It all began when I tried to take some other bus back home and thus took bus 155 whereby I had to change bus but it's better than walking from Siglap Rd to my home. I got onto the bus and met a gorgeous student. I purposely sat two seats behind her so that I could view her back and admire her from behind. The problem was whenever I saw someone real beautiful I tend to forget the beautiful face, which I really do not know why…

And that was how the first time I noticed her.

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1 year later, I was introduced to irC. I met a lot of ppl there and I really didn't thought there was a chance for me to meet her. It was then from irC I came to know a gal call Jane, she is really a nice sweet girl. And so I began to tease around with my friends that there's this "chio bu" in this class that we are passing the next period. And as we walked pass her class, there she was, the one whom I saw in the bus, 2 seats away from Jane. And as we joke away I slowly memorized the number of seats and direction she was away from Jane. As I got back home, I asked Jane for the name of the mysterious girl and her name is Tessalyn- A very unique name.

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And there at the moment, I remembered chatting with someone with that name the day before. Thus I looked around my room remembering that I've stored her hp number somewhere, finding it I SMS her with a hp supposedly bought for my brother for his birthday (which I regretted as I was the one who really wanted one and end up using it for myself, sorry bro) and from that that day onwards, we chat non stop, sometimes even for the whole night.

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On our very first date, I picked something great looking and went out with her. The starting was fun but soon when it was time for us to part as she told me she was going to meet another net friend. I felt lost and all the wonderful feelings gone… and I dragged my feet home. As I was about to reach home, I was unsatisfied and thus I gave her a call, surprised that her meeting with the net friend was an awful one; we then decide to meet again… I was so happy that I exploded my way onto meeting up with her again. As we stay near each other I waited for her at her house's bus stop and we went on with our so-called first date…

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On that day and from our chat I've come to know that she was a very carefree person and only like acquaintance and not lasting friendships and thus I asked her to be my god sis so that I could at least keep in contact with her. But she rejected me saying "Why not someone closer than god brother?" and there she left… the first hint. Which I didn't catch, I was disappointed. But still we remained in contact, which cheers me a little.

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From that day onwards we met up at her house's bus stop and went to school together, I still remember the way I had to wait for her maid to stop accompanying her for the bus to get close to her. And after school, I would wait for her patiently and then go back to home together. The thoughts of those days are such good memories that I really hoped time could just pause for the two of us.

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However the official date we announce ourselves, as young couple, was the day after sports day while I was walking my way home, exchanging SMS. She was very encouraging then, and I asked her the magic question. Yet it was then just the spark of the fire on the matchstick. Few days later, the symptoms of break up appeared. She came to my place and I broke down in tears. It was the first time I cried over a girl. From then I found out that in her heart a large portion was on her ex and how the mistreatment of all stuffs -The 1st breakup.

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Nevertheless, we still got back together later the night. From then I've also discovered that she really hate men that she would play around with them like toys cause she was having a fling with a few other guys besides me then. I was hurt but firmly determined to change the way of how she think by showing her care and concern. On the other hand, in the process of doing so, I've hurt myself emotionally and physically.

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Thus, every morning I woke up earlier then her and got to her place to wake her up, (at then, I got to know her mum and maid le) I had to wait while she got ready for school. At the end of my lesson I would stay back while waiting for her…. Those were the days.

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Yet in between, we had on and offs break-ups over her uncontrollable emotions over her ex. And I still remembered at one time (35th or so time we broke up) I swore to her that when I tear the piece of our first neo card I would start to forget about her and hardened my heart and lived on. And as I tore it up, I cried as I walk back home from her place. On returning home, she called me up asking if I was okay. Sounding concern, I regretted tearing it up the neo card and was in the state of confusion whether to fulfill the swore or to break it. Thus I remained quiet faking that I was all right. She knew I wasn't and thus cried out; it was then I knew she truly cares.

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Even though after that she carried on her flings while I remained forgiving and patient determined to change the way her thinking. With lots of love letters, poems, songs, love, attention, sacrifices and understanding I've finally changed the way she feel about men and was madly in love in this girl. We had our smooth sailings for some time even though having a little quarrel in between. I would say those were the best times of our relationship. These memories both of us share and I guess kept her by my side for quite a long period of time.

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Then again a few years later on my birthday, she starts expressing her unhappiness. At that time I didn't know that she wanted my attention despite the whole attention I had been giving her. Perhaps I spoilt her I would always tell myself. However it was from then on she was getting on my nerve, seeing her upset yet unable to do anything about it… I felt so helpless for the first time in my life… and this dragged on for a long time. And I guessed I'm numbed to her complaints that I would spike her back.

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And so some new guy came along, at first I was really unhappy, but I remembered that she's been hurt and need someone to trust in her. And thus I trusted her in any way possible though sometimes I had my doubts. I guess the reason we ended up like this was because she felt ignored and that I had no time for her. Anyway about the new guy whom she is with now and I did not do much retaliation, I really hoped that she would be herself then and find happiness with him. Reason? There's this gap in between us a mysterious big one with lots of reasons. Besides if we were really meant to be I believe time would tell us the mysterious explanation for this to happen… maybe 2 years or so we may think that this is just a child play or anything, I would like to let u know something…. That is, you are someone who really made a great impact in my life negatively and positively… and most important of all someone special….

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I would always remember the things you've done for me that has touched and motivated me. Even though some are small actions, you really made me felt for the first time… so loved….

A few things both of us have learnt in this relationship, communication, patience, trust, understanding and most of all love are the vital things in a successful relationship.

Our communication failed, my patience ran out, there was lesser understanding between us; our trust between each other was being tested. But one thing stay unchanged is the care and concern we shared…

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ps: i'll always remember the sweet stuffs u did for me, such as:

- Collecting 2 whole boxes of 1 cent coins for me after the quarrel with Swee Jia, knowing that i collect 1 cent coins.

- Pampering me with stuffs

- Every sweet little kiss that landed on my face (as u seldom do that)

- Correcting my speech errors... etc etc