I Don't Know How

Five years later in my life
after deep wounds and great memories
or deep memories and great wounds
you still have me at my knees

I've come to figure it out
that you are the one who taught me
love, patience, desire, pain,
a grand design of art, you wrought me

There's so much more left for us
to do and say and feel
to live in our world of fantasy
minutes here and there we steal

I wonder what life would be like
how I could go on and live without you
where all that I would have of you
would be the thoughts I think about you

how would I stand without the strength
of you, my pillar, my harbor, friend,
my coach, my cloud nine, I know
we started it all knowing it would end...
but I don't know how to do it.