Truth to the Insane

It’s obvious to one who is always in others business that something is wrong with my family, but nobody notices. When I was really young, about age five or six, my parents divorced. My mother took my little sister with her, leaving me with my father.

At first, everything was all right, you know, I thought the only reason he started drinking was because that he missed my mother. Yet, after a year, his drinking increased, his smoking also increased.

I remember, once that year, sitting in the bathroom, going pee, and my daddy walked in, drunk. I smiled at him, but my smile was erased when he walked up behind me, his pants at his hips, pushing into me. I hissed, staring back at him in shock, but he put a rough finger to my lips, whispering in my ear.

“It’s alright, Katsuya, this is okay. A lot of daddies do this to their children, no need to worry…”

Those words echoed in my ears, even today as I stare at the teacher with hazed eyes. My father has gotten worse. The twice a month rapes have become twice a week rapes, his one carton smoking a week has turned to one carton smoking every two days. The booze has piled up in the living room.

He began to beat me, the other day again, something he hasn’t done in months. He thought it was funny, watching me towering under him, crying. It’s hard to take now, I can’t take anymore.

I need to get out of the house, not by going to Yugi's or Honda's, not even Anzu's, but away, for a good long while. I don't know where I am going to go, anywhere would be good.

So, I sit in class, staring at the teacher, I haven't blinked since class start, and the hour is almost up, my books still sit under my desk intact, and my frown is still there. All of the notes handed to me to either pass on, or to read myself, are still on my desk, but I dare not open them.

The bell rings, and I do not move, I continue my stare as several students stand and leave the class until I am the only one there, students entering. I hear the teacher yelling my name, yet I do not respond to it. I refuse to respond to it. The teacher is freaking out, grabbing my arm, but I fall over like a pack of beans, not moving from where I fell. I hear the sensei cry for somebody to get help, but it all sounds smashed together as I am carried and lied on her desk.

It is strange, last I heard was that Katsuya, that puppy, was shoved into a mental home, and still unresponsive. Something was up with him after I handed him a note, trying to get his attention for his little friends, yet he stared into space. I should have known something was wrong then, but I ignored it.

The boy was sent off, on a stretcher when I last saw him. He neither blinked, nor groaned as lights were shined in his eyes to see if he could still see.

Being my polite self, I have decided to drop off his math homework at the asylum, it's dingy there, and walking up some stairs and stopping at the floor the pup is kept in. Like a dog pound here, but I am not adopting anything. I walk in and walk towards a plump, middle age, woman, asking her where Katsuya was. She points towards a couch where the comatose puppy sits, another man next to him. It seems to be his father, the way I hear him talk to the boy, but I can't hear him and decide to wait until he is finished before I walked up to the puppy.

It was almost an hour when the man got up and left, and I was getting impatient with waiting. I walked over to the blonde, slamming the books on the table. But, he didn't jump, wasn't startled, and just stared at the plump woman, who gave me a weird glance.

"God, puppy, you've really gone off the deep end." I muttered, sitting next to him. He doesn't turn to me, so I take his hand. I have time on my hands, might as well get my problems to an almost dead guy.

"You've got it lucky." I start off, staring in his direction. "No school, don't have to take care of your sister, don't have to listen to anybody." I look at him, but he seems undaunted by this. "Was that your father? He seems nice, I wish I had a father..." Leaning back, I took a breath. "You don't know how lucky you are."

"You are going to be the only person I've ever told this to, I need to get it off my chest, and since you are probably not listening anyway, who is it going to hurt?" I smiled, laughing at what I am doing. "I was adopted. All know that, god, they know little about my life. They think my stepfather was a saint. Well, he's not. He use to chain me to a desk, forced me to study."

"Explains a lot, huh?" I stare at him. "If I wasn't forced to study, he was beating me because I did SOMETHING wrong. Or he had been hunched over his bed, and he was raping me..." I took a deep breath, staring at the ground, grabbing his hand again. "I am jealous of you pup. You have a father that loves you...I sometimes wish I could be like you, no big responsibilities. Not taking care of my little brother, protecting him, making sure he gets a good nutrition. Clothed him, shelter him, educate him, love him. I don't even remember when the last time work and school gave me a free time to pull him close and hug him. If I do have free time, he is at a friends, or playing games and doesn't want to be bothered."

