Chapter 13

~ Dee ~

-          How many times must I say sorry!, I said sitting next to Clay.

We had a talk through out lunch, with him not being very pleased with what Buffy and Karlie basically did, to put it in his words, it made him look like a blind fool.

-          Dee don’t you get it! How would you feel the girl you loved cheated on you more than once and your new girl decided to broadcast it all over school?, Clay said pacing around his living room.

-          I knew they were doing it. They were trying to get her back for hurting you so much., I said looking out the window into the garden.

-          Dee I don’t know., Clay sighed looking at me.

-          Don’t know what?, I asked confused.

-          If I can do this…

-          Do what? Be together?. I asked shocked.

-          Yeah… well not at the moment., Clay said quietly.

-          Well tell me when you can! Ill just save myself till you just call., I said sarcastically.

-          Dee don’t be mad., he said to me.

-          What ever! See you later!, I said as I stood up and walked out through the door.

I just don’t understand him. I thought to myself as I walked home wiping tears from my eyes. At least I didn’t give him the satisfaction of seeing me cry. Jesus, why do I have to screw things up? No, why do my friends have to? I didn’t do this! I didn’t make the tape! Natasha choose to cheat on Clay and Petey decided to be sick minded and taped her doing something she shouldn’t. It’s not my fault… Yes it is…

-          Dee where have you been?, Bek asked as I walked up to my front door.

-          Talking to Clay., I said looking out over the flowers.

-          What happened?, she asked like she was reading me like a book.

-          Clay blames me!, I said crossing my arms over my chest.

-          You’re kidding me?!, she said shaking her head.

-          No I’m not! And if you guy’s hadn’t done this, we would be together!

-          What?, Bek asked laughing out of shock.

-          You know it too!, I said trying to get past her.

-          Don’t let a guy interfere Dee!

-          Why? Because you guy’s stuffed up?, I asked still trying to get to my front door with Bek standing in front of it.

-          You know we didn’t! Don’t take your anger out on us! Don’t do something you will regret!

-          Like what?, I asked pushing her back.

-          Don’t Dee! Don’t even dare doing it!, Bek said shaking from anger.

-          Just get away from me! Just go away!

-          Fine!, Bek said putting her hands up before walking next door to her own house.

-          Was that Bek outside?, my mum asked me.

-          Yeah…

-          Well isn’t she coming in?, she asked.

-          No she is not!, I said walking up stairs to my room which looks into Bek’s room.

I don’t believe this! Clay hates me, Bek hates me, do the others too? I don’t know why did I ever have to be friends with these guys! Maybe because I can’t live without them. We are all alike even if I won’t admit it.

-          FUCKING HELL!, I said as I fell onto my bed.

I got back up and walked to my window to see that Bek was throwing things around in her room. Soft toys, clothes. Shit there goes a book through the window.

-          Don’t you think you could be mad a bit more quietly., I said leaning on the windowsill.

-          Mind your own business!, Bek said looking at me madly.

-          What ever!, I said sticking my finger up at her as she was leaning out her now broken window.

-          You know what? I can’t believe you can blame us for your problem! Clay’s just mad! He doesn’t mean to say what he said, and not to mention you! God you come along guns blazing! You of all people, you’re normally little miss rational! Well don’t get me wrong Miss "I’m-Suffering-From-PMS-Today-Of-All-Days"! You said it was a good idea and you knew we were doing it! You could have stopped us and don’t go blaming peer pressure. Cause you sure as hell know that ain’t the reason!

-           Well sorry!, I said sarcastically.

-          You should be! We may have done something but you did too!, Bek said pointing at me.

-          I didn’t put that video on!

-          Either did Buffy or Karlie! Someone grabbed that video and put it in that VCR! Not them! They were with you when it happened! So yeah they got the ball rolling, the video was just next to the right one, not our fault they picked up the wrong one!

-          I get it okay! I’m sorry okay!, I said looking at her.

-          Told you!, Bek said smiling.

-          You’re a psycho!, I said looking at her.

-          You are who you hang around! Speak to you tomorrow., Bek said laughing.

Chapter 14