure he knew.
"I came to see how you were doing," Conrad said, unperturbed by
Shori’s abruptness. "You seemed all right at breakfast, but appearances
can be deceiving."
Shori shot Conrad a narrow glare. "I don’t think it’s any of your
business."
Conrad inclined his head, acknowledging that Shori had a point. Shori turned
back to the window, looked at the damaged wing of the castle, and shook his
head. "I still can’t believe I did that. That I lost control."
"No one blames you, Shori," Conrad said.
"I don’t care about that," Shori snapped. Conrad watched him silently
for a long moment, and Shori sighed. "I could have hurt him. I would have
hurt him then, if it could have kept him safe in the future." Having said
a bit more than he intended, Shori shut his mouth, gritting his teeth against
any more conversation.
Conrad came to his side and stared out the window. "His Majesty has
already forgiven you."
Shori barked a bitter laugh. "He forgives too easily."
There was another silence between the two of them. Shori was about to ask what
Conrad was still doing there when the other man spoke. "He trusts so
implicitly that you feel as though you don’t deserve it."
"Sometimes," Shori admitted.
"It is part of what makes him such a good king, that ability to
forgive." Conrad took a breath. "I believe that it is our duty to
strive for his ideals. It’s easy to be kind. It’s easy to care. It’s hard to
forgive yourself."
Shori scoffed, cutting his eyes to the side to look at Conrad. "What would
you know about it?" The embers of his resentment flared up again.
"You’re always by his side. You’re allowed to protect him."
Conrad smiled, a fleeting twist of his lips. "He
forgives too easily," Conrad answered softly, and took a step back.
"We’re almost ready to leave for the temple. Greta wishes to see us
off." He inclined his head and was gone. Shori scowled after him, although
Conrad could not see his expression, and wondered why he felt as though he were
missing something.
*
"What?" Shori exclaimed—he was quite certain he’d heard
incorrectly. "You aren’t still seriously thinking of going through with
this!" Yuuri was giving him the stubborn look that meant he had
heard exactly that. "It’s too dangerous!" he insisted, and looked
around the room for any sort of back up. The shrine maidens were too busy with
their prayers to keep their attention on anything but the boxes, the friend of
his brother was looking carefully concerned (not concerned enough, in Shori’s
opinion), Gwendal was watching him suspiciously (but then, Gwendal always
looked suspicious) and—
"You must trust His Majesty and His Highness!" Gunter was
insisting, trying to placate Shori. Shori didn’t find his blind faith the least
bit reassuring. He wanted to shout that Yuuri was only fifteen, that he was
still a child. He needed to be protected, not led to the slaughter.
"Murata wouldn’t do anything to hurt me!" Yuuri agreed. "I trust
him. Besides, I’m the king. This is my responsibility."
Shori heaved an angry sigh and turned to Conrad. "And you? What do you
think?" He continued without waiting for a response. "You helped me
get into the temple so we could find out what was really going on. Everyone can
see those boxes are dangerous. We need to keep him away from them. Find some
other way."
"I share your concern," Conrad replied thoughtfully. "However, I
have faith in His Majesty, and follow his will." His hand dropped to the
hilt of his sword. "We will keep him safe."
He felt a flush of anger creeping up the back of his neck. "Fine!" he
spat, and folded his arms over his chest. He didn’t care that Yuuri was looking
at him in disappointment (well, he did, but his precious younger brother’s
safety was a much more pressing concern.) "Let’s do this as quickly as
possible."
Yuuri took a deep breath and faced the boxes. After a long moment, Yuuri turned
away and gave them a firm look.
Shori watched Yuuri carefully—as a concerned older brother, it was the least he
could do. "Yuuri."
Yuuri broke into a helpless grin and scratched the back of his head. "So…
what am I supposed to do?"
Shori blinked, and let out an exasperated noise. "Huh? What were you
planning on doing, not even knowing how it’s done?’
Yuuri winced. "Well…"
Murata shook his head. "Now, now…" He turned to Gunter and gently
transferred Ulrike into Gunter’s arms. "Excuse me a bit."
Ulrike continued to watch Murata with worried eyes, and Gunter squeezed her
gently. "It’s all right. If we let His Majesty and His Highness handle
things, it’ll turn out well for sure."
Murata went to Yuuri’s side. "The procedure isn’t that complicated."
Yuuri frowned, confused, and Shori fought the urge to roll his eyes. "Murata?’
"Use your maryoku to compress the barrier that Ulrike and the others
put up."
Yuuri nodded. "So in other words, we’re shoving everything that came out
of the box back in?"
"Right," Murata agreed. "It’s like shoving futons back in the
closet they’re spilling out of and then quickly slamming the door shut."
Yuuri made a face. "That makes it easy to understand, but that analogy
feels too much like housekeeping."
Murata ignored Yuuri as he continued. "Anyway, while Soushu is being held
down, we again surround him with a barrier from above, just like wrapping
things in a piece of cloth."
Yuuri sighed. "We’re not wrapping gifts, either…"
"Even if we can’t completely destroy Soushu, we can at least keep him
trapped for another several thousand years," Murata finished.
Yuuri chewed on his lip thoughtfully. "Right.
But, you know, this doesn’t seem like a permanent solution."
Murata laughed. "Do you think you can defeat Soushu, whom even Shinou
could not defeat back then?"
Yuuri hesitated, "Well…"
Murata shrugged. "Besides, even Morgif, who fought together with Shinou, is
no longer as powerful as he was back then." Morgif groaned a loud protest.
"But still…"
Shori took a step forward. "Yuuri, don’t push yourself too much. If
there’s no other way, then you should focus on doing that for now. Don’t bite
off more than you can chew."
Murata kept his eyes on Yuuri. "Shibuya. Even if
the day comes when the seal weakens again, the Maou of that era will take care
of it somehow."
"So you’re saying that we shouldn’t push it and let this chance go by. All right. I’ll just do everything I can right now."
Yuuri walked up to the field raising his hands, and the boxes sparked with
threat. Shori could feel the power focusing, tingling along his skin. There was
a sharp, crackling sound and Yuuri stumbled away from the boxes, palms stung by
the flood of the boxes’ energy.
"Yuuri!" Shori exclaimed, moving forward
instinctively to support his brother.
"Shori!" Conrad said sternly, and Shori
paused, looking back. "Shori. Leave everything to
Yuuri."
"But…" Shori trailed off at the firm look in Conrad’s eyes. He knew
intellectually that Yuuri was a king and that all of this was his duty, but he
couldn’t help the panic he felt at the thought of Yuuri being hurt. He thought
that Conrad and Wolfram, of them all, would understand, but they were both
strangely calm about the entire proceedings.
"Take your time and stay calm. Concentrate," Murata was saying to
Yuuri.
Shori nodded and took a deep breath. "Keep it up, Yuu-chan. And your friend, too. If only I knew how to use maryoku
properly…" Shori hated feeling so helpless, hated the fact that the most
he could do was cheer them on from the sidelines. He had been given his power
for a reason, and his sheer uselessness only heightened his frustration more.
Gwendal darted a look behind him as Conrad shifted restlessly. "Stay where
you are, Conrad. It’s dangerous for us to approach the boxes."
Conrad glanced at Gwendal, giving him a slight nod. "Yes, I know
that."
The only thing Shori could think about was how horrible the entire situation
was—it was so easy to see. Forbidden boxes! Two of the keys in the same
room! A miasma of energy that was so evil it was visible! In his humble
opinion, you didn’t need to be a genius to know something bad was going on.
Yuuri took a breath and eased forward, pressing Soushu’s energy back.
"Okay. A bit more. Just… a bit more…"
There was a sudden clash of metal behind them, and both Yuuri and Shori turned
at the sound to see Conrad parrying Wolfram’s thrust. "What?" Yuuri
called out in shock. "Wolfram?"
Murata shouted, "Watch out! Shibuya!"
Shori ripped his eyes away from Conrad and Wolfram just in time to see Yuuri
lose control. The murk of the boxes swelled and grew heavy, pushing Yuuri back
yet again.
Conrad blocked another blow from Wolfram. "What has happened to you,
Wolfram? Come to your senses!" Wolfram ignored him, eyes dark and rimmed
red with exhaustion as he struck once more.
"What is he doing?" Shori asked.
