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27th August 2004
Listening To : De Nuit - All That Mattered Time On My Computer -
My day passed in a blur ... And right now @ home.. I seriously can't really... remember any thing that happened today.. maybe kind of indifferent but.. maybe I'm just too numb in camp these days.. today's 2IC last day and I didn't even find him to do an ' proper ' farewell ... should u be seeing this.. " All the best in KAD n S.A...and see ya soon before you jet off... ! " ...
Afternoon... was only talking crap with Sgt Ang and Sgt Lee... and did not even take my lunch.. no appetite at all.. only ate one of the 2 curry puffs I bought and some prawn crackers... played with the 2 crickets Ang bought from his house ( to accompany the praying mantis in Surv. Office )... anyway...
The praying mantis had already ORD-ed from life and Ang said that... ' Careers Ended ' - some phase from the WWE do not try this @ home catch line...
After that... I forgot what I did.. visit the washroom, visit to the Guard Room - Goh JunRen ask for my advise on his ORD planner )... went to Storage office to find no one inside... Surv. Office to watch VCD for 13.79 minutes... and took the bus home... I think.. any more... I'll lose my mind ....
and now... My leave forecast is sort of in a mess... cause of this 5 days working thing... now.. I'll have 2 sets of forecast.. One with leave on Saturday.. and one without... any solid plans to do what during my clearing leave period ?... sad to say.. Yes N' No... ... .... so...nothing much really.... stoned and standstill ...
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25th August 2004
Listening To : Billy Joel - Keeping e Faith Time On My Computer - 21.55
so... what's not my current State of Mind / Life.. would be strike out...
01. I miss
somebody right now.
I went to the hospital today this afternoon... It's the X ray on my head... my scheduled time was 13.45.. I got myself registered @ 1.20.. and.. I waited till a good 2.30 .. standing outside the X ray Rooms... till my turn..
They made me lie down with my head in the center of a huge ring... after the first X Ray.. they injected me with some kind of medicine.. which helps to get a better image of the scan... and it hurts !.. and after the whole procedure... my head felt heavy and... develops into. a slight headache.. again ..
For this month alone.. I've got around 4-5 MAs @ NUH and seriously.. I'm sick of visiting that place.. and today.. while waiting for my time chit outside the X Ray room.. I say one elderly lady on the push-able bed with a drip... and she's screaming... and saying some weird weird sentence... I don't know what happened to her.. but.. her relatives kept on calming her down...
What a sorry state she's in... She was young before and look at her now... her youth was gone... Maybe one day.. I'll just end up like her.. lying on the hospital bed yelling nonsense loudly not in the right frame of mind.. ? I don't know... 5 trips too many to the hospital made me seen so much such sad patients...
and Vincent's Grand Ma's still in ICU right now.. in fact... she's going to have an operation later on... or maybe now ?... to think that the last time I saw her.. she's still in the pink of health ...
anyway.. on another note... 5 more working days to Clear My Leaves ! .. another new chapter ...
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24th August 2004
Listening To : Electrico - The Story Of Slantboy Time On My Computer - 20.03
What a sin ... I realized that.. I've bought myself.. 7 CDs ! SeveN ! ... I couldn't believe it... and I've got 3 more on my list above... Mansun's 4th EP, ' That music shop ' CD, Music from Milano Fashion CD2... and I think.. I should just give up on Scott Weiland's solo CD...
1. Elva Hsiao -
Beautiful episode.
Electrico ? - oh.. that's a local band.. which makes it my second Local Band CD I've bought... after Observatory.. Electrico sounds more heavy.. definitely a more guitar riff driven album as compared to the humble jazzy feel of the observatory...
How I wished I had a stable band to play in.. Transportation is a problem.. Getting a slightly 'more' committed drummer was another.. Money is another problem.. The type of songs I'm into differs from Mah n' Jeremy.. Time?... another problem... Getting someone to sing.. is another... How I wished that we could play among the crowds over at Far East Plaza... They're like.. always having fun out there...
Work today was not working at all .. . sort of refuse to do anything... except for the morning clearance for the duty team... and bought my Sept i-D magazine along... but I ended up reading Eric's ' The Five Persons You Meet In Heaven ' book... It was a pretty good book.. and the office became a library...
Colonel was doing his ' Deception Point ' ... Me on i-D magazine... Sgt Lee was dashing through ' Da Vinci code ' as is Ah Du... Ah Hong was finishing his ' Digital Fortress ' and Robin was reading his comic book.. as our main librarian ( Wo Peter ) went down base...
Almost every single issue.. there's always an Q&A section.. and this one made me laugh..
if you were invisible or a day.. what would you do ?Throw pies in the faces of Bush, Blair, Chirac, Berlusconi, Sharon, dance naked around Pope, make the Windows code public, steal crown jewels, Spray paint a moustache and goatee on the Mona Lisa, Smoke Fidel's cigars, make love to Madonna and break Sting's guitar...
What a busy man !...
and If.. you're interested in the full set of questions...
1) what single thing would you improve your life?
2) if you were invisible or a day.. what would you do ?
3) what would you take to the streets to protest about ?
4) who is the most inspiriting person you've met and why ?
5) what would you do to make this world a better place ?
6) is there anything that you'll refuse to buy on principle ?
7) what makes you smile ?
8) what's your
biggest hope for the future ?
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23rd August 2004
Listening To : Placebo - Centerfold Time On Planet - 16.15
Where Art Thou?
" From Straits Times a few days back... "
Installation artist Virginie Barr startled visitors to the museum, France, With her unusual works . Titled Starting Game, they are intended to disorient visitors.
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21st August 2004
Listening To : Kelly Chen Time On Planet - 22.11
Tokyo is a city which makes me wants to go back... Maybe.. It seems more lie a curse rather than a gift.. * LOL * ... Sometimes many times.. and I sometimes many times wish I'm born a Japanese... I may sound terribly silly to make that statement... and I might had sub consciously said that just... too many times ?... I think I sound really sick saying all these... * LoL * ...
Morning in Shinjuku...
I missed getting lost on the Yokohama subway... I missed walking that road to hide Museum.. I missed sitting there along the stretch of hide Museum.. enjoying the sea breeze.. I missed the Japanese curry rice I ate..
It's like.. one of those mini restaurants where you'll sit along the bar top looking towards the kitchen area... in a double ' U ' arrangement... 580Yen ( 8.9 SDG ) for a bowl of Udon... When I was there... I think they might be like.. having a promotion of so.. and we ended up getting 2 bowls of Udons for like.. 600 Yen.. hmmm....
I missed those bright neon lights in the city... I missed the gigantic maze of zebra crossing in Shibuya.. I missed breezing through the gigantic Takashimaya @ Shinjuku.. called.. er... Times Square?.. I think it is ... There're Kinokuniya and HMV inside..
8-9 Storey Times Square ...
lf I'm not wrong.. below the stretch of shopping complex on the left is the Shinjuku JR station's entrance and I remember crossing this road the first morning .... all alone to Yokosuka...
I missed the sights of those pretty girls in Tokyo.. ( and who says there isn't any in Tokyo ? ) ... I missed the sights of those red bulbs at the side of those sky scrapers blinking at night.. I missed getting around on foot at Shinjuku at night... Oh ya.. did I told you before that I stumbled into a AV DVD shop in Shinjuku... * LOL * .. and in case you're wondering... I did not buy any ...
I missed visiting those massive guitar shops.. Nowhere else.. I've seem... THIS much of Gibson Les Paul s in.. a single room .... kind of freaked me out a little...
Oh... Our plane flew past Mt. Fuji ... hahhaa.. cause it's like kind of reflected on the screen ahead of our plane seats...
a stolen picture of the beautiful Shinjuku Skyline..
Harajuku's slopped down shopping street... taken by JiaMin
it's just too bad that I did not own a digital camera when I was there 2 years ago.. I could had taken so much more pictures back then... So much memories I wished to capture... so much more...
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19th August 2004
Listening To : FAKE? - Dreamlife 6:13 Time On Planet - 21.30
I work for an organization. They are rich. They are filthy rich. That time.. they had a donation thing going on. They wanted our money. They wanted our money from our Hard - Earned peanuts salary. They had strongly encourage us to donate. They even set a benchmark for us to hit. Perm Staffs have to donate a minimum of $12 ( ? ). While for us...I couldn't be bothered to find out. I would only want to donate $2. ... I would boycott any events organized by my organization... so.. I donated $2.. to save myself from getting into trouble from them...
Time passed... The ass up there breathing fresh air doesn't seemed to be too happy about the amount collected... and he had also seems to forget that... " No Charity Drive are to be Forced ! " ... So.. he called for a dialogue session with some 80 - 90 ++ throughout the very very effective organization he's commanding... he might be ' brainwashing us ' into donating more?... all I know is for sure...
Before his dialogue session begins.. We.. Slaves.. had to accompany our dear big shot .. for a run... In the name of leading a healthy lifestyle... and .. ironically.. the fund raising event's concerns running... Seriously ... I really don't understand the logic behind his egoistic mind.. sometimes.. Even with my fear of bad Karma.. I'll curse that motherfucker to die of a fucking tragic death...
I've seen so so so many high level-ed shithead being a hypocrite in front of the masses .. It's being Fake @ it's best... I really pity my colleagues who're going to suffer under those blood stained hands for another year... Never they'll understand what shit we slaves are... and for them.. another day is just another day in the office... " The Air Up There... "
Tuesday... after a long day's work.. I received a call.. or rather.. a missed call from Vincent.. he wanted company to Bugis to pass his pay slip to some person who's applying a card on his behalf.. but.. we ended up @ Chinatown.. cause that person had already knocked off..
bla bla bla... bought the CDs over @ the ' Keo Sai ' cd shop.. Elva Hsiao and Kelly Chen's latest CD.. pretty cheap.. 16+ dollars only... Vincent got himself 3 CDs.. inc. the latest Jay's CD at .. $6.50 ! It's a steal !... of course .. without the MTVs and shits... but.. $6.50 for a Original CD from Sony...
Taken over @ the rear of the driver-less Train ...
The thunderstorm last night ...
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15th August 2004
Listening To : Air - Playground Love Time On Planet - 20.11
My weekend was kind of bleak and yet... sort of refreshing... Could had been better if I was on off for kinoo ( yesterday ) .. but.. thanks to all those officers in higher places... I now face a ending NS life crisis of shortages of OFFs...
SO .. practically
slack in the office reading my ' Virgin Suicide ' .. and decided that my ass
got too heavy to move that day... and took a well deserved nap in the
afternoon to catch up with my sleep... woke up to find a ' missed call '
from
Anyway... asked me if I wanted to join her and Lina @ RC for a game of pool... and I suddenly realized ... " Are billiard and pool getting into fashion again?! "... I politely declined saying that... I promised that I'll join them for the next session... and as of yesterday... I owned Poh Lay... 1 pool session... 1 wakeboarding session... and.. 1 talking cock session @ JP ....
Enjoyed my boring Saturday afternoon / evening slacking and playing on my X Box.. Watched the ' bonus ' section of my Lost In Translation DVD.. and screen-ed shot a few pictures of the beautiful Tokyo's Nightscape......
.. sms-ed Vincent if he'll be free around 12 plus... to play guitar... and my printer failed me.. after so many futile attempts to print the scores out... damn...
Join by ShuFa.. we played our wooden six stringed shite underneath the pavilion in the neighborhood park ... He'd just mastered ' GoodBye ' by hide... Which seems to be pretty easy of variations of the chord A ... but what an appropriate song ... ' good bye ' ....
for me... saying ' Good Bye ' to the days of wearing filthy green to work... and farewell to Vincent.. who's leaving our shores on the 16th Sept... of the the deserts of the States... Anyway ...
1/2 way through our session... we saw one group of people walking and settled down over at the pavilion some 12 meters beside us... one of them armed with a guitar too... @ one glace towards them in the darkness... I would had safely said that they're Malay kids hanging around...
... as we eavesdrop on what they're playing ( on their guitar ).. we couldn't make out what they're singing.. .. Shu Fa said that they were aliens.. Vin say they were Chinese ( he heard hokkian )... I think they're Malay? and later... I thought they were Thaïs...
But never mind... as the night aged and Shu Fa took a cab home... leaving us in the dead of the night with the mysterious group beside us.. and suddenly.. Vincent heard a familiar tune that they're playing... some pop Chinese songs... but.. they wasn't singing in Mandarin...
Being a Gung Ho person.. .Vincent walked towards them... to my astonishment.. and the group of them instantly became Vincent's guitar teacher... or rather.. Our teacher for yesterday... We came to know that they're from Myanmar... came here as a painter in Tuas Shipyard.. they're pretty nice people and offered us a cigarette from Myanmar.... * LOL *...
Playing along to the tunes of Chinese / English Hits... ( They sang in Burmanese ( wrong Spelling? )... as we Sang / Hum / Whistles In Mandarin or in English ... It was definitely a fruitful experience... One of them.. ( couldn't remember his name ).. could even do and decent finger plucking speed intro of Hotel California.. ! ) ... and came to learn that they held degree in Physics.. and Chemistry and other disciplines.. but... ended up as Painters in a Shipyard ?! ....
hmmmm .... we made a pact to meet up with them next Saturday night... to learn some good sing-along guitar songs from them ! ... and Charles's quote to me came to mind... " When the student is ready.. the teacher is ready ... " ... - something like that .... * LOL * ...
Yorokon De - Happily , Tsumaranai - Boring ...
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13th August 2004
Listening To : FAKE? - Clean Time - 20.05
Ok.. today's Friday The Thirteen !.. good thing nothing much major happened in camp today... damn tired... after my running session... ok ... many many more more.....
Here we have... Our true blue Singapore Hero ! ... Royston Thang She Bangs.. Let me see... interests.. .playing violin !?.. hmmm ..... hmmm ... Books - .. Bible ! wwoohhooo ! ... " Es-Pe-Aia-lly comfort me when I am at my worst period..." and many many more more? ...
I think... about his playing the violin might seems .. like.. err... Our dear local product... fabricated idol.. " Huang Yi Da " .. posing with hide's Yellow Heart Guitar... and strum and singing sissy songs? ... hmmm .... P.O.S ! ... Poser !
But one thing I truly believe about him reading .. many many more more book... is.. 100% true.. He'll bring a 4.10cm thick book to camp .. and does he read them?... Lord Jesus knows.. and kept discussing about his promising career with the Chemical...no.. isn't it.. business?... no no... isn't it... Mass Comm. ?.. Oh heck.. who cares what he IS studying now .... I think he's also studying many many more more different course ... * A Busy Man * ..
and he asked many stupid questions... and could speak to you.. in 10 sentence of lines... and what normal people need... is to say only.. one line.... That Day.. he went up to WO Peter.. saying.. " .. bla bla bla... I need one DCC guy... bla bla bla... I need to look after this ... bla bla bla... bla bla bla... "
as we're all listening.. we couldn't really make up what he.. really wants... and later... all he wants is.. one of the DCC guy stay in DCC to escort the contractor... so.... all his " bla bla bla bla... and bla... " .. could just be... " I need one person to keep an eye on the contractor... "
which I felt it was stupid... Including the officer.. there're 3-4 of us inside the office.. so.... I think he read too many books that one of the fuse inside got burnt...
I think he'll be able to get in the record books... Someone who walked and knocked himself into the pillar of the shelter link way ... during broad daylight... and the thing is that ... he wasn't running along the linkway...
he's walking.. and " PPOONGGG ! ! ".... and we saw Thang She Bangs with his hands covering his eyes... apparently the impact was so big.. that destroyed this specs and bleed... I think he read too many books to the extend of ... ... losing himself in the real world ?
So.. ladies and gentleman.. .let's us welcome Roystan Thang She Bangs... the all time favourate ambassador of The Book Worm Society.
Hello.. I'm Thang She Bangs... I'm a nerd.. and I think a lousy one.. So.. please give me a chance.. Reading is my passion... and I love to talk big.. and often hallucinate I'm entering the NUS and NTU... I even bought the 10 year's series of SAT test to camp.. I know you all laugh at me.. never mind.. I'll prove my worth !.
My ma ma told me not to smoke.. but.. I just like it... and my new moustache.. isn't it cool?... I'm cool... I'm Royston !... I love to read many many more more thick thick books... even I don't understand .... I want many many more more ! ! ...
ohh I loved Christmas... and I'm sad that... My teeth !... is deformed !... I know that it's the result of my own doing... and I hope I'll be forgiving for my sucking thumb habit...
Time had past and I gave up... reading... my eyes and brain couldn't take it no more... and I have shaved for 20.6 years... god save !
many many more more.. many many more more...many many more more...many many more more....many many more more...many many more more..many many more more....
WE WANT Royston .! We Need HIM ! ...
would our hero be able to save the day ?.. couldn't care less... ORD loh ! ... You all young PUNKS.. slowly serve !.. bye bye !
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11th August 2004
Listening To : Chopin - Polonaise in A Major Time - 19.30
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8th August 2004
Listening To : Inoran - Felicidad Time On Planet - 19.43
When I first got down from the Narita Airport bus to Shinjuku some 2 years ago.. This is what I immediately observed.. Red light bulbs blinked along the edge of the taller building.. It's just ... beautiful.... This picture was just taken moments ago.. through the live web cam... SG time.. 6.03pm... Tokyo time.. 7.03 ...
The Tokyo Ferris Wheel ! SG - 19.42 Tokyo 20.42
I snapshot this picture today morning at Tokyo time 5.52am.. Singapore time 4.52am...spotted this baseball field staff re-marking the field with the white stuff ... Live Voyeurism ?... but I thought it's interesting... Oh... that day I saw them having a game live... hee....
So.. I'll screen shot the next time when they're playing baseball... and for now... I've spotted people playing street soccer ! Tokyo - 19.53 ... I would guess they're playing inside a school compound... ...
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7th August 2004
Listening To : Cardigans - Erase / Rewind Time On Planet - 22.34
today.. wasn't a bad day ... in fact.. was pretty good.. slept till 12 pm this afternoon... went for a supper / fagging session with Yaohui... over at the 24 hrs coffee shop...
I had Beef Steak.. and the serving was kind of small actually.. for a 5.60 meal.. and business was SO good.. that Yaohui's simple order of a $2 fries and $2 nuggets wasn't delivered to him.. even when I'd finished my steak.. anyway... got ourselves a packet.. and it's the second time.. that I've luckily got the picture with blacken gums and teeth...
and went home.. slept around 2am plus.. and today.. actually wanted to ask Nicole and Z.C out for a drink... but.. I'll made that decision to stay @ home.. to complete the freelance drawing that I should had completed ages ago... oh well ...
Chatted a bit with EvOn ... and I've identified that the best month for me to visit Tokyo.. should be around late February ( till the temperature isn't so low.. ) ... till say... maybe early April.. ( should FAKE? decides to have a gig in April.. ) ? I've even found 3 sites with live web cam ! ... live ! .. Tokyo Towers... Ferris Wheel... ... and the rainbow bridge... .. wish I'm there ....
Intensively served the Web looking for websites about Fashion Photography... searched for Local boy .. John Clang.. and I must say.. what a great webpage he'd got.. He's had that.. one in a million rags to riches story... started as a novice in Singapore.. went to NYC.. and got big.. and in case you might be interested in John Clang's work ... http://www.johnclang.com/
Slacked for the afternoon.. went to get myself bottle of drinks and snacks.. would be on a night train later... and today .. I'll be all alone at home... * yeah * ! ( My family had all gone to Batam for vacation... ) ...and watched TV.. a Taiwan food show program visiting Singapore.. and they went to have the Ya Kun toast !....and to the Long bar... for the original Singapore Sling..
and went on to play my guitar... practicing along to the tunes of FAKE? and Gn'R... and.. tonight.. was the first time ... I've played till I had blister on my fourth finger.. the worst thing ever happen to my finger was just skin peeling... but today.. the strings gave me 2 fresh blisters.. and ... also for the first time.. my left hand felt slightly numb .... but after playing... felt so refreshed... wondered why ...