Closing my eyes, I feel tears in my eyes, but I push them back. "I as well need a place to be, some place where I can think. I know that is what you are doing in there, you've completely locked yourself to get to understand what is going on with your life." I sighed, touching his hand. Telling him more secrets about my past. I want to hear stuff about him for some reason, why he did this to himself. He always seemed happy to me, why did he want absolute closure?

The woman walks up to us, smiling and I stop talking, looking up at her.

"I'm really sorry, hun, visiting hours is over, and so you are going to have to go home. I know you can come back tomorrow, or when time allows. I think it is nice that somebody just comes and talks to him, not about coming back to his senses, but about what he needs to hear, some truth." She smiles, taking my hand and leading me down towards the elevator. "My name is Torrie, I am here always, so I'll let you talk to him whenever, wherever, if this room gets boring." She walked back to the desk as I thank her walking into the elevator.

Staring at my watch for the first time, I was shocked. I stayed for two hours with the pup, minus the hour his father was there talking to him. I just knew I was going to be up late working, but for some reason, I feel as if these two hours have been the best in my life.

A little girl, only seven years old, and her face were burned. She never told me what happened, but she is stronger then even I, which is scary. I've never once seen her smile.

I've sat next to Jou each time, going over things. I believe I've told him my whole life, how stupid my co-workers are. Mokuba's first food fight with me, I also told him that I don't always act as cold as I look. I just don't think he even realizes anything that I have said.

Today, I sit next to him, his hand is in mine, he still looks blank, and his father sat across from us, His name is John I discovered, but I still didn’t know much about him. The mutt and I didn’t talk until he left that afternoon, when I muttered how his father must have been a saint, school was doing this to Jou.

“No, it’s both.” I heard from beside me. I turned and faced where the voice came from, staring at Jou with wide eyes.

“What did you say, pup?” I asked, quietly.

“They both did this; I need time, to think. You don’t really know my dad, I have to get away from him.” He whispered, I jumped up, rage on my face.

“You’ve been playing this whole time?” I yelled, but he pulled me down, Torrie looked up at me, then back down at her magazine, figuring her mind was leaving her. I glared at Jou, about to chop his head off. “What were you thinking? Playing crazy.”

“You don’t know my dad, he’s like your stepfather, Seto.” Jou whispered. “He’s gotten worse recently, but I can’t go back, you have to understand at least that.”

“What do you mean worse, worse than Gozaburo? Nobody is worse than him.” I whispered, at least trying to keep his cover, I mean, he looks different here, somewhat.

Torrie starts walking towards us as I take Jou’s hand, whispering in his ear. “Squeeze once for yes, twice for no.”

Jou squeezed my hand once.

“Now, if I left a notebook here, would you write what you are talking about it.”

He squeezed my hand three times.

“Maybe?”

Once.

“Well, if I do, and your dad is bad, can I send it to the police, or protection services?” I ask.

Twice.

“How are you boys doing?” Torrie ask us, staring over Jou’s empty face. “I’m sorry, it’s dinner time, and we need to get him to eat.” She reached out for Jou, helping the blonde to his feet. When they leave, I quickly run to Jou’s bedroom and leave a blank notebook from my bag on his desk and leave without being seen.

Walking out, I began to wonder; I’ve been here everyday, why haven’t I seen Yugi? Or any of the other dirtball friends of his, might as well stop by and see why.

“Are you one of Yugi’s friends? If so, he’s not here.”

“Where is he?”

“At Jounouchi’s.” He smiles, walking upstairs. “It’s so nice that Yugi has friends now.”

Jou’s? But Jou is in a hospital, what is he doing at Jou’s apartment? I walk out, sitting in my limo and sighing, I’ll ask him tomorrow at school.

Walking over to Yugi, I pulled up a seat, and he stared at me. “Why haven’t you visited Jou recently?” I asked, Yugi’s eyes widened.

“I…I can’t. Look, just leave us alone.” He raises the hand, asking to go to the washroom, when he has permission he runs out of the room. Yami stood up, running after the small boy.

Anzu! I walk up to her, asking the bitch the same question to her. Anzu started crying, saying she wants to, friends should be there for friends, but she can’t.

I asked all of the mutts friends, the same answer out of all of them, they couldn’t. Why the hell can’t they take two hours out of their busy lives and visit the distressed blonde! I was, and those two hours could be used to work.

Why the hell was I spending time with the blonde? Oh great, the boy was making me soft.

When I retrieved it, I was more than happy to actually retrieve it, and sat in my library reading everything it said. Luck was on my side that Jou actually wrote in it.

