Facade

How am I supposed to tell you I'm sorry
for the things I've said and done
when I have no regret at all in me
for battles fought hard and won?
How do I tell you I love you still
when I feel nothing for you today
how do I make you understand
that it seemed to just fade away?

But you say I should be sorry
you say I should love you still,
you say it doesn't just go away
you say I've just taken a pill
that makes me numb to pain
that you know you gave to me
and the pleasures that came with it
that became to come so naturally.

You think it will wear off
that I'm just going through a phase
and I'll be back to my normal self
in a matter of a couple days...
and maybe you're right
maybe the numb is just for now
I can say I'm sorry, I love you
but I just have to figure how.