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6th August 2004
Listening To : Placebo - I'll Be Yours Time On Planet - 22.04
The Fifteenth Enochian Key
Ilasa! tabaanu li-El pereta, casaremanu upaahi cahisa dareji; das oado caosaji oresacore: das omaxa monasaçi Baeouibe od emerajisa Iaiadix. Zodacare od Zodameranu! Odo cicale Qaa. Zodoreje, lape zodiredo Noco Mada, hoathahe Saitan !
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5th August 2004
Listening To : Smashing Pumpkins - P.O.T.V.O Time On Planet - 23.03
and I'm just browsing the past CDs I've burn... came across so so many pictures I've taken over the past one or two years.. and I thought It might be great to do some here...
Taken inside Jeff's Car in Kota to Mersing. 1st or 2nd May 04
Taken from a Archi Magazine .. ' means.. return back my hills and rivers... ' ... actually refers to... ' return what it belongs to me rightfully ... '
My Favourate KPF office in Singapore ! 18/3/03 18.59
A Picture of My Studio SP Blk W5A... a cozy corner that I loved to sit at.. 13/3/03 12.58
A very Nostalgia clock in my friend's house.. seems to have transported me to the black and white... 12/6/03 12.26
Sleeping soundly ....
Out Of Order
My Messy table.. pencil, floppy disk, photograph, Translink Card... and the spectacle case...
It's easy to guess who in the world did that ! ...
The very day.. we're caught... 011103
Inside the tiny green box...
and his shoes went down from the 3rd storey ...
Choose your key... to unlock the secrets within yourself ...
and .. Just in case you wondered who number was 666... It's said to be Satan's .... ...
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30th July 2004
Listening To : Goo Goo Dolls - Name Time On Planet - 17.09
Yesterday was 2Ic's chalet.. over at one of those beautiful and enormous chalet at Changi.. and earlier in the morning.. I went for my MA @ NUH and I could be officially discharged from the clinic.. means.. I need not return for consultations and blood test..
Which is not a bad thing.. considering I've been visiting the clinic from the start of my NS. .. and now my NS is ending... I could no longer enjoy free sessions... but.. my shits at NeuroScience's starting... and... hope that consultation fees aren't too high ..
After my MA... hook up with the usual suspects and took a train down to Tenah Merah to .. hook up with.. another group of usual suspects.. and took a cab down and.. met up with.. another group of usual suspects over at the chalet ...
Played with 2IC's dog a bit.. she's all so cute. .. unlike those dogs who seems to bark every minute and every seconds.. like those battery operated toys.. and her hair's so soft ... very adorable.. I wished I could ever own a small dog... but.. I ... couldn't even earn that kind of money to feed myself... let alone another life ....
and suddenly.. I realised I've been having my migraine.. every single day ! .. from Monday to Thursday.. from the right side.. to the left.. to the right... and.. to the left.. the pain just switches side everyday... sickening... very... sickening ...
If not for my stupid headache.. I would might just stay overnight at the Chalet yesterday... since I'm on OFF today for the whole day ... cause ( the chalet ) it's like... just by the sea.. I might get a good view of the sunrise... but again... I did not have my camera along... hhmmm .... * whatever * ...
Currently In Service
Left to Right... Col.Quek, Ranseur, Andy Ong, Psycho Lee EC, Birthday Boy Aves, Me, Sp Lim, Poh Yong Koon-Ster, Ang, Choong and Jason in white... Sgt Tan in green.. Chia WC, and Ying Yang in red...
Booo ! those ORD-ed Personals... BOO ! !
Mah MH with cap.. Melvin behind, Ben Au, Aves, Tanner ( uncannily resembles Boy George ) .. Ever-young SBT in red.. Nick in white, and Gqoo and Mak KW in black behind...
Boy George... so sorry Tanner.. couldn't help it but to do a Boy George Picture here... LOL ! ...
Pictures taken from 2IC... sir.. you won't mind right... : )
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27th July 2004
Listening To : Matchbox 20 - Bent Time On Planet - 20.49
" Base it and waste it on what you know ... "
hhhmmmm ... For today... I kinda enjoyed myself in camp.. ( doing absolutely nothing ) .. knowing that my days are .. pretty much numbered... Sometime... I felt A- Ok... sometime.. I felt like sh*t... and I'm confused on how...
I should feel... Bittersweet ?.. beats me.. think I'm affected by the ring thing a little too much ... I felt like screaming out but... It turns out to be a silent scream that no one hears... and had migraine since 12 plus... feeling a bit shitty now... drowsy... and Suddenly..
I felt like a little kid once more.. I seems to be too amateur for the world.. Like a kid who refuse to grow up to the reality of this world.. I'm just felt like... I'm in the eye of the tornado.. everything surrounding me seems messed n screwed... I'm felt sort of calm... Maybe I'm a little numb that's all ... or.. forgotten how to feel ... or rather.. Don't dare to feel ... such a * Lame Shit ! *
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25th July 2004
Listening To : Cartola - Presio Me Encontrar Time On Planet - 20.39
Racing with myself in the tunnel of the broken dreams... those merciless cool wind brushed their fears on my ears.. so .. what's on the mind of the onlookers.. ?
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I've never felt so refreshed for the longest time... although I wanted to stay at home for the whole of yesterday and today... well.. Today I'm at home for the whole day.. and for yesterday ... hee hee ...
When I reached home from a busy day at work yesterday.. took a break and switched on my comp and saw Mah on MSN.. chatted for a while.. and he asked if I wanna come out for coffee... because I've got drawings to do..
So.. the earliest I could meet him was... around late evening... but... * Shit * ... It's a Saturday !... and since I'm feeling a little little ... low... I think I might just head town for some Retail Therapy instead... and Nicole found a term for that... was it ' Retailrapy ' ? .. * heh * ...
Shopping in town was increasing bored... too much crowd.. too little ' underground ' shops selling cheap Tees... Shopped around aimlessly.. except some usual spots... and we took a train down to Bugis / City Hall area....
Japanese Curry Rice
it's around dinner time.. and we decided to have the Japanese Curry Rice for dinner... and in case you might be wondering... we're not returning to that Japanese restaurant we frequent... we went over to Stanford's House ' Curry Flavour ' ... specializing the Japanese styled curry rice... It should be good..
I ordered some ... it's like a chicken cutlet kind of thing.. but the catch is... there're melted cheese... YES ! ... melted cheese between the patty ! ... and the curry like.. comes in a containers resembling a Genie bottle.. those Aladdin kind shape...
and the first bite.... I felt a little disappointed... as discussed with fellow Japanese Curry expert... the ones we had's like.. .a good blend of local styled and the spiciness ( of the spice ) of the Japanese Styled... although Mah enjoyed the mixture of both styled.. I beg to differ...
I am a fan of Japanese Curry rice that's more... fragrant.. more spice and not really that hot... the ones I had over at ' Curry Flavour ' seems to be too hot for me... sort of numbs the spices...
So.. now the Ranking for Mah... First - Ma Mansion Second - Curry Flavour... For me.. ' Curry Flavour ' doesn't deserve a second place... it should be third for me... and my all time favourate Japanese restaurant... Ma Mansion's Curry Rice.. comes in first ! ... * Clap Clap ........ .. *
Jenson a.k.a Chinese Hero.
after that ... with our heavy stomach.. we went over to Bugis Junction to find Jenson.. and In case you might also be wondering... I did not walk pass that restaurant ...
He's working in the.. ah.. is it Bossini Shop?... He seemed shocked as well as delighted upon seeing us.. I mean.. He's like so positive into his job... He greets his customers loudly... I mean.. loudly.. " HELLO.. WELCOME ! !... " ... and " BYE... SEE YOU AGAIN ! ... "...
so loud.. I could almost feel the sound waves just beside my ear ... while we're both like... hmmm ... If we're working there... We're probably like.. stand there in a corner... and not greet EVERY customer... and even we greet.. it'll be in a much softer voice... Jenson... was very positive into his job.. and.. we're terribly ... impressed ! ...
Lazy Sunday
Woke up around 11.30am... and yesterday went to bed around 2.45... felt so refreshed... sort of like... finding myself back again.. today up my room and table .. and clear my computer's hard disk by burning them into the CD... hmmmm ... and that took me quite some time...
What A Sunday !
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21st July 2004
Listening To : FAKE? - Clean Time On Planet - 22.45
Date : 24 January 2004 - Scene of crime : PLAD Sentry Post .
OC Parade...
That day might be my all time high... 21 victims in the picture and around 5 - 6 of them.. either their bodies can't be found.. or being destroyed due to the violent impact... Do I miss the sentry ?... NO.. Do I miss the sentry days ? ... Yes.. only certain duties with close mates... and the crazy things we did and talked about... In fact... I still feel sentry sucks ! Fuck the Sentry !
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20th July 2004
Listening To : Pixes - Where Is My Mind Time On Planet - 22.12
Today... was kind of.. weird.. that I should be feeling a little down.. after picking myself up for the game yesterday.. yes .. that silly game.. .. but.. I've got a pleasant dream before I woke up..
I was in one of the Australian Railway Station.. it feels like... I'm In Circular Quay Station again.. it's the same environment.. I'm there to do my undergrad.. and I'm meeting Nicole, my old friend there.. and funny enough.. I took a subway from Circular Quay.. and I don't quite remember that there's a subway there... so.. ah...
and I thought I saw someone who resembles.. Isabella.. I tried to test if it's her by walking near her and.. I think I did something like.. called her name in a soft voice... and.. I think it wasn't here after all... and.... I woke up to the harsh reality again... and.. off to slavery ...
Morning was bad.. I had to escape the sights of Hack's ( The Sweet ) Georgie.. cause I don't want to remind him of that thing ... and later afternoon.. I walked into the store houses to do some packing for some last minute arrangement ... with no time to lose.. I managed to do the necessary changes.. and while some ammo was send to R2 for re packing... We had a little fun ...
Sgt Lee was beginning to fool around with Tea.. with some lame impersonations of Bruce Lee.. as Derrick, Myself and Sgt Lee began chasing Tea up and down the stretch of pavement ... with no where to hide.. Tea went into the uncle's 10 Ton lorry and locked himself there...
and Derrick sneakily opened the door and dragged Tea out.. Taped his mouth with masking tape as Sgt Declared.. " The Terrorist was caught.. " .. Believing that catching one was such an easy task... and we dragged Tea on the floor.. with much effort I must say... and I or rather.. we brushed his ..err.... privates with a scrub on the lorry...
and we took a short break before catching our victim.. this time.. it wasn't a brush... I brushed the Strap Cutter tool against his privates... Muahahhaa..... maybe I sound sadistic but.. it's kind of fun actually.. muahahha .... as we chased him all over ... hahaha...
and Yes... I'll definitely miss this kind of life when I leave Army ...
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19th July 2004
Listening To : Counting Crows - Accidentally In Love Time On Planet - 19.55 Gambatte ! !
hmmm ...
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18th July 2004
Listening To : Sophie Ellis Bextor - I won't change you. Timeless Time - 16.04
I'm sick... again.. caught a bad cold.. maybe on .. Thursday.. There's a heavy downpour early in the morning.. and took MC for Friday and Saturday.. and how I wished I wasn't sick..
I missed out the Bay Beats concert @ Esplanade... and my ( Possibly ) Vodka Lime sessions.. and I am also not able to attend Day 2 of Bay Beats with Local boys Observatory performing ( damn.. missed them twice ).. sigh.. and together with my flu.. I had to do level surveying with my brother in law around noon yesterday... luckily.. the weather wasn't harsh ...
Friday.. spend the whole day on my bed.. and yesterday ... working.. and both of my weekend's gone.. Sunday, Today.. ?... had to rush the drawings before deadline... real tired and drowsy .. thanks to the medicine... I feel... dead ..
But.. the counter at the bottom right hand corner keeps me alive.. and It's the first time... I've seen the counter with 2 digits... and today is officially 99 days... to freedom... and I should be clearing my leaves during the last week of August.. hmmm...
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14th July 2004
Listening To : FAKE? - Endless Time On Planet - 20.45
Hi hi... the Rawa Picts are finally out .. ! Click on the picture below ... ! Enjoy !
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13th July 2004
Listening To : - Time On Planet - 22.59
and... finally.. I've completed watching all of the 5 DVDs I've bought last week... and If you're interested in what I've bought.. I've got myself... ' Japanese Story ' , ' Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind ' , ' Ken Park ' , 21 Grams ' and... ' Trainspotting '...
Minutes ago.. the last piece of DVD ejected from my computer DVD rom drive.. " Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind " ... and just to side track a bit.. extracted from an old issue of 8 Days magazine....
" The idea for the convoluted story came up several years ago when director Michael Gondry was having dinner with an artist friend who asked : What if you got a card in the mail telling you not to contact a certain person because he has erased you from his memory? Intrigued, Condry approached Charlie Kaufman to write the script. "
and indeed... there's a scene where Jim Carrey receives a card.. of that kind of content.. It is.. such a wonderful movie if you asked me.. What would you feel .. or react when you're in the middle of an operation of erasing you're past lover... and in the process.. you realized how much you needed you're him / her.. while your memories... ( be it good or bad ).. are.. being erased... I'll be freaked...
and of course.. I wouldn't have even taken that step in the first place.. They... certainly held an important place in my memory.. it's like.. part of me.. and I missed them every now and then... and haunts me sometimes... but... they're still precious memories for me ... oh well .... great film anyway ...
Japanese Story... I bought this title because of 1) I'm a sucker for anything Japanese ... 2) I want to understand Japanese people.. 3) The review's not bad. That was in fact the first DVD I watched.. the plot is terrific.. in fact... It caught me off guard.. totally unexpected there ... Life's too short.. and the next minute.. I might be on my way to heaven... in short.. unpredictable...
Trainspotting... a 1996 film... something from the opening credits. .. " Choose Life.. Choose a job.. Choose a career.. Choose a family... Choose a fucking big television... Choose washing machines, cars, compact disc players and electrical tin openers.. Choose good health.. low cholesterol.. dental insurance. Choose fixed - interest mortgage payments... Choose a starter home.. Choose your friends.. Choose DIY and wondering who the fuck you are on Sunday morning.. Choose rotting at the end of all. Choose your future.. Choose life.. BUT why do I want to do a thing like that ? I chose not to chose life.. I chose something else.. And the reasons.. ? There are no reasons.. Who needs reasons when you've got heroin.... " well... pretty much sums up the film isn't it ?
Ken Park.. well.. the least interesting film of the 5... but.. not that bad... it's about the life of Teenagers.. just 3 teenagers and the disturbing nature of their home environments...
and lastly.. 21 Grams.. might just be the best film of the 5... and an great performance by Naomi Watts.. it tells how 3 strangers are inter-linked with one another..
A freak accident brings together a critically ill mathematician (Penn), a grieving mother (Watts) and a born-again ex-con (Del Toro). The editing was super confusing initially.. and I couldn't understand the story until 20 minutes into the show... it sort of made me.. " hey.. isn't the outcome shown minutes ago.. feeling DejaVu all over.. " ...
The ending quote of the movie.. " How many lives do we live.. How many times do we die.. They say we all lose 21 grams at the exact moment of our death.. Everyone.. And how much fits into 21 Grams ... ? How much is lost ? .. When do we lose 21 grams ? .. How much goes with them ? .. How much is gained ?.. . How much is gained ?. 21 grams.. the weight of a stack of 5 nickels.. The weight of a hummingbird.. A chocolate bar ... how much did 21 grams weigh.. ... "
and I've served around the internet... 21 grams is some kind of theory that.. when someone dies... he lost exactly 21 grams.. which is .. the weight of his soul ... Who would have thought it? At the exact moment of death, you, me, and everyone else, will lose precisely 21g in weight. Just like that. Gone. ...
and some further tests were done and ... a pathologist was pretty sure that.. there wasn't such a thing that we all will lose 21 Grams when we die... and.. actually.. the movie doesn't not relate anything about this 21 grams theory...
" How much does life weigh? .. How much does love weigh? .. How much does revenge weigh? ... and how much does guilt weigh? ... "
and 21 grams... really sets me thinking a bit...
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12th July 2004
Listening To : Aerosmith - Hole In My Soul Time On Planet - 21.40
" Life is the great indulgence -death, the great abstinence. Therefore, make the most of life - HERE AND Now ! "
Hey... WTF anyway... ?
and... by the way... this is NOT a picture of me ...
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9th July 2004
Listening To : FAKE? - Bit Of Life Time On Planet - 23.35
Sometimes... I liked being myself.. myself as in... not living life with a mask... in another words... not being fake.. I'm an living idiot... I'm Nua ( Procrastinator, I Delay, I Drag.....) and Bo - Chup .. ( I'm Indifferent... ) ... I have a bad temper ... and on bad days... I detonate easily.. but let's face it.. that's me ...
I've always believed in ' Following your heart ' .. I live the Life I want to live... I can't bring myself to talk and laugh even with someone I slightly detest.. I just keep quiet ... cause I just don't see the point of sucking up to them ( If their rank / status is higher ) ... and don't see the point of me interacting with people who might be ' out to get me ' . In a Nut Shell... There are fake people around ...
I feel that I'm those ' In Your Face ' kind of person... If you feels that I'm A- Okay person ....ok .. that's cool... and If people thinks that I'm generally a fucked up ass... well.. that's just too bad... and Fuck him... cause I couldn't possibly please every one on earth ...
Talking in MSN with SP Lim.. had certainly made me reflect about the way I live my life... that my Nua -ness and Bo - Chup - ness might had unintentionally hurt people surrounding me... and I apologized.. and explained that I'll control my Nua -ness and Bo - Chup - ness by 50% when I'm with my close mates... and all I could say.. is.. I sorry for all the damage I've caused ...
Sometimes ... I just felt like I'm living a life.. without me... and today.. I just felt weird... I wasn't myself.. minus the confidence.. comes the doubts... Suddenly I felt so small and coward... I think it's just one of those days... where I just felt like.. another person.. a different person.. for the worse... It's another day... where I've lost my direction... my will to fight... just plain demoralized all over me ... I don't know what I'm saying but... I'm sick of all these... I'm afraid.. I'm much afraid...
Or maybe it's the peeling skin on my face after the sun burn that's unsettling me... Or maybe it's the funny jeans I wore just now... Or it's the funny way I walk... or is it that Burger King Meal that made me sick... Or spend my precious one hour waiting for someone who's late... or is it I'm too tired today...I just felt... weird today... just weird ...
and I wondered if I would just feel better tomorrow... and find establish.. or rather... re establish the direction I'm heading... or at least... find myself... I felt like.. I'm hiding in a corner of the cupboard... waiting for the time to ... reach out... for the skies ...
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6th July 2004
Listening To : FAKE? - Nervous To Sleep Time On Planet - 19.42
Sometimes.. I wished I had more than 24 hours... I would have more time sleeping... surfing the net... Play games on my X Box.. more trips to Bugis Junction ... Start work on those freelance drawing that's lying on my desk for ages... watch the 5 DVDs I bought from JB. ... Read all the Magazines I've bought.. wouldn't it be so wonderful... hmm.... provided the hours I spend in camp is lessen or the same ...
My Rawa trip was cool.. having a bunch of 12 definitely has it's pros n cons... Got to climb up to the top of the cliff and had a 360 degrees view of the surrounding and of course.. the enchanting sun rise ... Going back to Rawa for the second time.. seems kind of weird for me...
Time passed so fast over at Rawa.. and I felt that.. It'll be good for us to stay for another day.. but to think about it... there's only this much of activities we can do there... but.. I guess nothing beats lying on the beach, sun tanning, and enjoying the clear waters and fine sands.... just relaxing my burnt out mind .... were having the time of our lives. ...