Gunter stared at Wolfram and Conrad. "Wolfram…"
Gwendal frowned, forehead wrinkling in disbelief. "Impossible. Don’t tell
me that you’ve been possessed by the miasma, Wolfram."
Ulrike shook her head, horrified and watching Wolfram helplessly. "This
can’t be…"
Yuuri looked back again. "Wolfram… What’s going on?" The boxes gained
in strength abruptly and sent Yuuri flying.
"Yuuri!" Shori shouted as he ran to his
brother. He kneeled next to Yuuri, pressing a hand to his brother’s back. The
miasma flared again, and he glared at Murata. "Hey! Friend of my brother!
What’s the meaning of this?!"
Murata ignored Shori, staring into the nexus of energy as a figure began to
appear. Softly, he said, "So it really was you… "
Shori peered at the boxes. After a long moment, he murmured, "Someone’s
there."
Wolfram rushed at Conrad, pushing him off his feet. Immediately after he
disarmed his brother, Wolfram dropped his sword and stood silently in place, as
though he were a marionette with its strings cut.
Yuuri pulled himself to his feet, stepping away from Shori. "Wolfram!"
"Was he being manipulated by someone?" Shori asked.
Murata leapt to his feet just as the miasma flared brightly, the shockwave of
the energy rolling through the room. Shori wrapped his arms around Yuuri and
grunted as he skidded across the floor, his only thought to keep his brother uninjured.
They came to a stop as they hit a wall, and Shori squinted into the light. The
light finally died, and Shori was surprised to discover that the only person
who remained standing during the onslaught was Wolfram. He felt almost nauseous
with terror. It was hard to believe that they were all so easily defeated,
especially after Weller had promised so firmly to keep his brother safe.
The figure Shori had seen at the nexus of box energy alighted onto the stairs.
It was as substantial as a shadow. At this point, Shori was nearly convinced
that nothing that occurred in this world, and more specifically, this temple,
would surprise him.
Then the shadow talked. "It has been a long time. I have been awaiting this moment for so long." Yuuri pulled away
from Shori as they stared at the shadowy figure. "Now.
It is time for my revival. Come to me, O keys."
A gesture, and tendrils of darkness spilled from the
man’s hand, darting to Conrad and wrapping around him securely. Shori tensed,
torn between wanting to help and needing to keep Yuuri safe.
"Conrad!" Yuuri shouted.
The shadowed man continued quietly, "You, who have inherited the Weller
blood…" He raised his other hand, and looked at Gwendal. "You, who
have inherited the Voltaire blood…" Darkness slid from his hand to rope
tightly around Gwendal.
Shori grabbed Yuuri’s arm, ignoring the way Yuuri tugged frantically against
his grip. "Gwendal! Let them go, you
bastard!"
"Yuuri!" Conrad cried out in warning, but
Yuuri ignored him as well, pulling free of Shori and reaching out to disrupt
the vespers that trapped his retainers. The darkness sizzled and snapped, and
Yuuri cried out in surprise.
"Your Majesty!" Gunter shouted, and pulled
his sword from its sheath in rage, running toward the man who had dared harm
his king. "I will not allow this madness!" Gunter swung his sword in
a wide arc, and grunted as the blade impacted on nothing and pushed him back.
"You dare wield your sword against your true master?" the man asked
mildly.
"What?!" Gunter asked. Shori rested his hand
on Yuuri’s shoulder, his hold tightening as the man looked around the room.
"The time has come. Abide by your pledges and give me the keys that I
entrusted to you."
Yuuri pulled away from Shori and took a step closer. "Conrad!"
Conrad’s eyes were dark with worry as he turned toward Yuuri and shouted,
"No, your majesty!"
Shori scrambled to his feet and hurried after Yuuri, who had ignored Conrad’s
plea and was still trying to save them. "Stay back!" Gwendal
demanded, struggling against his bonds, and Yuuri stopped in his tracks.
"But…"
"Now!" the man gestured once more. Shori’s heart climbed into his
throat as they began to yelled out in pain. He stumbled the few steps to his brother, yanking him backward.
"Stop!" Yuuri screamed, struggling against
Shori. Shori gritted his teeth and hung on, wondering when his brother had
gotten so strong, the only thought in his mind to keep Yuuri safe. He felt a
sharp pang of worry as the shine of the two keys vanished into their boxes,
wondering what that would do to Conrad and Gwendal and hoping against hope that
they still had the opportunity to end it all.
Murata hadn’t moved throughout the entire ordeal, and Shori noted that and
filed it into the back of his head to think about later His ears still rang
from the explosive energy of the boxes and the desperate yells of his brother
and his injured vassals.
Power was flooding into their enemy. "The End of the Wind and the End of
the Land have been opened." He said. "That’s two of them." He
released Conrad and Gwendal without another thought. "Now, come! You, who
have inherited the Bielefelt blood…"
Yuuri twisted to look at Wolfram and yanked hard against Shori’s hands, almost
managing to free himself once more. "Wolfram!"
"Yuuri!" Shori cried desperately.
"Let go, Shori!" Yuuri begged.
Shori shook his head. "No! There’s no way you can defeat him!" Shori
lost his train of thought as he watched Wolfram make his way over to the boxes.
"Good work, my puppet. Your role is over as well." Yuuri screamed
Wolfram’s name as the man reached over and pulled out Wolfram’s heart with
almost no effort at all, black steam pouring from the point of contact. The man
glanced at it before sending it to the third box. "That makes three."
The man said almost conversationally, and began to take a clear form. Shori
could see the blond hair and ice blue eyes, and he frowned, almost positive he
had seen this man before. "In the Frozen Soil of Hellfire has also been
opened." They all stared hopelessly at him.
"Shinou…" Murata whispered, and Yuuri twitched. Shori remembered the
portraits he’d seen in the halls of Blood
Pledge Castle,
and he inhaled sharply.
"Your Majesty Shinou…" Ulrike said in a
tremulous, disbelieving voice.
"We meet again at last, my Great Sage," Shinou said to Murata.
"Will you not rejoice now that we’ve finally been reunited after several
thousand years?"
"So it really was you," Murata murmured, unperturbed at the fact that
a literal ghost from his past was standing before him.
"It’s good that we can speak directly to each other," Shinou said
fondly, and looked down at his hand. "Oh. I’m still not whole. The last
one is… Erhard."
He glided toward Yuuri, and Shori pulled his younger brother back, eyes firmly
on Shinou as he retreated. "Stay back." He warned. Morgif groaned an
angry sound in agreement.
Shinou looked at Morgif as he advanced. "Have you forgotten your true
master as well, Morgif?"
Morgif blinked and wailed in confusion. Shori and Yuuri withdrew two more steps
as Shinou raised his hand. Shori was already calculating the space between them
multiplied by how fast Shinou attacked against their tactical retreat minus
Yuuri’s absolute refusal to leave anyone behind when Conrad and Gwendal planted
themselves solidly in front of them as a barrier against Shinou.
"Conrad!" Yuuri cried desperately. "Gwendal!"
Shinou eyed the two of them coldly. "I no longer need the two of
you." He waved his hand and shoved them out of his way with his magic.
"The one I need is…" Shinou fixed his eyes on Yuuri once more and
stalked forward.
"Now!" Murata shouted. "Josak!"
Josak pushed through the shrine doors and ran forward, passing Yuuri and Shori.
Shori’s jaw dropped. " Leave it to me!"
Josak somersaulted through the air and landed on a tile that sank beneath his
weight. Shori blinked as water cascaded around Shinou.
"What’s going on?" Yuuri asked blankly.
"Even he won’t be able to get out of that barrier so quickly!" Murata
announced. "Hurry up and run!" Shori prodded
his brother, acknowledging the opportunity that Murata had given them, even if
he didn’t trust him.
"But…" Yuuri hesitated.
Shori was tempted to throw Yuuri over his shoulder, but settled for a scowl
instead. "Just do as your friend says for now!" He yanked at Yuuri
again, and breathed a sigh of relief as Yuuri finally followed him He had to
get Yuuri to safety. Everything else could wait.
*
It wasn’t until they were all safely back at Blood
Pledge Castle
that everything began to sink in. They had all almost died. Wolfram’s heart had
stopped. They had failed miserably, and one of their own had paid the ultimate
price.
