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Sunday, November 12
 DUDE. Didaskaleinophobia - fear of going to school.
- 10:43 PM
Do you know that i absolutely hate school? It's true. And i mean, i have to do tons and craploads of art this week (because if i get another D in that class i gets me some kicked out... i'm not BAD i'm just LAZY and my teacher is a BITCH [seriously, if you knew her, you would know... i also think she's bipolar.]) AND i have a biology test tomorrow, which i haven't studied for, and i think an assignment due which i haven't done. Seriously, yo, i just want to stop caring and stay home and watch me some Simpsons and Buffy and Gundam Wing and Evangelion and Star Wars (which was on some public station last night at about 1 in the morning... i tell you, what a nice way to end the night) and read comic books and sit on my computer. WHY can't life be like that? Fuckin shit.I complain about school way too much. I wonder if there's a word for fear of school, like educa-ma-phobia.
- 10:40 PM
Saturday, November 11
Last night i fell asleep on the couch at 10:00, when the rest of my family was going to bed, 'cause i was really tired (i had gotten about 3 and a half hourse of sleep over the course of 2 days; yesterday i even woke up a half hour early and didn't realize it). SO i fell asleep, right? Then i woke up at 5 in the morning and was reeally confused: i was on the couch, with all my clothes and my glasses on, and the house was dark. I got up, went in my room, my light and my computer were on, and it was freezing because all the windows were open (it just got cold again last night). I closed the windows, took off my glasses, and got in bed under my comforter and went back to sleep. The whole thing was very strange.
- 12:33 PM
Tuesday, November 7
So, this morning at 4:00 my parents and little brother went over to Tampa to see Al Gore at his last stop before the election. Mom came in my room at like 3:10 and asked if i wanted to come, i had already decided i would kind of rather sleep (because i don't sleep enough and i'm always fucking tired) but she said dad said he would let me stay home from school if i came. I still said no, but goddamn if i didn't feel bad about that. I could have stayed home from fucking SCHOOL! But then i hate having to catch up on the crap i missed while i was gone. But STILL. Those are the most beautiful words: "let you stay home from school." And my little brother went along because he wanted to see his favorite presidential candidate- he's 10 years old and he's so adament in his support for Gore, it's really amusing.
- 2:57 PM
Monday, November 6
I really don't like people or school right now. I would just like to stay home for a while.You know, i'm making up my Christmas list, and i'm asking for so many cd's, which i really don't wanna do because they're so boring to get, even though they're some that i really want. You know how that is? Yeah. That sucks. And there aren't too many fun things that i want. And i like getting surprises, but my family doesn't know what to get me if i don't tell them. It was so much better when we were kids and it didn't really matter what they got us, we would like it. I'm very afraid of being a grown-up, when all you get are things like books and toasters. That won't be fun at all. Really, i'm so greedy. My life is boring. I have Turning Japanese, by The Vapors, stuck in my head, and every time i start singing something else for a bit, it just pops right back in there. It's starting to get bothersome singing the same thing over and over again.
- 11:07 PM
Thursday, October 26
MY MOM BOUGHT ME AMERICAN BEAUTY! When i woke up from my nap she gave it to me and i was happy happy happy. Now i just have to find a night to watch it. I'm busy till like Sunday (it's Homecoming week). Oh i'm so happy.
- 9:32 PM
Monday, October 23
Well, today i drove around all by myself for the FIRST TIME. It was so completely strange you would not believe. I kept talking to myself because it was so quiet and weird. It's the first time i've ever been ANYwhere by myself. It's freakin me out.
- 8:24 PM
Tuesday, October 17
Hahahaha! Monkies and weed are funny in themselves, but together...! Oh the hilarity!Dude, my computer shouldn't even be ON, i have so much fucking work to do. I am so screwed.
- 7:37 PM
You know what is sad? I do believe she's talking about me. I live in Tampa Bay, and i go there ev-e-ry day. Liz, if you are reading this, you are cool and i love you too. Don't be sad. I am the biggest dork. Yes. Oh woe is me. I need to get to bed. I've been working on art all day, because if i don't i get an F. And tomorrow i have PSAT testing, and english journals and a psych project to do because they are both due Wednesday. Damn the man.
- 2:42 AM
Monday, October 16
I absolutely positively incredibly overwhelmingly desperately NEED to see American Beauty. Yes, you read that right, i haven't seen it. I mean, of course i know know KNOW i will love it, because i'm like that, it's just a matter of SEEING it. Goddammit. It's not my fault at all i haven't seen it. My parents saw it in the theater, and i bugged them forever to let me see it, and then forever some more to rent it, and they never did. And so tonight i saw a commercial for it on HBO and want to see it even more. And i also must see Almost Famous, because i know i will love that as well. See, i KNOW i will love these movies. I just haven't gotten the goddamn opportunity to see them and it's NOT FAIR.That fucking work i have to do still hasn't gone away. I am so pissed off at everything. I just want to sleep. Really. I can't handle this.