My time spend in camp is becoming more and more meaning-less .... there're really tons of work that I should clear before handing over.. but.. I'm just not in the correct gear to do any shit... damn myself ... Right now.. I'm just looking forward to spend my coming Sunday.. All by myself... doing the things I enjoy...
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2nd July 2004
Listening To : FAKE? - Praise Time On Planet - 20.23
Have u seen people who walked into the exam hall.. without any pen or pencil.... ?... must be some kind of moron... and unfortunately.... I'm that moron today @ BBDC... and I politely asked the invigilator if I could borrow his pen... and ... he gave me a stuck up and brainless answer as if I've stolen all of his fucking pens during his past life...
... and I've forgotten exactly what that fucker said... all I knew is that motherfucker pissed me off and I just... took my ID card along with the receipt and went off... in his face... and sat outside the room .... waiting for Nick to finish... waste of my time... damn the motherfucker... and I won't degrade myself to buy a pen and return to that stinky examination room... Fuck BBDC !
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2nd July 2004
Listening To : FAKE? - EFTAM Time On Planet - 12.22
Don't BLAME me.. if Rawa's not fun... Don't BLAME me.. if the bus is not spacious enough... Don't BLAME me.. if the food there is too expensive... Don't BLAME me.. if we're asked to book another room... Don't BLAME me.. if you might have to drink plain water and cup noodles... Don't BLAME me.. if the boat leaves without us @ 9am.. Don't BLAME me.. cause there's no TV.... Don't BLAME me.. cause there's not enough beds... Don't BLAME me.. cause you've to bring your own liquor.. Don't BLAME me.. if I mis-calculated the budget... Don't BLAME me.. if I did not apply the exit permit for you...Don't BLAME me.. if you don't enjoy yourself... Don't BLAME me.. if I organized the trip badly... please don't blame me... cause I did my best .... Don't BLAME me.. if ... .... sometimes.... I think I've reached a point in my life... that'll... I'll just be a hermit.... I'm sorry if anything turns bad....
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2nd July 2004
Listening To : - Time On Planet - 00.24
Web Site for more infos ... http://www.rawasfr.com
Estimated Cost -
Boat trip ( 2 way ) - Rm 60 X 12 = 720 RM
1 Meal ? @ Rawa ( optional ) - 50 RM X 12 = 600 RM
Beach View Suite X 2 = 580 RM
Transport Back to n fro Sing - Mini Bus = 500 RM
Total - 2400 RM / 2.2 = 1090 / 12 = 90 Sing
30 / 6 - On 1/2 day today... was really busy in the office in the morning.. took the SFI van out with Eric... slacked around at home... took a short nap ( as usual ) ... and off to town to get my hair cut over at the Shinji Matsuo Quick Service outlet at Wisma... $26 is kind of overpriced but.. it might be considered cheap as it's a Shinji Matsuo .... kinda loved my new hair cut... LOL ! ..
When I reached home... I'm so disappointed not to find my DVDs and the new FAKE? CD EvOn had send over... not on my desk... nor the dining room area... sigh... and suddenly.. I saw something in bright orange... ... on my bed.... It's my precious !... Placebo's Live in Paris 2003 , FAKE?' s 8th January. Steeping Stone live... and FAKE? 's new LP. ... wonderful stuffs...
There're so many bands whom could do a superb studio record... but I'm sure.. the truly capable ones are those who could perform their songs flawlessly live... without an engineer behind their wall of sound ... mixing and editing... and FAKE? and Placebo are just fine examples.. of such...
I think it's just me... that hates main stream bands... I hated commercialized bands... those money spinning bands that goes around the globe .. touring and making money... I've read that Kurt Cobain might be too stressed over the ' over exposure- ness ' of Nirvana ... all thanks to Geffen.. their record label.. and he in the end.. decided that he should just migrate to heaven ...
I truly admire the spirit of Izzy Stradlin' ... the former rhythm guitarist of Guns N' Roses... all he wanted is to play good solid rhythm... write a few good songs... doing gigs in small venues... and enjoying a simple life.... and what made him leave Guns N' Roses.. is that... To him.. Rock N' Roll..should be simple.. but.. It's longer a simply business of playing.. recording.. Sex, drugs and booze....
and I hard trouble naming bands who toured for the sake of their fans.. for the passion and love of music... passion of playing live... but I can name tons of them.. who played for the love of earning their fan's hard earn money for their 60 minutes worth of playing.... and to think that fans looked up to them as role models...
1 / 7 - went to NUH with SP.. for my stupid A&E consultations... waiting for 4 hours.. and all I've got was.. a lousy pain killing jab that the sl*t doctor gave me who spoke with a un-funny accent which irritated me .. a lot ! ... and the worst part of it... No Medical Leave... sl*t... and the stupid jab near my right ass left the whole of my right leg.. semi paralyzed... even till now.. as I typed.. bought my stuffs at psBb and went home.. still feeling numb.. hated myself...
Looking forward to the clean beaches... to clear my mind... * yeah... provided I recover from the numbness of my right leg ... *
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29th June 2004
Listening To : Placebo - Special K Time On Planet - 21.42
I hasn't been eating much these days... I just can't force food into my stomach anymore.. It just doesn't work.. maybe my mind and my soul are too caught up with something else... all I need is ... Nasi Lemak in the morning... 3 curry puffs and 1 fried banana .. and plain rice with egg for dinner...
Took an AB?? survey today... and one of the question is " When approaching the day you're looking forward and excited about... would you feel less excited when the day nears / arrives ? " ... my answer is yes... well not really...
and what I'm referring to is our Rawa trip.. It's not that I'm 100% excited nor 100% full of un - enthusiasm ... It's just weird... It's not about the jin gang's who's going with me... ( I would definitely enjoy their company... ) .. nor it's because of the second time I'll be going to Rawa ( I could go there a million times ) .. It's just .. ME.... and it's 3 more days to Rawa.. and ...... .. .. .
I just felt that I have some kind of un-finished business here... Maybe it's the because of Miss Tough Nut... maybe it's my task at work .. ( unlikely ) ... I just felt... un - finished... and I'm not losing any bit of my faith ... going good... could had been better...
I've read about the 5th foreigners being captured and... it really disgusts me .. a lot ! .. just what's wrong with them... wouldn't sawing off one's head in the name of Allah spoils their appetite for dinner later ? ... what would they say when I behead their offspring ?... sickening... why don't... they just.. get a life...
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27th June 2004
Listening To : FAKE? - Praise Time On Planet - 20.51 280604
Time - 02.09 - Anyway... just came back from Chinese Hero's and GQoo 's ORD BBQ... the turnout was ok and was pretty comfortable with the invited crowd.. yeah it's quite fun.. ... except for a few ...and people like Lim Shi Yi's getting on my nerves...
Correction... he's getting on everyone's nerves ! and his brainless speech that publicly backstab someone.. and these type of fake people would definitely go far... and whether that chap would be accepted by the society .. is another thing ... and If you ask me... he's just a pain in the ass... Just who's the chap who invited him ?! ..
11.26 - Stayed up late...especially to catch my first Euro Action live on TV.. It's Holland VS. Sweden .. I wasn't a fan of either but predicted a Sweden win... as the game went 25 minutes into the game...I surrendered and went to sleep... 1. I'm dead beat... 2. It's a boring game and I predicted a draw... and this morning... the first thing I did was to log on to soccernet.com .. and the score was indeed 0 -0 ... good thing I did not stay up to finish the match ...
" Jetting up myself to oblivion with my new found wings... Together with the broken clouds beneath my mind.. Would I still be trapped under our same blue sky ?.. " 25/6/4 - 2130
14.28 .... hmmm.... Yesterday I've realized that ... there's only 6 more days to Rawa Island ... ! I Can't wait to swim along " Nemo "... and maybe.. or rather... Do the Jetty Jump without fear this time .. LOL ! ... and hope that there'll be less Jellyfish and better sun this time round ...
19.20 ... I had FAKE? 's Endless repeated on my Win Amp endlessly and fell asleep till minutes ago ... haven't slept this good for ages. .. I just felt tranquility every time I hear this song..
20.35 ... had Japanese Lessons from EvOn... LOL.. o-genki desu ka??? - how are u ?
23.00 .. It's a tough nut to crack...
23.01 ..Waiting ...
23.36 .. 1/2 , 1/2 ... ...
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24th June 2004
Listening To : FAKE? - Endless Time On Planet - 20.59 Feeling So.... Lukewarm
Under such lovely blue skies... Sometimes.. I feel that... maybe I should be enjoying life more... Now that I'll be free from Army in say... 4 months.. ( 2 more months to clear leave... ) ... I think my mindset about life's changing right now as I'm approaching the gates of freedom.. Just want to start embracing life a bit.. and do and try more things... So that I won't regret Not Trying... ... while I'm still young ... and sure ~ ... I'll have more sweeter memories to think of ... when I'm older .... . hIS iNVINCIBLE dULUGE eVIDENCE .
21st June 2004
Listening To : J - Silver Time On Planet - 21.15
It's really funny how I realized that... shopping at Project Shop Blood Brothers had seemed... to had taught me a lesson or two... Months ago... I've been searching for a sling bag.. just a simple one that fulfill it's functional requirements would do..
Don't need any fanciful designs with loud graphics and multiple pockets... just a simple bag would do.. scout for my ideal bag for the longest time... scanned thought most designs available in the markets.. and most of them... were complicated ... too big and bulky and .. pull of pockets...
and Finally... seen something real beautiful .. classy design with clean straight lines... ! in psBb but... at a higher cost .. Forgotten how much that was... but.. it's really far overpriced for something like that... anyway... bought the sissy bag ( What myself and some friends feels.. ) home... and It looks great .. ! well.. just to defend the bag and myself.. It depends on what clothes u go with that determine if my bag was sissy looking... LOL ! ...
Item no. 2 ... a simple draw string 3/4 pants... sounds like an easy catch off the market... sad to say no.. there' aren't any one the market... All I wanted was a off light brown coloured, 3/4, draw string.. with no excessive pockets to make the design complicated... and I couldn't find any.. despite of the simple ' requirements ' of the 3/4 ...
and.. I found them again in psBb ... weird... what must all the simple thing found in psBb.. and seems to be all .. overpriced... or maybe the simple design comes at a price...
Maybe it's just that most designers are too caught up with.. " I want the most sophisticated design which no one could had thought of... I wanted the most up to date design to meet the demands... I wanted this... Wanted that... " ... but had they forgotten the basics? ... simplicity.. could be beautiful ...
Sometimes... I am afraid that I, Myself... might be too caught up on certain things / issues .. that I had overlooked some better things in life... or my life in Singapore is too fast paced... That I've overlooked the calm and tranquility in nature...
had We ever stopped in our environment... to realize the singing of the children in the playground?... had we ever stopped to admire the beautiful sunset when we're going home from work?... ever stopped .. just to admire some beautiful sights like... old couple in their 80's .. still holding hands and whispers sweethings to each other ... or.. had you said " hello " to your neighbor this morning ? hahah ... think I'm talking nonsense again ...
and.. I'm returning to the healing powers of nature over at Rawa Island ! some 13 days away... .. yeah !... away from this world... away from all the troubles... away from the forbidden fruits... away from.... everything...
to you... please don't be Tsumetai .... I'm wounded .... . hIS iNVINCIBLE dULUGE eVIDENCE .
20th June 2004
Listening To : Placebo - Special Needs Time On Planet - 12.13
yesterday was simply in a nut shell ... plain torture... hated it.. first it's the stupid recall manning...
I've lost my first gamble of the day... slept for a good 30-45 minutes before Ang called from Guard Room... and I just said.. " what time? " ... the rest was understood... and I brought along to bottle of potato chips... Newspaper... and a bottle of drink... sounds like going for picnic...
Reached camp.. and most of them are already there... well.. they id not went home anyway... anticipating the fucking recall .. chatted a bit.. and some of us went up to the second storey... to play the ah ... .X-Box... the wrestling Raw 2 in fact ... which happens to be the only X box game I played...
My first match was with Marc, Bing Tiong and... the Teo fellow... Me, Rock... Triple H, Stone Cold.. and Hulk Hogan... and who's the odd one?... Hulk Hogan... whose only under wear isn't black ... as they kind of knew that I'm pretty good at that game.. It's only natural for the 3 of them to gang up against me...
and first.. had to identify which oh the 4 wrestlers in the ring was me.... First they said freeze their movements to identify... but .. overheard their plan ( they were shouting loud )... me too... freeze my movements... and I confessed I'm Hulk Hogan.. which really happens to be Bing Tiong... but.. they soon found out who I am anyway...
It was fun... playing with 3 other players... and the stupid comments we shouted during the gameplay... such as ... Bing Tiong 's " I think youngsters these days no respect for elders... ( Hulk Hogan is the oldest... among the 4 ) ...
and after getting back our green 11B... they head to the parade square to do soccer... It almost seems like an Testimonial match for soccer players like the ORDing Bing Tiong, seba and some others...
and thanks to a champion who was missing for the recall.. we were all released at 6pm... and took a quick bath upon reaching home... and left home to meet Nicole, ZhiChang and Fong Ming.. for dinner and then drinking... and yesterday night... For the first time... I hated guitar... that chap @ Harry's Esplanade was playing songs... that strange sounds much like technos... almost gave me heart attacks... I'll never step into Harry's again !
and... the story continues ( don't feel like going on anymore ).... overall.. yesterday sucks ! to the core ! . hIS iNVINCIBLE dULUGE eVIDENCE .
19th June 2004
Listening To : Darkness - I Believe In A Thing Call Love Time On Planet - 13.20
Oh well.. today is Recall Manning's Hottest day... upon receiving a phone call.. I'll have to report to camp within 4 hours.. and because of this... I did not take OFF today... as 12pm approaches... the more certain that this shit would be on...
But... I took a gamble and went home at 12 plus anyway... as I stayed near from the camp.. there'll be more than sufficient time for me to get my ass there... and who knows... there might not be any Recall Mob anyway.... sitting on my little blue chair with 4 wheels... shaking my legs throughout...
I'm going to take another gamble tonight.. and It's not the EURO 2004 bets... it's another gamble.. If my 'Gamble ' turns out to be a ' win ' .. Hahah.. I'm sure it'll feels better than winning $1000...
In fact... Maybe Life's About Another Gamble.... You might win.. you might lose... I've made my moves.. and luckily I kind of won... and I'm glad that I tried.... very glad ... or maybe life's about Enjoying the moment... and seizing any chance to attain your goals...in the right time ... in the right place.. and having the right luck ?... . hIS iNVINCIBLE dULUGE eVIDENCE .
18th June 2004
Listening To : Darkness - Love Is Only A Feeling Time On Planet - 20.59
Work today was okay... and accidentally found the perfect person to take over my job... I don't know what... my appetite these days really ... I ate a lot less these days... although I'm hungry.. but couldn't swallow much .. sigh...
I had to use this bunch of ' keys ' to make my payment over @ Ma Maison Restaurant yesterday... Table 5 ... . hIS iNVINCIBLE dULUGE eVIDENCE .
17th June 2004
Listening To : Time On Planet -
Yeah yeah yeah... I'm too happy now... to blog... Yeah yeah yeah ! .... and it's not about the ORD thingy... It's something more worth celebrating than my new ORD date...
lah lah lah...... too happy to blog....... . hIS iNVINCIBLE dULUGE eVIDENCE .
16th June 2004
Listening To : Placebo - Pure Morning Time On Planet - 20.13
Oh well... This's for yesterday.. so .... Just to start with... yes.. It's official.. just 131 days.. or 100 days... if I deduct off the leaves.. I would be leaving the Fu*king Organization... with a good 2 months reduction..
Finally... Someone up there sitting in his chair with 4 wheels finally woke up... and I must really be glad that our Army has got itself some super high tech stuffs that apparently aids us SO much in our efficiency... with Ah-64 helis.. couple of " whatever " arty guns.. and the IMT sh*t that we should be so proud of... and what - so - ever the 3G ( 3rd Generation Gadgets .. ) sh*ts we had.. I'm .... ... * yeah whatever * ... as long as I get to ORD sooner... who really cares if the 3G gadget really.... .. .. .. . . .. . oh well ...
so.. yesterday... hmm... oh.. I'm on off the whole freaking day... woke up.. forgot what I did.. and I'm sure you can't be bothered anyway... left home to meet Nick and then Mah in the afternoon.. for the Singapore Sale... bought some cheap T shirts from 37 degrees * eks * ... Zara.. and a cool Vans Tee.
So.. Do you still remember the person.. Johnny Clang ? ... I went to his exhibition @ Suntec.. and.. only 2-3 themes of his works were showcased.. It's a very peaceful place to hold his works.. with white lights piercing through the walls at the side..
The atmosphere was dead silence with only 3 persons.. Me, Nick.. and the caretaker... and the silence was sometime broken by the caretaker's mumbling through the lyrics of a dialect song listening to his portable headset... It's definately a scene to remember ..
And horse came.. or rather reached town around 4 plus.. and cleared Ngee Ann City... got up to Kinokuniya and bought an Architectural Book... with a 20% off.. and head off to HMV... heard the band, Darkness, playing on the PA.. checked out the CD which cost 19 plus... took note of it. and went to the 3rd floor to finish reading the latest Guitarist Magazine featuring Slash.
and 1-2 hours later... or maybe less.. We went back to check out the Darkness CD and...
And yes... " Bo Liao Loh ! ! ! " ... all being sold out... and I'm pretty shocked... in the span of this short duration... all three copies were gone... and by that time.. I'm already 1/2 dead.. as I'd not taken any lunch before leaving my home... damn hungry ...
Decided to have Japanese Curry Rice after all... and we head to the Champion Japanese Restaurant @ Bugis Junction... I believe it's my 4th visit there and it's always the usual seats we're being assigned.. ordered our dinner from the absolutely gorgeous and lovely Japanese waitress... and that's 3 plate of Chicken Curry Rice..
as we waited for the dish to arrive... just killed time by making a fool of ourselves... with the Japanese phrase " Domo Arigato ".. and assigned ourselves " Stage Lines " and actions whenever the waitress came over to refill our plain water ...
that's totally inane and hilarious ! ... and we played with the table lamp beside the table recreating the scenario in Jurassic Park.. where the water in the cups vibrates when the T rex approaches complete with lightning effects from our table lamp ...
and.. did my little ' stunt ' upon making payment for our meal.. we head off to Can cafe.. for our drinks.. We did a Jug of Vodka Lime... and sad to say.. I realized my immunity for alcohol was getting worse... almost seeing stars just after 1 3/4 glass... * weak * ...
After talking for a bit.. and and and.. we .... went .. back.. to Bugis Junction... oh well ... and to fast forward.. we just took a cab home... cause.. the two wanted to take a bus home which makes me.. all alone for my MRT trip ...
When I reached home... the aftermath of the drinks kicks in... Haven't felt that high for ages.. tried to fall asleep but.. I think my mind's just too occupied with the thoughts I shouldn't be harboring ... and the hang over effects starts ... terrible headache... forced myself to sleep.. and.. could only catch around 45 minutes of rest..
awaken @ 3 am.. and.. my headache ain't getting any better.. popped in one pill and it's... futile.. and I'm doomed... left with only 4 odd hours of rest and wondered if my head can recover in time for work... and.. popped in another pill... and fall asleep @ 5.30am finally... and messaged Colonel sir and Eric that I'll be Reporting Sick..
but but but... heaven had other plans... 7.10am I woke up.. feeling A-Okay... hmmm... so.. changed and off to work.. but.. in the late morning.. I regretted my decicison... I should had stayed @ home .... and.. I popped in another 2 Panadol Extras... @ 11 plus am.. and .. another 2 at 2pm... and... In a mere 24 hours... I'm got around 3000mg of Panadol in me... before finally getting slightly better in the late afternoon ... and ...
