Episode 38: Hippocrates Weeps for Joy / Chasing Shadows in the Wings
Light streamed in wide bands across the still
air, painting swaths of yellow on the walls and floor. For the most
part, Hikari's room had lain undisturbed for over a month, in more or less
the same state she had left it as she had hurried out to fight her third
Angel with her house-mates. Since then, she hadn't spent a single
night there.
The room wasn't in the exact condition she
had left it in. Shinji, for example, had taken the time and effort
to clean it, even rearranging her books in squared-off piles next to her
futon. Even now, there wasn't any visible dust marring the room;
it looked like something out of a magazine, nearly impeccable, even if
the furniture wasn't quite consistent with the lastest fashions.
This room had known both chaos and order in
the last eight and a half months it had been occupied. For the first
six, Misato had been the occupant. Even Asuka, with her hardly irreproachable
personal habits, had referred to the lack of order as offensive and intolerable,
on several occasions.
As Misato grew more and more depressed, especially
following Kaji's untimely death and Asuka's departure, the state of the
room had grown increasingly fetid. One entire wall collected the
garbage created from ever more frequent and intense binges of alcohol and
microwave dinners. The rest of the room had been littered with loose
clothes, and the bed was never made because the former guardian of the
Children had hardly slept. For the most part, she simply sat in petrified
silence, reading page after page of information gleaned from NERV's seamy
underbelly.
And then, it all ended. Misato never
reappeared. Shinji knew she'd been shot during that final day; how
badly, he couldn't tell, but he'd had her blood on his hands. Afterwards,
after the Awakening, he could only assume she was dead. So did everyone
else.
Still, though, she had been hoped for.
During the first two weeks, neither Shinji nor Asuka had dared to move
her personal belongings, leaving them to sit in their perpetual entropy.
In a way, it would have been like desecrating an ancient tomb, or mausoleum.
What made it worse was that they had known the dead.
Nevertheless, respect gave way to necessity,
especially since Hikari had been assigned residence with them. Asuka
had never seen it in a bad light; during her effort to clear out Misato's
dwelling for its new inhabitant, she was, in fact, relieved to remove these
last reminders. If Misato hadn't been a mother to them, at the very
least, she acted as a sister, a guide. A Director of Operations in
more ways than one.
Hikari's arrival had infused new life into
an apartment, which, while structurally still new, was emotionally unsound.
Put succinctly, Hikari was normal.
The change wrought by her presence was no
less evident in the new order that could be found in Misato's room.
Hikari's printouts and texts, piled neatly on the desk, replaced the foul-smelling
cans of stale beer; the floor could be seen easily, not obscured by days
of unwashed clothes; and she maintained a continuous system of reorganization.
Perhaps the order was only a reflection of
the class representative's personality, but at the same time, the currently
unoccupied room seemed...dead.
This wasn't the first time Asuka had decided
this, the thought had come to her while she was cleaning out Misato's room.
Anything that remains unchanged for any significant period of time ultimately
begins to feel inert and lifeless. Such was the case for Hikari's
room, and, to a lesser degree, her own: she hadn't used it in months for
anything other than storage.
Likewise, this was not the first time Asuka
had come to this door, across the living room from the short hallway that
separated her room from Shinji's, to ponder this. In fact, repeated
visits had regularly confirmed the inanimate condition of the room.
Asuka found it highly depressing, and why
not? She hadn't seen Hikari's little quirks in ages: her fondness
for the class clown, her annoyed laughter, and preachy moral sermons.
All had been absent for too long, and memory couldn't replace her in the
same way.
Perhaps, thought Asuka, watching Pen-Pen toddle
about the room's confines, her presence helped alleviate Misato's loss.
Hikari didn't just inhabit the room, in the apartment, she lived in it.
In some ways, there were a few traits she shared with the older woman.
Despite her drinking and over-sleeping, Misato
had always been a hard worker. Much like Hikari, she wouldn't think
twice about putting in a few extra hours of work into the night for better
results. Both were, it seemed, born leaders as well, even if the
contexts were entirely different.
And, both had gone out of their ways to make
things as comfortable as possibly for herself and Shinji. Of course,
Hikari leaned more towards Asuka, but that was understandable, seeing as
how they were confidantes and best friends.
A hand fell lightly upon her left shoulder,
generating a soft murmur that slowly washed away her meditations over several
moments.
"Thinking about Hikari again?" Shinji asked,
kneeling next to her, his bag slung lopsided over the opposite arm.
Asuka only nodded morosely.
She'd stopped drilling Shinji on her friend's
state and prognosis a long time ago. For one thing, despite his own
experience, Shinji wouldn't be privy to anything she didn't already know.
And then, there was no way he could do anything about it. It was
illogical enough, but one couldn't deny someone as emotionally charged
as Asuka that variety of wishful thinking.
And yet, she had abandoned it, which Shinji
hoped wasn't a sign she was giving up hope. Because of the circumstances
surrounding Misato's death, it wasn't too hard to accept that and move
on, perhaps in part due to the horribly confusing and uncanny finality
of the event in question. This was not so for Hikari.
Shinji sighed, and after less than a moment's
hesitation, he let his hand drift down to her elbow. He too, had
stopped trying to explain Hikari's predicament or give her messages of
hope. He'd run out of things to say very early on, and everything
else since then had been nothing but repetitive and well-intentioned drivel.
After a while longer, Asuka stood, closing
the door as she did so. "We'd better go...or we'll be late for the
test."
Perhaps a little more confident of his limited
empathy, Shinji lent her his lips in agreement and condolence. Asuka
returned them gracefully, drained in part, but allowing them to take their
intended effects before they headed out the door.
Pen-Pen continued to wander around in the
empty room for a while longer, eventually falling asleep in a puddle of
sunshine on the floor.
* * *
Masaharu groaned as he fell back into the chair
at the harmonics facility, shaking his head in mock disgust. "They
could have stayed with the schedule, but no, now they want to learn more
about last week's crossover test... I've just got too much work to
do!"
Yamashita, on the other hand, waited until
his station was warmed up before speaking. "If the good Doctor has
been listening to you gripe all this time, there could be a reason you've
got too much work."
"That's no reason to kill a man," Masaharu
said, preparing his own monitoring interface, "So what if I complain?"
Yamashita laughed. "Hardly. But
you'll have just brought it down upon yourself. You know what they
say about baiting the bear. You didn't leave here until three last
night, did you?"
"How did you know?"
A shrug was the first answer. "I just
took a peek in the personnel files in my spare time. No one's keeping
you here. You just spend too much time on projects that don't concern
you."
A curt chuckle of derision broke from the
younger man's lips. "Feh... What would you care? Everything
I see concerns me. Maybe I'm just curious." Masaharu leaned
back against his chair. "This whole place is like a huge machine.
I'd just like to see it work better."
"Why bother? You never know what could
really be going on. I mean, you've seen the Evas bleed, right?" asked
Yamashita, trying to justify the lack of actual knowledge they had.
"Call me an optimist, but it's all for a good
cause, I guess."
