I asked myself over and
over again on why do I have to do things to
make others happy when I am not receiving
anything. Yes its true what people say about
giving and taking, but for my case, I just
gave away too much.
After months of losing the
one I loved, the pain is still inside of me.
Its hard to get over it, but I am not going
to let that control me. I know she is still
around me, just that she can never be with
me, even though we wished we could. Its a
very confusing relationship if you ask me.
It just brings back memories to think about
it. I have lost my path ever since things
started to fall. I have been walking
aimlessly without a clue of what I will get
myself into. So much of temptations but I am
keeping my guards up.
I had made a vow to myself.
That is, never will I be a slave to anyone
or anything, let it be in existence or not.
Never will I back down without a fight on
the ones who wish to destroy me. I am not
going to follow a path that has been walked
through, but I am going to make my own path
and walk on it all by myself. I don't need
protection, I don't need sympathy and I
don't need this tortured life. I have my
confidence - the strongest tool for Mankind.
If I overcome my fears, anything is
Soon, things would be darker
on the outside when you are alone. So be
afraid when I call out your name. Think
again if you want to hurt me, because, you
might get burnt just for having that
thought. I might sound evil, but you should
not be scared of me if you are not guilty.
I have lost my love, my life
and my path. Its time for me to build a
stronger kingdom. I could feel the burn
inside of me waiting to flow out like hot
lava. The urge to take what is yours is just
too great. Never will I lose anything again.