I don't think I've ever receive that call anyway... but.. as I believer of " Good things don't fall from the sky to me.. I'll have to grab it .. "... I've decided to go down tomorrow... on a fabricated scam .. and thanks to Lao Mei for her great advice.. and stop asking my about the "N" name ... :p ...
I wish ... I wish .. I wish ... . .. .. . hIS iNVINCIBLE dULUGE eVIDENCE .
13th June 2004
Listening To : Counting Crows - Accidentally In Love Time On Planet - 18.30
Passion n. 1. ardent love or affection. 2. Intense sexual love. 3. a strong affection or enthusiasm for any object, concept, etc. 4. any strong felt emotion such as love, hate, envy, etc. 5. the object of an intense desire, ardent affection or enthusiasm. 6. an outburst expressing intense emotion. 7. the sufferings and death of a Christian martyr. - 'passional adj. - 'passionless adj.
Passion.. so... What's your passion ?.. That's the very question i-D Magazine asked it's readers.. and some famous people do reply.. people like.. Ben Watts ( Naomi Watts 's brother ) .. Melissa Auf Der Maur ( Rock Band, Smashing Pumpkin's bassist )... John Clang ( renowned Singaporean photographer based in NY, who appears In today's Straits Times... ! ).. Helmut Lang ( You should know who he is.. he's an Austrian - Born NY based Designer.. ).. and.. Garbage vocalist Shirley Manson...
And maybe just to share one or two ... first.. from Christina Kruse .. " A women who survived WW2 with nothing but a plastic bag in her hand once arrived after a 20 month walk from east to west, raised 4 kids with the money that her husband did not spend on alcohol and women, build a house and managed to make a rabbit look tasty. This woman, 78 years old, still going string, has an amount of energy that makes me think : ' if this is not a passion for life, I don't know what is ' " ..
And our very own Johnny Clang said, " I'm passionate about ' being alive and breathing ' and pursuing every dream and fascination you have, even if it may not at all be fulfilled. This ' Celebration Of Live ' mentally has often led me safely to the shore during choppy periods in my life. This impossible image of this gentleman kissing a beautiful girl speaks about that. He braves himself out of that inferior complex to entertain his short-lived fascination. A very moving and romantic split of seconds that will live in his memory forever ... "
That meaningful picture by Clang.
And the one picture above near the title bar.. that shows a couple making out.. that might be taken by Asia Argento who said " I'm passionate about the Youth Hostel In Venice, California. It's 60 bucks a day, which is pretty expensive but not so bad given the beach view and the kitchen and the hot running water. My lover and I went there to hide and make love on a Sunday afternoon. Then we wrapped ourselves in the brown woolen blanket and spooned each other out till the sun coagulated and it was time to go home ... "
Passion... seems to be such a powerful force.. that drives us... carry on breathing ( I suppose ) ... and IF... you ever wanted to know my passion or what I'm passionate about?.. Hee heeee... er... ok.. here you go...
" I'm passionate about Architecture... how these boxes of space, be it big and small comes together.. to house and protect us - human beings ... and stuffs.. How dead building materials and expression comes alive and interacts with your heart about that certain space... It slowly embraces your soul ... It just communicates so much ... ' Architecture is Frozen Music ... '
I'm also passionate about Love and Loving someone... such strange beautiful force that bind two separate individuals together through the arms of fate and destiny.. To love that special someone is never easy.. Rips open the heart and makes one even more vulnerable in this already dangerous world.. It's about taking a chance.. for it might destroy us... If we ever fall too deep.. I'm passionate about my yet to be found princess ... "
Just one last one from the magazine... this is by Tierney Gearon who simply says... " Passion Is Life ".. with this picture that seems to speak so much...
" so... What's your passion my friend ? ... "
. hIS iNVINCIBLE dULUGE eVIDENCE .
12th June 2004
Listening To : Slash's Snakepit - Life's Sweet Drug Time On Planet - 17.34
I've been really exhausted these days... didn't even manage to catch a 5 minute nap on my Monday's duty off... invaded by call from the camp.. twice too many... and I gave up the thought of sleeping... and couldn't sleep well during my detail rest on Tuesday's night... thanks to the bed snatchers.. I had to sleep in the cold DCC...
Not once but twice.. I've found my bed ' stolen ' by champions ... of the very same team... and they got the shit to throw my bag onto the upper deck of the bed and slept as of the whole fucking bed was theirs ... god damn.. just why can't they get a life and sleep somewhere else ?... damn those bed snatchers... I think I'll just be an idiot and put those masking tape around my bed that say.. " Stay Away From This You Bed Motherfucker ! "
and on Tuesday... after reaching home @ 1.45pm plus... I slept from 2pm to 11.30pm.. and from 11.45pm... slept to 6.55am... it's like those sleeping marathon... just... can't get enough of sleep and true enough... attacked by migraine the second I woke up...
and in a nut shell... Guard duties destroyed me... to the extend that I've even knew which species of mosquitoes whose bite would make a swell on my skin instantly... and the mosquitoes I've killed might hit over a hundred...
I borrowed Phang's ' Totte - Chan ' book and was immediately hooked after 3 pages.. I am never into reading books but since... 1) I've seen a mini review of this book in 8 Days Magazine before... and 2)... no surprise... it's about the life or rather the unique kind of education she had in Japan.. oh well... Japan ...
And on Monday ... I've Finally got my hands on Velvet Revolver's Contraband LP ( It's a Steal @ $14.90 and considering that we got them a day before it's world wide release ) ... and WOW !.. it seems to be a little disappointment @ first..
after the first few spins.. and I've always thought that the last Snakepit Album was so much melodic compared to VR. It really took me some time to accept this album.. and anyway... I thought the vocalist, Scott Weiland... sounds so much like Lenny Kravitz ... well... 3.5 Stars Out Of 5... for VR.
Monday was a " Keo Sai " day... chanced upon a hip shop selling T shirts.. cheapest was at $15 plus.. but too bad.. the 2 designs I picked was at $17 plus and $25 plus ... so.. wasn't really that dirt cheap but more of a mid range ... and bought my guitar strap @ $16 bucks... hmmm... this strap resembles the ones that Slash had been using...
and.. Lunch at the ah... what's that place... the food center besides URA center... hmmm.... never mind... and we saw this man.. just like the " Wu Mong Tah "... the sidekick in Stephen Chow's Movies..
hmmm... Maybe from this view ..doesn't quite resemble him... * haha * ... And yes.... within 11 Days... I've finished all of my sentry duties.. * yeah * all the weekends to myself ! ... anyway.. the ' updated ' list of people going... Tanner and Mak can't confirm.. * tsk * ... go lah ~.... Muahaha...
1. Liow ZhengPing
2. Lim ShaoPin
3. Colonel Quek JY
4. Nick-o-las
5. Soh Bing Tiong
6. Melvin Wong
7. Mr. Mah Mun Hoongz
8. Ah Du W.S
9. Aves Liaw
10. Tan YY
11. Tanner Koh
12. Mak KY
Web Site for more infos ... http://www.rawasfr.com
Estimated Cost -
Boat trip ( 2 way ) - Rm 60 X 12 = 720 RM
1 Meal ? ( T.B.C ) @ Rawa ( optional ) - 50 RM X 12 = 600 RM
Beach View Suite X 2 = 580 RM
Transport Back to n fro Sing - Mini Bus ( T.B.C ) = 500 RM
Total - 2400 RM / 2.2 = 1090 / 12 = 90 Sing
( T.B.C ) - To be confirmed.
oh ya.. won't be online these days... should be A-okay midweek Wednesday... ( I hope... )
. hIS iNVINCIBLE dULUGE eVIDENCE .
5th June 2004
Listening To : Play Dead - Bjork Time On Planet - 22.29
Completed my first guard duty of this month... and I felt just like giving all up... opening the gate ... closing it.. opening it.. closing it... and the cycle repeats till my legs went soft.. and of course.. of forget those mosquitoes whom visited us.. ok.. change topic as requested ..
Reached home sweet home @ 10 plus... and had a little sleep before meeting ShiYun @ Orchard... and luckily.. I did not leave my house early.. cuz... she'll be late.. ok.. I sound nasty.. just a change of the meeting time... * muahaha * ...
Forum CoffeeBean... yeah.. Haven't been there for ages.. as we ordered our drinks... and my all time favourate Cafe Latte.. hmmm ... and started catching up with each other and talked about everything under the sun... confided some inner fears to her... and anyway... It always good to talk to her.. especially it's been months I've met her... and I'm glad that her life is great these days... Take Care ShiYun !
We saw a bride ( not kill Bill's Bride )... she was clad in full gown and boy.. she looked lovely.. and it happens that the newly married couple choose to do a photo shoot @ the outer seating area of the cafe ... How sweet the sight was....
and around 5 plus.. we walked over to Tanglin Mall to pay a visit to Da Horse.. talked cock and fagged a bit.. and took 174 to Bukit Batok while she's on her way to Clementi to meet her significant other ... :p
My niece was celebrating her birthday... in advance cause on the 8th, I could make it cause I'll have to be in camp for a scared job of opening and closing the gate... anyway... had a full dinner and I'm really feeling unwell.. Migraine again... asked Mum to bring over 2 pills and ... now.. I'm tired...
Tomorrow having another dose of sentry duty again... had fun today... suffer tomorrow... . hIS iNVINCIBLE dULUGE eVIDENCE .
2nd June 2004
Listening To : Isobel - dido Time On Planet - 21.45
Today... I'm living a life of a typical hermit.. and I'm so happy ! ... Played my guitar for a few hours... and I feel great... just to be at home... doing the things I like.. afternoon naps... doing games on my long forgotten X Box set... and got my specs back from the shop... ahhemm ... ok.. if it's what's on your mind...
It's not Nanyang optical... it's just a regular shop over at my central... and the lady was so kind.. to replace my scratched lens.. Free of charge... and.. I'm so.. I'm terribly grateful to her... and it shows... there are kind people around anyway ...
still on off tomorrow... booking my Basic Theory ... . hIS iNVINCIBLE dULUGE eVIDENCE .
1st June 2004
Listening To : - Time On Planet - 020604 03.02am
Warning : - If you're sick and tired of me mentioning about life wearing green ... Just skip this entry and to http://www.mindef.gov.sg/ ... I love NS.. NS loves Me ! ...
I've been taking taxis to camp.. on Sundays.. that is of course.. when I'm on guard duty ( my favourate waste of time ) .. and one of the favourate questions..... or rather... the favourate question Taxi Drivers ask is.. " You sign on ah ? ... " and every time I heard that... I'm absolutely disgusted.. ( absolutely no Offense ).. Me ?!... sign on material ?!... I'm not good enough... for the army... Living prolonged life in green only might lead to me doing a full scale massacre...
As I've been luckily ' excused ' from a OC drill parade this morning... and watching my poor campmates marching around the parade square... it sets me thinking... ' does marching around aimlessly in circles makes us more ' grown up * '.. as what many people might claim? ' ... and the funny thing is that...
* orthodox thinking that Army trains us.. or rather transforms us from boys to mature man ...
In fact ... Being in a ' show business ' ( which I'll explain later ).. had never been an easy task.. at a glance into the parade square ... a tiny company of green man marching in circles... some giving some strange commands I've never heard of in my dear life.. while others... marching in the sun... and had their attire inspected...
and I thought... " I bet that almost 89%.. or even close to 93% of us.. would not rather be.. stuck in the army.. stuck in a job you can't quit... ... One reason.. we're jaded and we.. simply do .. not have a choice... and even a handful of sign on - ed regulars soldiers are opting for an ' Early Retirement Scheme ' ... "
so.. what are we doing here.. marching around aimlessly in circles.. ?.. we're simply putting up a show... no one really wants to go in circles under the hot sun.. no one really wants to shout to the top of his lungs giving queer commands...
I might just be wrong... There are really people who truly enjoy army and regimental lives... but I predict they only make up the reminding 7 % of the total army... SO .. basically... We.. the 93% are just living day by day... putting up a show for our superiors... and the fact is ... " No one wants to be here... " ( in National Service )...
and please don't doubt my love and loyalty for my beloved country... I love my country and would certainly protect it with my live... I would certainly won't bite the very hands that fed me...and being in a tiny country..
I'm totally in for the idea of Nation Service In the Army .. but.. two and a half years of Army is.. just too long... I might had achieved so many things.. outside army... and If my length of my service is being reduced to ...
one year?.. or maybe one and a half years... I might be on a plane to Australia for my education coming February.. and It won't make me any " gown up man from boys " while I'm stuck in a monotonous ever repeating routine everyday...
... It just kills my brain cells... and Walking around in the middle of 4.28am in the morning with some 5 pieces of metal rounds and a piece of 4kg metal junk across your shoulders.. also.. doesn't make me.. any ' man '.. It only degrades me to nothing but a twit...
Being treated like an object " You throw me there ( various departments ).. I go there... " ... doesn't makes me any ' man '... and If I'm instructed to run there... I run... I don not have a choice.. and that doesn't makes me any ' man ' too.. I have no say ...
.. it only morphs me into a grade 'A' slave as an end product without a mind of my own... all I ever need is to... sit and wait for instructions.... and I do not have any say in my destiny... and If I ever voice out my disapproval.. I'll be in deep shit... so.. my motto .. " Suffer In Silence " ...
and so what If I held a diploma cert. entitles me to 2 /12 years of service while others with a slightly lower level of education only need to serve 2 freaking years ?.. and mind you.. some of these people might be smarter and brighter than the Diploma and 'A' level people.. it's just that they do not have a chance sometimes...
...so... why separate us?.. and if I choose to do my Diploma after my 'O's ... I would had saved 1/2 years of my youth... 1/2 years of disposing my youth to the cor*upted organization ... wasting my time... and I still believe... Army won't be transparent to 'us' / the media as they claims... shits might be happening all along.. and I'm sure... they're bound to be more deaths / suicide cases all around... and I've personally heard about 2-3 cases from other camps...
and if, unfortunately.. if one life is lost in the course of training ( be it authorized or unauthorized )... all Army need is to say... " I'm deeply sadden by this incident and please be assured that we'll look into the case and ensure.. that this would not happen again... " a typical S.O.P ( Standard Operating Procedure ) for replying to the public in the Straits Times Forum Page...
and the outcome of any investigations... '' because the serviceman's heart already got problem ".. and the invisible sentence followed almost immediately behind that whispers ... Its not our fault lah...
so.. before the run commence... if someone voice out that he's unwell... commanders would think he Chao Keng.. " just run.. just run ... "... and If he seek medical advice from these very hardworking people at the medical center.. they'll say.. " Don't Chao Keng ".. and if He fainted during the run....The commander and the M.O keeps quiet ... and life goes on for them... Just another day ...
and I'm positive that those were totally unnecessary injuries and deaths.. One classic quote in the papers are... " I had to pass my IPPT.. or I'll had to stay back while my mates are allowed to book out.. " .. what if I'm truly sick and couldn't run.. and the inco*petent Medical officer just dispense me some Panadols which I already had plenty of them in my bag...
and Medical Centers in the organizations were just for show... like I've said.. show business.... you can be waiting for as long as 3 hours and 54 minutes and 21 seconds.. and all you get is nothing but some obvious remarks..
" Yes.. you're running a temperature.. "... and hand you over 10 wonderful tablets of Panadol ( as if it's made of gold ) which I could even give it to you FOC in 1 minute... it's all for show.. and If you're a high ranking officer... your wait from our 3:54:21 hours could be miraculously reduced to 2 - 3 minutes...
and that's life... and I know.. All of my close friends are so fucking sick and tired of me complaining about NS... but.. I truly can't swallow... and I'm terribly sorry about my loser behavior of my complaining and not ' take it like a man ' ... but..
I mean ... how to swallow when someone.. fighting fit... and RP.. who earns some 100 dollars a month.. Gets to leave camp earlier 3 times a week?... excused guard duties ( you get to go home.. every single fucking day ... ) ..
.. I despise people who Chao Keng ? .. but. . It is ... he who has all the life... and me ... just trying to do my part... contributing my share as a sentry guards and share the burden of the guards strength.. doesn't have a life ... so.. what's the point of .. .. . . .
so.. what's the moral of the story... Chao Keng in the army... It'll get you far... .. and Better Still... be on close terms with the Officers.. ask benefits from them... Let them comprehend your fabricated sorrows.. all your fabricated financial and family problem.. and ... wwoollaa....
No duties... ! and you'll get priceless uninterrupted weekends... you could go have fun.. and spend all you money on drinks... no need to be woken up 4.15am in the middle of the night.. no fucking mosquitoes ...
In the army... 95% of what you see are all fabricated... lies... Do we really want to be in this mess ?... and being a good guys.. often doesn't pay.. it just back fires.. Maybe the real life isn't what I've thought it could had been ... Look at Ah Fu.. Being taken advantage of.. and... the whole freaking department can leave camp without him... and this is what you get .... for .. .being . .. ......
and from the bottom of my heart... There's absolutely no difference of me... before entering the army... as me.. leaving the army ( as foreseen ) .. I'm still me... anything learnt in the Army... Nil...
and sure I've learnt tons of shits that'll be of 0.1% relevancy in my whole life ... that's in peace time of course.. and I believe that the necessary basic skills needed during war time would be mastered... say like.. within 1.5 years or so ?...
So.. what are we to the feared organization, Army ?... Slaves.. Cheap slaves that helps to keep everything running in the name of our nation ... how many dreams of ours must be delayed... and the end product..
wasted youth .. could had been, should had been... seen that, heard that... been there before... what's next ?... Where is my mind ... ? in one of the pockets of my number 4 uniform... brain dead for ages .. ...
Feel free to 'spank' me... should I had said something wrong .. . hIS iNVINCIBLE dULUGE eVIDENCE .
31st May 2004
Listening To : SENS Time On Planet - 18.57
Dear Genting Jin Gang.. ops.. now change.. Rawa Jin Gang ... Here's the updated breakdown of the cost to Rawa. It should cost less than $100 as planned. My dear friend might be able to help us get a charted mini bus that would take us from the J.B customs all the way to Mersing..
and Mersing to J.B for around 300 RM ... so... hope we're able to get that one... and If not.. we'll just take the public Malaysian bus.. from Mersing to Kota Tingi and from Kota Tingi to JB customs .. total journey should be less than 4 hours... and definitely cost less... anything... please let me know ... booking would be made around mid June...
Boat trip ( 2 way ) - Rm 60 X 12 = 720 RM
1 Meal ? ( T.B.C ) @ Rawa ( optional ) - 50 RM X 12 = 600 RM
Coach From Sing - Mersing - 35 Sing or Less.
Beach View Suite X 2 = 580 RM
Transport Back to n fro Sing Mini Bus ( T.B.C ) = 300 RM
Total - 2200 RM / 2.2 = 1000 / 12 = 84 Sing
( T.B.C ) - To be confirmed.
So.. 84 Sing Dollars should be it... I should be changing $120 Sing.. and I'm still considering if I should have my meals over there.. it's a little over priced.. might be doing cup noodles there instead..
. hIS iNVINCIBLE dULUGE eVIDENCE .
29th May 2004
Listening To : nothing... still air... Time On Planet - 23.05
Yester-night... went for some booze and fagz with Vincent @ the void deck... talked tons of shit... always about his F-16 and bla bla bla... stupid engine... and.. ' oei... your stupid CD can't work lah... even play as mp3 on my comp.... ' ...
Went to camp today... in a Dreamlife 6.30 mode... simply cannot make it.... and did a ' as fast as possible ' clearance for Team.. err.. 1 .. and went back to my office for my breakfast... and I'm getting more and more restless....
and I did a ' Early Retirement Scheme Application Form ' .. complete with the ah.. Ammo Base Logo. .. hahaaa.... So.. If anyone wants to apply for an early retirement... can just come and find me... heez... anyway... got ' caught ' by 2Lt Andy Ong... cause I left my screen open...
