How could you say that it's wrong? After all we have been through
together. Was I simply dreaming it all into existence? No I couldn't
have imagined it all.
You loved me. You told me you did. Could it have been a lie? Would
you really lie to me? Your best friend, your brother? I refuse to
believe it.
I thought we had something, I knew we did...didn't I? I look in the
mirror and can't stand the reflection any longer. It should be me I
see but it's not. It's you, Staring back at me with those longing
eyes, my eyes. Reaching out to me with those slim fingers, my
fingers. Tilting that head of fiery red hair, my hair.
I've wanted you forever and when I finally got you-no you can't say
it's wrong. We were meant for each other. We belong together. You
can't do this to me.
I know it wasn't a mistake. Don't say it was. Don't lie to me. You
never have before...or have you? I don't know you anymore. You've
changed and it hurts. Why are you doing this to me?
I hate you for this. I *hate* how you sound now. Don't pity me, don't
look at me, don't use that tone, *don't* touch me! Why? I don't
understand? Why would you want to change everything?
You told me you'd always be there. Told me we would always be
together. But you *lied* and I *hate* you for that. I look at you in
the mirror, my tears running from your eyes but you don't care do
you? No, I don't imagine you do.
Look at what you have done to me. Watch what you make me do. How
could you let me spill my blood like this. Let the knife slide down
my arm so easily. Don't mimic me! Don't mock me with my tears. Don't
bleed like me. Stop hurting yourself to look like me.
You can't be like me any longer. You don't want to be. I don't want
you to be. I'm dirty. I'm disgusting. Don't tell me you don't know. I
see it in your eyes. I feel it when your skin brushes mine.
I can't feel my arms anymore...my heads heavy. Why do you just sit
there looking at me through those half lidded eyes. Help me...hold
me. Why did you have to say what you did. I'm not sorry for what
happened. We belong together. We belong one. Why can't you see that?
Why can't you want that too? Why can't you come to me?
Please...come to me. Be with me. Tell me it was just a lie. Tell me
it wasn't an accident that you meant it, that you wanted it. That you
love me. Why didn't you stay? Why did you run off? Why don't you care?
I'm your best friend...your brother...I wanted to be your lover...why
was that so wrong? Why did you think it was so wrong?
I'm not sorry...I'm not sorry...I am sorry...I'm so sorry...I'm
sorry I loved you...