Greta had planted herself at Wolfram’s bedside, searching his face for any sign
of life with worried and tearful eyes. They were all gathered anxiously, and
Shori was alternately angry at his own weakness and relieved that he wasn’t
spending this stressful time alone. He couldn’t understand why they were all
here—it only made sense for a couple of people to be watching Wolfram. The rest
of them needed to think about a plan regarding Shinou, because as long as he
was around, Yuuri was still in danger.
He looked over at Conrad, and scoffed. Conrad glanced at him warily. "You
said you’d protect him," Shori said bitterly. "You can’t even protect
your own brother. It was stupid of me to think you people were strong enough to
rely on."
"That isn’t fair, Shori," Yuuri protested, tearing his eyes from
Wolfram long enough to give Shori a disappointed glance. "Conrad and
everyone have always protected me. It’s my fault this happened…" He looked
at Wolfram. "If I could have held out against Shinou and the boxes, it
would’ve been okay."
Yuuri stopped talking as Gisela entered the room. She bowed and took a place at
Wolfram’s side. "I got here as soon as I could," she said, and closed
her eyes, placing her hands over Wolfram’s heart as she began to glow. Dark
energy sparked off of Wolfram’s body, and Gisela winced, turning miserable eyes
to Yuuri. "I can’t heal him. There’s a dark aura around him that won’t
allow me to use my maryoku. I’m sorry."
Greta’s bottom lip trembled, and Yuuri hugged her close, fighting his own
sadness.
Just then, Anissina breezed in. "The solution is simple, Your
Majesty," Anissina said smoothly, and Yuuri gave her a perplexed look.
"We’ll put him into suspended animation. I guarantee there won’t be any
lasting harm, and he’ll remain the same until we figure out how to cure him.
Gunter’s quite familiar with the device I’m speaking of." Anissina frowned
as she turned to Gwendal. "But what’s wrong with your eye?" She
grabbed Gwendal’s face and turned it as she stared at him. "Ah, yes, you
were a key. So I take it that this means…" She let go of Gwendal’s chin
and turned to prod at Conrad’s arm. Shori felt a flash of guilt as he realized
that he hadn’t even noticed their handicaps. "I suppose there’s nothing I
can do about any of this yet," Anissina decided with a small sigh.
"But make sure you’re available for tests! I know I can make a wonderful
invention that can assist you."
Conrad shook his head, his eyes remaining fixed on Wolfram’s body. Gwendal took
a measured step away from her.
"Conrad?" Yuuri said hesitantly, and Conrad straightened, waiting for
him to continue. "Did you know he was a key?"
Conrad frowned and remained silent. Shori narrowed his eyes.
"It’s my fault," Celi said with a sigh, brushing back strands of
Wolfram’s hair from his forehead. "When I discovered that both Conrad and
Gwendal were keys, I thought that there might be a chance Wolfram was one as
well. I thought that it would be a coincidence."
"It wasn’t a coincidence," Murata stated. "The three keys had
been decided a long time ago."
"Then… then why didn’t anyone say anything?" Yuuri wondered. "If
everyone knew he was a key, then why…?"
"Wolfram didn’t seem to realize that he was a key," Celi said,
"and I thought that it would be better if he never knew…" She
sniffled delicately and brushed tears from her cheeks.
"I think you should tell us the truth now, friend of my brother,"
Shori said, fixing his eyes on Murata. "I’m tired of all these omissions
and half-truths."
Murata turned his head toward Yuuri, his glasses glinting in the torchlight.
"I want to know the truth as well, Murata." Yuuri agreed.
"Please."
Murata sighed and pushed his glasses up his nose. He spoke calmly and with the
barest of inflections. "It was peaceful for a very long time, but the
threat of war always loomed over us. There was a period of time when war with
the humans seemed more of a possibility than ever before. Shinou was ill and
unable to continue several of his duties." Murata clasped his hands behind
his back. "I discovered that Shinou had been infected with Soushu’s dark
energies, and that one day, Shinou would become like the very enemy we had
struggled so hard to win against. So we came up with a plan to keep Shinou’s
soul safe and protected in the shrine, and we would separate the boxes in order
to prevent Shinou’s possession from being completed. That’s why one of the
boxes was sent to earth. But now that we have all four boxes assembled, it appears
that Soushu’s power has taken over Shinou completely."
"If that’s true," Yuuri said, "then our enemy is Shinou
himself."
"It’s not completely hopeless," Shori said. "He only got three
keys. He isn’t omnipotent—we can still win."
"Your Majesty," Gunter said softly, "I did find something. If you would wait a moment?" Gunter left the room; when
he came back, he was carrying a small leather-bound book. "I found this in
a hidden compartment in the library," he confessed. "From what I’ve
read so far, I believe it might be the journal of Erhard von Wincott. It might
provide information we could use against Shinou."
"Good," Yuuri nodded vigorously and stood. "I want to go fight
him right now! There’s too much at stake to wait around for him to strike
first!"
Conrad stepped forward. "I will go with you."
Josak smirked at Yuuri and crossed his arms. "I’m going, too. I just can’t
pass up the opportunity to kick Shinou’s ass."
Shori found Josak’s enthusiasm infectious. On one hand, his brother would be
going directly into certain danger, again. On the other, now that they knew
what they were facing, the outcome could potentially be much better. However,
Gwendal’s sight was now impaired, and Conrad’s arm was altogether useless. No
matter which way you looked at it, it was all a mess. "Yuu-chan, I want to
go, too."
"Shori?" Yuuri said, a small frown tilting
the corners of his mouth down. "I don’t think that’ll be a good idea. You
can’t control your magic, and you can’t fight."
"I’m not completely useless!" Shori insisted, feeling as though he
were begging.
"I want you to stay here, Shori. Okay?"
"No, it’s not okay!" Shori glared at Yuuri and gestured toward Conrad
and Gwendal. "You’re letting them go! I’m not injured—I want to go,
too."
"It’s my decision, Shori," Yuuri declared. "I want you here.
Please."
Shori heaved out an angry breath and crossed his arms, leaning against the
wall. "I’ll tell Mom," he said mulishly. It was the prerogative of an
older brother—if you weren’t allowed to do what you wanted, at the very least
you could make your brother’s life difficult at home.
Yuuri blanched and grimaced. "That’s not fair!" He shook his head.
"Fine, then. You stay here, and you can tell Mom whatever you want."
Shori scowled. Gwendal gave Yuuri a small nod and left the room without a word.
Murata gave Yuuri a considering look. "Are you sure you know what you’re
doing?"
"Of course!" Yuuri said, nodding firmly.
"I don't care if the one there is Soushu or Shinou… maybe this way I can
save Wolfram. No." His eyes darkened, and he continued seriously, "I
will definitely save Wolfram."
Gisela smiled warmly at the king’s determination, bowed to him, and left with
Gunter.
Anissina planted her hands on her hips. "We should get Wolfram in place.
Any volunteers?"
"I got him," Josak announced. Conrad looked wistfully at his brother
as Josak picked him up. He slipped into his usual position just behind Yuuri
and followed them out of the room.
Shori sighed and ran a hand through his hair, cutting his eyes to the side to look
at Ulrike, who was watching him serenely. He had forgotten she was even in the
room.
Ulrike stood and folded her hands before her. "I believe you can regain
control over your Maryoku, Shori-sama. Please allow
me to help you."
Shori stared at her. "If it will allow me to protect
Yuuri." He paused. "Please."
Ulrike smiled. "I’m a little tired right now. Could I rest for a bit
before we begin?" Shori remembered that she and the other shrine maidens
had been the ones keeping the boxes under control for so long in the first
place and nodded quickly, embarrassed at his thoughtlessness.
"If you’ll excuse me," he fumbled for the words and made a quick
escape.
*
Shori found himself pacing the length of his room, searching for a way to burn
his nervous energy. He didn’t trust himself to practice with his maryoku
without supervision, so that was out until Ulrike felt strong enough. Everyone
seemed to be in a flurry of activity, either preparing for the second trip to
Shinou’s temple or struggling with the upkeep in the middle of everything. He
felt bored, useless, and weak, as he’d felt almost the entire time he’d been
here in his brother’s world. It didn’t work to make his mood any better.
There was a knock at the door. Shori didn’t bother granting entrance. Instead
of Ulrike, whom he’d been expecting, it was Conrad again. Shori didn’t
appreciate the mirroring circumstances from earlier that morning. "What do
you want?" he snapped.