I guessed I really... had nothing better to do ... and ... wasted.. like.. some.. 80 pages of paper.. cause I've always realized I've missed out something... so.. Bad Karma... = ( courtesy of Col. Quek ) .... but... * whatever * .....
Went home.. and checked my mails for a while... thought my Saturday would be in second gear cause Col. Quek send my planes and doves... actually we're going to the stupid ' Study In Australia ' fair... as I need to renew or rather.. re apply my application to Newcastle...
anyway.. received an SMS from Panda a.k.a Thomas Png... and asked me to accompany him ...to.. J.B... actually... I'm feeling kind of lazy... and wanted to slack and do my own stuffs @ home... but.. hmmmm ... since I've not seen him for a long time... * heez * ...
Met Nicolas first at Jurong Point @ 2 pm... chatted over the budget meal @ KFC... ( notice I did not use the word .. Cheapest ... ) .. LOL ! ... I think he should be copping pretty fine... : ) ... and SMSed Panda to meet him at 1.30 Lakeside train platform... and.. 1.30pm.. I'm still chatting with Nick... Hahaha... as.. I expected PanDa to be... late...
Ka-Wai also SMSed me.. and joined PanDa and myself to J.B. ... so.. while waiting.. Panda advised me the stratigic ways of clearing leave... and bla bla bla... and life in DCC with Sgt Robertz ...
We reached the stupid Holiday Plaza around 4.30pm... ate the McChicken Meal and head to the ah Beng DVD shop ... and to think that we stayed almost an hour inside the ' hidden ' compartment ... picked up some potential purchasing titles in my Hp.. and.. damn.. I'm so reluctantly to spend money on DVD... after my 19 - 20 disc Sex And The City Series... and my $150 on the FAKE? and Placebo DVD... aaarrgg gg gg g ! ...
after that.. went to some poster and collectable shop and Panda bought a very very lovely Kill Bill .. poster kind of thingy...
It's like... 25 something Sing dollars... I could have bought it... moreover.. the language... in the framed poster is... Japanese ! ... Arrhhh ... anyway... I no money also.. lah ...
Anyway.. this is the poster shop.. I really loved the one above.. that shows 2 person hugging with the light green / blue sky as a backdrop... but.. anyway.. it's already sold to some loaded ass... and... moreover... I no money also.. lah ... bought a pack of fag and had to clear one stick ..
Me and Panda at the Fagging area... all and all.. just let me fast forward.... cab back to city square area.. walked one big round... crowded streets.. and.. a 4d Shop !.. Lottery ..
People are crowding outside the 'closed' lottery shop... and catch the lady in orange.. writing out the latest 4d numbers that's fresh from the oven ... well... that's something I won't get to see in Singapore...
ok.. fast forward... slight jam at causeway... while Q-ing up for 170.. reminds me of the returning leg of my recent Rawa trip... ohh... how I missed Rawa ! ... reached Kranji... train to Yew Tee ... Transferred $50 to that stupid Panda.. who's entering Malaysia.. for some.. ' night time' events ... snack at the food court at Yew Tee...
This is Big Head.. LOL ! ... and took a cab home... damn tired... tomorrow.. having guard duty again... so damn jaded about life in sentry... sigh... how I wish my life.. could be slightly better... or.. am I too greedy to make that statement ? ....
. hIS iNVINCIBLE dULUGE eVIDENCE .
28th May 2004
Listening To : Placebo - Allergic Time On Planet - 22.22
24 hours a day... damn... I wished that I had 30.. and so.. by the time I reached home from my work place... It'll be like.. 7pm.. and sometimes... it seems that I had nothing to do.. surfing the net.. Instant messaging - ing ... play my guitar.. watching MTVs ... reading newspapers ... ( no life )
and sometimes... I wonder why.. I couldn't even squeeze time to play my guitar and read the papers... why ?.. I think I'm just spending far too much time in front of this machine I'm facing... sigh... and ya... ( no life ) ....
so.. technically speaking... I'll be left with.. like.. 3 1/2 hours of leisure time... If I sleeps @ 10.30pm... I try to sleep early cause I'm afraid that I'll be in a dreamy / shitty / tired / fucked up state when I'm working in camp... and nowadays... I'll just sleep a little later... say ...
10.32pm? ... nah... jokin' .. 11.30.. ( no life ) ... but.. I'm almost guaranteed a shitty state of mind the next day ... ( no life )
I think.. I'm slowly becoming into a freaking hermit .... ( no life )
So.. When would I be getting out of a Hermit lifestyle ?.. after I ORD... ( Here come life ! ! ) .... ... Definitely... I'll be working and saving up both for studies and for my Tokyo trip ( Here come life ! ! ) .. but then ....
I think.... I might miss my camp.. I hate to admit it but... I won't be able to see SP, Col. Quek, Koonster... and the folks I hang out with everyday... no more... " eh buy ah lau for me leh.. nasi lemak and xian chao... " ... " I go in do clearance... " ... and no more... " Cock the leh ... " ...
no more illegal fagging outside DCC.. no more ... no more... It's ( ORD - ing )... definately a real bittersweet affair... and I hate changes... like.. starting a new chapter of my life... but.. I think I would enjoy the experience of ORD-ing.. but.. I'll miss my camp mates... a lot...
Oh ya ... The ' trainee ' auditors came today.. and felt lucky as we're not being actually faulted and.. I guess no major observation were recorded... * Phew ... * ... but.. the real ones ( ISO audit ) are coming.. damn.. I fucking hate audits ! .. just hate them ... and don't ask me why ... . hIS iNVINCIBLE dULUGE eVIDENCE .
26th May 2004
Listening To : Luna Sea - Crazy About You Time On Planet - 17.11
Sad to see SP seems to be pissed about my comments about bad karma.. weblogs are not meant to be used as an medium to scold others * Tanner / Sp ? * ... never meant to be that way ... It seems that SP had closed down his weblog because of this reason too.. so.. My sincere apology ... If I had offended anyone in someway or another.... My sincere apology too ...
Anyway... the newly updated list of person going ...
1. Liow ZhengPing
2. Lim ShaoPin
3. Colonel Quek JY
4. Nick-o-las
5. Soh Bing Tiong
6. Melvin Wong
7. Mr. Mah Mun Hoongz
8. Ah Du W.S
9. Aves Liaw
10. Tan YY
( Full Attendance for Genting Jin Gang !... No. 1 - 8 )
as for the Rawa Management side... The people still have not replied to my E-Mail.. So... I'll be calling up my friend at Malaysia and would be helping us with the details and the bookings... I'll be calling him up in 2-3 days ..
Quek - Sorry couldn't stay to help u tidy e AORs.. I'm really tired after my duty.. would be staying back tomorrow if couldn't finish ..
Later ~ . hIS iNVINCIBLE dULUGE eVIDENCE .
24th May 2004
Listening To : Smashing Pumpkins - Perfect Time On Planet - 16.29
I'm seems to be getting more and more frustrated with my life... Definately sounds like an angry ass... and I've did my 3rd duty and that.. made me even more frustrated with myself and life in general.. and everyday.. I asked myself this very question.. ' WTF am I doing here ? ' ... just stuck in a job that I can't quit..
I've been thinking about these 2 words ' Bad Karma '. I've always been a believer of ' You'll get what you give.. ' just like the squashed finger incident .... so.. Living by this theory... it had taught me to live life the cool way...
Treat other people the honest way they're suppose to be treated... help those deserved to be helped and stop wasting your time on ingrates ! ... and sometimes... being too direct in your speech sometimes can be blunt ... this is one hard lesson I've learnt over the years ....
and... sometimes... the one who always talks too much crap and lies a lot... often loses his creditability ...
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22nd May 2004
Listening To : This Picture - Placebo Time On Planet - 20.04
Yesterday... The usual suspects gang met up at Arab street... For a long forgotten activity, Shee - Sha. Anyway... The meeting time was 5.30 at Bugis Junction... but.. lazy me found that it's too early .. so...
I deliberately arrived late... ( bad ) ... I left the comfort of my home @ 6pm and head down to HMV heeren. I'm getting that very cool magazine about Fashion / arts or.. photography... it's called I.D. ... cost me some 16 bucks but.. it's worthwhile... after HMV, I had to take a bus down to Bugis.. and through all the ' searching for the correct bus ' and traffic jams.. I arrived Bugis around 8pm.. and.. That's 2.5 hours late ! ... gee ..~
and navigated myself through Arab Street... and settled down.. fag... ate crispy chicken... and... wait till Mah joined us @ 10 plus... wanted to hang out @ Can Cafe.. but..
Full house... and decided just... to take the train back home.. but.. the night was still young.. so I suggested that we sit down and chat @ Clementi Central with Mah and Mak KW... but In the end.. Sp and SBT joined us too ... and talked deep into the night... hmmm... like... almost 1.30am ?... and I felt real worn out... ( have not really been taking good rests for the last few days ) ...
and ... 1.45am.. I decided that the night has to end... feeling bittersweet cause I know that I'll be looking forward to the next day ( today 22/5 ) ..cause... I had to be recalled back to camp... Thanks to OC... and the think is that... We predicted that.. he won't be coming back to camp on a lazy Saturday after all... and how true that was...
Yesterday's night was terrible... reached home around 1.45am.. took a lightning fast shower ( I couldn't even be bothered to brush my teeth.... eeks ! ).. as I dash to catch every single seconds of sleep I could steal.. but.. Migraine strikes... my right side hurts... applied some medical oil.. and forced myself to sleep..
and 4 plus am... it's my left side that hurts... and .. I'm really considering if I should really take my ass back to camp ... and the alarm woke me @ 6.55am.. and My head feels slightly better.. SMSed Colonel Quek.. " If OC asked.. Tell him I'm on Off and too sick to make it back camp ... " ... and all I got from him... " whatever.... " ...
and I'm like... " ... " ... so... since I'm pretty much wide awake... after the " ... " ... I got my butt off.. showered... and.. left for the sickening camp... and god damn... learnt that OC's on off... and.. hopped in Mark Lee's car and go home..
and managed to sleep from 10.30 to 1pm... and that's some decent rest... cause I don't wanted to be tired later on...
and today... met up with my old old friend, Isabella and I really do .. missed talking to her ... It's like our ' annual ' meeting but this time.. it came some 5-6 months late... LOL ! She's still pretty much of her same old chatty self... We caught the movie Shrek 2 ( although I did not catch part one ).. but.. It's pretty hilarious ! as a matter of fact... I enjoyed it !.. it's so funny !... I mean ... ..
anyway.. Isabella's late as usual.. hahaha.. and I've got her hot coffee with milk waiting @ the ticket booth area.. We set the time to meet @ 2.50 and and and.. I think she only arrived @ 3.10?... LOL ! ... and the movie is @ 3.05.. anyway... did not missed the beginning of the show anyway...
After the movie.. we walked around and settled down @ PastaMania ... The Spaghetti and pizza joint... and we really had spend time catching up with each other... It's always enlightening talking to her... you know.. She always made sense in something... really set my mind thinking about certain issues... anyway.. really enjoyed talking to her.. after so many months...
She's been taking this driving license test / thingy and I'm confident that she'll hit the roads in a matter of months.. and that's so .. I mean... I feels that she's successful in life ( in general ) .. had a job... continuing education... could be driving in her dad's car in no time... and on another side of the small table separated by 2 lousy and tasteless PastaManic dishes.. is ME.. yours truly.. ...
Nothing to be proud of in my army days... and me... had a long long loooooooooonnnnnnnngggggg .... .way to go ... and wondered when would I see my friend again ...
" I hold an image
of the ashtray girl
Brian Molko . hIS iNVINCIBLE dULUGE eVIDENCE .
21st May 2004
Listening To : Summer Song - Joe Satriani Time On Planet - 17.31
Oh no.... FAKE?'s new album would be out on 23 June. Live DVD , end of this month... and most importantly... On the 5th and the 6th of July... FAKE?'s having a live concert in Shibuya - AX ... hmmm.... and... I won't rule myself out on attending that one ! ... ( if what I would be doing comes true.... ) LOL ! but.... heard that July's a warm / hot season.... Tsk Tsk .... . hIS iNVINCIBLE dULUGE eVIDENCE .
21st May 2004
Listening To : Down With Love ! Michael Buble Time On Planet - 16.30
Did you read yesterday's Forum section of ' The Straits Times ' Headlined - ' Boring Singaporeans an unhappy lot ' ...? in a nut shell ... it says about the conversation he overheard between an Australian PR ,married to a Singaporean man... with a Thai.... generally talking about Singaporeans... being unhappy because... they're always thinking about... ' earning more money... It's all about the money ... ' .. but.. we Singaporeans are also compassionate about issues... Look at the endless charity events we've contributed ? ... NKF ? ....
Do.. We, Singaporeans, really had a bad reputation among foreigners ?... Maybe... as the author quotes ' We have a long way to go before we can change what others think of us. Most of the time, We only have ourselves to blame as we are a complaining lot ' ...
Or we should see that ( of having angry and always complaining citizens ) as a sign of being a successful developed country... I'm being told that 500 Sing dollars would be sufficient to sustain a small family's electrical, water.. bla bla bla needs in a 3 storey bungalow in Malaysia... well... in Malaysia... where their National Service proved to be .. .. . . .... . ... oh well ....
It's very true that Singaporeans are the complaining lot... or maybe it's the society that's made us... the high cost of living... and I'm sure in no time... SMRT would be increasing train fares again... while everything ... every food, salt and oil of those F&B outlet, every single piece of CD 's price ... increases ... most of our wages don't ... so.. it seems that we do.. have every reason to be unhappy about...
and on another note... If given a choice... able to choose between a Low cost of living Malaysian to a higher cost of living Singaporean.... I'll definately chooses the latter .. without the slightest hesitation... @ least we do have a safe and secure place to live in... and your neighbour is less likely to be that.. boss of the underground bets fellow who'd just been killed ...
and the reason why I said that... Is.. because Jeff's who's staying @ Kota Tingi showed us a bungalow close to his.. whose owner had been gun shot just a few weeks ago.. who's the boss of the underground betting shits .... and It does... freaks me out a little.. being raised in a very much protected environment...
all in all ... we should be.. kind of happy ? to be here in Singapore.. We don't get bomb blast threats everyday... no Riots.. No street fights demonstrations... and one of the few setbacks... Cost of living .... pros and cons ...
and ... Ohhhhhh... Shit ! ~... I got into trouble with OC again ! and my department also in deep shit... Had to be recalled back tomorrow ! and I'm on off ! ... * sianz * ... I think after the meeting / discussion or what-so-ever then I'll just go home.... meeting Isabella around noon... . hIS iNVINCIBLE dULUGE eVIDENCE .
19th May 2004
Listening To : Class 95 Fm Time On Planet - 17.45
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15th May 2004
Listening To : Bjork - Violently Happy Time On Planet - 22.58
Moments ago ... I had just received a call from this very close friend of mine... and he'd a breakup with his girlfriend of x years... and who ever said that... letting go of a x years relationship is easy must be a complete twit... and I could easily relate myself... in his shoes...
Being terribly afraid of a brand new dawn... " What if tomorrow really comes?.. How am I going to carry on living my life with a void in my heart ?... " .. Just a few questions too many...
How long?... must we need to adapt ourselves to a brand new chapter?... Would I be able to make it ? And just how many lonely nights must we bear.. ? ... pure agony.. All because of one word... and that's LOVE ! .. It can fill you up... and it can.. also fail you.. Nowadays.. I think that... that simple act of falling in love.. seems to require tons of courage.. ( @ least for me ) ...
Along the way.. there's bound to be endless arguments.. and conflicts...endless differences.. and maybe series of breakups.. and that's why.. I feel that lovers.. are brave people.. very brave people.. people who dare to try and.. overcome all difficulties... and not knowing what ultimately would happen to their relationship...
Every time.. When I see these very very old couples .. walking along the streets... tightly holding on to each other's hand.. whispering sweet things into each other's ears... The loving sight never fails to melt my heart... Had they gone miles and miles of hardship before they reached today ?.. or after so many arguments ?.. or even a divorce? ... and man.. they had came a long way...
Maybe I can try to compare their ( the old couple's ) definition of love and commitment... to the orthodox definition ( of love ) these days ? .... would there be any difference?... or a difference so great beyond belief? ...
and of course... there are timid people like me lying around .. who lack the courage to even try... who seems to have made falling in love sounds like the ultimate taboo.. And at times it just felt like a forbidden step to risky for me to take.. What if I'm falling in love with the wrong person.. ? What if it all ultimately ends up as two heart broken individuals?... What if... and what if .... and what IF ...
and True ~... " why not try and let time revel the answers ? " ... sounds simple.. but the withdrawal symptoms just.. sort of discourages me from.. trying... maybe it might be a little too pessimistic of my saying this .. but.... Maybe I just need to find the right person that I've been looking for... * winks * ( so that you can see me eat my own words? ... LOL ! ... ) oh well ...
and listening to Stereophonics " Maybe Tomorrow ".. - so.. maybe tomorrow... I'll find my way home.... - to any one.. it may sound like another lyric about getting lost and found one's way?.. for me.. I felt that.. the song's like... " hey.. you might just find your way to someone's heart tomorrow? ...don't despair ... " ... suddenly sounds so optimistic there... * LOL *...
Being in love.. or rather being in a relationship certainly ' fills ' one up.. filling that invisible void in our soul ..that's crying for that special soul mate / partner... but it'll certainly backfire .. should... something went wrong... the void might enlarge... or burnt out anyway ...
Some of us... or rather.. ALL of us ( ? ) ... would want to love and care deeply for the one whom we truly loved and cared for.. and of course.. be loved ( back )... but.. Are we ready for any rejection ? .. or Are we all ready for the final conclusion or any hiccups along the journey?... Are we mentally prepared for any aftermath of a separation?...
If we expressed our fears of a breakup to a partner.. she / he would definately or might say ... " you're thinking too much .... and I thought that we'll be fine... " ... or accuse of being paranoid...
but when tragedy strikes you out of the blue... you're left high and dry... on another hand... being mentally prepared for a separation throughout the course of a relationship is extremely unhealthy too... so.. just WTF am I trying to say anyway ?! *gee *
And I'm terribly grateful .. that my close friends were always there for me... walked through the harder times with me.. picked me up when I've had a bad fall.. and those endless counseling sessions... I'm grateful ... without them... I'm might be still in the slumps... Without them... I'm nothing...
and... to all those in a relationship now.. ... I sincerely wish you all the best and be happily in love ( don't give up ... )... to those attempting to love... GO For It ! ... and to my dear friend whose another new chapter in his journey begins... ...
" Stand Up ! and be strong now... @ least you have those beautiful memories to carry along with you... when you compare those with sad endings with no happy memories... "
"
Strange
infatuation
seems to grace the evening tide Brian Molko - Placebo
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14th May 2004
Listening To : - Time On Planet - 15.17
and and and... went to the doctor again... and he seems pretty shocked that... I'm still down... anyway.. gave me a fresh doze of antidote... and now... felts kind of drowsy... but.. I just couldn't fall asleep !.. Why... ? Thanks to all those drillings and ... bla bla bla... upgrading of my estate block... and now... the drowsiness is pretty much over.. and.. I want to be asleep !.... . hIS iNVINCIBLE dULUGE eVIDENCE .
13th May 2004
Listening To : Placebo - Plasticine Time On Planet - 21.56
You're my
bulletproof cupid
Brian Molko - Placebo
and.... just in case you're still wondering... ( which I think you probably won't ) .. and yes... I'm still feeling so much under the weather... almost couldn't make it during work today... definitely my worse-er 8 hours...
nitex... . hIS iNVINCIBLE dULUGE eVIDENCE .