- 12:23 AM
Sunday, October 15
Oh my GOD i have so much fucking work to do and there is no WAY i am going to get it all done, i am so FUCKED and complaining about it doesn't get it done but there's NO WAY TO MAKE IT GO AWAY
- 10:10 PM
AHHHH!!! Something inside my head is drilling a hole in my head! mmmfghhphfygghkkmjqrth
- 12:29 AM
Sunday, October 8
Oh fuck yeah, peanut butter Twix are back! My grandma always had them at her house back in the day, and i always loved them, and then they stopped making them. And after that i always said i loved peanut butter Twix the best (because the caramel ones suck) and everybody was like "they don't make peanut butter Twix," but they DID! And now they're back, mommy brought some home tonight and i was in shock... and the freaking box says "New!" You bastards, they aren't NEW!
- 11:12 PM
I just watched Ed, and i think it's safe to say that it was probably the cutest show i've ever seen. I mean, just adorable, that's all i can say. And it was quite funny too.
- 9:23 PM
Ooohhhhmygod, watching SNL, Rob Lowe did the funnnniest Shaggy impression. That was great. I mean, it was exactly right. And why do i kind of like Eminem? It's not like I like him or his music so much, but then i kinda do. Strange. It sucks Cheri Oteri and Tim Meadows aren't in the cast anymore. The new Weekend Update is good. I loved Jimmy Fallon's Dennis Miller impression.And that's my Saturday Night Live commentary.
- 1:23 AM
Thursday, October 5
Gosh, i love The West Wing. I know it's all popular and stuff, but it's got good reason to be. It's just got the greatest cast, and the greatest writing, and the greatest music. That is such a good show.
- 12:29 AM
Monday, October 2
So, the Olympics are over. Now i'm sad. It was part of my daily routine! What am i gonna do now? And the games were just cool, and all the coverage was really well done, and the competition was great. Australia is so cool, and everything was cool. And Bob Costas is cool. I like him. This was probably the first ever Olympics that i really really paid attention to and watched every single day. Do you know i'll be 20 by the next summer Olympics? That is sad.So, yeah, i'm sad now. And i have school tomorrow. Errr... technically today. That does not help.
- 12:07 AM
Saturday, September 30
This is the funniest thing i have seen in a long long time. Yes, yes it is.
- 11:08 PM
Do you know what? I have never ever liked U2. But i like that song Beautiful Day. It's in that nice Coke commercial for the Olympics. This morning i had a dream that had that Incubus song Stellar in it, and i woke up and it was in my head, so i've been singing it all day. (I haven't even heard the song in a very long while, which is kind of odd.) That's a good song. Makes me happy. Hey, Survivor is done for the second time. Sadness. (I keep buggin my parents to get the Survivor video. Never before seen footage! Come on!) I hope they got some good people for the second one. It'll be weird. I like my Colleen and Greg and Gervase.
- 11:02 PM
Tuesday, September 26
I just pumped my own gas for the first time! I am so grown up. And i got out of a sticky situation, with like a truck (there are always, always big huge trucks parked at our gas station, and it makes it impossible to get out. Cripes.), and i couldn't turn, but i got out another way thanks to my swift maneuvering skills. Granted, my mom did help me, but still. I'm good.
- 2:40 PM
Monday, September 25
Soooo much work due tomorrow... it's fucking MONDAY. Teachers of the world- do not give homework on Monday. No. Wrong. Bad.But this is a short week. Short day Thursday, no school Friday. I should be happy. But, uhhmm, i think i'm more of an "instant gratification" person. I need happy time nooow. Which could be the source of my procrastination! Hmmm...
- 11:39 PM
Monday, September 18
Fuck no. This fuckin' hot guy, a U-S-of-A swimmer guy, Michael Phelps, is fuckin' a YEAR younger than me. What?!? No! I will not accept that a HOT guy a year younger than me is in the Olympics. Jebus! They all look like they're fuckin' twenty, at least. What the fuck.And they keep talkin about how big Ian's feet are. It's like "haha, that's nice." Stupid commentators during the race are like "Thorpe, with gigantic size 17 feet..." Yep. Big feet. That's nice. Although, i guess it does affect swimming. Yeah.
