CHAPTER 17

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“A countenance more in sorrow than in anger.” - Act I, Scene 2

 

Hutch pulled his ancient brown Ford into the lot behind the theatre and turned off the motor.  For a moment, he simply sat there, listening to the old car’s engine wheeze and sigh as it settled in for the night, looking at the back of the theatre.

 

He wasn’t exactly looking forward to going inside.

 

He knew he had an hour or so before anyone else arrived, but when they did, there would be a thousand questions.  The company members would want to know why he had been arrested, and why he was now free.  Drake had contacted everyone last night, as he, Hutch, and Starsky had agreed, but had told them only that Ken had been released and they would be performing Friday as scheduled.  The three of them had worked out the public version of the story, which was actually mostly true: that Hutch had been arrested because his fingerprints had been on the weapon and he could not account for his whereabouts at the time of the murder.  However, he had been released on bail.  If anyone cared to pursue it any further, Drake had put up the bail; hopefully, this would help ease the company’s mind about his stand on Hutch’s innocence.

 

Whether anyone would buy it or not, and what effect their skepticism or belief had on the production, remained to be seen.

 

He was also keenly aware that the killer was still on the loose, probably getting ready to hit again, and also probably knew that Hutch was a cop.  It was not the first time in the past 24 hours that Hutch had missed the accouterments of his job; though he couldn’t take the gun or the badge inside, he had had some comfort knowing they were as close as his car.  At least Starsky would be there, so he wasn’t completely alone.

 

Hutch took a deep breath, and finally talked himself into getting out of the car and starting toward the theatre, grateful that he would have some time to himself before having to tackle the questions and stony looks.  As he was crossing the lot, however, Roz’ tiny silver Gremlin whipped through the alley and into a spot.  Before he could react, or even take another step, the tall redhead was out of the car and in front of him.

 

Her hand lashed out.  The gesture was so completely unexpected that his typically sharp reflexes were caught gaping, and she cracked him a good one across the cheek.  As she wound up to swing again, he stepped back and caught her wrist.

 

“Would you mind telling me what the hell you’re doing?” he asked her, grabbing the other wrist as she brought that hand up to finish what the first one had been thwarted from doing.

 

“Oh, you’ve got a helluva lot of nerve asking _me_ that question!” she exclaimed angrily, her brows knit in a scowl as she tried to free herself.  “How can you even show your face here, after you...you...” Her face crumpled then, and her shoulders hitched as an enormous sob escaped from her chest.

 

Hutch was even more surprised by this turn of events than the slap.  “Roz, what is this?” he asked, worried.  Tears streaming down her face, she was unable to answer, could only wave her imprisoned hands in a feeble attempt at communication.  He released her wrists and pulled her close against his chest, then just held her there until her sobs weakened and finally trailed away. “Come on,” Hutch said gently.  “Let’s go inside and talk about this, huh?”

 

She nodded, and they made their way out of the parking lot, across the alley, and into the theatre.

 

As they walked through the door, another car slid down the alley, turned into the lot, and parked near the back.

 

In his dressing room, Hutch dampened a wash cloth with cold water and handed it to Roz for her red and swollen eyes.  This clearly was not the first time she had been crying today; he wasn’t sure whether her tears had to do with Troy, or Carl, or him, but he was concerned about her.  She had struck him as a strong and independent young woman, who had helped shore up her fellow actors during the nasty turns of event and been a bit of a cheerleader the rest of the time.  Her hearty laugh and no-nonsense attitude had been a godsend during the rehearsal process; every tragedy needs its moments of lightheartedness, for the sake of the actors as well as the production itself.  She had to be pretty close to the edge to break down like this.

 

Roz took the cloth and tilted her head back, laying the cool dampness over her eyes.  From behind this mask, she said with a rueful smile, “Thanks. I guess you’re not a total bad guy, after all.”

 

Relieved to see that she had recaptured her wit, Hutch half-smiled himself.  “I’m not a bad guy at all, Roz. The whole thing was a mistake.”

 

She turned her head to look at him, the cloth dropping into her lap.  She studied him closely, the green eyes intent and inscrutable. He was glad he was telling the truth; he had no doubt that she would be able to ferret out any soul intrepid enough to tell her a lie.

 

“A mistake?” she said at last.  “How can that be?”

