Another Departure


They stared at each other silently, and it took a few moments before Fraser came to himself.  He shook his head with a sad smile and held out his hand to Ray.  His partner, former partner his mind chimed, smiled back but Fraser could see that it wasn't in his eyes.  Ray ran his hand through his blond spikes before speaking.

"Hell, Frase, I think we're past that, you know?"

Ray dropped his carry-on and pulled him into a tight hug.  Fraser returned it gratefully and thought back to the first time they met.  It was only fair that things should come full circle.  Last boarding call echoed through the halls in two languages and Ray cursed.

"Gotta go, Frase.  I'll miss you."

"And I you, Ray."

"Take care of yourself, and don't be so hard on Dief."

Fraser found he couldn't speak so he just nodded tightly.  Ray picked up his bag with a sigh and headed for the gate.  Fraser looked as long as he was able, but he just couldn't stand the sight of Ray going through the doors, so he quickly turned away.  The large windows beyond faced the runways.  He felt himself drawn to them.  Ray's plane taxied and waited for another flight to land before the big engines pushed its bulk enough to defy gravity.  As soon as the wheels left the ground, a sharp pain ignited in his chest.  It was reminiscent of a bullet from long ago, but Fraser was sure he'd carry this pain much longer.

He wasn't sure how long he stared at his reflection in the glass.  He could almost see Ray's reflection standing beside him just as Ray was always beside him.  Fraser wiped his eyes and chided himself on the disassociation.  He was unstable enough without that.  Ray's reflection sharpened and Fraser felt a shoulder brush his own.

"Whatcha looking at?" Ray asked peering out the window.

Fraser let out a noise that was part laugh part sob.

"You were just going to let me go, weren't you?  You were just going to solider on.   That's not buddies, Frase."  Ray's words were scolding, but his voice was soft.

When he was sure of his voice, Fraser replied, "Why didn't you leave?"  He could hear the small voice inside along with the words.  Everyone leaves.

"Well, knowing us the plane would have been hijacked or broken or something.  I realized that I had already jumped out a plane once without a parachute.  I wasn't about to do again it without you."

Fraser looked away from his reflection and looked at Ray.  He must have looked horrible, because Ray's face softened even more and he was gathered into strong arms.  A hand rubbed a hand up and down his back as he cried onto Ray's leather clad shoulder.

"I've got you, Frase," Ray whispered.

All Fraser could think was, "No, I have you, Ray.  I have you."


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