Through the observation windows, the two mock
entry plugs marked 01 and 02 slid open with a hiss as Dr. Robertson and
Shigeru took their places in the control booth. Already, the two
plugs had been put through extensive preparation for this test. Shinji's
auspicious result during the last week had prompted further interest in
Asuka's potential to synchronize with Unit-01. If it ever became
necessary to have one pilot replace the other, it was probably a good idea
to know if it was a distinct possibility, or just a theory that wouldn't
function in practice.
To that end, the powerful data transfer cables
had been swapped by several teams of maintenance crew working in shifts
over nearly the entire workday, such that these harmonics would be swapped
in the same way Shinji had been inserted into Unit-02 the last time.
The experiment and rationale had been forwarded
to Commander Fuyutsuki, currently working in dyked-off Rome. It had
taken him nearly three days to forward a response back to NERV, and when
it did, it was a short, formal approval. Shigeru didn't think he'd
even taken the time to write it himself.
"You think this is really necessary?" Shigeru
asked, watching as the two suited pilots were carried via crane to the
empty entry plugs.
"Why not?" came Dr. Robertson's answer, "After
all, your highness needed to know last week whether or not we could exchange
the two rookies into Unit-15."
Shigeru grimaced. "That was an operational
concern. These two don't need to be sitting in another Eva right
now, so why bother?"
"This," pointed out Dr. Robertson, "is a scientific
concern. You've started doing your job, at long last, now let me
do mine. Thank you." With that, he turned back towards the
window and the microphone. "Shinji, Asuka? Are you ready?"
* * *
Another day, another essay. Such is the
law of school.
And that, in truth, was just the half of it.
Of course, these weren't the only thoughts running through every student's
head first thing on a Friday morning, not even necessarily the students
finishing said homework before classes began.
Touji, bereft of any kind of energy, could
only muster up enough to toss his satchel onto his desk before collapsing
into the flimsy chair provided for him. "'Morning, Kensuke," he groaned,
closing his eyes.
"Hi..." Not taking his eyes off the screen of his laptop and the
last of his own unfinished work, Kensuke carried on the conversation.
"What's up with you today? You don't look awake yet."
"Mmm... I slept in." Touji yawned
and stretched his arm back to scratch his head. "And stayed up too
late."
Kensuke managed a thoughtful tilt of his head.
"And yet, you're here on time."
Touji only nodded. Indeed, even having
slept twenty or thirty minutes longer than he usually did, he was getting
to class on time, and regularly. He didn't have to give in to his
sister's scoldings, although it seemeed that every time she did, he found
himself checking, re-checking, or even finishing his assignments.
The fact that she persisted in getting him to do it, even late at night,
was fully responsible for his tiredness.
In fact, Mari was also the cause of his punctual
arrivals at school, too. Touji had never been known for being able
to lift himself out of bed by himself, and his little sister had a firm
grasp of his capabilities. Such that she wouldn't wake him up until
it was too late for him to escort her to school as he insisted he should,
and too early for either to leave the house.
In that extra time, Mari would make their
lunches, on occasion stooping to teach her goofball brother a thing or
two about cooking. Touji never did figure out who had taught Mari
to do anything in the kitchen; being only eight years old, she could barely
reach the stove without standing on a chair. In order for her to
actually do anything, she would use a phone book to raise her a few more
inches.
Their mother had died from complications in
childbirth. The child, premature as she was, had been saved, but
the doctors hadn't been able to help the adult Mariko on time to provide
similar salvation. Therefore, unless such domestic knowledge was
passed on genetically, that couldn't be the source. Touji supposed
his father hadn't been around frequently enough to teach her either, although
he doubted he could really cook at all. His father had hired someone
to take care of the house, though, before they'd grown old enough to do
it themselves...perhaps it was her.
Not that Mari was a bad cook, either.
She seemed to do all right in the kitchen, with few serious disasters.
In fact, it wasn't too different from the bland but edible stuff Shinji
seemed to be able to put together.
On the other hand, she couldn't quite put
together the surprises the class rep had been bringing him before she disappeared.
They were supposed to be leftovers, the scraps from the bottom of the pan,
but there always seemed to be enough to satisfy even his ravenous stomach.
"Hey, Touji! Get up!" A long and
later embarrassing second passed, before he realized he was supposed to
be standing for the teacher's arrival. Apparently, the replacement
rep had been calling him for some time, while the teacher himself waited
for compliance.
As they finished their bows and sat down again,
he took a moment to sweep the room with his eyes. "Kensuke!
Where're the newly-weds?"
"Oh, Shinji and her? They've got a synch
test this morning. Can you believe they still haven't fixed our Evas?
Otherwise we'd be down there too, instead of the teacher telling us all
about life before Second Impact all over again. Who cares?"
Touji leaned back, agreeing wholeheartedly
with his friend. While he didn't care for either, synch tests were
generally better than this.
With any luck, he'd be able to catch a few
quick winks, and he trusted Kensuke would catch him if he started to snore.
Improbable, though, as Kensuke dug into his desk for his copy of the training
and operations manual, trying for the umpteenth time to see if he'd missed
anything.
* * *
Light streamed in wide bands across the stilled
air, cutting through limpid curtains and spilling onto the floor and bed.
Nothing moved. Despite the room's role as a place of healing, of
recovery and health, it was as dead as any abandoned room. Even the
light seemed to die within its walls.
Nevertheless, there was a flicker of movement
that made the efforts of the hundreds who had constructed the room and
equipment, and those who used them, worthwhile.
Harrassed by a tickling strand of stray hair
that had settled across her face when the nurse had last fixed the bedsheets,
Hikari lifted a hand to brush it away from her closed eyelids. Not
much longer afterwards, she found herself opening her eyes, and straining
atrophied muscles to sit up. Tired from disuse, even her spine seemed
incapable of supporting her weight. She slumped forward, into a single
ray of lukewarm light.
Gradually, her eyes became adjusted to the
presence of light, and she began to explore her surroundings carefully,
checking every detail and object around her with utmost care. Starting
with her weakened hands, she discovered she still had numerous intravenous
lines running out of her arms, and leads attached from her body to a machine
that seemed to be monitoring her heart and lungs.
Is this a dream too?
It was hard not to ask. For over five
weeks, dreams had made up her world. Dreams after dreams, in seemingly
infinite succession. And it was more than likely this was nothing
more than another.
Then again, the incoherent lightness to which
she was so accustomed was lacking...this seemed too concrete and controlled
to be an illusion. Her body, the bed, the walls...the steadily beeping
machine next to her; they were all to solid, too real.
Testing her voice seemed to be the next logical
thing to do. Articulating a simple phrase, though, was considerably
more difficult than she could remember. Not that her vocal chords
or lungs, even her tongue were as lacking in strength as the rest of her
body; they responded well, moving fluidly and with typical control.
Rather, her throat was dry and her words emerged as unsubtle croaks, cracking
harshly before she could stop them.
This corrected itself in short order, however,
as repeated practice rendered those same words soft and flexible again.
She felt weak.