You asked me to tell you what was my problem. I guess I can tell you, least I could do for all you’ve told me.

My mom and dad divorced when I was six, taking my little sister away from me. I remember that day clearly, because that night, my dad began to drink.

I know that drinking isn’t that much, but about four months after, I was using the bathroom, and my father snuck up behind me. He rubbed my ass, telling me not to speak. He keep saying that all daddies did that their kids, and being my naïve self, I didn’t speak as he raped me right there.

After that, I would wait in my room at night for my dad, to make me feel loved, even though what he was doing was wrong. When I learned about virginity, and said something about it to my friend, I had asked my dad that night if I was a virgin. My dad said I was, claiming the only way for boys to lose their virginity was to have sex with a girl, doing it anally didn’t take virginity. So we continued it up.

Now, I don’t mean we fucked every other day, we did it twice a month. He began beating me when I told him to stop, it went from slaps across my face to breaking of bones.

I began to fear him recently, when he started raping me twice a week, and smoking and drinking much more. I realized changes were going to happen after he sold me to one of his workers, then another. Recently I’ve been fighting back, and the beating has become much worse.

As well, my dad brought together all my friends after I came here, threatening them to leave me alone. Yugi and Yami were threatened, he strangled Yugi, and swore to Yami he’d finish the job if he even thought of anything. Yami must have wanted to mind blast my ass of a father, but doing so would also kill Yugi, so he was forced to agree.

I don’t know what he did to my other friends, but none are coming over, and he says that none of them will stand up to him now

well, might as well finish this. You can see the reason to why I gave up with staying with him. I was afraid, ‘cause if I die, who would help Shizuka? I guess I have nothing to do but go to bed and wait for another day, bye.

P.S. If you fucking tell ANYBODY, you can be sure that I will bring you to your death!

I sat back, rubbing my temples. Jou’s father did such things, and if I told anybody, Jou would make sure I never saw daylight again. Yep, I’m afraid of the blonde more then the vultures I work with.

Getting up, I yawn and walk to bed, the blonde in my thoughts.

Stopping at the side, Jou stared down at the cars, smiling as I stared up. He turned to me, sitting on the roof, silently. “Now, what did you want to talk about?”

“Come with me…” I muttered.

“Where?”

“To my place.” I stare at him, he stares at me, shaking his head. “I can’t, dad will come look for me there.” He sighs, dropping as the door opened as he father walked in.

“Ah. There you boys are.” He smiles at us. “I’ve been looking for you.” He picked Jou up. I noticed Jou tensed, but his father did not. They walked away, leaving me behind. I guess Jou isn’t coming to my house to protect himself.

Seto had a point, I need to get out of here, this place is also going to drive me crazy, never talking, hardly eating, playing dead. It wasn’t hard getting’ out of the gate, but I had to hide when I saw my dad’s car drive by. The only thing I forgot was I am running around in white with no shoes, and also no way to get to Seto’s, all the way through town.

Finding a payphone, I had to call up the operator, begging that Seto would accept the charges. It seemed he did when I heard an annoyed voice at the other end.

Hello, Kaiba speaking.

“Hey, Kaiba…” I breathed, staring around. “Please come and get me before somebody finds out I’m gone.”

I hear his breath hitch, and he confirms he is on his way, in the less noticeable car he could borrow in such short notice. He probably had to bribe some employee to loan him their car.

I waited behind a wall when a car pulled up, a beat up old Chevy, I heard the door open and Seto call for me in a weak tone, I crawled out behind the wall I hid at, quickly getting’ in the car and ducking as my dad’s car drove by again, him calling my name.

Jou sat close to me, ducking in my shoulder as a car passed us on the road to KAIBA CORPS. I needed to return this piece of shit before we went back home, I already filled it up, and the employee seemed more than happy to loan me his car.

“Why did you change your mind about leaving?” I asked him as we passed the gatekeeper to the garage of the company.

Pulling up to a stop, I stared at Jou without even waiting to get out, he didn’t respond, just sat there staring distantly. “So?”

“I had to go.” He muttered. “The place is just to hard, they are trying to get the truth from me, and I was about to crack.”

I slapped my head. “Man, when they find out your with me, I’ll have such a law suit on my hands.”

He snorted, I knew what the snort meant. ‘you can pay for it’, damn, it was true I could, but that was beyond the point.