 

He explained about the fingerprints, the rehearsal weapon, and the fact that he had been alone for most of the morning.  “But there weren’t any witnesses and I have no motive,” he concluded. “Rules say they have to let me go if I’ve got the bail.”

 

“What happens next?” she asked, her face puckered in a worried frown.  “I mean, will there be a trial?”

 

“I have no idea,” Hutch said honestly; it was a question he had been chewing on himself.  If he and Starsky didn’t find the real murderer, this was going to take up a lot of his time in the next few weeks, and in a very unpleasant manner.  Though he knew he was innocent, as did Starsky and a lot of other people, Dryden held no such beliefs.  He would make Hutch’s life a holy hell until the case was solved, and would no doubt take great pleasure in the process.

 

Roz leaned back in the chair again, resuming her position and laying the cloth back over her face.  Hutch glanced at his watch and felt torn.  He only had a few more minutes before he needed to start his warmup, which he felt he particularly needed today to get him back into actor mode after the long absence.  On the other hand, he didn’t want to rush Roz out until she seemed to feel better.  He shifted restlessly in his chair.

 

“Do you need to go?” Roz asked, peeking at him from underneath the cloth.

 

“Pretty soon,” Hutch admitted.  She got immediately to her feet, taking the cloth with her...then stopped near the door.  She looked back at him, and her face again held that serious, shy expression from opening night.

 

“Ken...” she began, with the same uncertain tone.  “I...” Again, she opened her mouth, closed it, then half-smiled in a self-deprecating way.  “Never mind.”

 

“You know, that’s the second time you’ve done that,” Hutch said teasingly.  “Why don’t you just tell me what’s on your mind?”

 

“Oh, it sounds so ridiculous,” she said, twisting the washcloth between her hands, oblivious to the water that was collecting on her clothes and at her feet.  Hutch went over and took the cloth away, tossing it on the makeup table, and covered her hands with one of his own.  He smiled down at her in gentle encouragement.

 

“It can’t be as bad as all that,” he coaxed.  “Come on...I promise I won’t laugh.”

 

Roz cleared her throat and tore her gaze away from his. I know he thinks he’s helping, but those eyes are _not_ making this easier.

 

“Okay,” she conceded, “but remember you promised.”  She looked down at her hands; despite Hutch’s touch, she still somehow managed to wring them together in place of the cloth.  “I...the reason why I was so angry when I saw you wasn’t just because I’m upset about Carl and Troy, though I adored them both,” she began.  “I was also...disappointed.”

 

“Disappointed?” Hutch echoed with a frown; then he realized what she meant.  “In me?”

 

“Right,” she said, now turning the rings on her fingers.  Hutch finally took her hands in both of his; she was a worse fidgeter than he was.  “I know it sounds silly, but as we’ve worked together, I’ve...come to have feelings for you.”  She took a deep breath, dropped her hands, and raised her head, tossing her hair somewhat defiantly and looking him right in the eye.  “I think you’re very attractive, Ken, and I...would like it if we could see more of each other after the show is over.”

 

Her disclosure was not entirely unexpected, given his suspicions on opening night, but Hutch was still touched and flattered....and for a moment, very, very tempted.

 

But then it occurred to him that she had not fallen for Ken Hutchinson, Detective...but Ken Hyde, Actor.  There were a lot of deceptions and untold stories between those two, and who knew how she would feel when she heard the truth?

 

She saw his indecision and looked away, blushing with embarrassment.  “I - - you don’t have to say anything, Ken,” she murmured.  “It’s all right...I just thought...” She pulled her hands from his and turned away, heading for the door.

 

“Aw, Roz, don’t be like that,” Hutch said, feeling terrible as he intercepted her before she could leave.  “It’s not...look, it’s not that I’m not attracted to you...it’s just...I...things are really, really complicated...”

 

“Are you married?” she asked suddenly.  “Oh my god. Usually I can spot a married guy a mile away...is that it?”

 

“No,” Hutch said emphatically, glad that he could at least dispense with that issue. “Trust me, _that_ is not the problem. I just...look, this is just not a good time.”  Jesus Christ, Hutchinson, he groaned inwardly, can’t you say _something_ that doesn’t sound make you sound like a lying jerk?