Hikari's eyes darted up to the clock, mounted
on the wall opposite the bed. Even from this distance, in this imperfect
illumination, she could make out the hands. Already, nearly a good
half-hour had passed entirely, and all she had done was check her speech.
Slightly put off by her lack of progress, Hikari began to laugh softly.
Looking to her side, she examined the monitors
a little more carefully. The central unit had been attached to her
body by several leads -- she began to notice how they stuck in places to
her skin -- but the intravenous bags were suspended from a pole, unattached
to anything. If she needed to, she could use it to support herself.
Carefully, she began to move her protesting
legs. They had lain unused long enough that they sent wave after
wave of tingles up the entire limb whenever they brushed against anything.
A dull ache seemed to occupy every part of her body, pervasively resisting
every movement with a sudden sharpening of its effect. Hikari winced,
pulling herself once more to the side of the bed with a force and determination
that she now knew she possessed.
Fixing her face into a steely mask, she reached
out and took the intravenous support firmly in her left hand. Forcing
herself to move, willing each muscle into contraction in individual sequence,
she took a quarter-step. The leads monitoring her trailed behind
her from within her hospital gown, but the machine did nothing more than
register a slight increase in her heart rate.
Her concentration wavered, ever so slightly,
as her foot touched down on the floor a mere two inches ahead of her, manifested
only in the pained smile that suddenly lit up her features. Another
step followed, shuffling towards the leading foot and beyond. Ahead,
behind the monitor that was registering a slight increase in her heart
rate, she saw the window. That was where the light in the room was
coming from. Most of it, at least.
Hikari made it her goal. She was going
to reach that window at any cost, look outside, beyond the curtains, into
the world. A world she hadn't seen in over a month, one that she
now felt strangely detached from.
Whether it was her that had changed, or the
world itself, she couldn't tell. Either way, though, she was going
to have to reacquaint herself with it. Each step continued to close
the distance, and she calculated every advance in her head. She felt
slightly silly, as it was less than two or three feet away...certainly
enough for the wires and the intravenous line to stretch the distance.
Three more...two more...
She stumbled a little, causing her to lean
more heavily on her impromptu crutch. Hikari waited until her breath
subsided in her chest, then righted herself and proceeded over the remaining
two steps.
Finally, leaning both against the window and
the support, she marshalled the strength to part the curtain.
Gradually, she brought her free hand, the
right one, up to the light blue cloth, up near her face, and began to push
the barrier aside. Light crashed through the glass like water through
a broken dam, and she was momentarily overwhelmed by the sudden intensity.
Again, her eyes were forced to adjust to a higher order of light, and she
blinked while waiting for her vision to clear.
Even though she could see now, the pane of
glass separating her from the geofront beyond was still another obstacle,
keeping her away from the world. In the rising morning light, Hikari
saw the world inside the geofront for what was possibly the first time.
Ever since starting to pilot Unit-15, she
had never taken any route through the geofront itself. Always, the
routine was nothing more than a long elevator ride into the deeper parts
of NERV. She knew, of course, that the geofront was a gigantic cavern;
everyone who worked at NERV knew that.
But she'd never taken the time to see what
it looked like. She'd always assumed it was a dark forbidding place,
where the sun could not reach. It was, after all, buried deep under
the city of Tokyo-3 proper.
Paradoxically, the vista she now watched with
her own two eyes was sunlit, gloriously illuminated from above. Even
those places near the edge of the hemispherical cavity received enough
light indirectly that they enjoyed a sort of perpetual twilight.
There was a lake, a massive body of water
in the centre of the geofront, on whose waves the reflected rays of the
sun leapt and cavorted like a million fireflies in their courtship dances.
Next to it, a stark geometric structure, a monolith that coldly testified
to man's presence in this strange cave. The pyramid that formed the
core of NERV stood solemnly watch over the entire grounds before her, and
despite its artificial origins, it didn't seem out of place at all.
In a way, it, too, benefited from the sun's caress, becoming a golden triangle.
Forests of pines covered the landscape, guarded
from above by a glittering chandelier of inverted buildings hanging from
the facility's ceiling. Spiralling tracks descended from them, the
brighter sections indicating the progress of either a car-train or a personnel
shuttle.
Hikari looked out over this like it was her
dominion, and she wondered why she'd never been able to see it before.
And despite the definite artificial nature of the entire structure, it
did have a natural beauty, much like the hills and mountains that surrounded
the city itself, above ground.
Perhaps this was what made it worthwhile to
hate the Angels, to fight them. Not only for the pain and suffering
they wrought, but also because they seemed bent on destroying this, and
those who would be able to appreciate it.
Slowly, though, the pain from her agony-rent
legs warned her it would be most prudent to regain her bed. Reluctantly,
she pulled herself away from the window and shuffled back to the place
she had just left.
Sighing, she let herself sink back into the
mattress. It had been so long, too long, since she had last been
able to move under her own power, and she wondered how she had been saved,
such that it was still possible.
The last she remembered, she had been subjected
to a horrendous level of bodily harm by the Angel who had temporarily abducted
her soul, and she was almost loath to check her own body to verify if that
had yet been corrected, and to what extent.
Being very careful of the emplacement of the
needles embedded in her arm, she began to draw up the sleeve. And
as more and more of her arm was exposed to the light, she marveled at the
pristine state of the skin beneath, at the familiar contours, lacking any
imperfections other than those she had borne before. Rapidly, she
felt for the crater in her shoulder, to find it filled with flesh; the
trough above her knee, likewise healed.
Apparently, she had not been dreaming either,
when she had found herself in that dark place filled with LCL...she was
fully whole again, and there was no longer any denying it. Not, of
course, that she would want to. If it was really an illusion, it
was a relieving one.
Her worries satisfied, her mind began turning
to other matters. She was skinny now, nearly emaciated. And
hungry. Starving.
The thought triggered a low grumble from her
stomach, and as she thought to her last meal, in the apartment with Asuka
and Shinji. It had been a long time since she had seen them out of
the context of a dream. It was almost hard to believe they were real
people any more. And then, she realized she had been so far removed
from the rest of the world that she no longer knew what day or month it
was, let alone whether or not they were still all right, or even alive.
Her stomach wasn't the only thing screaming
for attention and fulfillment. She knew she was lonely, had been
lonely ever since the Voice last departed -- even if it was just her losing
her mind -- and she felt a thirst for human company.
Anyone would have suited her purposes and
quenched the thirst, but she thought either Asuka or Suzuhara would have
been preferable. Who knew? Maybe she would be seeing one or
the other, maybe even both, in the near future.
On second thought...his name should be Touji,
not Suzuhara. After all, she hadn't referred to Asuka as 'Sohryu'
in several months, and Shinji had stopped being 'Ikari' not too long ago,
either, since she had moved in with them. It was better to think
of him as a friend, if not better than that, rather than as a simple classmate.
Shakily, she reached up to the wall by the
bed, looking for the switch that would call the nurse to her bedside...
With any luck, she could satisfy her first priority, that of sustenance,
and soon. Then, she could think about talking to nurses or friends.
* * *
"How are they doing, then?"