Conrad remained silent and watched Shori pace until Shori sighed and faced the
soldier. "What?"
Conrad looked out the window. "They’re putting Wolfram into suspended
animation. In this state, I’m not exactly helpful."
Shori gave Conrad an exasperated look. "And yet, look who gets to stay
behind."
Conrad took a breath and paused. After a long moment, he exhaled. "I just
wanted to say—"
"I’m not interested in what you have to say," Shori said, and tossed
himself into an armchair next to the fireplace.
"We will protect him for you," Conrad stated softly.
Shori ignored Conrad’s words. "Don’t say it again. I don’t want you to
have another opportunity to lie." Conrad lowered his head. Conrad’s
acceptance of Shori’s words made him want to lash out even more. "You’re a
coward, Conrad," Shori said. Conrad’s head whipped up, and Shori was
pleased at the mixed emotion etched in his features. "I think you hide
behind your duty and do everything Yuuri says because you’re afraid of
contesting him when he’s wrong. It’s like you can’t bear to disagree with him.
That’s not bravery or loyalty. It’s just…" Shori shook his head.
"Maybe you’re right." Conrad walked over to him. "Does that
change anything?"
Shori shrugged. "Not really."
"Yuuri only wants to keep you safe," Conrad said.
"That isn’t his job," Shori snapped. "I should be keeping him
safe. You could all die, and I’d be stuck here at this castle waiting to be
murdered."
"In which case, I would regret it if I didn’t do this."
Shori hadn’t realized that Conrad was so close until Conrad hooked his fingers
beneath Shori’s jaw, tilted his head up, and kissed him.
It lasted exactly six beats. Shori could count it because his heart thudded in
his ears exactly six times. The rim of his glasses pressed into his cheek, and
he could see Conrad’s eyelashes because his eyes hadn’t closed. Conrad’s mouth
was warm and a little chapped, and then Shori pulled away.
"What did you do that for?" Shori asked, and Conrad just watched him
calmly.
"Was that brave enough for you?" Conrad asked quietly. "Or
should I be braver?"
Shori was flushed, light-headed and breathless: all incipient signs of a panic
attack. He pushed Conrad away and bolted out of the chair. "I can’t
believe you."
"I apologize," Conrad said. "I know your world has
certain—"
Shori narrowed his eyes and looked defiantly at Conrad. "I’m not
Yuuri."
Conrad blinked. "I beg your pardon?"
"Just… just because you can’t have him," Shori’s voice wavered,
"…and he’s preoccupied with Wolfram, that doesn’t mean I can be some sort
of… of convenient substitute."
Conrad took a step back and he tilted his head, studying Shori. "I think
you’ve misunderstood."
"What is there to understand?" Shori asked. "You obviously
don’t go from arguing to… to that unless there’s a reason."
Conrad’s eyes warmed. "I have one."
"A good reason," Shori amended, taking another step back. The longer
Conrad spent looking at him like that, the younger he felt. It was making his
skin crawl. They stared at each other for a while, neither making a move to
diffuse the tension. Eventually, Conrad inclined his head politely and headed
for the door.
Shori’s heart leapt and he took a step forward. "Conrad."
Conrad turned around so fast that his scabbard hit him in the back of the knee.
"Yes?"
The words stuck in his throat. "Keep him safe for me."
An unreadable emotion flickered over Conrad’s face, and he nodded once before
leaving.
*
By the time Ulrike showed up for his lessons, Shori had almost convinced
himself that the kiss was a product over his overtired and extraordinary
imagination, and that’s all there was to it. Then he got irritated at himself
for thinking that he was deluded when he knew very well that if anyone were
having issues, it was obviously Conrad Weller, not Shori Shibuya.
He struggled for control over his maryoku, pausing only once when he watched
Yuuri leave for Shinou’s temple. "How fast can this be done?" he
asked Ulrike.
"It can’t be rushed, Shori-sama," Ulrike
said gently. "You must be calm." Shori, however, didn’t see that
happening fast enough to suit him. He was a genius—he was going to be the youngest
governor in years; he should be able to do something as basic as move water out
of the basin in front of him. "Do you think Shinou is really against
us?" Ulrike asked.
Shori stared out the window as he thought, and finally shrugged. "I don’t
know what I could say about Shinou, but I don’t trust the friend of my brother
at all."
*
Several hours of intensive study later, Shori was able to manipulate the water
a little, although it wasn’t near enough to keep up with his exacting standards
and basically useless if he were to attempt to save Yuuri with his maryoku. He
put his hands in front of him, concentrating his will and forming shapes in the
liquid.
The sound of horses clattered into the courtyard, and Ulrike got up to look out
the window. She gasped, and Shori lost his concentration, the water spilling
back into the bowl.
"What is it?" he asked.
"His Majesty and His Highness aren’t with them!" Ulrike wrung her
hands. "I must find out what happened!"
Yu-chan and his friend were… Shori blinked, and
several questions that had been bugging him since the whole situation began
fell into place. He held out a hand to prevent her from leaving. "You
can’t go. I need you to practice."
"But His Majesty is—"
"I know that!" Shori exclaimed. "But we—I can’t do anything for
him if he’s already gone! I need to be stronger! I need to save him. I can’t do
this without you. I need to master my maryoku." He looked down at the
basin, hands clenching in frustration. "Am I the only one who thinks
what’s going on isn’t normal?"
"What do you mean?’ Ulrike asked.
"Haven’t you ever wondered about any of this?" Shori sighed. "I
was suspicious from the beginning. Why was Yuuri, of all people, chosen to be
the Maou of this kingdom? And the forbidden boxes.
They were all lost for thousands of years, and in months Yuuri
managed to rediscover all of them?" He rubbed a hand through his
hair. "Yuuri’s best friend just happens to be the reincarnation of the
Great Sage?" He looked at Ulrike as he delivered his final point. "It
wasn’t a coincidence that Gwendal, Conrad, and Wolfram were keys. Shinou has
betrayed all of you, and I’d bet his Great Sage knew every step of the way. You
are all so used to slavishly following his orders that you don’t even notice an
obvious set-up." He turned back to the basin and pummeled the water with
his maryoku.
"I still believe in Shinou," Ulrike said, squeezing her hands
together so tightly her knuckles turned white. "I’ve been at his temple
for so long, and he has always spoken to me with a kind voice."
"Believe in him all you want, it doesn’t change the fact that he’s
responsible for all of this. I must save Yuuri." He thought of
Conrad and his quiet declaration to protect Yuuri. The anger he expected didn’t
come, just a leaden disappointment that lined his stomach and made him feel
ill.
Shori simply didn’t know what had happened, and now he didn’t have the luxury
of the time to find out. He felt a sudden kinship with the supporting
characters of the anime his friends always watched—it was so difficult living
off-screen; you missed far too much of the story.
*
It was dark when Shori finally mastered his maryoku. The castle had been in an
uproar all day, with the keys being returned to their owners and Wolfram waking
up (the best news that he’d heard), and the dolls reappearing around the
kingdom. It was only a matter of time until they made their way to Blood
Pledge Castle.
He looked out the window and saw a sea of darkness marching toward them. Shori
hated those dolls. They were creepy as all hell. He wondered how Bob and his
parents were doing—if the dolls were showing up in Shinma
koku again, there was a good chance they were also
coming through the lake.
"I’ve got it," he told Ulrike. "You should rest."
Ulrike raised a hand to her forehead and swayed. Shori hurried to her side. "Ulrike!"
"I’m all right," she said. "We need to continue."
"I think I understand," Shori comforted her. "I can do
this." He led her to the bed and left the room to find Gwendal. He would
not be left behind this time. He found Gwendal, Conrad, Wolfram, Huber, and
Josak in the war room, arguing about how they were going to manage the rescue
operation.
"Excuse me," he said, and Gwendal glanced at him. "Ulrike and I
can help get you to Shinou’s temple."
"Yuuri wanted you to stay out of harm’s way," Conrad protested.
Shori gave Conrad a level look. "I’ve mastered my maryoku, and my brother
has been possessed by Shinou. I’m not useless, and I have a right to be there
by his side." He turned to Gwendal. "Now that you three are back to
normal, there’s no reason why we shouldn’t easily make it to the temple. I swear
I can do this."