“Look, pup, if you are going to stay with me we need ground rules. First off,” I glared at his thin waist. “We are going to get you feed, and you are going to eat.”

He nods, and his stomach growls in agreement. “Dude, I was playin' dead, well sorta, if I want to eat, I would given my lie up. They jabbed me with needles to feed me.”

I understand that much, but not much. “Second, I’m your master, got that?”

“What do you want, a dog?” He grumbles.

“Damn straight.”

His eyes roll, and I smile at it. Sitting back, he sighs. “What else, something else is on your mind.”

“Another? Well, you will sleep in my room, of course.” I smiled, where did that come from? His eyes widen, facing me. “The whole master/slave thing.” I explained. He gave a small ‘oh’, nodding. “Alright, lets go return these keys.” I got out of the car, he followed me. “Oh yes, we need to get you clothes, you look like a devil in saint clothes.” He stares at me, only to nod.

Goodie, all I’ve ever needed a life-sized doll.

It pains me, watching Jou lie next to me in bed, completely covered up by blankets, asleep. I sit back, watching the news, like I do every night, normally just for the stocks. Several reports about Jou missing had gone by, and nobody had seen him. I just knew it, I am in so much trouble when caught.

“Turn it off, Seto, please.” Jou begs, covering his ears. I do as he says, sighing as I laid down and stared at his honey eyes.

“Are you feeling okay?” I ask him.

When we came back and I made him meals, he slowly at a platter of food. Normally he could eat something in five minutes, but it took him almost four hours just to eat that. He explained to me then that the only reason he ate all the time with his friends was because he never really ate at home because his father always ate dinner at bars, and there was nothing at home for him to chew on.

“Yeah.” He muttered, staring up at me with a smile. He pushed some blankets down, moaning to the heat as he curled up in a ball. “Just tired.”

“Go to sleep.” I get out of bed. “I have to go check on Mokuba anyway.” I walked out of the room to check on my brother.

It took a while when I got home to explain to Mokuba why Jou was over, then to beg of him not to tell anybody where the blonde was staying. My little brother agreed, running to greet Jou.

I walked in, tucking the sleeping boy in and kissing his cheek, my little brother swatted me, groaning about “jerks, that’s my ham sandwich!” I had to contain myself from laughing as I walked back into my room and got into bed next to the sleeping blonde.

(He pushed me down, yanking my pants to my ankles. I cried out at him, kicking as much as I could, but his hands wrapped around my limp, yet hardening, penis, pumping it up. His lips captured mine, thrusting his tongue through my mouth.

I let out a scream as his fingers thrusted into my entrance. Sure I’m not new to this, but it still hurts like hell as he thrust his fingers into me, my breath disappearing as his fingers were removed and he entered me with his own hard on, slamming me to the ground.

Upon the pounding to the ground, I could hear him calling me worthless, telling me over and over that nobody would want me because I’m used. Tears began to melt from my eyes, making me weak as I realized that he is right, I am a worthless piece of shit, and whoever wants me later are just REALLY desperate.)

I wake up with a scream, which startles Seto awake, he sits up next to me, staring at my weak face as I break out crying. When I do, he pulls me towards him and sooths me in his arms, telling me over and over that everything was okay.

“What happened?” He asks me, rubbing my bangs.

Sitting against him, I stare over the room, panting. “Oh god.” I gasp. “Dad. He’s after me, he’s right I’m worthless, why are you helping me?” I stare at him.

His eyes widen as he pulls me closer to him, capturing my lips, for the first time I believe. I lean into the kiss, I guess this can explain everything, he’s helping me, ‘cause he loves me. Even if I am used, he still sees me as innocent, and I am alright with that, forever and…ever.

Letting me go, he stares into my eyes, smiling. “Besides, if I don’t help…” He mutters, “Then somebody else would get this beauty, and not me?” He asks, and I have to smile as he pulls me into a closer embrace.

Gasping, I layback as he lays on me, rubbing my chest, his fingers rubbing my nipples, pinching them lightly. I arch my back, involuntary, it feels so good, and I’ve forgotten what pleasure really was. His groin rubs against mine, my eyes widened lightly, thinking of it.

(He rubbed against me, making me hard, his hand reached down groping me.)

Seto reached down, taking my hard on in his hands.

(“Stop,” I cried to my daddy)

Rubbing me gently, his lips were tender against my lips, but I started to cry, thrusting my hips up. Tears trailed down my cheeks, my breath came out hard. “please…stop…” I cried.