Shigeru leaned over to inspect the lines of
data accompanying the graph on Masaharu's station. Effectively, neither
of the two were doing particularly well, in light of the spectacular performances
they could give with their native Evas, but they were doing well enough.
"See for yourself. They've both leveled
out around seventy points, even ten points above Shinji's test in Unit-02.
He might have been a little nervous about it the first time."
Dr. Robertson looked satisfied. Thus
far, nothing untoward had occurred during the excercise, and it certainly
would provide him with additional data.
Shigeru raised an eyebrow for a moment.
"I guess we can't really predict these things. Last year, Unit-01
was refusing Rei...and now, it seems to be working well with Asuka...
Are we done now?"
His last question seemed to echo the exact
sentiments of the two pilots, for whom the tedious excercise amounted to
sitting quietly in a chair for several hours. A mind-numbing experience
at best, that, unfortunately, had to be done on a regular basis.
"Yes," said Dr. Robertson, turning on the
microphone as he leaned towards it, "We're done now. You can leave."
Sitting down in the chair provided for him,
Shigeru brought up another question Dr. Robertson had been studying recently,
one that seemed to be on everyone's minds since the last incident.
"Say... Any progress on Unit-01's regeneration?"
Dr. Robertson glared at his station for a
few seconds, caught unprepared by this off-the-cuff query. He'd been
working on it quite intensively, and he could never bring himself any closer.
Commander Fuyutsuki, cryptically, had informed him that it was not a major
concern, despite the opinions of everyone else on the command staff.
Still, though, he had no progress to report.
Unit-01 seemed perfectly normal, and the pilot hadn't undergone any visible
changes; at least, not yet. It irked him to be forced into this position.
Admittedly, it was perhaps a little careless to be conducting a crossover
test with Unit-01 at this time, but there were no indications that anything
would malfunction. Besides which, the harmonics tests never involved
the Evas themselves. At that moment, both of the Evas were standing
inert in their cages, no longer connected to anything.
"No," he replied, blunt as a flat stone.
Sensing a certain degree of evident malaise, Shigeru changed topics.
"What about the Sixth Child? What's
her prognosis looking like, now that she's awake?"
"Considerably better. We expect her
to be released within two weeks, and I would expect her to have the stamina
for a reactivation test in about ten to twelve days."
Nodding in agreement, Shigeru made a mental
note to mark that on his schedule. "That leaves us with Shinji and
Asuka for now, then. I hope they'll be enough."
* * *
With a tired sigh, Shinji picked up his school
bag and waited for Asuka to catch up with him. It wasn't long before
he heard the change room's door slide open and his companion's footsteps
filling the hall. "Is it just me, or did that test feel a little
different?"
"What do you mean?" he asked, falling into
step beside her, as they progressed towards the elevators. "Like...
A little, yeah. Why?"
Asuka tapped the call button between the two
sets of doors and leaned against the wall. "Oh, I don't know.
I guess since we're the only two who can pilot our Evas right now, it wouldn't
be good if something were to change, right?"
"Dr. Robertson and Aoba both said there's
nothing wrong with our scores..."
"Of course not, dummkopf! It's just
that...I mean, what if the next Angel is worse than the last one?
We almost lost, except that you...well..."
Shinji blinked hard, once, twice, then looked
up at Asuka with less than tranquil eyes. For some reason, he felt
a cold mass drop through his chest, some kind of otherworldly apprehension.
The premonition stayed with him, pestering him. And then, there was
always something about the way Asuka spoke when she referred to this Angel,
something in the way her voice became tentative and timid, so different.
"...I'd rather...not..."
Smiling, Asuka nodded. "I'm sorry.
Anyway," she said, kissing him on the nose as the elevator's doors opened.
"...Thanks."
She understood that however traumatic it may
have been for the witnesses, it might yet be worse for him. The berserker
wasn't Shinji, and it didn't look like it was something he was proud of.
Together, they rode the elevator back towards
the surface, towards one of the many access pathways that led back to the
city. Despite the test, they would still be expected back at school
for the remainder of the afternoon.
During the ride, however, Shinji couldn't
help think about what could have happened during that incident. To
date, no debriefing had been offered to him, and no one except Asuka had
broached the subject with him...and even now, this was the first time in
about a week. Then again, he didn't think Touji or Kensuke had seen
what had happened, and he didn't really want to approach them about it.
Making Asuka the only one who would know,
who would and could tell him, if he asked.
"Um...Asuka? Now that I think about
it...I don't actually remember what happened, last time. Could you..?"
Asuka stared at him for a moment, confused.
"You don't remember? Do you have amnesia or something?" She
found this absolutely absurd; how could anyone forget that, particularly
him? She realized, though, that he wasn't joking when he flushed
in embarrassment and concern.
"I...I don't think so... I just can't
remember."
Asuka was rapidly struck with the possibility
of mental contamination, but she dismissed it. Mental contamination
should have become fairly obvious after a short while, and this was still
her Shinji, after all.
With a confused sigh, she let herself rest
against him, looked up at the ceiling, and tried to explain what she had
seen. It wasn't easy, seeing how undecided she still was about the
event. After a moment, Shinji took her hand.
"Well...you killed it, really." Understatement.
"...Destroyed it. I mean..." Visions of blood, of anger and
the final, shrill screams of a dying Angel ran unchecked through her mind,
blocking out the other thoughts for a moment. And yet, she thought,
she wasn't exactly frightened... She'd seen Angels die before, and
they, too, had bled.
"But...I've done that before."
"I know that. Let me finish, okay?"
Asuka took a moment to wonder how she could describe the process of regeneration
in itself, ask him how it was possible. More memories, this time
of a different ilk, those of the white Evas. Not Hikari's, but the
others, the Nine. She winced heavily at that, but went on.
"You saw Unit-01 today, right? Before
the test?"
Shinji nodded. He'd seen it a twice
since leaving the hospital. Once, just before the first crossover
test, and the second time a few hours ago.
"Do you remember what the Angel did to it?"
Again, Shinji nodded. He could remember
the Angel tearing away his Eva's lanky arms, discarding them like one discards
strips of lower quality meat before preparation. He could remember
being thrown to the ground. And he could remember most of his systems
cutting out before he'd first heard Asuka cry out.
"So... Why isn't Unit-01 in repair like
the other two?" Asuka turned slightly, to look him in the eye.
They flickered for a moment, uncomprehending, so she filled in the gaps
for him.
"You...you made its arms grow back, Shinji.
That's what has us all scared. Baka."
Shinji returned the unwavering stare, still
confused. "But...isn't that impossible? And...how could I have
done it?"
Blue eyes continued to observe his, quietly.
She wanted to know as much as he did. Evidently, there was a blank
there. Maybe the reason no one from NERV had told him anything was
because they didn't know either. Just like everyone else, he was
frightened by it as well.
Of course, there was a fairly simple explanation.
It could have been his mother...but then, he couldn't remember her presence
near his mind like he had the other times she had helped him in the artificial
monster. He was sure he would have remembered that. So then...how?
"And then...you..." She paused long
enough to make Shinji wonder if he really wanted to know what she was going
to say.