Josak shrugged. "It would be useful to have another person."
Conrad looked like he wanted to protest again, but sighed instead. "His
maryoku is powerful," he agreed.
Gwendal steepled his fingers in
front of him. "I’m listening."
Shori nodded. "All right. Ulrike and I aren’t
very good at riding, so we’ll need a carriage. I was thinking about a bridge…"
*
Shori had absolutely no idea how people managed to stay so
calm before a battle. His palms were sweaty, his stomach was cramped, and he’d
cleaned his glasses five times in the last three minutes. The women of the
castle were shutting all the doors against the encroaching dolls and the
soldiers were all on standby, but the next part of the plan weighed heavily on
him and his newfound control over his maryoku.
"Are you ready?" Conrad asked him. He stopped at Shori’s side and
watched the scene before them. Soldiers all around them were pulling out their
swords and readying themselves against the dolls. Shori estimated that he
probably had about two minutes before they were reached and the battle began.
"After this, we need to talk," He said to Conrad. This was a bad time
to mention it, considering that he didn’t even really know how he felt about
Conrad in the first place and probably wouldn’t have made plans to confront any
of it if he weren’t facing almost certain death, but he couldn’t retract the
words once they’d slipped past his lips.
Conrad looked at him and nodded. "Yes."
Then it was time, and Shori allowed his power to well up inside of him and
explode out. The dragons, he decided, were really much more aesthetically
pleasing than the giant hand he had used before, and he felt a glow of pride as
it all merged together to form the bridge they needed. After that, it was a
blur of colors and sounds; it would have been overwhelming if he hadn’t been
focusing so completely on his maryoku. They made their way to the temple, dolls
growing heavier in numbers and more difficult to defeat every step of the way.
Ulrike’s maryoku flared out from her hands, and she called out, "Everyone!
I’ll hold them back. Go to the temple and find His Majesty!"
Conrad grabbed his arm and tugged him along, and if Shori hadn’t been so
grateful that he wasn’t left behind, he would have been upset that Conrad
thought he needed babysitting.
The first thing Shori felt when he saw Yuuri and Murata in the courtyard of
Shinou’s temple was pure relief. Yuuri wasn’t injured. Everything would be
fine.
"Yuuri!" Wolfram called out, and would have
gone to him if Conrad hadn’t stopped him.
"That isn’t Yuuri, Wolfram," Conrad said.
"What did you do to my brother?" Shori asked Murata, his relief
replaced by anger and fear.
Murata shrugged, his glasses hiding his eyes. "I only watched over
him."
Shori took a step forward. "Give Yuuri back!"
"It’s too late," Murata said softly. "It’s Shinou’s body
now."
Wolfram shook his head frantically. "No, I don’t believe this. Yuuri!"
Shinou raised his arm and Shori jumped forward just in time to activate a
shield to protect them. It wasn’t Yuuri, it was Shinou. All Shori had to
remember was that distinction. It wasn’t his brother he was going to hurt.
"Can you kill him?" Murata asked mildly, still perched on the rock
behind Yuuri.
Shori’s attack did absolutely nothing, and he stared at Shinou in a daze.
"You’re… Yuuri?"
Wolfram clenched his hands into fists. "Are you saying we have to kill
Yuuri? I can’t do it. I can’t hurt him."
Murata laughed. "Then Shinou wins. He’ll dominate the world."
"Then it doesn’t matter who he is…" Gwendal pulled his sword.
"Big brother!" Wolfram protested. "We
can’t do this! It’s Yuuri!"
"It must be done." Gwendal and Huber charged toward Shinou. Shinou
smirked, their attacks bouncing harmlessly off of him. He sent them flying with
a wave of his hand. Conrad stalked ahead and pulled his sword.
"Conrad!" both Shori and Wolfram yelled.
He continued to walk resolutely forward. "I’m thinking of Yuuri, and I
know he would do this. He would put everyone’s well-being ahead of his own. I’m
not giving up. I’ll get him back. For all of us."
Shinou frowned. "I don’t think I like the way you’re looking at me."
The last unopened box floated behind him. "I’ll show you something that
will change that steadfast expression." He smiled. "What do you think
would happen if this box was opened?"
Wolfram frowned. "We don’t know what the key is for that."
"We don’t," Shori responded. "But I think that he
does."
"The key for the fourth box," Shinou continued. "Is
Lady Suzanna Julia." He clenched his hand
above the box, his nails biting into his palm. Conrad froze. "This body is
now the key." A small trickle of blood dripped down his fist, and they all
watched helplessly as a ruby drop fell and hit the box.
There was an explosion of dark energy as Soushu’s power was restored
completely. When the dust had cleared, Shinou was still standing before them
unharmed and now near-invincible. He smirked.
"Julia…" Conrad whispered, his face
completely open in shock.
"This is what she died for?" Huber wondered.
Shori couldn’t help but stare, silent and open-mouthed, at how well-planned
this entire thing had been. If it hadn’t involved his family, he might have
been impressed. "You waited so long, and for what?"
At that moment, the pendant that Shori had grown used to seeing on Yuuri
materialized on Shinou’s chest and began to glow painfully bright. They all
stared dumbly at it until they were distracted by a whistling sound above them.
Shori jumped back in surprise as Gunter and Dacascos
fell from the sky to land in front of them. "What the hell?" he
gasped.
"Oh!" Dacascos wailed. "I thought I
was going to die!"
"Gunter!" Wolfram cried. "Morgif! What
about Morgif?"
"Morgif is.." Gunter looked up, and they all
followed his eyes to the dark, threatening sword above them.
Shinou looked at Morgif, and Murata moved for the first time, jumping off his rock
and watching Yuuri hopefully. "Now, Shibuya! Fulfill
the wish that Shinou has carried for the past 4,000 years! Please, Shibuya.
Free him."
Shori blinked. "Am I the only one completely confused?" He was
completely ignored as Shinou grasped Morgif.
Shinou stopped and shook his head, his forehead creasing in confusion. Slowly,
his expression cleared. "You’re right, Murata. I can’t give up." He
turned to look at Conrad and Wolfram, and smiled. "I’m sorry I worried you
guys."
"Yuuri, you wimp!" Wolfram yelled, although
it was clear in his eyes he was happy to see him, "You’re so hard to keep
track of! You should think about your poor fiancé when you’re running around
and getting possessed by ghosts!"
"I’m sorry, I’m sorry," Yuuri said apologetically.
"Yuu-chan," Shori said, and smiled along with the others in relief.
"Hey, Conrad, are you and Gwendal okay?" Yuuri asked.
"Yes, Your Majesty," Conrad answered.
Gwendal took a step forward and frowned. "Behind you… is that
Shinou?"
Yuuri jumped back, and they all stared at the dark shadow behind him. The
pendant was in the center of the cloud of darkness, intensely bright despite
its surroundings.
"You were able to expel him?" Gwendal continued, and shot Yuuri an
approving look.
"I think so," Yuuri said uncertainly. He turned to Murata.
"Murata, what exactly is Soushu anyhow? Will you tell me?"
Murata sighed, scratching the back of his head. "Even when we fought it,
we weren’t able to understand. Soushu is something that has the suffering and
pain of the world. That’s why it gets into people’s hearts so easily, and why it’s so hard to defeat. Shinou thought that
if we could find a container for it, it might not—"
Shori frowned. "So, Yuuri was the holder?"
Murata shook his head. "No. Shinou’s soul was what contained Soushu. Yuuri
was chosen to be the one to accept Shinou’s soul, and become the strongest Maou
to ever rule Shinma koku."
Gwendal shook his head. "It seems that everything was planned from the
very beginning."
"I wasn’t sure if it was going to work, but…" Murata turned to Yuuri.
"Shibuya, you have to save him."
Yuuri grinned. "I guess I can’t let you down, can I?" Dolls filtered
into the courtyard, but Shori ignored them as he stared at his brother.
"Shori!" Shori turned at the sound of his
name just as Conrad destroyed a doll that had been about to attack him.
"I don’t need you to protect me!" Shori yelled, startled.
"Then protect yourself!" Conrad answered, and cut down another enemy.
Shori scowled and struck at two dolls with his maryoku, sending them crumbling
to the ground. He managed to get three more before Yuuri made a triumphant
sound and the dolls collapsed. Shori spared the mutilated dolls the barest of
glances before looking back to his brother. Yuuri smiled at everyone, and Shori
wondered if that meant it was over.