12th May 2004
Listening To : Placebo - The Bitter End Time On Planet - 19.52
I'm down from a full blown flu / sore throat since the day before... All thanks to the 3 SFI fried chicken wings I ate and the fickle weather... I think I'm getting more Flu prone than Kelly... Or... Maybe that's s sign of me getting old ...
and for almost the whole of yesterday and today... I lay in bed... trying to fall asleep, hoping that I'll be a ok after the sleep but... not getting any better ... seems that those medicine aren't as effective as before..
Anyway... did I tell you that I'm in love with the design of 7200... but.. I had no fund for that ... besides ... The phones looks kind of thick when I seen it... anyway... I thought that the brown coloured 7200 does... strangely resembles the outfit Inoran wore during Luna Sea's Final Act ... * heh * ...
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10th May 2004
Listening To : Steve Vai - For The Love Of God... Time On Planet - 19.23
Any fans of Led Zeppelin reading this?... Oh.. I just found out that maybe their greatest rock song.. Stairway To Heaven.. had a hidden meaning when you play a particular part reversed...
" Oh here's to my sweet Satan...The one whose little path would make me sad, whose power is Satan ... . .. "
http://www.albinoblacksheep.com/flash/stairway.php
and some one said on a forum.. " Well then, Robert Plan is either a master of the English arts or he has too much time on his hands, which seems likely since musicians don't seem to do much. " ... Maybe he had too much time to kill ... . and for some other hilarious funny flash stuffs...
http://www.albinoblacksheep.com/
Reached camp super early today around 730 am ... to have my run... it's been so long since I've had my last run.. and I hate to have the compulsory run every Tues, Thurs and Sat... I'll rather run on my own accord ... hate regimental shits...
And moments ago .. Caley messaged us that there would be a major gathering for our poly mates... hmmmm ... Maybe I'm just too afraid to face the her... again ... shall see about that ...
Shall stop now... got a really bad bad flu / sore throat...
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9th May 2004
Listening To : Oasis - Don't Look Back In Anger ... Time On Planet - 14.15
Just 7 days ago... some 168 hours ago... I'm soaking myself along the sandy coast... and now.. I'm right here smack in the middle of a concrete jungle in front of a mass of metal we call computer... I had my duty to remind me off... Monday blues and my work for me... and the list goes on ...
Woke up reluctantly @ 6.15am... cause had to work for my Brother In Law... to do some construction surveying stuffs... where I carried those funny and weird looking machines and carry them along the roads... and got bitten by mosquitoes... and once... I killed 3 at a go ...
I missed my carefree and " I had all the time in this world " life on Rawa Island... swimming and tanning there... such wonderful laid back life... I missed the sun... the beaches.... but... maybe not Rawa.... cause ...
That night.. Nicole and I was discussing if we should return to Rawa.. and I said... " hey... we should be giving other Island near by Rawa a chance... they might not be so commercialized as compared to Rawa .. and maybe more peaceful... " .... and then... yesterday I dreamt about...
What exactly happened 8 days ago... stepping onto Rawa sand... seems that my dreams had betrayed my words....
and... " Happy Mother's Day ! " .... in case some mother reads this .... * ahahahhaaaa * ... . hIS iNVINCIBLE dULUGE eVIDENCE .
8th May 2004
Listening To : Nothing... Time On Planet - 21.42
Late afternoon... or rather near evening time... Antonio and I went to Clementi to have our dinner... and when I'm on the bus number 99 back home... an ah peh ( uncle ).. well... not really that old but...
and... there he sat next to me.. by the way.. I'm seated on the inner side.. closer to the window ones.. anyway... as the bus steered left and right... his shoulders keep on 'banging' on mine.. I'm freaking irritated.. and I squeezed myself closer to the window and that ah chek just...
seems to be sitting nearer.. not realizing my discomfort.. enjoying so much of the seating area.. as compared to mine... WTF !... come on.. even a blind man can tell that I'm uncomfortable in that position... and so.. why just he can't move 5 cm of his butt away from me ?! .... and mind you.. he's not fat ...
and secretly.. I hope that that ah chek would get off next every time I passes a bus stop... but... When I alighted ... he's still there... that's life .... .. suddenly I sound like a typical angry New Yorker... ...
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8th May 2004
Listening To : Foundations - Build Me Up Buttercup Time On Planet - 11.39
Just too many single nights to cure my fallen state of mind... Just one step too close from taking my forbidden step of falling from grace... and maybe... time might just be my perfect antidote .. to you.. my forlorn addiction.. Hidden beyond the sweetest secret dreams was indeed my own nightmare. Just like those dead flowers in full bloom. Crash and Burn.. Crush and Burn ...
Evoking these disarm dreams floating on the disillusioned sea.. la Miserable... La Miserable... and cheers to the love that forbid us.. It's hard for me to believe into it.. So much of those unspoken future ... was this curse of mine too hard to take? Forbidden Love... Forbidden Secrets. ... Forbidden You ...
I'm sorry.... . hIS iNVINCIBLE dULUGE eVIDENCE .
5th May 2004
Listening To : FAKE? - Snow Time On Planet - 22.32
Hey Folks... My Pulau Rawa Journal / Pictures are finally out... took me from afternoon till moments ago ...
Just click on the picture to view them ... Enjoy !
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3rd May 2004
Listening To : Astrud Gilberto - Berimbau Time On Planet - 18.32
Back from Rawa Island ! ... hahah... reached home last night @ 10.35 pm... so tired .. so... the pictures would have to wait... well.. tanned till the " I really don't want to tan anymore " extend.. and the 3 of us ended up looking like red boiled prawns...
It's almost like I'm in paradise... waking up to the ocean waves... with no worries @ all... and for a day... I'm quite successful in leaving my worries and sad memories back home.. It's a wonderful road trip for me... clear waters... sunny beach...
and today ... black Monday.. waking up.. feeling just a little sad... gone were the inviting oceans and soft fine sands... and here I found myself.. back on earth... hmmmmm.... * sad * well ... really hope to be back there again ... or some place similar ...
I'll be doing a Rawa page.. and I'll might have to take some time in doing that... meanwhile... a sneak preview... hee heee....
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30th April 2004
Listening To : Evanescence - My Immortal Time On Planet - 13.44
I'm afraid... and I'm terribly afraid... and I couldn't comprehend why my country seems to be having that... bad accidents... about construction... and first... it's the sad bridge incident.. and now.. a construction site.. 2 unfortunate accidents in the span of less than 2 weeks?... or is it 3 ? ... I've lost track of time...
watching the destructed scene of 'crime ' on TV was extremely distressful... Are we.. really living in a dreamy and fairy world where we deceived that nothing.. or no disasters could not rob us of our peace ..in Singapore ? ... and apparently.. I think I'm in it .. * gotta get out * ... just what am I talking about...
And... so... it's that time of the year again... those merciless folks @ QAS are coming right @ us... ( again ) ... They are my nightmares ! .... or rather.. they're the mother of all nightmares.... and I have to face the demon... Ah Chek Ong and his devil disciple... Ka Kia Jacks*n... .. if it doesn't sounds scary enough... I don't know what will do ...
Never mind... I think I'll still have... @ most... 2 more nasty encounters with them ( I hope ) ... then I'll be retiring from DCC... oh well... and I think that I might have found the perfect person to take over from me... as my Poly classmate Yap WL was posted to my camp.. LOL ! ... and there's something about his posting.. gotta find out when boss is back ...
anyway... by the time you read this... I might be on my little road trip to Malaysia... the beautiful beaches in Pulau Rawa... ( well... @ least in the pictures ) .. LOL ! ... Hopefully I can leave all my worries and troubles in Jurong West... @ least for this weekend...
" Beautiful Pictures comin' up ! " . hIS iNVINCIBLE dULUGE eVIDENCE .
27th April 2004
Listening To : FAKE? - Snow Time On Planet - 21.19
Basically... I think my life right now's screwed up .... I have to go for a stupid army pride day cause someone nominated me ... and mind you.. the venue is no where near my home... and the thing is.. I had stuffs to clear at work.. so.. I'll have to be in camp no matter what... well... let's just say that it's all bad timing and I'm too incompetent for a simple job of mine... I Sucks ! . hIS iNVINCIBLE dULUGE eVIDENCE .
26th April 2004
Listening To : Dick Dale - Surf Beat Time On Planet - 12.17
Early morning... I'm, surfing the web.. and typed in my own address " wakeup.to/hide " .. LOL ! ... just to find out who's been linking me up ... and I saw a blog entry... it says something like this...
This girl from USA wrote ... " Check out this website www.wakeup.to/hide. Everything Hide and a floor plan / pictures of the hide Museum. I have a feeling that the boy who writes this isn't entirely straight though. Kawai ! " ...
I almost died... then I realized it might be this picture...that's causing the misunderstanding...
and what I meant to illustrate is that... Design can be fun and cheeky.. instead of a regular urinal you see everyday.. why not mould it into a lady's opening mouth.. well.. just a inject a little humor in it.. and in fact.. this was done in some airports in the states...
and the point is not about 2 grown up man.. peeping @ one another's family jewel !...and that would be gross !... and suddenly I realized.. this picture might be sending out the very wrong message to those web surfers...
I've since changed the picture ... LOL ! . hIS iNVINCIBLE dULUGE eVIDENCE .
25th April 2004
Listening To : Silence of the stale air Time On Planet - 00.59 ( 26/4/4 )
Wanna Kill Bill ?.... is what Colonel Quek messaged me on this lazy Sunday afternoon.. was planning to continue my Sex And The City DVDs... ( Haven't been watching for the past 3 days... ) ... changed my guitar's strings and polish it a little...
To me... Kill Bill.. was pretty much an instant classic.. although Volume 2 wasn't as good as Volume 1.. Had been a fan or Quentin Tarantino ... his filming techniques ( his super quick zoom in and out and those Whhisssshhh sound effects... ) are remarkable !
and in Kill Bill 2... the influences of ancient Chinese martial arts films were obvious as he paid " tribute " to such films by casting such Kung Fu people in this film... and what eagle claws .. tiger's palm... bear palm... and .. think they forget about the preying mantis shit... LOL ! ...
and... ZiChang just told me she's got the Nokia 7200 ... oh ... I'm so jealous of her ! .... oh.. did I say that I'm jealous? LOL ! . hIS iNVINCIBLE dULUGE eVIDENCE .
24th April 2004
Listening To : Ramones - Hey Ho ! Time On Planet -21.27
Headache... is what accompanied my throughout the day... from the minute I woke up @ 9 plus.. got changed quickly and head down to URA center for the " 20 Under 45 " talks ..
It's a very cool seminar I must say... but I was expecting to hear more of the design inspirations rather than to hear them talking about the features and some other design concepts.. overall... this session was a good learning / exposure session..
Met the winners of the Duxton Plain contest winners... and when I was being guided by a guide in the URA exhibition space... someone tapped my shoulders.. it Carol ! ... what a surprise.. ! and she accompanied me throughout the seminar...
I had understood that... In the Architectural field.. being under 45 years old.. is considered pretty young... considering that the youngest architect whose work is in display was only 33 years old... 33 years old..
I felt like I've been transported to the past attending lectures like any other day... I've seen so much of their pictures and articles and today.. I've finally got the chance to meet my heros up close and presenting their scheme...
The while affair lasted from 10 + to like.. 1.30 pm.. as I had time to kill as I'll bee meeting Nicole @ 3.30pm.. Carol was kind enough to accompany me.. snacking @ the Ya Kun Bread shop ... and that place really reminds me of my horrible poly attachments @ ADDP Architects...
was definitely more delighted as Jeff informed Nic that there'll be available rooms ! .. cause the day before... Jeff told us that the rooms were fully booked... * gee * ... So !... my weekend road trip was ON again ! ... Yeah ! ...
Lunch @ Buger King Marina Square... In fact.. my Mushroom Swiss wasn't really... Mushroom Swiss... I think they added some other sauce by mistake and the end product... tasted horrible...
shopped around and off to Suntec City... met into Shiyun ! ... hahah.. so long since I've met her... and as my migraine was killing me... I've decided to go home after 1 or 2 hours of shopping... and had to postpone my Escape Theme park trip.. sigh ...
so.. we head home after my last stop... the guitar shop... bought my strings and ... stopped by @ the CD shop opposite City Hall MRT ... almost bought the Michael Buble CD... if I stayed any minute long.. I'll be listening to that instead of My Ramones CD now... muahhaha... cause... I've been spending too much this month... LOL ! ...
damn tired and the pain in my head is killing me... off to sleep now !
Later ~... . hIS iNVINCIBLE dULUGE eVIDENCE .
22nd April 2004
Listening To : Some Thai Songs Time On Planet - 20.56
Can't believe I'm into Emily Strange now... so..
who's Emily? .. Emily is 13 years old .. Long black hair with bangs.. big white Mary Jane shoes... Short black dress.. Black stockings... Ever present 4 black cats...
She's anti cool.. a subculture of none.. and a follower of on one but herself.. she is the anti hero for the DO IT YOURSELF movement ! ... her favourate phrase is " GET LOST ! " which is both an invitation to travel to unknown places - an instruction to " take a hike "....
http://www.emilystrange.com/beware/indexmain.cfm
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21st April 2004
Listening To : Sugarflies - What About ? ( Love ) Time On Planet Shit - 20.53 22/4
I never thought that I'll be so affected by my failure ! ... sore loser... I might be... well... Picking pieces of a broken dream had never been an easy shit to do... and I never think... I had this courage to do just that... Some people just have their way...
Look.. you can just label me as some loser that is very jealous of fuckers who're born with a silver spoon.. fuckers... they always have the best of the world.. freaking cars.. hot dates.. and an almost guaranteed route to the university... no matter how small their brain might be...
and those fuckers with a million dollar dad always... have their way ! It's so unfair... here I am... wanted to further my studies... had so many obstacles.. and the worse of all... so what if I tried to overcome all this shit... and... still end up in Singapore ? cleaning up my own shit ?...
Life had never been fair !
All along.. I'm happy with that certain luxury level in my life... I had things I needed... and things that I wanted.. I had my room... a freaking guitar ... a fast internet connection... or even an Air Con.. I should be happy.. @ least I'm not some hungry kids along the dusty road.. but the sad thing is...
and.. may I say that... it's all Courtesy of the Singapore education system... We are always made to believe that we're being brought to the next level of education.. and often with ease... When we're born.. we go to the pre school.. and primary school.. and secondary schools... and JC .. Poly.. and the next logical institution is naturally the university... and University is like... the norm thing... the route to success... the route to a better living... we're often made to believe that we're off to this level... and now.. please proceed to the next ...
the orthodox Singaporean education ladder? As I understand I'm not the next Mr. Sim of creative technology... nor someone who's talented... I seriously think that... There's no future for me... Unless... A miracle happens and I get to do an Architectural degree.. and that's where my heart and soul are in ...
but too bad... I had to face the reality.. So what I loved architectural... and so what IF I had passion for it... NO ONE cares... Would URA want me if I loved architectural? ... NO... would anyone sponsor me for studies if I loved architectural? .. NO.... would I be able to make ends meet if I loved architectural? .. NO NO NO ! ... what I get in return... is just a lowly 8-5 draughtsman with little life of my own ...
Seriously... I think I might be over reacting but... I think... ok.. I'm just a sore loser in your eyes maybe... well.. who cares ! anyway... I'm not as sharp I used to be some 2 years back... Serving National Service for 2.5 fucking long years doesn't make me a real man... it just makes me more jaded towards life.. No Joke ! ...
Living life in an entrapment just makes my thinking narrower... You do the same things everyday... your lunch still sucks... you get charged / fined for cutting corners... you sign extras... you got to work overtime till 10... you get arrows.. you get scolding... and you still take home only a mere $420 bucks... and in my opinion.. all these shits doesn't make me any real man... It transforms me to a twit.. a brainless one ....
walking around in the middle of 4am with a piece of worthless metal doesn't make me any real man... and in case you doubt my patriotism... I would gladly fight with my dear life if we're being invaded... I would take up arms to defend ....
and our government encourages us to be another Mr. Sim from Creative technology.... but the burning question is... where to get the capital ?... it would take me forever for my business to be successful if my capital was only a few grand.. or maybe I'm wrong.. but successful cases are rare.. maybe one in 3 million? ... forget about it... The Rich gets richer.. and the poor gets poorer...
I'm so glad to have people whom I can call my friends... they never fail to stand by me when I'm in the shits... words of comfort and stuffs... and much more.. a surprise sms from Isa about being positive and chasing dreams... when she doesn't even know the situation I'm in now .. well... pretty much seen the light and I should be fine in no time ...
Thanks Hui, Nico and Isa ! ...
A Day in the Life of...
22.04.04 - So... guess our old boss Mong-ster had really left for good... it's so weird not having him around.. Mong-set knew exactly what's our job scope and Mr. Peter still needs some time.. I'm especially afraid when Peter asked me something that I don't understand / know.... I'm so cannot make it ... hope to ORD soon ... but still.... some time to go ...
Really looking forward to my mini road trip to Malaysia.. off to some Island called... ah~ .... Pulau Rawa.. where's it ?... beats me .. well... It should be something like this...
More Sun Tanning ! more drinks and Clear sea water ... LOL ! ... and if the place's cool... I might even want to return there with another bunch of friends ! ...... * heh * ....
. hIS iNVINCIBLE dULUGE eVIDENCE .
20th April 2004
Listening To : Crowded House - Private Universe Time On Planet - 18.01
having a better days @ work... well at least for my first 2 days... yesterday was just normal for me... moderately busy.. and today.. Went to help out with the Salvage Dumping early in the morning.. actually.. sort of volunteered to go in cause .. I've got nothing much to do in the office anyway... and secondly.. Team 1 was arrowed in too !
Doing shit stuffs ( pun intended ) can be so much better with Koon-Ster and Bing Tiong ... I hated Dumping sessions... my last one was like last year ? ... rubbish ... filled with ants.. worms.. and it's all wet and disgusting ! Eks !... or... so when everything's almost over... and Koon-ster , Mr. XX or myself can go with the dump truck and fall out early...
Koon-ster went for the first dumping / Early Fall Out trip.. while I went for the second... and here I am... typing all these down @ 17.13 pm.. yeah.. I was just lucky I think... I think... honesty .. I did not contribute as much as those lads out there... but doesn't mean I was slacking and staying out of sight anyway...
Was wondering if I'm going to Malaysia with Nicole and Z.C to find Jeff... Or rather... if nothing goes wrong.. I should be off to my road trip on the last day of this month ... and maybe a trip north to K.L ... * keeping my fingers, toes, intestines crossed... *
Oh.. here's more pictures I've taken during the chalet last weekend.. the Ong Baks.. First.. we have the original one... the one we saw in the movies....
and now... the not so original one... Mr. Mah MH
The birthday boy and Mr. Tanner Koh practicing their moves...
... Guess we're pretty big fans of the Ong Bak fellow.. hahaha.... . hIS iNVINCIBLE dULUGE eVIDENCE .
16-18th April 2004
Listening To : Bryan Adams - Summer of 69 Time On Planet - 20.01
So.. it seems
that.. time
apparently found itself a pair of wings to fly...
Mah's Birthday
Chalet / Camp Gathering was over before I knew it ...
Friday... took 1/2 day
off from work ... even found time to watch 2 episodes of Sex And The City before
going to Boon Lay Shopping Center to meet up with Ka Wai, Jenson and Fat Boy
Bought our stuffs over @ Shop N Save ... and to K.W house to get all the ah.. marinated chicken wings.. otahs.. and satays ! It;s always so kind of him to help us getting the foods and stuffs ! .. got a cab and head to Costa Sand Chalet...
Checked in @ 5 plus... and thank god.. we did not reach earlier... cause.. it's really all about Me.. and the lads staring @ one another... well.. not exactly .. LOL ! .. they played a 3 player Mahjong.. and I went to the beach to visit my faded memories...
and I saw this man who's with his pet dog... strolling along the sandy beach.. now... that's life ...
