Yesterday I felt like I was inside strange bubble of cowering towers. And these towers changed shape as I changed myself.

    I felt like I could control who I wanted to be, I only lacked the reason, the motivation to make that final jump, to change my mind. This experience felt unreal, but I didn't think it was unreal. I tried to control this emotion, but to no avail.

    What words should I use to something that is only felt, but not known? I am only in my own head and no one has access to it, but myself. So, what words should I, could I, use?

    It was animalistic. It sounds cliché, but It felt like I was a free-roaming animal with no bonds connecting to that thing called "reality". I made my own reality, the way I saw fit; and it both frightened and excited me.

    It felt like something under the header a lucid dream. Where I made my own reality, yet I followed the parameters in which this imposed on me.

    I could see everyone from a third perspective, even myself; that's how it felt.



    Such strange and terrifying emotional state, it was. I'm better now though, I'm back on planet Earth. With all its worries, love, hate, smells, sounds and tastes. That place I went to is inviting, but you can't live there. I know that now. Instead I'll just visit it, from time to time, and post what I think is worth sharing here. Peace.