Shinou appeared before them, and Shori took a step back, bumping into Conrad,
who placed a comforting hand on his shoulder.
Shinou smiled gratefully at Yuuri. "Thank you, Yuuri. I’m glad I chose
you." Yuuri rubbed a bashful hand over his face as Shinou turned to
Murata. "I gave you a lot of pain."
"I made a promise," Murata said with a smile. "It was my duty to
fulfill your wishes. Now that it’s over though, I can forget my memories as the
Great Sage."
"If I’m reborn," Shinou said, "I have a feeling that we’ll meet
once again."
Murata gave him a respectful nod. "I can’t watch over you anymore, but it
would be nice." Shinou smiled at Murata and vanished. Murata looked out
over the courtyard. "Where’s Ulrike?"
"She was fighting—" Shori began, but was interrupted as Ulrike made
her way into the entrance. She looked heartbroken.
"I’m here!" Ulrike called out, her voice strong despite her sad
expression.
"Shibuya," Murata turned to Yuuri. "It’s time for us to
go."
"What?" Yuuri said uncertainly.
"Now that Shinou is gone," Ulrike replied, "This is the last
chance we’ll have to send you between dimensions." She raised her hands,
closing her eyes in concentration. A large portal appeared.
"This is…" Yuuri looked around at his friends desperately.
"This is the last of his strength," Murata confirmed.
Shori took a breath as understanding struck him. "I see. It’s thanks to
Shinou’s power that we can go between dimensions, and when that power
disappears…"
"If we don’t take this chance," Murata said. "We might never get
back to earth."
"But!" Yuuri said. "What is… I mean, how…?"
This is the last time, Shori thought, and glanced at Conrad, who was watching
Yuuri. It looked like they wouldn't have that talk after all.
"Go, Yuuri!" Wolfram cried. "Your family is waiting for you. Do
you want to make your parents sad?"
"No, but—" Yuuri trailed off. "Wolfram…"
"My fiancé is not so cruel!" Wolfram insisted. "Go!"
"It’s your decision," Shori said abruptly as he watched his brother
grow increasingly desperate. "If you want to stay, then
stay. I won’t force you to come back." He briefly considered staying
himself, but he shook the idea away. There wasn’t anything for him here anyway
except his ability to use maryoku. He looked at Conrad again and reached out a
hand, hesitating briefly before he pulled it back and went to stand next to the
portal.
"I really love Shinma koku,"
Yuuri said. "At first I didn’t think I’d be a good king, but… I’m happy
here."
"Leave it to us," Gwendal said, smiling softly.
Josak ruffled his hair. "I really liked you, kiddo."
Huber bowed. "I will never forget your mercy, Your Majesty."
Yuuri looked at Conrad uncertainly. Conrad said, "Even if you go to a far
away place, I’ll continue to watch over you for as long as I live." His
eyes flickered over to Shori, and he clearly read the message there: Keep
him safe for me. Shori accepted the silent request with a nod of his
head—it was his duty in the first place. He would be the only one on earth who
could take care of Yuuri now. He had won against Shinma
koku and the strange devotion Yuuri and his kingdom
shared.
He wondered why it felt like such a hollow victory.
Yuuri smiled at them a final time and turned toward the portal. "See
you." Wolfram screamed Yuuri’s name as they walked toward the portal.
Yuuri didn’t turn around. "Farewell," he said, and vanished to earth.
I’m ready, Shori thought as he and Murata followed. If there was one good thing
about being a supporting character, it was this: They didn’t have to say
good-bye.
*
After that, everything returned to normal. Yuuri played baseball and rode his
bike and did things a normal teenager should do.
Shori continued his internship with Bob, played his dating sims and continued college. Bob asked him why he was
still studying so hard to be the Maou of earth when the reason he first
accepted was superfluous. Shori thought about the silent promise he made to
Conrad and replied that his will to protect Yuuri hadn’t changed, and that Bob
should be satisfied with that.
Sometimes he would see Yuuri looking wistfully at the fountain in the park, and
he wondered if his brother had made the right choice.
Sometimes he thought about what Conrad would have done if he had kissed him
back, and wondered if he could have made a better one.
*
It was the middle of summer when Shori decided he needed a new dating sim to entertain himself, and he went to the gaming store
to scope out the newest releases. He found a yaoi
game shelved incorrectly with the normal dating sims and picked it up. He flipped it over to look at
the back out of curiosity and was struck by a character drawn with warm brown
eyes.
"Oh!" The sales girl exclaimed. Shori jumped guiltily. "You come
in here so often—I was wondering when you’d get curious about BL!"
"No, I wasn’t—this character," he pointed to the cover, "It
just… reminded me of someone, that’s all." He shook his head and set the
game down. Picking up a BL game because it reminded him of Conrad Weller just
told him that he was going insane. The next step would be staring off into
space heaving wistful sighs and having sweaty, indecent dreams. Shori didn’t
want to do either. "Never mind. I don’t think I
want to get a game today. I’ll buy a couple over the weekend."
Shori left the store and headed back home. It was crazy to think like this,
especially when he wouldn’t ever see the other man again. It was quite possible
that he was thinking like this because he wouldn’t ever see the other
man again.
He was just about to go up the stairs to his room when Yuuri and Murata burst
through the front door. He turned around to yell at them about running through
the house when he caught sight of Yuuri’s smile, and felt his mouth move into
an answering smile. "You went back, didn’t you?"
Yuuri glowed. "How did you know?"
Shori rolled his eyes. "I’m your brother. I know this stuff." His
hand tightened on the banister. "How is… everyone?"
Murata laughed. "They’re all fine." He shot Shori an amused look as
he went into the kitchen. "Conrad misses you, too."
Shori scowled. "That’s none of your business, friend of my brother."
He headed up to his room, and as he closed his door, he heard Yuuri exclaim,
"Why would Conrad miss Shori?"
Shori opened the door and shouted down to Yuuri, "I’m going with you next
time!"
*
Shori inhaled water and coughed as he broke the surface of the fountain in the
courtyard of Shinou’s temple, Yuuri sputtering next to him. He could see the
blurry lines of Wolfram and Conrad waiting for them and climbed out of the fountain,
stumbling to a stop before Conrad as he pulled off his glasses to shake the
water off. "We need to talk," he blurted out.
Conrad smiled fondly and tilted his head. "All right.
Perhaps you should get into dry clothing first."
"And have dinner!" Yuuri said enthusiastically. "I’m starving!"
"Yes," Shori agreed, his sudden enthusiasm dampening. "Of course."
Drying off and having dinner before speaking to Conrad about whatever was going
on between them had been the original plan, but after dinner Greta wanted to
play catch with him, and after Greta got tired, Anissina claimed him as her
assistant for her inventions, and after he managed to free himself from Anissina’s clutches, Gunter cornered him in the hallway to
gush about how wonderful it was that they were both in Shinma
koku once again and that he hoped that now that the
boxes were dealt with there would be a new era of companionship between the two
worlds.
It was late when Shori finally managed to make his way to his room, and he
barely had the energy to change into his pajamas before sleep claimed him.
*
It was the last day of his visit when Shori began to suspect that Conrad might
be avoiding him. Conrad was always just leaving the room Shori was entering; he
was busy helping Gwendal with affairs of the state; he was playing baseball in
the field with Yuuri.
It was sheer luck that he stumbled onto Conrad when he did—Shori was
exasperated with the entire thing and had gone outside to brood, and found
Conrad training his regiment. After a moment of contemplation, he set himself
out of the way and proceeded to watch him. Conrad was friendly with his
soldiers, but kept himself distanced enough to maintain a clear chain of
command. He listened to concerns and demonstrated difficult moves.
Shori felt like a stalker.
When the practice was over, Shori went to Conrad, who didn’t appear surprised
to see him. "Hello," Conrad said.
"Hello," Shori answered.
Conrad sighed and rubbed the back of his neck. "I suppose it’s time for
our talk."
"That would be nice, considering you’ve avoided me the entire week."
Shori answered coolly.
"As you can see, I just finished practice. Perhaps I can meet you
later?"
"I’ll give you an hour." Shori said. "We need to get this over
with."
Conrad cast his eyes downward and nodded. "All right.
