I am noticing babies more these days more than I ever had before, it seems, I've been getting a sad feeling lately babies, babies, everywhere, even in my dreams. I held a friend's baby boy today he looked at me with big eyes deep as I cradled him gently in my arms it nearly crippled me when he fell asleep. I stroked his soft light hair fell in love with that new baby smell then he flashed a little toothless smile at that moment, all the world was well. His daddy took him back slowly from my arms, ripping a piece of my heart knowing we'll never have one of our own saddens me to the point of falling apart. I suppose I shouldn't be so selfish God has already blessed me with two- but they're almost grown and it can't be the same as beginning a tiny new life with you. |