ColourPhobia
15.11.2006 MON 04:21PM
Hm. Just wondering... if anyone will notice if i make another post.
Haha. If you're here, this blog is pretty much dead, so don't expect much even if i seem to have returned. I guess there's just not much i want the world to know about me or my thoughts. And my life is pretty boring.
Anyway, ever had that feeling where you know that something's not going to last, and even though you're in the moment, you already feel like you miss it? I came across this line in a novel: nostaligic for the present. I read it and i knew exactly what it meant. It's just a passing thought; that sometimes you recognise a moment for what it is, something good that you're not going to have again, or have often, and that recognition is precisely what prevents you from enjoying it fully, because you're already thinking of how it will be gone soon. Ironic, isn't it? Don't know if you understand what i mean, but hope you don't think i'm crazy... heh.
ADDED NOISE:
A Perfect Lie by Gabriel & Dresden (Remix)
31.07.2006 MON 09:29PM
Alright, i suppose i could make another update. really, my life is so boring that whatever i write would just put you to sleep. Don't get me wrong though, i'm happy and content and using up my time in all sorts of ways, but i doubt you would really want to hear about speech therapy and coffee talks. If you get me started, i'll talk your ear off. a word to the wise!
Anyway i am looking forward to school. Maybe not looking forward. That's a bit too much. More like, i am ready for school. Phonetics and Phonology, Language and Cognitive Processes are the modules i'm really waiting to get to. Hoping that what i've seen during my internship and at the centre will help me out. And i really want to find out more information about autism. I know what it looks like, but not really what it is.
See, there i go again. It's like all that interests me now is speech therapy and all things related. I've become a boring, one-track minded nerd! Must join the rest of the world. Must regain some semblance of a social life.
Lately, i've been really stuck on the lyrics of Imogen Heap's Hide and Seek:
where are we? what the hell is going on?
the dust has only just begun to fall,
crop circles in the carpet, sinking, feeling.
spin me round again and rub my eyes.
this can't be happening.
when busy streets a mess with people
would stop to hold their heads heavy.
hide and seek.
trains and sewing machines.
all those years they were here first.
oily marks appear on walls
where pleasure moments hung before.
the takeover, the sweeping insensitivity of this
still life.
hide and seek.
trains and sewing machines. (oh, you won't catch me around here)
blood and tears,
they were here first.
mmm, what you say?
mm, that you only meant well? well, of course you did.
mmm, what you say?
mm, that it's all for the best? ah off course it is.
mmm, what you say?
mm, that it's just what we need? and you decided this.
mmm what you say?
what did she say?
ransom notes keep falling out your mouth.
mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut-outs.
speak no feeling, no i dont believe you.
you don't care a bit. you don't care a bit.
ransom notes keep falling out your mouth.
mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut-outs.
speak no feeling, no i don't believe you.
you don't care a bit. you don't care a bit.
you don't care a bit.
you don't care a bit.
you don't care a bit.
you don't care a bit.
you don't care a bit.
I just love it. And the music. The voices. What's that word that hui uses? Earfuck. Pardon my french.
ADDED NOISE:
Hide and Seek by Imogen Heap
25.06.2006 SUN 09:50PM
Wow... i think i've really lost interest in blogging. Although for some reason or other, i can't seem to let go of it completely.
Hey! A CJ reunion at the tagboard! *waves* Yes nik is cool for linking us all up... the rest of you should start up blogs too, so we can keep updated :). Ven, thanks for inviting all of us to your birthday party.. it was good to catch up with those who came! I must say though, the JC days feel so far away. It's amazing looking at where everyone is now and how people have changed (or not changed), and thinking about all the things that have happened in between.
My internship's over, and it was GREAT. The best internship that could ever exist. Really. I'll definitely be going back to visit from time to time. For now, i'm starting this volunteer thing at a private speech therapy clinic for autistic kids. Tmr will be my first day. According to the therapist, what i saw at SGH was nothing compared to what i'm going to see in the next few weeks, and she hopes i won't be scared off speech therapy. Hmm.
Oh, and i'm 21 now. Which feels the same but apparently i'm more liable in the court of law. No real thoughts about it actually. It's just another number, right?
ADDED NOISE:
Cast No Shadow (Unkle Beachhead Mix) by Oasis
26.04.2006 WED 00:27AM
I GOT THE INTERNSHIP!
Something to occupy myself with during the hols. I get to thicken water, photocopy materials, try stuffing a tube down my nose... not to mention look and talk to very pretty speech therapists all day. Haha. Three days of it and i bet i'll be complaining BUT for now i'll declare and gush about it all i want. I GOT THE SPEECH THERAPY INTERNSHIP AT SGH!!
ADDED NOISE:
I Like That (Stop) by Jae Millz