 

“Right,” she said, in a tone that said she had heard all of those lines before.  She reached past him for the door handle; Hutch gave a noise of exasperation and took her gently by the upper arms, steered her to a chair, and sat her down.  He pulled another chair opposite her and sank down onto it, taking her hands again and looking straight into her eyes.

 

“Roz, look...I’m going to be as honest with you as I can, at this point,” he began sincerely.  “There’s no one else, I’m not married, and I’m not disinterested...in fact, just the opposite.  I think you’re incredibly talented, and a lot of fun..and not incidentally, very beautiful.”

 

She blushed and gave him just the ghost of a smile.

 

“But there are a lot of things you don’t know,” Hutch went on, relieved to see that she was hearing the good news as well as the bad.  “And I can’t tell you...not yet.  But when this is all over, I swear...we’ll get together, have a nice dinner, and I’ll explain everything.”

She examined him closely again, her expression this time so sweet and trusting that he was even more grateful that he was telling the truth.  He inclined his head and raised his eyebrows in silent inquiry.

 

“Okay,” she agreed.  “It’s a date.”  She glanced at her watch and then rose quickly from the chair, changing from shy young woman to professional actress in that single lithe move.  “I’d better let you get to your preshow,” she said briskly.  “I’ll see you later.”

 

“Okay,” Hutch agreed, smiling at her.  She turned to go, then hesitated and turned back.  In a swift move, she stepped to him, leaned down, and kissed him gently.  Then she turned again, and slipped quickly out of the room, leaving Hutch sitting in his chair, able to do nothing more than blink for several seconds.

 

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Roz was humming as she moved gracefully down the hallway, past the two downstage entrances and the lighting storage closet.  It wasn’t exactly a yes, she said to herself, but not completely a no, either.  And Ken had said he found her attractive, so it seemed there was more hope than not.  Thank heavens. For a moment, she had been sure she’d made a total idiot of herself. But now...

 

She dimpled to herself and pulled keys from her purse as she reached the women’s dressing room.  Still humming, she unlocked the door and stepped inside, letting the door close as she turned to flip on the light switches.

 

When she turned back, however, she gave a small scream; then leaned back against the door with a self-conscious little laugh.

 

“What on earth are you doing, sitting here in the dark?” she said, to the familiar figure who sat in a chair at the makeup table.  “You scared me half to death.”

 

“You sound like you’re in a good mood,” the other replied evenly.  Roz reflected briefly that he sounded odd, but she was too light-hearted about her encounter with Ken to give it very much thought or ask him what was wrong.

 

“Yes, I guess I am,” she admitted, with a small, private smile and just a hint of a blush.  “Why are you here so early? I thought your ritual began on the hour.”

 

“Not today.”

 

Roz shrugged, putting her purse and her makeup case on the counter.  She flipped open the case and began rummaging through it, looking for the bobby pins she used to secure her hair while she applied her makeup.

 

The other figure rose to his feet, his movements purposeful and his eyes a mixture of regret and something far more dangerous.

 

Roz didn’t notice.  She was still thinking of Ken, and she knew this man better than anyone else in the entire company.  It wasn’t the first time he had kept her company while she put on her makeup, or vice versa.

 

She thought nothing of it as he passed her...had a moment of surprise when he locked the dressing room door...and was completely flabbergasted by what he did next.

 

Which was to wrap one hand around her waist and slap the other over her mouth.

 

At first, she was too startled even to struggle. Then, as he started to drag her toward the back of the dressing room, she attempted to wriggle from his grasp, but it was with the half-strength exasperation one friend has for another who has taken a silly trick too far.

 

He reached the shower.  Pressing her body against the wall with his own, he released her waist and turned on the water.  Then he turned back to her, and looked her right in the face.

 

Now she noticed his eyes.

 

Now she began to fight.

 

Now she began to scream, but between his hand and the running water, very little sound emerged...nothing that could penetrate the walls or the door, which were extra stout to prevent noise from leaking through to the stage upstairs.

 

In one swift move, he had her under the stream of water, her hair gripped tightly in his hand so that her head was locked back painfully, her mouth forced open so the water raced in.

 

At first she tried to swallow it, gulping, choking, gagging.

 

Eventually, she had to try to breathe.

 

And eventually, it was water and not air that filled her lungs.