After the 3 musketeers were sick of their 3 player game.. they've decided to join me on the coastal break waters to enjoy the whispers of the ocean... as we chatted sh*ts about our camp... and we guessed who's the first to arrive... and.. it turns out to be Mr. Aves... who's also so kind to take away McDonalds for us...
Sat in the chalet.. and caught the last episodes of the Channel 8, 9 pm show... as we happily criticized the characters in the show.. and after 10pm.. Tanner and Ah Nan came... and subsequently.. others came...
Egg White and myself...
and when almost all of us were present.. we went to the newly renovated Food Center for our Dinner / Supper ... Mah and I ate 2 pieces of chicken wings for supper... and walked all the way back to our chalet... and I'm tired out by then .. Charles and Quek had already reached the chalet while we're walking back ..
and out of a sudden... I felt that Charles kind of resembles Mr. Big from Sex And The City..
and while our chalet slowly being transformed to some kind of illegal underground gambling den...
... so.. who won the most ?
Some 7-8 of us gathering and head for the Full Moon Beach Bar and Grill ... got ourselves a jug of Long Island Tea... which is becoming my favourate... some Mango ? or Strawberry ? Margarita shit.. the first sip.. it tasted alright.. but later.. I felt that it's pretty mind.. it tasted so much like Mango Puddings..
... Drink up man !
After 3 glasses of Long Island Tea.. we ordered ourselves Vodka Lime... and played the standard Zhong Ji Mi Mah shit with drinks .. I mean.. mixed drinks as forfeit.. I wouldn't want to know how Long Island w/ the Mango shit and w/ Vodka Lime tasted like... and I'm lucky that night... LOL !...
Long Island Tea !
Was feeling kinda dizzy and I went back to the chalet for an early night's rest @ 3.. or was it 4 am ... took off my lens and slept right away... had a hard time falling asleep and woke up @ 5 plus.. and Shit...
had Hang-overs... Damn ! .. popped in 2 Headache pills and 1 more.. again @ 7-8 am .. pills pills... I'm already so sick of taking them... and forced to wake up around 9 plus... ( lucky I was feeling so much better then ) .. walked miles for our breakfast @ a coffee shop ..
In the morning...
and the lads went for Billiard and Lan games sessions afterwards... and.. I'm not into both.. LOL... sat around and watched them in action instead... Shared cab with Chee, Cheong, Jenson and SP Lim.. from East Coast Mac - the Costa Sand chalet... the trip cost us $2.60.. and it saved us plenty of energy of walking back.. !
Stole some sleep and went off to the beach to.. Swim.. or rather.. practice their wrestling moves along the beach... as they throw one another into the water... Played our improvised version of " monkey " with the ball bought with the help of Ah Nan... and while in the water... the rocks gave me it's welcoming gift as a form of a cut.. around 2 cm long to be precise near my left toe...
Sun tanned a bit.. but.. it's seems that it doesn't have any effect on me.. sigh... trudged back.. ( oh ok.. the cut wasn't that bad.. :p ) to our unit and started preparing ourselves or rather the food for the BBQ ... Sgt Roberts and Sgt Lee were there too.. and too bad Mong-Ster couldn't make it...
Mr. Lee EC as the pirated Spiderman
Had a pretty fun session BBQing the stuffs although I've received complains that the Chicken wings I BBQ was not fully cooked.. oh well ....
the last person to arrive in our guest list was Seth... Mah dun go .. I don't know but... Tanner, Quek and myself was stunned stiff when we saw the cake seth had helped us bought... it's... Speechless... and had to trouble Ang to get us another cake ...
As usual.. SaBo sessions followed.. LOL ! ... and Look @ The Mess ! ! ...
Chatting session...
soon... most of them left for home... Karaoke... or dreamland... and 10 - 12 of us stayed for another night... Mr. Lee EC stayed back till pretty late and chatted with us outside our chalet.. and it's 4 in the morning.. just as Tanner, SP, Mah, K.W , Jenson and myself went upstairs to catch our last 4 hours of much needed sleep...
Out for a fag ...
We gave it all up within 10 minutes... well.. @ least for SP Lim, Mah and myself.. cause.. Jenson started snoring 15.56 seconds after switching off the lights.. LOL ! ... and as we went down for a fag... I've decided that.. I'll stay up to catch the sun rise... while...
Sleepless at East Coast ...
Mah refused to go upstairs to sleep... SP wanted to cycle to the beach.. Tanner.. want to go back to sleep.. and me?.. wanted to walk.. not cycle to the beach... and so .... for the benefit of all... we've decided to go our separate ways...
and while making my way out... I waked past the Full Moon Bar... and... just couldn't resist the temptation of having myself just one more glass of alcoholic drink in the middle of a 5 am morning... I walked in... ordered myself a Tequila sunrise... and happily sipping them away....
I loved catching the first light of the morning... the pink orange skies... never fails to cheer me up.. and when I'm sitting there all alone facing the sea at the bar... sipping my not so nice Tequila Sunrise...
My Tequila Sun rise ! ! ...
Sometimes... I do miss my past.. but .. there's no point in it .. I'm far too broken to be pitied.. I know.. I still had left some time.. to be happy of the present and my future... although it's the uncertain future that freaks me out every now and then ...
met up with SP on bicycle along the beaches and sat there.. letting the cool sea breeze blew kisses on our oily face... for the first few minutes... I'm fully wide awake... but... as time went by...
Some cocksters along the pavement
I found myself nodding uncontrollably.. I was tired... and.. we made our way back to the chalet... had one or two hours of sleep in the first storey and was woken up by Choong around 8.15 ...
he's packing the chalet... and I was speechless... I though He and Chee was going to remain concussed till 10 plus... and it's so kind of Choong to tidy up the chalet and the BBQ stuffs a little bit there...
Shared a cab home... and.. knocked back into sleep... and.. yes.. missed my sunrise earlier on .. ....
Yeah.. more photos soon...
Later ! ... . hIS iNVINCIBLE dULUGE eVIDENCE .
14th April 2004
Listening To : Velvet Revolver - Slither Time On Planet - 20.44
Got the costly " Sex And The City " Dvd from my sir on lazy Monday... and god.. it cost me a cool.. or rather totally an un cool 100 bucks.. hmmm... but.. after catching just 4 episodes... It's money well spent....
It's hard to understand.. why the people at our censorship board still... refuse to let the show " Sex And The City " be shown on our shores and... from the some 14 episodes I've caught so far.. there isn't really any nude scenes...If you're thinking... .. and If you.. don't know anything about this fabulous show , which is so so popular in the states..
ok.. in a nutshell... the sitcom is all about "Four beautiful female New Yorkers gossip about their sex-lives (or lack thereof) and find new ways to deal with being a woman in the 90's. " ... It has nothing to do with what-so-ever porn stuffs.. ... and this sitcom seems to sending out a silent message to us... " Watch out... the girls are coming ... ! "
Gone were the days where dating seems so simple.. ( I think I've stressed that point for a million times now ... ) ... it seems like.. in today's context... dating.. deals a lot with mind games... mind games... and.. more mind games... the female species these days.. seemed to be more daring.. more experimental.. and... catching on the male species in terms of superiority..
and.. if guys can have all the ( no strings attached ) fun... why can't the girls? ... It's a fair world...
or maybe our Asian society ain't just anywhere ready for taboo shows touching on... Sex on first dates ?... Threesomes ?... casual sex ?... oh.. did I mentioned casual sex... the character complain that she wasn't having the time of her life cause her boyfriends'.... shortcomings ... ( Pun absolutely intended ! ) ..
Gays ! ... Relationships ... or issues of the Big " O " ... or rather... faking the Big " O " .... * heh * ... or a sample dialogue.. " who cares... men are gong to be obsolete in 50 years anyway ... "
... and you know what she said that ?.... cause~ ... she.... had.. just got herself.... a .... eeerrrr.... a battery operated device.... and an gay told his female friend... " 15 years of rejection is a lifestyle.. " .. oh well... such a dismay life ... we've got.. one night stands.... one days stand.... oh.. whatever the time may be...
...and to my horror... I realized that the first ever episode was aired in 1998... 1998 ! .. and that's so so long ago.. and the last ever season was the sixth.. which was hmmmm... in 2003 ? ...
and suddenly... It struck me that... Sex And The City was actually on our screens... a much more milder version that is... 9pm Channel 8 .. which if you asked me... wasn't a very interesting show anyway... except the first 3 episodes where everything's fresh ... * heh *
What a long lived show ( SANC )... you should catch it someday ! oh... anyway.. On another note ... nothing special about yesterday's Oh - So - Boring guard duty... except that... it's humid yesterday... so bad.. that I couldn't fall asleep in the already hot and stuffy guard rest room ... all along.. I had no problem sleep in that till yesterday ...
and surprisingly... I chatted with SP LIm for my last graveyard shift... which is from 0030 - 0430 ... In my last 4 .. or rather 5 duties with him... He'd be knocked out or I'll rather be staring at nothing... or reading my stuffs... * hmmmm * ... . It's always interesting talking to someone...
for a longer period of time... you'll find out insights which you could never had expected it coming it from his mouth ...
and yes.. yesterday's my last piece of duty ... of the month of April.. and great ! .. now I can enjoy myself for the rest of the month... having fun on weekends... keeping late nights.. without having to worry... " I have to go home / sleep early... having guard duty tomorrow.. ". ... no more.. @ least for this month...
and so.. to all those thought I was insane doing combos... " BO LIAO LOH ! ! " .... and some of my colleagues are doing their... err... second duty of this month... ? ... LOL ! ...
and... A chalet would be next in line for me... and today.. I've collect everyone's money... ! and @ last.. have concrete money for those BBQ food ! hahaha... should be meeting up some " long time no see " people that day ...
sigh.... I'm been having migraines for... 4 consecutive days !
Later ~ .... . hIS iNVINCIBLE dULUGE eVIDENCE .
11th April 2004
Listening To : Bryan Adams - Heaven Time On Planet - 10.38
As the first dawn came down upon me... Waking up to one one beside me .. Insecurity .. she hug me an inch closer to her chest.. endless beautiful sorrows stirred once again on my sea of thoughts.. and I just don't feel like going home anytime..
My vision once blurred with euphoria .. mixed with shades of blood red...refraining myself from talking my first forbidden virgin step in this uncertain foolish game.. take away my life.. my past.. please help me free my mind..
my misery .. my overdue dreams had all rolled into one.. this empty bottle couldn't contain all my dreams I've secretly kept for years.. Tell me it's about time.. for me to go ..
So flawless the plan might just be.. and may time might slowly revel itself and soon enough.. I'll find myself lost in the mystery of feel. No option no option.. even I'm still feeling naked from the elements of reality...
so bare.. that it hurts.. hold me tight in your dreams.. cause someday I might be gone... until the day ever comes.. hold the candle that maps out my life.. my very life..
I think .. I should had woken up from this aging dream years ago.. but I chose to carry on deceiving myself... and I ran across the endless voids... Staring at those beautiful spaces in my head.. The images becomes so surreal.. but still I can't feel.. you ...
Slowly... as hopeless hope started to embrace me.. and my face was drenched with my own tears... It's freezing... and I realized that the smile on your face.. was real ...
Having conversations with our ghost of the fateful past... and I recalled the laughter that we used to share... I couldn't bear to throw them all away... and to keep them as scars...
So long so long... time had failed to keep it's forbidden promise to me... or It's just too much of me to ask ... Just.. Bring me your sunshine.. did you have no passion ?... Bring me close... Bring me... to you again ? ...
I seems to be losing myself in those daunting illusions.. they never seems to leave me alone.. Just when I thought everything was ok.. and you came back to be with a stab in my distorted mind... Is our world too small to contain our heated love?... or it's just that... it's all meant to be...
Staring the the bleeding sun... I know that.. I've let you down again... true to my empty promises....
. hIS iNVINCIBLE dULUGE eVIDENCE .
10th April 2004
Listening To : silence of the air ... Time On Planet - 11 / 4 early morning...
Another duty had passed.. and.. I'm now left with one.. so.. yesterday's just another dose of SP Lim complaining of my frequent spinning of FAKE?'s CD... sigh ...
..and watching him killing these irritating houseflies and setting up those dead bodies on fire using the telephone spray... running in the afternoon...
sleeping in the afternoon... scratching my legs thanks to the mosquitoes in the afternoon ... having people who ate my instant noodles without asking me... I'm not trying to be funny nor selfish of sharing food with others.. ....
.. but.. I just can't ... errr ... stomach the thought of doing swallowing other's saliva... but.. unless If you're .. * aahhheemmmm *... I can accept that .. hhhmmmmm .... oh well ...
anyway.. met my new boss today.. WO Peter Choo .. he looked kinda young @ first glance.. .. and .. pretty much un-friendly.. hmmm... hope I'm not in for a hard time ... oh anyway..
caught some 45 minutes of sleep before meeting Nicole in town.. and this time round.. I'm late... * boo * ... hahaha... and visited Mah MH @ Tanglin Mail... Bought the Saturday Night Fever VCDs.. as a form of support.. * muahahahha * .. had a little fag session .... and went for my little lunch @ McDonalds...
and midway.... Alan called... that dude from storage ... and I suspected he called the wrong number but... he did asked for my name.... hmmmm .... and told me that Pain CK was working as a Kopi Kia @ a commonwealth coffee shop... heh...
took a cab off to Sim Lim where my nightmare began... well... won't want to elaborate much but.. all I can say is... I Hate Sim Lim ! ... and thanx Charles for his advice ! and too bad.. I've failed Nicole and Charles... oh well... Times had changed ...
ZiChang later came over to meet us and head for dinner... it's that Tim Sum thingy @ Bugis Junction.. not too bad... by that time.. I'm already 3/4 dead from the debating session I had @ Sim Lim... and gave Nic a little crash course about her new Ixus iis ... oh.. I thought it's a real cool camera... !
Caught this cute little girl on my camera... she's playing with those with pebbles near the conveyer thingy.. and she's having fun ! ... It's always great to get away with things when you're young... almost instantly forgiven .. worry-free ....
and then... we went to this really cool place called " Can Cafe "...
The Can Cafe's concept was real interesting... it's near Bugis Junction and.. actually I've walked past it before... Look !... it's so homely and cozy !... it's almost like a Rag And Bone Man's home... there's... everything... from posters of the Beatles to ..
Opium Smoking Apparatus... the mood is so laid back that... I could almost fall asleep... plus cool music from Class 95 ...
So how... the colour scheme really reminds me of hide Museum.... the Green wall ... with those music memorabilia ... face masks... musical instruments suspending from mid air...
Ok now.. let us all visit the washroom now...
and to " complete " the whole design theme... even their washroom wasn't spared !... this is what I saw when I entered... artifacts stuck in the corner of the tiny space... there's also a funny sigh next to the water closet ... " Welcome.. Please Take A Seat .. " ... and on the door ...
and went home on a cab with ZiChang around 12 ... another day gone... complete with migraine.... . hIS iNVINCIBLE dULUGE eVIDENCE .
8th April 2004
Listening To : Oasis - MasterPlan Time On Planet - 2000
hmmm... Long Weekend for ya?... oh well.. not for me anyway... duty tomorrow.. so.. can't go Zouk with them later... sigh... hmmm... which might not be a bad thing... when the Sex and the City DVD season 1-6 .. that cost me ... .. .. . ..... .. .... * heh *
It's so very kind of Bing Tian to book the chalet for us.. I mean.. It's a big risk for someone to pay upfront first.. there's always a chance of not getting back the full amount...
so.. I'll do my best-est effort in chasing the money back... * muhahaha *... Now that the chalet's concrete now... We can carry on and work out the details...
Work today was stuck in second gear... or rather.. the first gear... whenever Mong-ster wasn't around.. we tend to slack a bit.. but.. I'm going to miss him... as he'll be posting out soon.. many of my friends would beg to differ but... DCC .. or rather the camp.. would definitely change..? .. for better or for worse ?... I don't know. ....
I've been feeling under the weather these days... felt like I couldn't almost make it to work today... popped in my pills @ 5am and head back to sleep... thank god I was pretty fine when I woke up...
having my duty tomorrow again... my second last in fact.. and yeah... sun tanning again ! ... LOL ! .... . hIS iNVINCIBLE dULUGE eVIDENCE .
7th April 2004
Listening To : J - Nowhere Time On Planet Bleak - 19.55
I've pretty much lost track of time these days.. and almost everyday seems to be identical.. overdose of guard duties.. LOL ! ... so.. 2 more left... on the 9th and 13th.. and after that... I'll be a free man ! wwoohhooo ! ... @ least for the rest for this month...
Maybe.. I'm nuts but.. I'm feeling extremely desolate and extreme emptiness today.. there's something lacking in my life and I've no idea what it might be.. maybe thinking of my " possibly bleak " future...? .. beats me.. not much mood to take my dinner.. just don't feeling like eating anything...
Sometimes I feel that my life's always trapped in a standstill ... going to work everyday held no significant meaning to me... I'm just doing the same things over and over again ... it's just like .. being trapped in a typical day... until the weekend comes..
and what's more disturbing is that... I'm going to spend some 100 dollars? on the Sex and the City DVD.. and man.. never did I estimate that it'll cost that much ... ! Seventeen pieces of DVD... looks like.. it's gonna take some time to finish them... and one thing for sure... NO more DVDs for me ! ... LoL ! ....
Preparations for Mah's chalets are going fine.. and I'm glad that Bing Tiong offered to book the chalet on behalf of us... cause.. few of us really had that kind of money to book the chalet... hopefully everything would turn out good... and fun ... oh well ...
I should be able to feel better in a couple of days.... : ) . hIS iNVINCIBLE dULUGE eVIDENCE .
3rd April 2004
Listening To : FAKE? - Dream life 6.30 Time On Planet - 21.20
So.. One down.. 4 more to go.. hmm.. guard duties I mean.. after that ( the five duties ) ... I would be able to go home everyday for 2 weeks straight.. well... you win some.. you lose some ...
Yesterday's one was.. a Ok... except that there were a lot of mosquitoes.. and increasing detest the environment @ the sentry... 2 words... Sentry Sucks ! talked tons of shit with SP Lim.. and argued with him when he questioned my logic about the chalet's planning and stuffs.... * heh * ...
Oh.. one thing in the morning happened in DCC ( my office ) ... and I laughed silently in my mind whenever I recalled it.. That Senior Spiderman was in DCC shredding some documents.. then ... he saw the very thick brown coloured book on my table... that's Ah Quek's San Gou story book.. ( Romance of the three kingdom? ) and Spiderman asked me..
" this one is a Bible ah ? "... as he stared at me... and I replied ... that's only a Chinese story book ... * heh * ... hmm... wasn't funny...
Got home around 10.05.. washed up.. and slept for a while ( too little ! )... before leaving for Bugis Junction.. Accompany Nicole to scout for a digital camera and got the ps2 / USB thingy for her..
As a Canon Camera user.. I'm biased.. but.. luckily Nicole's looking for a Canon too.. * phew * ... and I'm well surprised to find out that the new model, Canon Ixus 2s.. cost less than $500 ! .. Definitely a good buy ! ... considering the kind of money I paid for mine compared to now... Hmmm... Should be making another trip next week ! ....
Had Apple Strudel from the shop I've been wanting to eat for ages... $3.50 a piece.. and actually wanted to try the Peach one.. but.. Bo Liao Loh ! ... and had to settle for the Mango Strudel instead .. slacked there @ the small strudel shop and chatted about... TOKYO ! ... aarrggggg ! ...
Went to Bugis Junction for my fast window shopping.. and then over to the Bugis stalls area... ( just opposite Bugis Junction Shopping ctr .. ) .. forgot what it's called... .. and Nic searched for her bags ... and while on our way back..
we.. saw this cute car ... isn't it .... weirdly cute ?