"Well...I've never seen you get angry before.
Not like that, anyway."
Unconsciously, Shinji began to caress the
back of her hand with his fingers, as his mind worked to sort out what
was going on. This certainly wasn't the first time he'd heard stories
about Unit-01, although he'd never imagined he was so tied to the supposedly
unpredictable berserker events.
He frightened himself, the possibility of
emerging from such a state only to find the bleeding remains of one of
his friends under his Eva, much as he had seen the last Angel. Worse,
if it was Unit-02...
At that moment, the elevator slowed to a stop,
and the indicator wheel stopped clicking. They were at the ground
level, at least within the geofront, and it wasn't far to the access escalators
to the surface.
Asuka thought for a moment that she might be treating the whole thing with
a certain degree of hypocrisy...he wasn't necessarily unique this way.
She had, after all, lunged at the 18th Angel shortly after it had nearly
destroyed not only Unit-01, but its pilot as well. It wasn't exactly
an emotion she was willing to revisit any time soon, the grieving and overwhelming
anger, especially because of the circumstances required for it.
First for Shinji, nearly an irrecuperable
loss, then again for Hikari...whom she hadn't seen for too long.
Far too long.
Still, she didn't think she had gone quite
as far.
Asuka backed away slowly, leading Shinji out
by the hand.
"Anyway," she said, trying to salvage some
of the moment, "that's what happened. Do you know why you reactivated
Unit-01? It was pretty helpless before..." A simple question,
but one that would, hopefully, let them forget the issue for now without
changing the subject.
"Well...I just thought...you were in trouble,
so..."
"That was pretty dumb, though," she said,
grinning and delivering a swat to the back of his head for emphasis, "I
guess you could have tried to kick it to death without arms. Who
knows? It might have worked..."
Shinji found himself with the barest hint
of a smile and trying not to blush to hard at his own stupidity.
She had a very valid point, in that had the Eva -- or him, if he was the
cause -- not regenerated through whatever twist of fate and dumb luck,
most likely he would have only exacerbated the situation. Then, there
would be two more downed Evas...and defeat. Nevertheless, the new
confidence and flippant nonchalance in her voice did lift his spirits considerably.
Shinji carefully kept her hand in his as they
progressed through the geofront.
* * *
Far from remaining immobile on the bed as she
should have, Hikari had been exploring her surroundings on a regular basis.
By now, her limbs were in acute agony, screaming their opposition to her
movement, and they hung on her body like sticks of lead. Nevertheless,
Hikari came close to completing her third circuit around the room, and
stopped to rest by the window again. The doctors had removed the
monitors from the room, for her own convenience, and now she had free reign
to explore unhindered.
The sun above the actual ground must have
started to set, because now the light came in along an opposing angle,
sinking deep into the lake. She wondered if someone underwater would
be able to see the individual shafts of lights, as she retreated to the
bed again.
It hadn't been too long since the nurse had
come in and spoken with her. The last date she could remember had
been a little less than a month and a half ago, even though she had assumed
that her injuries would have kept her incapacitated for much longer than
that.
Again, she returned to inspecting her body...the
lighting was better, and there was more natural light in the room.
Indeed, her entire body was whole, unblemished... Just like Touji's.
She wasn't sure how she should feel, although gratitude was certainly drifting
around her conscious mind. Perhaps she would ask him, if she found
an opportunity.
And despite the fact that it was far to long
to be a dream, her whole situation seemed so surreal that she still found
herself wondering.
A shout of joy mixed with incredulity and
surprise shattered her reflection. "Hikari?!" The voice, this
time, was familiar, one she knew as well as its owner.
With about as much strength as she could gather,
she turned her head towards the door. "Asuka..? You're...here?"
It had hardly been ten minutes since the command
centre had informed the other pilots of Hikari's recovery. Nevertheless,
the call, sent out to their respective cell phones, had sent Asuka tearing
across the geofront like there was no tomorrow. Without further ado, Asuka
practically leapt across the room to the hospital bed, trailing a slightly
uncomfortable Shinji in her wake, who was mumbling something about getting
the nurses' permission first.
"Aren't...you supposed to be... at school?"
she asked, barely able to get her words out before Asuka had her squeezed
between her arms. "It's not a weekend, is it?"
Asuka let her go and made sure she was comfortably
seated again before answering. "Not really...we had a test this morning.
And try to cheer up a little! You sound like Rei! How are you
feeling?"
Hikari managed a weak smile, the best she
could, given her state and lack of energy. "Not too good. I've
been asleep for quite a long time, I think..."
Asuka and Shinji both asked about her head
simultaneously, drawing a short bout of laughter from all three.
Hikari wasn't able to keep up, though, and her own chuckles dissolved into
a choked cough. "Better, thanks," she replied, clearing her throat
a little. "I'm going to have to lie down again...Asuka?"
Vacating her spot on the bed, Asuka motioned
Shinji to steal some chairs from the waiting room as Hikari stretched out
again under the covers.
"So...what's been happening? There must
have been at least two Angels after...you know... And if this isn't
another weird dream..."
Asuka shook her head. "Just one, last
week. I don't know why there weren't any, but this one nearly beat
us. Shinji's two Stooge friends won't be piloting for at least another
half a month, given what happened to their Evas."
Definite concern betrayed itself on Hikari's
face. "They weren't hurt, were they?"
"Not badly enough, no. Kensuke and Mister
Compassionate are at school right now."
Shinji returned with two chairs, and sat down,
beckoning Asuka to do so as well.
"I guess it's good to know I'll be moving
back soon," said Hikari, relieved, "I just hope you two were behaving yourselves
while I was gone." She giggled again, coughing. "Oh, well...
Did I miss anything at school?"
Before Asuka had the chance to respond, though,
Touji made his presence known by knocking on the door. Somewhat sheepishly,
he poked his head around the corner, followed by Kensuke. Kensuke,
in particular, was all too glad to have the afternoon off, and another
chance to check up on the repair schedule for Unit-16.
"Hey! Class rep! Everyone's been
worried about you!" Asuka nudged Hikari in the side as Touji stopped
behind Shinji's chair. "We couldn't find you anywhere... Kensuke
an' me checked the hospital records after you disappeared, but you weren't
there. I guess you don't know much either, right?"
Hikari watched as Kensuke nodded in agreement.
They'd gone to the trouble to search for her, apparently. "Well...thank
you. What do you mean, 'disappeared'?"
Asuka explained; after the battle, the fact
that no one had seen the entry plug, and they couldn't get any of the NERV
personnel to say anything. "At one point, we thought you might even
be dead."
Hikari stared at her, never having imagined
that possibility. It was good to have such good friends.
* * *
Arashio looked up from her coffee back towards
her monitor, projected above the keyboard. There hadn't been much
to do all morning; Yamashita and Masaharu were both working in the harmonics
test facility, and Captain Shigeru and Dr. Robertson were with them.
With the Commander gone on some kind of business, she had been the only
person left on the upper levels of the bridge. Boredom had overtaken
her several times this morning, and if it hadn't been for the massive doses
of caffeine she'd been ingesting, she likely would have fallen asleep long
ago.