- 10:34 PM
Yeeeesssss!! Spaghetti for dinner! Booyah! Is it not lame that i am excited about spaghetti? To illustrate my point, here are the highlights of my daily routine as of recently:
1) Flash Forward at 3:00. I love that show. Yes, it's on the Disney Channel, and yes it was (next to Buffy) my favorite show in 8th grade. I am recapturing my youth, and lately i have been incredibly sad that already i'm growing up so much. I don't wanna stop being entertained by childish things! I wanna be in 8th grade forever. Despite the fact that i'm already in 11th. Anyway, i love Tucker. He's the coolest.
2) Nap. Sleeeeeeep. Sleep is my friend.
3) Dinner. I get to eat foooood! Food is so good!
4) The Simpsons at 6:00. Two episodes in a row! Right on!
5) The Olympics. Swimming is neeeat, and they've got cool camera angles 'n stuff (underwater! ooooh). Plus- hot Australian guys! Haha, what better reason than that?
- 4:30 PM
Sunday, September 17
Damn. Sunday nights are the worst. Next to that are Monday mornings, and every other morning. I don't want to go to school tomorrow. I don't want to get up at 5:30am. I don't want to finish my homework. I don't want to take tests tomorrow (yes, you read that correctly: TESTS on MONDAY. My teachers are smoking crack.) I just wanna sit at home and be lazy, it's so relaxing. Boredom is a million times better than work. And the thing is, the more i learn in my Theory of Knowledge class (aka 'Philosophy'), the more i don't want to care about school (yeah, don't want to care, i still get stressed over everything.) I mean really, how exactly does learning about the phospholipid bilayer of eukaryotic animal cells contribute to my IMMORTAL SOUL?My wrist hurts a lot.
- 10:38 PM
The whoooole dock is underwater now. And all the carpet on the porch is wet from the rain. It goes 'squish squish squish.' I bet i could make a haiku out of that. Dock underwater
Canal is big overflowed
Porch goes squish squish squish Thank you.
- 6:00 PM
It's really windy right now. I was just out in the kitchen and you can actually hear the wind through the microwave vent. It's fuuunny.
- 3:45 PM
Teehee, so i just watched 'NSync's Greatest Mtv Moments (i was just flippin past Mtv and it was on... what luck). I swear, i just love those boys (i actually refer to them as "mah boyz," which is just the saddest thing ever.)In a rather unrelated note, that is so fucking lame. Yeah, like Vitamin C is just soo totally k-ewl. :P Eeeergh. Bastards.
- 1:18 AM
Saturday, September 16
So, there's a tropical storm coming. Supposedly it'll be a hurricane tomorrow. And we're gonna get some wind and some rain. And i'm getting a cold. Ya know, with that sick, sore, phlegm-y feeling in my throat and sinuses. Bleeeccch.
- 3:27 PM
Tuesday, September 12
Fuuuuuuckkkk. I have a psych test tomorrow, and i only "know" half the stuff (as in, i've read it once.) And i have english journals due friday. They suck ass. This week is shitty. I wanna sleep. Goddamn, things suck right now.
- 11:19 PM
Sunday, September 10
Things I want desperately right now:
1. A Polaroid I-Zone camera. The pictures are little! And Polaroid! That's cool!
2. To see Liberty Heights. Yes.
3. To never have to do homework again. But that was a given.
- 12:35 PM
Sunday, September 3
Ooooh, it's the 'NSync episode of SNL. Yanno, i had their No Refund "Supasize It" bit memorized when that originally aired. Sang it allll the time... Now they're doin ByeByeBye. God, i looooooove their outfits.I am soooo cool.
- 12:35 AM
Tuesday, August 29
KickASS, Conan's drivin' the desk! That's the best bit. I like reruns. It sucks Andy's gone.
- 12:53 AM
Monday, August 28
I was just watching Becker (that show's funny... Everybody Loves Raymond is tooo), and Reggie and Jake had made a bet with Becker that Betty isn't a Flinstones vitamin. It made my parents think of a local band they had heard of called Betty's Not a Vitamin. That's like, the coolest band name i've ever heard. Kickass.quote of the night:
Becker's stalker lady: "...Why, because the good Lord Jesus sent you to me."
Becker: "Yeah... yeah, he rocks."
- 10:29 PM
Thursday, August 24
Eesh. School started yesterday. No fun at all.But then there was Survivor... heh, yes, i watched the trendy crap. The ONE person i really didn't want to win, and he won. Errrrgggghhhh. There were so many cooler people on that damn island. Colleen is just the most freaking adorable person, and funny too, Greg is hilarious (his pick a number thing was just sooo funny, and i find it incredibly ironic that that's what decided the entire thing- pick a number. Bahaha), and Gervase kicks ass (i loved his speech to Kelly at the end). And then like out of the final four, at least Rudy should have won. He was funny as hell. Ahh, i'm a dork.
