Reflections Essays: Seiya Kou

 

Unrequited Love

            That’s a funny little phrase, isn’t it? I certainly never thought I would fall prey to such a thing. But, then again, though, I never thought I’d meet someone like her either.

            I never even used to think about girls. The only girl I would ever live or die for was my princess, the one I had a duty to protect. That was my life: to serve and protect. And I was content with it. But, that day in the airport changed my life forever. The moment that she glanced at me over her shoulder, my heart stopped, and I knew my life was just beginning.

            I pursued her endlessly and she always turned the other way, always babbling something about destiny. It was only later that I found out she was destined to become the queen of the Earth. Whenever she talked about this destiny, though, I always noticed this haunted look in her eyes. Almost sadness. Like she didn’t want her fate.

            Once in a while, I would catch her blush while in one of my flirting moods and I would have to wonder if she actually did like me...But, then she would mumble ‘Mamo-chan’ and pull away from me. Who is this ‘Mamo-chan’ that she seems so sad to be with? Why does he cause these tears for my Odango? Why wouldn’t she fall in love with me instead? I once told her that I wish we could have met sooner. Would things be different then? Or would she still have those pained and burdened eyes?

            Why do you cry, Odango? Do you feel trapped by your destiny? Do you want to break free of your cage? I will break it for you, Odango. You don’t want me to? Oh, the only way out is death? But, then you would be reborn and the cycle would start over again...Either way, we can never be. Is that it? Tell me Odango: Am I not good enough?

                                    The End.