An automatic window opened itself in front
of her, jarring her tired state of mind into a more or less serviceable
one. After reading its contents, she reached out for one of the phones
built into her console.
"Dr Robertson..? Sorry, Captain.
I think you should see this..."
* * *
Shigeru reached the elevator first, cell phone
still in hand as he authorized Arashio to call the alert and assemble the
pilots. To his mild surprise, they were all already in the geofront,
in Horaki's hospital room. He knew she was conscious, and that the
others had recently been informed, so it wasn't really that shocking.
"What do we do about Suzuhara and Aida?" she
asked, since they didn't have functioning Evas yet.
Shigeru held the door long enough for the
rest of his bridge crew to evacuate the harmonics facility and join him.
"Have them come up to the Command Centre. There's not much else we
can do with them right now."
The emotionless, automated warning rang throughout
NERV's metal hallways, prompting the necessary technicians and scientists
to take their places in the Cage. The Evas could be easily prepared
for combat within seconds of the first alert, as the entire procedure had
been carefully planned, then streamlined with experience. Effectively,
the only thing left was the presence of the pilots. It was lucky
that, Shinji and Asuka were close by, because so was the pattern Arashio
had detected.
"Where is it, anyway?"
"I don't know, sir! There's a pattern,
in the city! The MAGI haven't pinpointed its location yet!
But it's been confirmed as Blue!"
Great, thought Shigeru, the 23rd
Angel. We'll have to make do without the other Evas, then.
"There's no chance we can use Hikari, is there?"
Dr. Robertson shook his head. "Technically,
yes. The First was deployed in Unit-00 several times with severe
injuries. I wouldn't recommend it, though. Hikari wasn't brought
up to be a pilot."
Shigeru nodded, agreeing. "We'll just
leave her in the hospital, then."
* * *
"Shinji? Ready?"
"...Um... Yeah. I think so."
"This sucks! I finally get to see Hikari
and it has to show up! Inconsiderate!"
"...I know..."
The voices accompanying the orange communications
windows on the massive screen opposite the command tower echoed slightly
in the cavernous space. Kensuke was seeing the battle and preparations
from this angle for the first time. Every now and then, he'd wondered
exactly what it was like for the bridge crew, to watch what was going on
on the surface. The highest level of contact he'd ever had with them
during an actual battle was through one of the aforementioned boxes.
Of course, what he really wanted was to be
out there on the surface, with them. In his Eva. This wasn't
the same. Nevertheless, he was resolved to learn as much as he could
from these two, the experts, as they were.
The next time, he would make a difference.
They could count on him, next time.
Shigeru spoke. "We don't have a fix
on the Angel's position yet, but we know it's an Angel from the blood pattern.
We have two minutes left until the evacuation is complete, so hang on for
now. We'll be issuing you short range weapons, and be prepared for
anything."
"Roger," they replied simultaneously.
Kensuke cocked an eyebrow. When it was
just these two, they seemed to work together much better than when they
were part of the larger group. Perhaps it was because they'd been
working together for so much longer. Then again, the battle hadn't
started yet, so he couldn't tell for sure. It just felt that way.
Touji had insisted that either he go to his
sister, or his sister come to him. NERV security and Dr. Robertson
had finally relented to his request; the bridge was far too sensitive for
even an eight-year old civilian, and so Touji wasn't going to be joining
them. It didn't bother Kensuke much. He understood Touji needed
to make sure Mari was okay whenever possible.
The two minutes until the green light for
the operation could be given trickled by slowly, almost too slowly, for
Kensuke's liking. It seemed to be taking forever.
Because there was no fix on the Angel itself,
there was no external camera view. The two large communications windows
had been arranged to the side of the screen, and a bird's-eye view of the
city transmitted from a geosynchronous satellite in real time dominated
the rest.
The MAGI had already pre-determined the exit
points for the two Evas, and these were highlighted in red, as well as
the two nearest equipment elevators. A pulsing orange circle marking
the projected extent of evacuation grew slowly, until it began disappearing
in sections as the various shelters reported in.
The launch order was given, and on the screen,
Kensuke could see the appearances of both Unit-01 and Unit-02. Even
from space, their distinctive colours were a definite contrast against
the uniform greys of the city.
Slowly, they began moving out in a search
grid, looking for any indication of anything that was out of place, anything
that might resemble an Angel.
On the surface, the sky was getting progressively
darker. It had already been fairly late in the afternoon when they
had been informed that Hikari was well enough for visitors, but now, the
sun hung low over the horizon, casting long shadows across the streets.
In some places, the black, tarry shade painted over the hundreds of buildings
of Tokyo-3 seemed thick enough to smother all light and warmth that entered
them.
It did remind Shinji of the shadow Angel,
and yet, he didn't feel that was going to be the case. The Angels
had tried that tactic twice already, and it wasn't likely that they were
going to try it again. Still, he had to be prepared for everything.
"Asuka? What do you think?"
Asuka smiled at him through the window, and
he had to force himself back to concentrating on the mission. "It
looks clear to me. We'll move on, okay?"
"Right."
Unit-01 adjusted its grip on the huge handgun
it was holding out in front of it. Likewise, Unit-02 sported the
same weapon, except that Asuka seemed quite comfortable to wield it in
one hand.
The Angel's signal seemed to be coming from
everywhere in the city at once, according to the MAGI. Either the
Angel was actually spread out over the entire city, or it was actively
twisting reality for NERV's sensors. In the Evas, they couldn't see
where the Angel was coming from. The lock indicators danced at the
edges of the pilot's field of vision.
Asuka cursed quietly to herself in German.
If the Angel didn't show up soon, they'd likely spend all night hunting
for it.
* * *
The unused office was dark, dimly lit by a
pair of underpowered overhead fluorescent lamps. Like the rest of
NERV's non-essential systems and rooms, the electrical supply was lowered
during alerts. This freed up more power for the other systems necessary
for the battle above, on the surface, and the Evas themselves.
Ironically, that power wouldn't be needed
today. The three Evas that functioned because of the electrical umbilical
cable were unuseable, leaving the basically unlimited S2-driven ones to
fight.
Still, neither Touji nor Mari minded very
much. Mari had told him she usually slept. She'd already checked
the computer for games, and there was nothing on it other than some administrative
programs. What else could anyone do in a shelter, anyway? She
normally didn't have anyone to talk to.
Even if Touji now felt a little guilty about
depriving her of company during the Angel attacks, she couldn't change
his mind. He much preferred that she stay here, lonely, for a few
hours, than dead among friends in a crushed official shelter.
In this room, unlike the surface shelters,
you couldn't feel the thundering steps the Evas took, or hear the low growl
of the palette rifles. Having been a civilian before, Touji knew
what they sounded like both from the cockpit and from underground.
Not to mention his one close encounter with an Angel with Kensuke.
That had been stupid.
"Touji?" Mari was pulling on his sleeve.
"Hmm?"
"Why are you here today? Don't you pilot
one of the robots now?"