He looked up, stopping what he was doing, staring at me with shock. “Puppy?”

“Please, no more daddy…” I didn’t mean to say that, it came out as I tried tensing up, more tears leaving me. Seto got off me, pulling me close to him.

“It’s okay, Puppy, it’s just me…” He whispers in my ear, bringing me back to the presents, he pulls the blanket over me, and kisses my cheek. “No more, not until you are ready.”

He pulls me closer to him, wiping away my tears.

Walking in class, I sigh, dropping several notes on the needed desk, each say for their eyes only. Anzu stares at me as I sit at my desk, getting ready to tell the teacher I’m going home today, with some work to do.

Yugi and Yami are reading over their invitations, staring at me and just nodding, the rest are doubtful, but they nod anyway, being that they are permitted to come in to the mansion.

Raising my hand, I leave, staring at them with a smile.

I stay arm-in-arm with Yami as we walk with everybody to the Kaiba House. We all don’t want to go, but we might as well, maybe he can tell us how Jou is doing at the hospital.

We would all have gone ourselves, but Jou’s dad invited us over, and Jii-chan forced us to be polite and go. When we got there, he pulled me away from Yami, grabbing my neck and yelled that if either of us showed our faces at the hospital, he’d kill us. He proved it by strangling me until I collapsed back against Yami, I could tell Yami was about to mind blast him, I don’t know why he didn’t once he got me back, but we walked home, and haven’t seen Jou since he went crazy.

Ryou was straddled on Bakura’s shoulders as we walked, his wrist were bruised, possibly from Jou’s father as well, because Bakura came over cussing.

The door was open when we came by, a butler smiled at us, leading up to the back rooms. “Master Kaiba has been expecting you guys, as well as his guest.” He explained opening a door. Guest?

We all walked in, our eyes looking over the small den, stopping at Seto on the couch, working on something. On his lap, however, was somebody we all wanted to see. He was asleep, his mouth open a bit.

“JOU!” I yelled first, running over to the blonde. Jou jerked awake, coughing twice, his eyes widened when he saw me, sharing the embrace I wrapped around him.

“Keep quiet Yugi.” Kaiba whispered to me. “I’m trying to make sure his father doesn’t find him here.” He smiles at me as Jou pulls me close, cutting off my air circulation. Everybody, by now, is around him, embracing him. Except Bakura and Marik who sit in the back, but they are glad he is back.

“Hey, Yug’.” He rubs my hair.

“You’ve been here!” I ask, grabbing his hand. “They had the cops at my place, tore everything apart looking for you.”

He pulls me close, sitting me on his lap. “Seto’s taken care of me, we’re sorry about all this, it’s just, hard to live at home, and it would be obvious if I ran to your house, so I decided to go to a hospital.” He explained. Yami picked me up, pulling me close as I smiled.

“At least it is nice to know you are not sleeping in the road.” Ryou smiled, turning to Kaiba. “Thank you for taking care of Jou, even though you guys are the greatest of friends.

Kaiba only nods, but I can tell there are something more then just acquaintances. We sit around and talk to Jou, leaving slowly one-by-one, just knowing his is safe. When Yami and I decide to leave, Jou and Kaiba lead us to the door. Jou hugs me one last time, Yami thanked Kaiba for the help, and then we leave, both of us smiling once more.

Turning around when Yugi and Yami are out of view, I jump Seto, kissing him deeply, dominating over him. It feels nice, being around him, and one of these days, I will be open to him, so he can take me to the unbeatable realm of pleasure, but until then it is good enough to lie with him next to me.

“Are you hungry, puppy? We can order out, I’m sure pepperoni pizza sounds good.” I smile at him as he walks me to the kitchen and dials himself. When the pizza arrives, so does Mokuba, who sits between us and gulps most of it himself. When he is done with half of the pizza, I finish my first, and Seto rushes him out of the room.

Smiling again, I stare over him, feeding Seto a pizza. When he is done, he feeds me a pizza, licking the dribble that slides down my chin.

“Thanks Seto.”

“For what?” He stares at me, chewing on some crazy bread at hand.

“Taking me in.”

“Anytime pup.” He smiles.

I place on my running shoes, kissing Yami one more time as I run outside. I ran every morning, it keeps me in shape, Yami stays at home to help my Jii-Chan and work at the shop.

We’ve been dating for some time now, but I am still a virgin, because we only kiss. We’ve made a deal, or at least I have with Jii-chan, to keep my innocence until the wedding night. This promise has been held, but sometimes we wish to do more than just making out on the couch.