- 9:13 PM
Saturday, August 19
Oh, and then there's Rocko's Modern Life. I hated that show when it was on broadcast tv, and then in 7th grade i ended up watching it because i don't know why, and i loved it and watched it every day after that. Cool cool cool. Nickelodeon is cool. Although Cartoon Network is cooler these days.
- 11:09 PM
Does anyone remember Hey Dude from Nickelodeon? I loved that show. I had such a crush on Ted. And i find it incredibly, pathetically depressing that they don't air it anymore. I would love to see it again, that show was the coolest, man. That, and Clarissa Explains it All were my absolute favorite tv shows back in the day. Back when we didn't have cable, so going to my grandparents' house was extra cool 'cause we got to watch Nickelodeon. And me and my brothers watched Ren&Stimpy on SNICK and then when it was over had to rush and turn it off because Are You Afraid of the Dark? was on next and it was scary.
- 11:02 PM
I just realized i haven't posted a link in a while. This place is so cute. She's Australian, so automatic brownie points, and her drawings are just adorable.Oh NO! Conan's over! ::sob:: It makes me so sad when Conan is over, 'cause that signals the end of the quality late night programming. It's all downhill from here. I should go to bed, i'm tired. I should have gone to bed a couple hours ago, but i'm a slacker. I have to start turning in at a reasonable hour because school starts in ::sob:: 4 days. Eesh.
- 1:38 AM
People look really good in red light. All the people i've seen in red light, like dark room red light, look so pretty. It makes your skin look perfect. Really.
- 1:21 AM
Friday, August 18
Well, i actually went outside and swam (20 laps! I just about died after 5! I am so out of shape!) then i laid out in the sun. I was wearing a bikini, and i haven't worn a bikini in at least 9 years. It was quite liberating. Oh, except for the whole feeling like i was pretty much naked part. And i have also come to the conclusion that i never wanna be cooked in an oven, because that's how it felt laying outside. I didn't like it so much. Imagine a sauna and then multiply it by a thousand. I don't even like saunas.
- 4:21 PM
Thursday, August 17
My kitty died a couple hours ago. His name was Sam. I'm not posting everything i wrote about him, because it is a lot and would probably be boring and meaningless to people who weren't his family, so i'll just say i love him and miss him a whole lot. I haven't had a pet die in a long time (my last cat died about 7 years ago), and i forgot how hard it is. I'm so sad now. That song "Change Your Mind" by Sister Hazel (i love that song, it was my favorite song while we were in Pensacola) came on the radio, and i just turned it up really loud and kept crying.
- 5:39 PM
HaHAAA!! A new layout! Victory is mine!
- 3:32 PM
I like the night, but i guess just early night, because when it gets too late there gets to be absolutely nothing on tv and everybody else is in bed, so you just feel... lonely. (as i've mentioned constantly in like all of my most recent posts. Can anybody guess how i feel really late at night? C'mon. Guess.) And i also hate the morning. Anything before noon is just awful. I hate the way the light is and the way everything feels. My favorite time of day is late afternoon/early evening (like 4:00-7:00). The light is just right, and everybody's awake but not too active 'cause work is ending, and it's all very pleasant. I like that time of day. It's my favorite.
- 3:43 AM
Spending too long on the computer looking at the same words and code makes you feel strange, like it's far too late at night and there are far too few people awake and/or conscious. You just want it to be day again and then when you finally go to bed you start thinking a lot about all the things you're dreading and all the things you should have done today and the fact that you have to go back to school soon and you'll have so much work you'll want to kill yourself but really you just say that because you'd never really kill yourself you just want the stress and the work to stop because it makes your life completely miserable. And it's depressing. But maybe that's just me.
- 3:09 AM
Wednesday, August 16
I DESPISE HTML.
- 9:59 PM
My chair is falling apart. First of all, it's wooden, thus fairly uncomfortable. And now it's kinda wobbly and very creaky because one of the legs is popped out, and every time i try to pop it back in it just pops back out again. I want a nice kooshy chair with wheels. Everybody else in my family has a nice kooshy chair with wheels. It's not fair.I really should go to bed soon. Lately i've been going to bed at the regular time (3 am), but i've been getting up later and when i do get up i'm more tired and want to sleep longer. I'm getting the same long amount of sleep, so i dunno what the damn problem is. It must be that incessant feeling of dread i've had all month due to the impending return to school. ::shudder::
- 2:42 AM
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