'Robots'. Touji didn't really like the
term, it denied the fact that the Evas were much more than that, denied
them a certain level of the horrifying grotesqueness that made them so
much worse than simple robots. Nevertheless, it was what Mari and
most of the rest of the population understood, so he wasn't about to correct
her. Perhaps it was better if they stayed robots.
"Nope. My 'robot' is pretty busted up
right now. They don't have the spare parts to fix it." He grinned,
lifted his little sister up onto his lap.
"Oh. So who's fighting the Angel, then?"
Pure childish curiosity filled her voice, rather than apprehension that
there was no one else. Mari was well aware that there were other
pilots. "Are their robots broken too?"
He shook his head. "Shinji and Asuka
are up there right now. They'll do a good job, don't worry.
They're the best."
Mari shook her head. "Not better than
you!" She paused to think. "Isn't Shinji one of your friends
now? I remember you didn't like him very much when you first met
him."
Touji frowned in the dim light. He was
sure he must have discussed his friends with Mari at some point in the
last three months, although he couldn't ever remember it. This was
obviously not the case.
"Yeah...we're friends now. He's actually
a really nice guy."
"So who are the other pilots, then?"
"There's me, Shinji, Kensuke, the class rep,
and dem...Asuka." He almost tripped over the last name, he'd been
using the moniker too long out of her presence. He smirked at himself.
"I know Kensuke...and I met Ms. Horaki in
the hospital... I haven't seen the others, though. You'll bring
me to see them after this, right?"
Touji nodded, although he warned her it might
be a while, if they got hurt during the battle. In turn, she reminded
him that he'd been hurt once after the 19th Angel and the last one, and
that she knew about the hospital's rules.
"What's it like," she went on, changing topics, "in the big robot?
And what do the Angels look like? Are they all the same? I
saw the first one," she announced proudly, almost daring him to talk about
her accident with her voice.
Deciding not to give in, Touji dug around
the desk for a pen and paper, then set to work sketching out what he could
remember of the Angels he'd seen. There weren't many, and he didn't
give her the details; for example, Hikari's disappearance or the viral
properties of the 19th.
After he finished drawing and describing the
last one, the 22nd, she looked up at him, definite pride in her eyes.
"Is it scary, fighting them? You're not scared, though, because you're
my brother!"
He looked from the paper back down to her,
her child's optimism contradicting his real feelings once again.
He'd never really gotten the hang of dealing with her innocence, because
he didn't want to break it for her. In a way, she had lost it, in
the first attack, when she had been exposed to the sheer brutality of the
war.
On the other hand, she seemed to think he
was somehow braver or stronger for dealing with these threats...even if
he still didn't want to. Touji sighed.
"Of course I'm scared, Mari. I'm always
scared..."
She wasn't listening, trying to copy the Angels
onto her own paper. After that, she began to draw a childish version
of the lanky humanoid she'd seen before being crushed.
* * *
Asuka growled in exertion as she peeled the
flexible, amoeba-like Angel off of Unit-01's back. When the translucent
grey Angel had leapt shrieking off the shadowed side of a building onto
him, Shinji had gotten off three rounds, each puncturing, but never wounding
it.
Then, it had clung to him, slowly chewing
away at the sides of the massive plate of armour that shielded his entry
plug from the outside with chitinous plates that had appeared out of nowhere.
Yelling at the top of his lungs, Shinji raised the impenetrable, invisible
wall known only as the AT Field to its full strength. Light erupted
between the Angel and its intended victim, exploding outwards with enough
intensity to temporarily blind the cameras and chase away the shadows.
Even with her eyes closed, Asuka was able
to grasp a fair quantity of the Angel's gelatinous strength in both hands.
Straining, she began to pull. It clung tenaciously to Shinji's armour,
tearing it away even as Unit-02's colossal strength finally detached it
from the rest of the Eva.
Kensuke watched as the massive red Eva stumbled
slightly, no longer being resisted. He expected to see demon-girl's
Unit-02 hit the ground sideways, but in a single, fluid motion, she twisted
its hips and brought a leg forward so that she could slam the Angel with
full force into the ground.
He was sure that there was no way he could
have done that in Unit-16, although he'd never had the chance to try.
Unit-01, even bereft of the protective armour
plate, stood again, and the two of them faced the Angel as it reformed
itself into a more familiar humanoid form in the middle of the street.
Then, it darted off to the side, merging once more with the shadows.
Asuka swore, and both pilots deployed their
progressive knives to attack the shadows on the supply elevator building.
Once again, the pattern was distributed all
over the city, without any clue as to the Angel's new whereabouts.
"Shinji! Are you okay?"
"What? I'm fine! Why? Where'd
it go?"
Squinting, Kensuke could just make out the
writhing grey shadows that protruded from around the cap over the entry
plug. It looked like the Angel had been trying to break it open.
No more danger, however. The fragments were bleeding grey profusely,
and eventually stopped their death throes.
"I don't know... Check to see if your
entry plug is still intact." Shinji didn't dare counter her, there
was enough concern in her imperative that he turned around to check for
cracks or other discrepancies, despite the fact he was receiving no error
or warning messages in front of him.
"I...can't tell... I can go on, though."
"Be careful, okay?"
With that, the two Evas began moving forwards
again. Kensuke nodded to himself; Shinji and demon-girl performed
much more fluidly together than mixed with them. So why, then, were
himself, Touji, and Hikari even needed?
Granted, Hikari had one kill to her credit,
and she was the better of the three of them. And Touji had proven
his worth at least twice, with the 18th Angel and again for the next one.
He felt nearly useless.
He observed the scene unfolding in front of
him in clinical detail, dissecting it for his benefit.
Side by side, the two Evas progressed at roughly
half walking speed into what Kensuke recognized as grid C-08. Unit-01
held its progressive weapon in a loose forward grip, only partially mimicked
by Unit-02, who held it to the side in preparation for a slashing maneuver.
He, in turn mimicked them with an imaginary blade, trying to discern any
fine points of wielding the progressive knife he might have somehow missed.
He could see that both Evas held their heads
slightly to the sides, ensuring that both pilots could still see directly
in front of them, but also maximizing their combined fields of vision.
Their approach brought them straight into
the sun, with the shadows directly facing them. If the Angel wanted
to attack them from the shadows, it wouldn't be able to attack from behind.
An intelligent decision, as Kensuke soon realized.
There was much, much more to Eva combat than
he'd ever imagined. He couldn't understand why he was so far behind.
* * *
The lights barely flickered, but enough such
that Touji knew there had been a power surge somewhere. That probably
meant something had been destroyed on the surface.
Mari stopped, lifting her picture of an amusingly distorted Unit-01
to the light and appraising it like an artist would a finished work.
"Is this what yours looks like?" she asked,
then holding it up for him to see.
"Almost," he chuckled, wondering how they
were treating it all so casually. Without a doubt, the real-life
Evas on the surface were probably causing untold damage in their heated
battle with the Angel. Shinji and Asuka -- and likely himself, had
he been there -- were probably screaming in pain each time the Angel attacked,
wounding their Evas, and indirectly, their pilots.