I’ll come to your room in an hour." Shori watched him walk away and fought
the childish urge to throw something at his head, choosing instead to stalk
away in the other direction.
Shori took a deep breath and crossed his arms as he made his way to his room,
silently rehearsing the words he wanted to say. It couldn’t be as simple as ‘I
missed you, and I’m sorry.’ Nothing ever went that easy. Shori ran a hand
through his hair. Perhaps Conrad had the right idea. It was so easy to think of
what you wanted to say and do when you were far away from someone, but knowing
that any moment you would be face to face with them, and that you’d have to say
something or let the opportunity slip away… it terrified him.
He found himself pacing as he carefully counted the minutes, excitement and
anxiety twisting his insides. He finally settled down with a book when Conrad
entered.
"I’m early," Conrad said apologetically.
"It’s all right," Shori said, setting his book aside. He stood up and
tugged at his sleeves nervously.
"What was it that you wanted to say?" Conrad asked.
Shori was frozen. He could feel his heart beating into his throat, but he
couldn’t force a sound.
Conrad frowned in concern and took a step toward him. "Shori?"
"I…" Shori began. "It’s your fault I’m like this!"
He crossed his arms defensively over his chest and scowled.
Conrad blinked. "I’m sorry?"
"I wasn’t going to come back," Shori said. "After all, what’s
there to talk about if you never see each other, right?" Conrad remained
silent, and Shori continued. "This isn’t normal. I can’t stop thinking
about you. I hate it."
Conrad’s eyes softened. "You missed me?"
Shori focused his eyes on the lamp next to his bed. "I don’t know why. We
only ever talked when there was something bizarre happening, but then you
kissed me and I barely remember what it felt like, but it’s keeping me up at
night. I dreamed about you before I came back. I wonder what would have
happened if I…" Shori shot Conrad a betrayed look. "I looked at a BL sim because of you!"
"I apologize." Conrad said, but he had the beginning of a smile that
belied his words. "It sounds traumatic."
"It was." Shori agreed, embarrassed by his tirade. "You should
do something about it."
Conrad’s smile widened, and he took a step toward Shori. "You have an odd
way of saying you’d like me to kiss you again."
"I didn’t say that!" Shori protested.
"Does that mean I’m wrong?" Conrad asked. He took advantage of
Shori’s silence to close the distance between them, his hand cupping the back
of Shori’s neck and pulling him forward. Conrad was exceedingly gentle,
pressing his lips chastely against Shori’s in a light caress. Shori allowed his
eyes to close as Conrad kissed him again, tilting his head to get a better
angle.
Conrad carefully removed Shori’s glasses, and Shori watched as he set them on
the table. "I can’t see without them," he said. Conrad was close
enough to be clear, but the rest of the room was blurred in various degrees.
"You won’t need them," Conrad assured, "and I wanted the
opportunity to do this." He pulled Shori close again, letting his hands
caress Shori’s jaw as he guided him into a better position. Kissing wasn’t
nearly as uncomfortable without his glasses, Shori realized, and he clenched a
hand on Conrad’s sleeve as he darted his tongue out to lick Conrad’s lower lip.
Conrad hummed delightedly and parted his lips, deepening the kiss. It was warm
and wet and Conrad didn’t taste anything like Shori had imagined. It was easy
to say someone tasted of chocolate or sweet as cream or any number of things,
really, but Conrad didn’t taste like anything at all. Conrad’s tongue glided
against his own, and Shori shivered, breathing a soft sound. One of Conrad’s
hands slipped down the line of his back, resting against the curve of his spine
and urging him closer. Shori’s hands kneaded Conrad’s uniform, one hand
remaining clenched in the sleeve and the other tentatively running over his
shoulder. One kiss melted into several, and even though his lungs were
beginning to ache, Shori didn’t want to stop even one second to take a breath.
They eventually parted for air, and Conrad pressed a kiss to the underside of
Shori’s jaw, panting lightly. "We should stop."
"Why?" Shori asked breathlessly, tilting his head back to give Conrad
better access.
"Because I need to stop while I still can."
Conrad said, running his fingers leisurely up Shori’s back.
"And… if I don’t want you to stop?" Shori asked quietly, feeling a
flush creep over his cheeks at being so forward. He unbuttoned Conrad’s jacket
and slipped his hands inside, fingers stroking along the lines and ridges of
Conrad’s muscles. He sighed at the warmth as he nestled closer, etching
patterns against Conrad’s back.
Conrad trembled and pressed his lips against Shori’s temple. "Have you
ever done anything like this before?"
Shori glared at Conrad. "Of course not! Who has
time for girls when you have a precious younger brother to protect?"
Conrad laughed and ran a hand through Shori’s hair. "You’re not
worried?"
"Should I be?" Shori asked before pressing his lips to the hollow of
Conrad’s throat.
"I’ll be gentle," Conrad promised
Shori shot him another irritated look. "Did I ask you? I’m not a child. I
can take it. Do what you want."
Conrad’s eyes darkened, and he shoved Shori onto the bed. Shori sprawled out
over the duvet and propped himself up on his elbows, watching as Conrad removed
his jacket. Shori licked his lips as Conrad crawled onto the bed, straddling
him and biting at his mouth. Shori gasped and wrapped his arms around Conrad’s
neck, pressing up against him. "I missed you," Conrad murmured
against Shori’s mouth between kisses. "No one looks at me like you
do."
Shori laughed. "Malevolently?"
Conrad pulled away slightly, eyebrow quirking as he stared down at Shori. "Like you’re waiting for the perfect opportunity to bite
me." That was simply too good to resist, and Shori leaned up to
bite hard at the junction between Conrad’s shoulder and throat. Conrad moaned,
and the sound sent a jolt of sensation directly to his cock. Shori made a small
sound and squirmed beneath Conrad’s weight.
"You’re so impatient," Conrad said fondly, and thrust down. Shori
clenched his eyes shut and wriggled again, wanting more contact. It all looked
so easy in the H-scenes of his dating sims,
but he was almost at his limit just by kissing. It was embarrassing. Then
Conrad unwound Shori’s arms from his neck and crossed them above Shori’s head,
holding his wrists in place with one hand as his other went for the buttons on
Shori’s shirt. He kissed a line down Shori’s chest and continued downward,
flipping the button on Shori’s trousers.
"What are you—" Shori tugged against Conrad’s grip. Conrad smiled and
kissed Shori’s collarbone.
"It’s okay," Conrad whispered as he slid his hand into Shori’s pants
and wrapped his fingers around his erection.
"Ahh!" Shori cried
out, clenching his eyes shut and turning his face to the side. He felt flushed
and restless as he tried to yank his wrists out of Conrad’s grasp, and he
writhed as Conrad squeezed him. "Conrad!"
Conrad nuzzled Shori’s throat, and Shori made a choking sort of growl as he
canted his hips upward. Conrad wasn’t bothering to remove Shori’s trousers, and
that made every movement short and tight, with just enough friction to keep him
wound up and anxious but not nearly enough to push him over the edge.
Shori’s eyes fluttered open, and he glared at Conrad, who was watching him with
a look in his eyes that made Shori flush hotter. "Please," he gritted
out, and Conrad smiled, twisting his hand in a way that must have hurt his
wrist. Shori gasped, arching at the sensation, and clenched his hands into
helpless fists. His eyes shut again as Conrad kissed him, and he cried out into
Conrad’s mouth as he climaxed.
Shori slumped back down on the bed bonelessly, trying
to catch his breath and responding to Conrad’s kiss, lazy and slow. It had all
finished much faster than he’d anticipated, but he was too pleasantly warm at
the moment to really care. Conrad pulled away from the kiss, releasing Shori’s
wrists and kissing Shori’s fingertips gently before easing off him.
"Mmm?" Shori
mumbled, rumpled and a little dazed. "Where are you going?"
Conrad smiled at him. "I’ll be right back. There’s something I
forgot."
Shori sat up, forehead creased in puzzlement. "You’re actually
leaving?"
Conrad leaned over and kissed him. "Trust me," he said, and hurried
out the door.
Shori scratched his head and flopped back down on the bed. His trousers were
damp and starting to get sticky, so he sighed, kicking off his shoes and
yanking his trousers off. He was in the process of removing his shirt when
Conrad reappeared. Shori yelped in surprise and dove for the bed.
