Preface to a
Twenty Volume Suicide Note
(For Kellie Jones,
born 16 May 1959)Lately, I've become
accustomed to the way
The ground opens up and envelops me
Each time I go out to walk the dog.
Or the broad edged silly music the wind
Makes when I run for a bus . . .
Things have
come to that.
And now, each
night I count the stars,
And each night I get the same number.
And when they will not come to be counted,
I count the holes they leave.
Nobody sings
anymore.
And then last
night, I tiptoed up
To my daughter's room and heard her
Talking to someone, and when I opened
The door, there was no one there . . .
Only she one her knees, peeking into
Her own clasped
hands.

|