With one finger, he covered up the exaggerated
horn Mari had depicting jutting from Unit-01's forehead. "It's more
like this...and its black."
"Oh..." The little girl flipped her
paper over, and started her drawing again on the other side.
He watched in silence as she carefully repeated
the lines to form a rough representation of his Eva. To him, it signified
quite a number of things, none of which he was particularly happy about.
It was fear, death, pain...a lot of things.
It seemed to be a source of pride to her,
though. He found it strange, thinking she should have been terrified
of them. On the contrary, she seemed to like the fact that he was
even a pilot of one.
He hated them, and, like Shinji, hadn't really
known why he'd accepted in the first place.
"Hey, Touji? Can you remember mama for
me?"
"What was that?" He sat upright momentarily,
bringing himself closer to the little girl sprawled out on top of the desk.
"Mother?"
"Yeah! What was she like?"
Touji stared in amazement as Mari drew Unit-14's
eyes, somehow humanizing them by giving them pupils and an iris.
It had a smile, too, not some malicious, demonic smile, but a vacuous,
childish one.
He couldn't remember very much of his mother,
she'd passed on when he was barely six years old himself. And of
course Mari wouldn't know, being the powerless and unwitting cause.
"Well... You've seen the old pictures,
right?"
Mari nodded. "Uh huh. She was
pretty, too."
"Just like you. She was...always nice
to me an' Dad. Except when I tried to steal things from the fridge."
"Just like me," Mari announced, grinning.
"Just like me."
It had been a long time since Touji had ever
tried to think about his mother...he remembered crying for a very, very,
long time when his father had told him one evening that she wouldn't be
coming home any more. He couldn't understand then, his juvenile mind
too new to wrap itself around the heart-rending concept of death, the eternal
sleep.
He hadn't gone to the funeral, his father
had decided it would be too traumatic for the boy. Instead, he remembered
staying at home with a babysitter.
That was when his father had changed.
He saw less and less of him over the next two weeks. He buried himself
in work, bringing home boxes of lab reports and files to review and rewrite.
A few weeks later, Mari came home. She
was nursed from a bottle from birth, and would never know maternal warmth
as so many others did. When he came home from school, though, he
remembered playing with her. Sometimes, his father would join in
as well, temporarily abandoning the vast piles of work for his daughter.
Mari would giggle and laugh.
Touji tried to understand his father.
When they talked, on the few occasions, he stayed a father. He treated
them as he should have, and the two of them had learned to treasure those
few moments. Sometimes, he was frustrated with him for not coming
home often enough, or for leaving them to fend for themselves.
But more than once, he'd woken up in the middle
of the night to discover his father crying over a picture frame in his
study, amid the stacks of paper.
Maybe that was why he was so afraid of dying,
too. Not just for the unknown beyond, the void, but for what he would
be leaving behind. He didn't want Mari to discover their father crying
over mere pictures at dawn, either.
"Tell me more!" the little girl asked, almost
shouting in enthusiasm. Touji tried to smile, and went on.
This was why he'd accepted.
* * *
An Angel. Another one.
Hikari stood by her window, staring out into
the darkened geofront, at the omnipresent shadows and the chains of artificial
lights that glittered like necklaces strewn on the ground.
Her back didn't hurt so much anymore; that
was good. And her legs seemed to have improved somewhat. She
was exhausted, having driven herself to stay up for the entire day, walking
around and around. Her legs ached fiercely, but she ignored the pain,
knowing that they would only get better if she tried.
For some reason, she felt herself longing
for Unit-15, the white monster that probably stood at silent attention
in the Cage, unused. She wanted to do something, to help them
kill that Angel. She hoped it wasn't hurting Asuka or Shinji like
she'd been hurt.
For the last time, she looked back at the
lake and forests, and half-walked, half-stumbled back to the bed.
She was asleep in minutes, her body too physically tired to support her
thoughts.
* * *
"Do it!"
Shinji's shout rattled around the inside of
the command centre as Unit-01 flipped the resisting Angel onto its back,
pinning it to the street. Once again, the Angel had attempted to
penetrate the entry plug, hammering down onto it from the side of another
of Tokyo-3's many structures.
Thanks to Shinji having perceived it at the
very edge of his field of vision, Unit-01 had just squirted out from under
it like a bar of soap just as it first made contact. Then as the
Angel hit the ground hard enough to shatter the concrete into flying shards,
the purple Eva deftly reversed its movement and smashed its entire weight
into the side of the creature.
Kensuke was awed. He'd never even seen
Shinji move like that in his own body, let alone in that of the Eva.
Unit-02 was standing over them in an instant, knife at the ready.
Asuka dropped her Eva to one knee, lending all the mass of the gargantua
into the force of the strike. The blade sank in up to the hilt, and
light began to spill out of the cut with the blood, lighting up the buildings.
As she dragged the knife downwards, towards
herself, the Angel's body began to sag open, revealing an heretofore invisible
core that was cracked along one side. Seeing this, Asuka brought
the orange-lit blade flashing upwards into the dying rays of the setting
sun, and back down into the Angel with all the power Unit-02 could generate.
Screaming in pain and defeat, the Angel writhed
one last time, then detonated upwards in a broad meniscus of pure explosive
energy that bulged at its apex and fled to the heavens.
It wasn't until the entry plug was withdrawn
from the purple Eva's spine that the full extent of the damage was readily
visible. A definite spider's web of cracks emanated from the top
end of the white oblong, and LCL was leaking noticeably in places.
Still, Shinji was unhurt and conscious, and
unlike the last time, when his entry plug had been shattered, more than
a little alive.
Nevertheless, he couldn't help wondering how
close it had been this time. If he hadn't managed to evade the Angel
at the last second, he could have found himself in hospital or worse.
Asuka, too, upon entering the Cage, started to scold him for allowing himself
to continue with an entry plug in that state.
"I couldn't tell!" he protested, before being
silenced by her lips covering his.
"Don't let it happen again, okay, dummkopf?"
Shinji found himself nodding mutely and meekly,
agreeing.
* * *
Light streamed in thick, glorious bands from
a cloudless sky into a room whose inhabitant would, without a doubt, soon
be returning. Early spring air, blowing gently through the window,
stirred up and swept away dust, refreshing and rejuvenating it with a cool
draft.
There was still no life there, although the
very anticipation, the revived hope and dreams, feigned it suitably.
Asuka thought she could feel it, too, a rising warmth that infiltrated
into her from the very room itself.
She stood at the threshold, looking in as
the morning sun lit up the entire dwelling as one, as she entertained thoughts
of having her friend back in the apartment, among them. She could
already imagine Hikari's efforts to bring herself back up to speed on the
homework and material missed in class.
A pair of hands wound themselves around her
waist, as she stood before the doorway, to embrace her.
"Thinking about Hikari again?" This
time, Shinji didn't have to comfort her, and he was relieved that at least
this would no longer be hurting her as it had for so long.
"Hmm? ...Yeah. It'll be good to
have her back."
Looking at her, Shinji found a gleaming spark
in her eyes, fully restored. He smiled. It was enough for him.
Kissing her, he reminded her breakfast was ready.