Conrad tilted his head and set a jar on the bedside table. "Are you all
right?"
"I…" Shori blushed at how stupid he’d just been. "Yes."
"Good," Conrad said, watching Shori warily. "Do you want to
continue?"
Shori didn’t bother with an answer, placing a kiss at the open neck of Conrad’s
undershirt. He unbuttoned it carefully, lavishing licks and small bites on every
inch he uncovered. Conrad shrugged out of his shirt and gently pushed Shori
back, taking a moment to remove the rest of his clothes before joining Shori on
the bed.
Shori felt absurdly shy, and reached out to trace the line of a pale scar.
Conrad captured his hand and pulled him closer, turning his head and sucking
red marks down Shori’s neck. Shori followed Conrad’s lead, licking up Conrad’s
jaw and biting his ear, his hands trailing over Conrad’s chest. There was
something strangely comfortable and intimate about taking the time to feel
someone like this, touching and exploring without a rush. Shori discovered that
Conrad hissed his breath out when Shori scraped his fingernails over his back;
Conrad managed to find the one ticklish spot just above the jut of Shori’s hip.
Shori found himself obsessed with Conrad’s mouth, unable to go more than a few
seconds without kissing him, nibbling his lips swollen and swallowing Conrad’s
moans greedily. Conrad seemed entranced by the line of Shori’s neck, nuzzling
and sucking it often enough that Shori was positive he’d have quite a few marks
to explain away the next day.
Conrad brushed back a strand of Shori’s hair, and Shori noticed that he was
shaking just a little. "Are you ready?"
Shori trailed his hands down Conrad’s abdomen to grasp his cock and squeeze.
Conrad dropped his head to Shori’s shoulder, exhaling slowly. "I was ready
a long time ago," Shori said with a smile. "I just wanted to hear you
ask." Conrad yanked his head up, staring at Shori with a pained sort of
exasperation. "I told you to do what you wanted, didn’t I?"
"Unbelievable," Conrad shook his head, unable to stop a laugh.
"Come here," Shori said, and straddled Conrad’s lap, breathing a moan
as the movement brought their erections together. Conrad set a hand on Shori’s
hip, stretching to reach the jar that he’d left on the table. Shori took it
from Conrad and opened it, looking at the contents. "I didn’t even think
about this," he confessed as he scooped up a liberal helping of lubricant.
"I know you didn’t," Conrad agreed. "But I thought you might
appreciate the courtesy."
"I get to do this next time, don’t I?" Shori asked as he smoothed the
lubricant over Conrad, squeezing and moving his hand up and down a couple of
times to make sure Conrad was completely coated.
"If you’d like," Conrad said, and pushed a finger into Shori. Shori
tensed at the uncomfortable sensation, but Conrad was right there to kiss him
to distraction. After a few minutes, it wasn’t as painful. The friction was
making him heat up again, and he squirmed as Conrad’s fingers twisted inside of
him.
"Conrad!" Shori said, grabbing Conrad’s shoulders as he pushed his
hips against his fingers.
"Just a bit more," Conrad said, and then his fingers brushed over a
spot that caused Shori to see white.
"Don’t do that again!" Shori gasped. "That’s too… I mean,
I…"
"I understand," Conrad said, a smirk tilting the corner of his mouth.
"I’m overwhelming you."
"Don’t be so smug." Shori scowled. Conrad removed his fingers and
positioned himself carefully at Shori’s entrance. Shori pressed down slowly,
allowing Conrad’s hand on his hip to guide him. "Oh," Shori
breathed as Conrad filled him. "Ow…"
"Are you okay?" Conrad asked, stopping immediately.
"I didn’t tell you to stop!" Shori chided him. Conrad thrust again,
and Shori closed his eyes. It burned, but that was already mostly fading as
Conrad pulled back out. Shori arched his back, matching each thrust with one of
his own, incoherent sounds only occasionally pushing their way past his lips.
The entire world narrowed down to the smooth push and slide of Conrad inside of
him, the heat of the contact between them, the way pleasure was gathering at
the base of his spine that made him squirm for anything more—more speed, more
friction, more of Conrad. Conrad pulled him down into a rough kiss, and pulled
out of him. Shori whined, hands scrabbling for purchase on Conrad’s chest.
The kiss turned into a roll, and Shori had just enough time to register that
Conrad was on top of him before the next hard thrust. Shori yelped, having
absolutely no idea what to do with his legs, just knowing that Conrad had a
hand on his back, supporting him as he pushed in. Shori mewled pathetic little
gasps as Conrad slammed into him again and again, barely taking the time to
press Shori’s leg to the mattress and pull the other over his shoulder and
Shori didn’t even know how it had become so hard so fast. He panted,
shaking sweat from his eyes as words spilled out, things like Conrad and
please and Oh God, and he twisted up to bite at Conrad’s mouth
and dig his fingernails into the raised ridges of the scars on Conrad’s back.
"Shori" Conrad said, and Shori choked out a sob, his orgasm
knocked out of him with his breath. Conrad collapsed on top of him, breath quick
and hot against his shoulder, and Shori dragged his fingers through Conrad’s
hair, letting his leg fall from Conrad’s shoulder into a more comfortable
position.
Shori held onto Conrad until his own breathing slowed, and Conrad raised his
head. "I’m sorry," Conrad apologized.
"Don’t ruin the moment by being stupid," Shori complained, letting
his head fall back onto the pillow as he traced aimless patterns against
Conrad’s shoulder. Conrad laughed softly and nodded, shifting his weight off of
Shori and settling at his side. Shori shifted with him, finding nothing wrong
with using Conrad as a pillow. "So." Shori
said.
"So." Conrad answered, brushing his fingers
through Shori’s hair.
"I think I might love you. Is that okay?"
"I think I could be persuaded to accept your confession," Conrad
laughed, and Shori elbowed him in the ribs.
"I'm serious," Shori said. "What are we going to do?"
Conrad sighed. "The best that we can."
Shori sat up and looked down at Conrad. "That's a completely useless
plan."
Conrad propped his chin on his hand. "What would you suggest?"
Shori pondered the question for a moment. "You should come
work for me."
Conrad laughed and shook his head. "I have too many duties here that need
my attention."
There was a knock at the door, and Shori jumped out of bed, plastering himself
against the back of the door. The movement was uncomfortable—he was already
getting sore. "Yes?"
"Hey, it's time to go home!" Yuuri's voice came through door clearly,
and Shori winced as the doorknob turned. His face turned even more miserable as
semen started trickling down his stomach. Conrad raised a hand to his mouth to
stifle his laughter. "Are you ready to go?"
"No," Shori answered. His eyes fell on his ruined trousers, and he
shot Conrad a baleful look. "I have to change. I… spilled something on my
clothes."
"Oh, okay. I'll meet you at the fountain, all right? I've got to say
good-bye to everyone."
Conrad got up and retrieved Shori's shirt from the floor, dipping it into the
basin and carefully wiping himself down.
"All right," Shori held his breath as he heard his brother's steps
retreat, and heaved a relieved sigh.
"You handled that admirably," Conrad said, as he tossed Shori the
damp shirt and went to his closet.
Shori caught the shirt. "I certainly wasn't going to expose my brother to
my homosexual love affair!" Shori protested, and raked a hand through his
hair. "What am I doing?"
Conrad cleared his throat, and Shori looked at him desperately. "Your clothing, Shori." He gestured at the armchair,
where he'd laid out the new outfit.
Shori stared at the armchair. "Thank you."
"You're welcome," Conrad said as he began to redress himself.
Shori took his time cleaning himself up and dressing,
trying to use the few minutes to clear his head. Then he gathered his clothing
together into a neat pile for the maids to wash when they cleaned the room.
When he finished, he looked up to see Conrad watching him. "Conrad,"
he said hesitantly.
Conrad went over to Shori and kissed him. "It's time for you to go, Shori.
I promise I'll be here waiting for you to come back."
Conrad's words gave him a strange sort of reassurance, and Shori made a face.
"How can you say stuff like that with a straight face?" he asked as
he left the room. Conrad didn't follow him, and after a moment, he stuck his
head back in. Conrad was staring up at the ceiling with a rueful expression, as
though he were appealing a higher power. "Are you coming or not?"
Conrad looked at him. "That's a silly question, isn't it?" he asked
as he stepped out into the hall.
And really, it was.
*fin*
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