While running, I normally think about Yami, him smiling at me. I don’t need to wear the puzzle anymore, so it stays at home, we can communicate without it, but he can’t take over my body.

I hear a car drive behind me, but I ignore it while I run, but the car begins to honk.

“Damn it!” I cry, I am not the one to cuss, but it is annoying me. “I can’t move over any further, I’m on the side walk, use the road.” I continue running as the car stops a few feet ahead of me. I stop as the door opens, jumping back when Jou’s father stares at me.

He reaches out, grabbing my arm and yanking me in the car. The door slams behind me, as I begin to cry out, yelling for some help.

“Shut up, and talk.” He starts up the car, driving down the road.

“About what?” I glared at him.

“Where is Katsuya?” He stares at me, slamming on the breaks at a light and glaring at me.

I snarl. “I don’t know!”

He pulls over to a hiding cliff, parking it in the depths of a rock so nobody could see us. He glares at me, grabbing my wrist. “Where the hell is he?” He asks again and I turn my head, snorting. He is starting to get angry as he pulls a knife, I do the best thing I could, running out the door.

My feet hit the ground, my heart was beating against me as I ran down hill, falling twice. I heard his foot steps behind me, making me jerk back as he pushes me down, sitting on my legs, I let out a scream as his knife digs into my throat, but doesn’t slice.

“Now, I ask again. Where the hell is Katsuya, I know you know where he is. Speak now, you little brat!” He dug the knife a bit into me, tears fell from my eyes, but I said no nonetheless.

He is getting irritated, but I don’t think he really plans to kill me, or he would have done it already. His smile show, as if he knows what I am thinking, laughing, he removes the knife from my throat, cutting away my clothes.

“Trust me boy, you aren’t going to like this if you don’t open your mouth.”

“I-I really don’t know where he is!” I cry, watching his fingers push into me entrance, I let out a scream as he pushed two others in, stretching me. I screamed out, calling for Yami, but the pain stopped me.

“Do you want me to continue?” He asked me, I shook my head no, but didn’t answer. I can’t tell him anything, I want to though, it hurts so much. He gets angry at my quietness, shoving his dick in me. My eyes widened, my voice hoarse as I scream one last thing.

“HE-HE’S AT KAIBA’S, JUST STOP! Please…Just stop!” I feel bad, giving out on my own friend, but it hurts so much, I can’t move my legs, and I want to die. He smiles at me, tapping me twice on the cheek and gets up, walking away as I stare up at the sky, my eyes closing as I hear talking of another runner.

My pup snorts as the phone rings, waking us out of our peaceful sleepy states. I pick it up, hearing Yami’s broken voice asking for Jou, handing the phone to the pup, I yawned and lied back, closing my eyes while listening to my pup talk, his voice breaking as well.

“A-Alright, we’ll be right in, t, thanks Yami.” He whispers, shutting off the phone and putting it back on the chargers. He gets out of bed, pulling on some clothes. “Seto, you need to drive me to the hospital, Yug’s there!”

I jump out of bed as he breaks out crying, walking out of the room. What could have happened to the short boy that he was in the hospital.

When we got to my car, Jou sits in the passenger and stares out as I start driving. “What happen?” I finally whispered.

“Yugi was raped, by my dad.” He whispered, broken.

“What?”

“Nobody knows why, he’s still unconscious.” Jou whispers, crying again. “This is all my fault, I shouldn’t have taken the easy way out of my problems, now all my friends are in danger.”

I couldn’t believe he was saying that, he was scared, and saying he should have stayed with his abusive father. We stop at the hospital, Jou ran ahead of me, up to the room where Yugi is held. Yami is up waiting, he seems to have been crying, and nobody was permitted in the recovery room.

Jou sat next to Yami, asking for more details. Yami tells Jou all he knows, before he breaks down, crying into my puppy’s shoulder. I stand back, watching as the door opens, and Mr. Motou and Yami are permitted to walk in the back room, Jou follows as close friend. Sitting back, I rub my eyes as all of their friends walk in, I explain to them what’s going on, and they sit down, sighing.

My Aibou is laying on the bed, several cords in him, he’s breathing weakly and is still asleep. This is all my fault, I shouldn’t have let him run alone, should have gone with him. Jou sits next to Yugi, rubbing his hand, Yugi moans awake, staring at Jou, then breaks out in tears.