Later ~ ! . hIS iNVINCIBLE dULUGE eVIDENCE .
1st April 2004
Listening To : FAKE? - New Skin ! Time On Planet - 19.56
Early in the morning.. after falling out... We went for a run again.. Oh well.. If I knew it ( it's a pretty much last minute affair )... I wouldn't had gone for my run yesterday.. cause.. today was pretty much a compulsory run.. * damn * ...
Anyway.. the run was kind of fun.. haven't ran with such a big crowd for a long time.. ran a long with Nicolas.. .. was terribly exhausted after the run.. achy legs.. managed to " Siam " ( escape ) from the Chin up and standing board jump session.. cause... I simply don't want to do them.... Luckily wasn't caught .. LOL !
I can't do regimental shits.. like I would gladly go for my run myself.. without any one forcing me to run.. I just hated the feeling of someone forcing me to do things.. If I'll do it.. I'll do it.. don't push me to do it ...
In the afternoon... Settle some of the details for Mah's chalet.. as expected.. a closed affair celebration turns out to be a pretty big scaled one.. and thus.. the Chalet's Storey also " up sized " ... oh well... LOL !
Received a surprise call from someone during fall out... * heh * ... well.. tomorrow had duty again.. and would be the starting of the combos.. ( alternate duties days.. ) ... endure !
Inoran... that's him below.. 1/2 of FAKE? ... I've seen this guitar during the Final Act DVD.. and thought that his Dragon picture was extremely cool.. and till I watched the new FAKE? 's Praise video ...
And cow... look at his Amp. .. there's this dragon ! ...
WoW ... ! .. maybe I should do something to my amp as well ... err... picture of ...err..... what shall I put... * muahahha * ... . hIS iNVINCIBLE dULUGE eVIDENCE .
31st March 2004
Listening To : Mansun - She Makes My Nose Bleed Time On Planet - 21.46
Here I am.. Midweek Wednesday.. still feeling a- okay .. had an a- Okay day too... Arrowed into r2 to do the P/Blank shit.. and managed to finish in time for my E-Mart trip with Nicola, Bing Tiong.. and Koon-ster.. Ang drove us there.. but..
The System at E-Mart Jurong Camp's down... * PuI * ... had lunch @ the canteen.. and drove to the E-Mart @ Safti OCS ... grabbed myself some new T shirts and socks...
and more socks.. and a pair of track shoes.. when I booked out @ the OCS guard room... I realized that Ridzuan... was the RP inside ! .. he seems a lot fitter as compared to the poly days.. when he seems so frail .. how time flies...
or rather... not ... . hIS iNVINCIBLE dULUGE eVIDENCE .
27th March 2004
Listening To : FAKE?'s N/A Time On Planet - 13.29 ( 280304 )
It's another Saturday.. went for work in a " dream life 6.30 " state again.. some things just never change.... Suppose to have gone for my running but... I'm too achy to run.. plus my migraine medicine's making me sleepy..
so.. trapped inside my office for the whole morning.. and finished reading my book.. " 100 simple secrets to being happy "... and I thought about the theory I've seen during yesterday's 9pm show.. this' her theory ...
" We had already spend so much time waiting.. we had to wait for the traffic lights to cross the road.. wait for an empty cubical in the washroom.. Waiting for things to happen... Wait for the bus to arrive... Waiting and waiting and waiting.. and had already wasted so much time waiting.. "
Her theory really struck me deep... and got me thinking.. and ... " Yeah.. I should not be sitting around and wait for things to happen ... I'm going to enjoy my life.. I might just kick the bucket tomorrow... " ... Living the life I want ... !
Anyway.. I'm looking forward to learning wakeboarding.. think it should be fun.. the speed and the thrills... other alternatives ?... Antonio suggested canoeing and Kayak-ing... but.. they lack the speed and excitement... hope to join BaoLi and XiuQing soon man ! .... wondered do they wakeboard @ Newcastle ..... lol ..
Should be going out with the Genting Jinx Gang but.. *heh*.. I doubt so.. all 're 1/2 dead..( Ai Mai Ai Mai ).... LOL ! ... then.. received an sms from my Jie Mei Nicole.. " hey.. wanna go for dinner and drink later... " .. and ok.. then...
Met them @ 7pm City Hall Interchange.. and.. I'm late again.. cause I know Nicole would be late as usual.. * Lol .. ! *.. so .. I reached around 7.16.. and what... I'm the last one to arrive.. and ... Nicole came before me !? ... how can that be? .. lol ! ...
went to the basement restaurant @ Raffles City... couldn't remember what the place is called but it's the one next to the fountain... we had this for dinner.. oh.. the place's Out Of The Pan...
It's like a Taco Bell kinda thingy.. but.. it taste better.. I had the beef one.. I drank err... ice green tea + mango syrup + apple syrup ... err... tasted a bit weird.. but.. alright ... ( gee.. what am I trying to say ? ) ... a very tall glass huh ?...
sat there day dreaming and thinking where shall we go for our drinks.. Boat Quay's Wine Bar? .. Fullerton's Lola ( can't get in... must try luck ) ... Harry's @ Esplanade .. the Jazz Bar @ boat Quay.. or.. Embargo .. ... and settled for Harry's @ Esplanade.. and why not.. I haven't been there before anyway...
Reached there around 9pm.. and there's not much people.. settled down... ordered our first jug.. Long Island Tea... and we played the number game.. ( Zhong Ji Mi Mah ) .. and the forfeit is to drink... I suggested the game.. but later regretted it.. as I'm the most unlucky one.. first to empty my glass of Long Island ...
and our second jug.. Tequila Sunrise... tasted pretty good !.. MingHui and I are both so " lucky "... on 2 occasions.. we got the number on our first attempt.. *heh* ..
It's another ...Tequila Sunrise
we played on and on... till we're a little blur-ed ... slightly high.. but not there yet... and I miss the presence of my fags.. too expensive to get them these days... but.. what's drinking without any fag?! ... soon.. we're dry on the second jug... due to financial constrains.. * Lol * .. we had to share the Singapore Sling... which cost us $3 dollars each.. means makes the drink $15 dollars... *heh* ..
after leaving the bar... we head over the the UOB area to withdraw some cash and took a cab home.. but.. it's only 12 plus midnight.. it's still so... early.. but still felt pretty sober..
Anyway.. here's the pictures.. if you're interested...
http://www.oocities.org/sg/zpliow/harrys.html
When Fong Ming said that she's staying @ west coast and dropping off that the Esso Station.. I decided to get down with her.. to visit da horse.. cause his stable's in that area too..
Came down for a short chat... and talk loads of shit.. felt like going to the Esso Mart go get some more liquor but.. I had to spare some thought for my thin wallet ... * sigh * ...
Been drinking for my past 2 consecutive weekends... I didn't really expect to spend this much just now.. planned to order 2 Tequila pop and that's it.. but.. sigh... and next month.. I'll restrict myself to one session.. * lol * ... Next Month.. Escape Theme Park.. !
and my weekend are going to be over soon... and had to do guard duty tomorrow... sad.. .. felt to sleepy and tired.. still wondering if I should go back to sleep later.. * muahhaha * ...
Ok.. I know I'm lazy ..... . hIS iNVINCIBLE dULUGE eVIDENCE .
26th March 2004
Listening To : FAKE? - N/A Time On Planet longing - 00.22 ( 270304 )
Walked home in the rain just now returning from work... so long.. since I've strolled in the pouring rain.. I've felt that I'm in my secondary school days.. felt good to be in the heavy downpour.. it just kind of freshen me up a little.. Billie Myer's Kiss The Rain ? ...
Chatted with my good old friend Isabella on MSN just now.. pretty glad to hear from her again... It's really ( Don't know how to describe ) to know how had your friends in school years ago are doing now... anyway ... She still gives me a feeling of a cold person... * heh * ... nothing much had changed in her ... talked about our days in secondary school and our lame ECA... those were the days...
Oh.. my FAKE?'s new skin arrived ! .. watched the DVD tracks and was a little disappointed.. it's too flashy.. couldn't really catch much details.. more over.. I've seen that performance by them already ( downloaded some videos ) ... no.. it's nothing new to me... : ( .. anyway... loved the sticker !
sigh.. going back to camp tomorrow.. or rather.. later on .. in a few hours time..
Later~ ...
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26th March 2004
Listening To : Hanoi Rocks - Fast Car Time On Planet Wild Surf - 20.58
La lala la la .... hey.. Wakeboarding anyone ?... wait till I get more tan-ed first...
http://www.extreme.com.sg/school/courses/bc.htm
this company even says they'll teach you till you know how to wakeboard @ the end of the 4 lessons... If you still can't do it.. they'll extend your lessons FOC till you make it ! but this company's fees are too expensive.. have to scout for a cheaper one..
I'm not joking anyway.. just wanted to change my life ...
Wanna learn together ? ... . hIS iNVINCIBLE dULUGE eVIDENCE .
25th March 2004
Listening To : Mansun - Until The Next Life Time On Planet - 21.51
So.. another day had passed.. yeah.. did tons of work today.. ok I admit.. it's all because I've been slacking on my job for months.. snowballed... and.. Now.. I had to rush my ass off ... My old friend came to visit my camp.. did not really speak much.. not convenient to do so anyway.. so.. SMS-ed her instead ... went for my run in the late afternoon and met brother bear on the way riding his bike... * hahaaa... today's an old friends day *
Oh.. did I mentioned before that the show on Channel 8 is great ?... I might even learn a thing or two from that show regarding women's behaviour .... Television these days seems to had opened up a lot..
I still remembered a scene where the 3 girls.. would see who scores with a hunk first.. hahahh .. You get shows that deals with adultery.. sex.. bla bla bla... which was pretty much a taboo before... and the characters even had names like " Yue Jing Mei " ... try to guess what it means in Mandarin ... . hIS iNVINCIBLE dULUGE eVIDENCE .
24th March 2004
Listening To : Mansun - Butterfly Time On Planet New - 19.55
Work today.. was really nothing special.. it's just another day anyway ... but there's this thing today that I sort of enjoyed... I had a long lunch break today... It might not sound significant to you but...
You might ... want to know / already know... that lunch by SFI ( Singapore Food Industry ) usually sucks.. given 10 meals.. Only 1 would barely make it... which is of course.. every Wednesday's Western meal.. Even for western meals.. Sometimes sucks... they simply just cook any stupid and tasteless dish and thrown in 7 sticks of fries and a bread bum.. and they'll call it a western meal...
Maybe the folks @ SFI had never tasted any decent western meal.. If you think that food served in the army were delicious... you should visit my camp... after eating... might just puke afterwards...
oh.. back to the point... yes.. I had a long lunch break today... cause I usually took no more than 5 minutes consuming my meal.. 1) .. the ration sucks... 2) .. I've had to go back to the office and do my stuffs... and today... I think I took 20 minutes ??... chatted with Koonster and Tanner... cause I think I haven't chatted with Koonster for ages...
Planned my duties with Sgt Lee and would be doing super combo duties with SP Lim ( yes.. all of the following dates with him ! ).. which falls on 2,4,6,9,13 ... I'm not out of my mind.. but.. I just felt that I would want to clear all my meaningless guard duties within the first 2 weeks... plus.. 2 weekends too.. * can go sun tanning again ! * ...
late afternoon... the whole camp were given Early Fall Out... which is something as rare as getting a delicious meal by those people @ the SFI ... oh well... nice to be home an hour earlier ! ...
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22nd March 2004
Listening To : Observatory - Queen Of Fate Time On Planet Lame - 21.15
Went to work today.. half dead.. felt slightly hang over.. slight discomfort in my head... almost couldn't make it... woke up in the middle of the night... damn thirsty ...
Sad to say but.. felt a little disillusioned once again... life doesn't seems to hold any meaning for me right now... sort of like drifting in the middle of the ocean... I'll have to go... wherever the wind wants me to...
Now.. just felt like drinking... to drown all my sorrows... perhaps... numb my pain for a while... just a while... . hIS iNVINCIBLE dULUGE eVIDENCE .
21st March 2004
Listening To : still air ... Time On Planet Drunk - 00.28 ( 220304 )
200304 - Yesterday Morning.. I woke up late.. @ 7.30am.. and luckily.. I'm woken up by the Car's Horn below my block .. cause I normally wake up @ 6.55am.. so that I can steal another 11 minutes of sleep.. and a quick shower.. read the papers.. and.. off to work.. that's my typical day.. and I'm terribly sick of it ..
anyway do visit the link below.. it's freaking accurate.. so accurate.. till that girl freaked out and called me on the phone in disbelieved .. but later told me that the results were sort of fix to the birth months entered.. * heh * .. anyway.. thanx to EvOn for the link ..
http://www.idealpartner.org.uk/ipbi/WhatJob.asp
And.. I'm just equally as stunned as her upon looking @ my results... you should try them out... : ) ... Me... er.. it says ..
" with a cautious approach to life, he rarely discloses his innermost thoughts. " .. - yeah.. that's true...
"will work long and hard to master the skills needed to put that technology to good use. " ... - not really.. I'm lazy ...
" not good @ communication.... and finds relaxation and verbal expression difficult " ... - * arh ? * relaxation difficult ?... * nah *
Escalator from street level to City Link
Drinks didn't make me any sober...
210304 - Oh man.. I'm so exhausted from yesterday's drinking.. * hahahaa *.. haven't felt that way for a long time.. First.. we dine @ the Nooch Noodle restaurant @ City Link... It's my first visit there... We're meeting @ 7pm.. but.. * heh*.. I'm late.. again ... so.. when I reached there... all of them are already seated inside.. Called Benny and brought me in there..
@ first glance.. I thought that Benny had brought me to the wrong table.. There're so many un-familiar faces.. Digest a little bit.. and.. " Oh.. it's Ming Hui's friend lah... " .. no wonder the 2 fellows looked... a little familiar to me... * heh * ...
Actually I find the food there pretty Ok.. err.. I think I had fried Noodle the last time I dine there with that girl ... and.. I found my all time favourate Katsu Curry Rice on the menu... what a surprise ! ... well.. It seems that I still haven't completed eating all varieties of Japanese Curry Rice all over Singapore... anyway... The Nooch one smells lovely..
but sadly.. it tasted kind of awful ! * sigh * ... oh.. the rice wasn't even those pearl rice those Japanese used.. Damn.. I felt cheated... and off we went to Centro's Embargo ... the place's hot.. ( pun intended )... the outdoor seating was stuffy... especially after that long walk with my jie mei Nicole to that far far away's ATM machine...
the Retro Car we saw @ Fullerton... surprise.. it's a SDF
I think we're always in the first bar jinx.. the red wine sucks ! .. wondered why that girl loved red wine so much... It S.u.c.k.s ! .. I couldn't even managed to finish my share... * heh * ... oh well..
Off to boat quay ( again ) ... checked out the Jazz Bar Nicole Recommended.. walking up the stairs.. heard those jazzy stuffs and I immediately felt like I'm home.. felt so good.. but... ( there's always a B.U.T ) ... it's full house.. So.. proceeded to the piano bar... ( again ) ...
Had Remey Silver and... Oh man.. so much better than the red wine ! .. I think you all might know that the Remy Silver had to be mix w/ cola.. ratio of lets say ... 1 : 7 ( coca cola.. ) .. and for my second serving.. I accidentally gave myself around ... 2.5 : 7 .. and man.. really felt the effects.. * heh * ...
Watched those guys played some " Cai Quan " games which I simply don't comprehend how to go about playing it.. .. * ahahha * ... bad with numbers.. had a few more glasses and left for another .... had more drinks...
I almost couldn't make it back home after those rounds... If the cab drive drove a little faster.. I might had puked in his cab... * Oh Well * ... Oh ... to Nicole.. " Yeah.. I'm fine.. it's just that I don't really speak much... not that I'm bored or what... so.. * hee hee * .. yeah.. I'm fine... & .. thanx for your concern ... : ) ... ..
So.. woke up .. continued to play RAW 2 on X Box.. I'm not really a game person but.. I'm addicted on that one.. * heh * ...
Went out again @ 5 plus to meet the guys ( Jinx Gang ) for a drink.. we met @ Clementi Interchange and head for the cheap Japanese restaurant for our dinner... no surprise.. I had the Japanese Curry rice again.. but.. this time it's better.. the rice they used was those pearl rice.. * heh * ..and went to play the Daytona shit.. haven't played that game for ages... * hahah * ...
Next Holland Village.. Went to the Coffee club and got myself my favourate Hazelnut latte ! .. grab a couple of magazine and settled myself down.. and guess what.. the jinx of going to a second place is back !.. same as yesterday * ahahhaaa * ...
cause I suggested for a drink... we went to Ka Wai's recommended pub @ Bukit Timah area.. Cozy Pub ... the environment's great !.. not too crowded.. ops.. it's a Sunday night anyway ... the songs they played was ok..
Because I went to the gents the moment I step in.. Asked the guys if they had ordered the drink.. and they said yes.. 3 jugs of B.E.E.R ... I almost died there.... I hated Beer.. it simply sucks.. so... changed that one jug of beer to my favourate Vodka Lime...
and in the end... I ended up drinking the whole jug of Vodka Lime myself.. luckily it was kind of mild.. * hahahha * ... Gossiped every thing / person In camp... ahahha.. who says guys don't gossip... bought 2 magazines earlier on @ Holland Village.. spend 21 dollars on my jug of Vodka... Cab fare home... and now.. My wallet's empty... I'm officially broke...
This weekend was fabulous... If only all of my weekends were like that ... .
later ~ ...
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18th March 2004
Listening To : Astrud Gilberto - Come Softly To Me Time On Planet - 19.18
went to Singapore Poly .. to visit my Lecturer Cheah Kok Meng... I'm lucky.. cause I'll had missed him.. If I'm 5 minutes late cause I did not call him... it's been quite a long time since I've seen him.. he seems to had grown older... * Sigh * ... seek his help for a letter of recommendation....
Singapore Poly has drastically changed a lot... I almost could recognize my own school ... Lotta new landscaping... new buildings.. or rather.. stand - alone cafe building of 2 storey high.. it's.. almost Un-School like... and I kinda of almost lost my way ... Gee ...
Then accompanied Yaohui to his future school.. S.I.M ... It's.. kinda like a hospital ( ops! ) ... cold cold.. white white.. oh well.. maybe it's a off peak hour @ the time of the day... collected some brochures for that girl ... Just in case she needed them someday .. then.. dashed off to Killiney Road..to that Educational Loan company for enquires... well.. I think that's my only hope now... and my hidden hope.. is the URA thingy...
so.. if any two days.. I'm missing for like 2 days on off... most likely I'll be @ home.. doing my stupid portfolio.. cause my portfolio now's in a fucking mess... had to dig out ancient shits to put them in... I'm just hoping that a miracle happens.. and URA grants me a interview / assessment .. I'm really hoping for that ... hail URA..
then.. off to Raffles Place's HSBC bank.. after all the talking.. one conclusion.. HSBC sucks... wish I could burn the whole fucking building down... it's so brainless... borrowing up to twice your guarantor's salary.. to go overseas... it won't even make up a fraction of all the cost.. so... * heh * ...
then... off to JP.. in fact.. my only objective of entering that sick building was just to get my Gatsby wax.. and my contacts from CaiYing.. so so long.. haven't seen or talked to her... she's getting prettier... * ahahha * .. anyway.. chatted a bit.. oh.. when I entered.. she giggled a bit.. " come and bend your specs ah? " ..
I did not hear her properly ..cause I'm too tired... anyway.. joked about Antonio's Chicken pox.. and we both shared a little laugh .. before I leave the shop...
now back @ home.. thinking abut my future.. calling Antonio later... * heh * ... my migraine coming back to stay in my head again... what a tired day ... .. and I thought tomorrow's a Saturday .... . hIS iNVINCIBLE dULUGE eVIDENCE .
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