“I’m sorry, Jou.” I hear him cry out, staring into honey eyes. “I told your father, I freaked.” He whispers, broken. I’m confused, told what?

“He knows where I am?” Jou asks, his eyes widening. Yugi nods, his grandfather rubs Yugi’s cheek, telling him to calm down, and explain what’s going on, I, myself, want to make sure everything is alright.

Jou is blank, he walks out of the room, telling my aibou it’s okay. I can’t help it, I sit next to my aibou, pulling the boy close to me, rubbing his arms. He stares at me, sighing, I know what is on his mind, and plan on answering it, unsure how to explain I still love him, even if he isn’t a virgin anymore.

I watch my puppy leave the room, walking right past us, following him, we stop at the entrance of the hospital when he finally stops, crying.

“What is wrong, pup?” I asks him, he stares at the door, sniffing.

“He knows, Seto!” My pup cries, I grab his arm, but he fights back against me. “He knows where I am, I’ve gotta get out of here!” He cries, running out of the hospital. I follow him up until I lose track of him.

He’s yelling at me, my dad stares at me, but he is smiling that I’ve returned. He grabs my hand, pushing me against the couch. My fist rises, knocking his cheek, but he doesn’t care, he ties my arms above my head, rubbing his hard-on against me.

I’m starting to harden under the touch. I gasp as he pushes into me, hitting my prostate. Yet again, I couldn’t move he would only beat me. I lay my head back as he pushes in me, ignoring him. I picture it as Seto, pushing into me, his lips on my neck.

Seto wraps his fingers around my hard on, pumping it up, making me moan, squealing a bit. He stares at me, whispering ‘I love you pup’, smiling back at him.

“Seto!” I cry as I release.

My dad stares at me, his eyes lower as he slaps me, thrashing into me again. His dick hit further in me that I see white, something in my chest hurts as he slaps me, knocking me unconscious.

A light, a shiny light is in front of me. Damn, they told me at school not to go into the light but, I see next to the light a younger, happier, Seto. I walk towards him, he smiles at me, taking my hand. Looking down, I see my five-year-old self, my innocent self.

\Come on puppy, they have games!\ He smiled, walking in the light. I follow him, he’s so happy, maybe I can be happy in there.

/Okay, Seto/ I smiled.

I stare over some paper work on my desk, sighing. Jou never returned last night, I went home, and he wasn’t there. Drove off to all the places he could be at, and he wasn’t there either. I gave up, around one, and today went to work.

He was serious, he was going away, but where could he have gone? I miss him already, that stupid blonde, leaving without saying goodbye, even though I loved him.

The phone ringing cut off my thoughts. Sighing, I picked it up, accepting the charges. I listened to a man speak to me about Jou, when he says that the blonde is dead, the phone drops from my hands to the floor.

“No.” I whisper.

He can’t be dead, he is just playing. Right? Fooling around with us. His father didn’t kill him, never killed him. “You can’t be dead, Jou.” I whispered, tears leaving my eyes.

“No…”

FOUR MONTHS LATER

Children sat in the yard, playing with toys, special workers sitting with them. Seto sat next to a little girl, reading to her, his hand in her hair, rubbing it down as he read about the little puppy.

It was his newest projects, and it was his favorite one yet. It was for his lover, the one who would never know it, the one buried in the back yard.

A journalist walked up to him, smiling. “Hello, Seto Kaiba? My name is Sarah Greenman, from FOX news, would you like to give a few words about this home?” The camera shined in Seto’s face as the small girl dug for shelter in his shoulder.

“Yea,” Seto whispered. “This place, is dedicated to a friend of mine, Katsuya Jounouchi. His father abused him, and I knew he wanted to see people, just like him, getting a better life. Not in a hospital, or with the abusive person, but in a place where the people loved them.”

“Is that why you called this place “Katsuya Loving Arms”?” She asked.

Seto nodded. “Yes, all for him, the least I could EVER do.” He smiled, watching the small girl walk off, carrying her doll with her, the doll that was all that remained from her own. “The last dream he could get, and to help the children that needed it, the way he has helped me.”

“How has he helped you?”

“More ways, but, he shown me a light, that nobody else has ever done.”

“And that is?”

“That kindness can be in the heart, even in the worse of moments.” Seto whispered, walking away. He stopped at Jounouchi’s grave, sitting next to it, his hand rubbing the end. “All…for you…” He smiled.

END