Love and Hate

Chapter 12

Secrets Revealed

Raphael sat in front of the fire place in Vicky's house and starred at the flame. She came in and sat next to him. His eyes went from the flame to her. She gave him a loving smile and leaned forward to kiss him. His arms wrapped around her and she leaned in closer. Her lips were soft on his and her hands went to entwine her fingers with his. He pulled her closer and gave her a deep passionate kiss. He never thought he would get this close to anyone, but he had. He had even made love to her. He pulled away slowly and gazed at her. She smiled and sat closer to him. She began to kiss his neck gently and then wrapped her arms around him.

" I never thought you could be so loving." She whispered to him. He smiled a little and turned to her.

" I never thought so either. Not with a human. But.....I love you." She smiled and kissed him again.

" Haven't you ever been in love before ?" She asked quietly. He turned to her.

" No."

" Do you like it so far ?" He smiled.

" Ya. I do. I never thought I could love anything again..." His voice trailed off and she wanted to know what exactly what was wrong with him.

" Why do you say that ?"

" I don't want to talk about it." She heaved a sigh.

" Raphael listen to me. I know that something happened to you and that your hurting from it. I want to know what it is. I want to know your life so that I can try to help out in any way that I can. I need to know how you feel. I love you Raphael, but I need to know that you trust me." She couldn't see his face. He was turned away from her and looking at the fire. She cuddled closer to him and held him tighter. She laid her head on his shoulder and closed her eyes.

" It happened 15 years ago..." She looked up at him.

" What did ?" Raphael heaved a sigh and turned to face her. His eyes were soft and full of sadness. But no tears.

" I had a sensei who taught me and my brothers ninjitsu. He was a rat and had been mutated like us. One day a man had taken him and threatened to kill him. I was angry and my brothers told me not to go without a plan. But I was hot headed back then. I always fought with them and I didn't want to listen. I wanted to save him so I went in. The man called me a freak and warned me to stay away...but I didn't listen. I came at him with hate because of what he was doing and what he called me. But he was too quick. He cut my sensei's head off and laughed. I killed him. Splinter was our father and after he was killed, my brothers blamed me for what happened. I couldn't take it. I started to blame myself and so I went to a cliff on the east coast of New York City. It's where we used to live. I jumped. I was trying to kill myself, but it obviously didn't turn out that way. I had landed hard in the water. I had landed on something hard. It knocked me out. The ocean pulled me out and a few days later and I ended up in some fisher's fishing nets. Of course he almost died when he saw me, but I got away. I had gotten this scar from the fall. It's one thing that knocked me out. It also had blinded my eye. I don't know how it changed color like this, but it did and after a while my sight came back. After that I went to Virginia, but then I traveled here to live. I promised not to ever have anything to do with humans again. I lost everything because of one. And I am still angry with humans. They have everything we don't. Like you.....you have this huge house, famous racehorses and millions of dollars. We used to live in a sewer and fight crime, but we never got recognition for it. I never understood why I even helped half the humans I did. I had more pleasure killing them." Vic took in everything he had said. He had killed people and hurt them. But he had also saved some.

" Raphael.......I understand now why you hate humans so much. I don't blame you at all for doing what you did. But it wasn't your fault that your sensei was killed. Your intentions were good. If anyone is to blame...it would be your brothers only for blaming you. Nothing you say that you did will make me love you less. I'm not like half of the humans you have met. I love you just the way you are and I would never think of you as a freak. I promise." Raph turned to face her again and the truth was clearly spoken in her eyes. Suddenly he pulled forward and kissed her deeply. She held him tighter. He kissed her neck and slipped his hands under the skirt she was wearing. She groaned in pleasure.

" Raphael.....I want you.." She said almost in a whisper. He clearly understood it and quickly took her clothes off her body. She kissed him passionately as he spread her legs and moved up on her. She gripped his shoulders as she prepared for the intrusion.

Michealangelo looked nervously out the window while Cam sat in the chair he had set out for her.

" Mike, why did you call me over here ? Is something wrong ?" He didn't face her. He couldn't.

" Cam, I.....I need to tell you something about me and my brothers. This going to be a real shock for you and I can understand if you don't want to stay here after you find out. Donatello told me that I should tell you before.....I fall for you.." Cam looked at him in shock.

" You like me ?"

" Yes...I do. But you might not like what I am about to say." She waited.

" I know this is going to sound strange, but this is where I used to live 15 years ago. That accident that I told you about that had to do with my brother happened not too far from here and that's why I went to Florida and Don went to California. We used to live in the sewers and we were exposed to a radioactive substance."

" Is that what deformed you ?" She asked uncertainly.

" Cam I am not deformed. I only say I am as an excuse not to show myself."

" Then....what are you ?" He could hear her fear and he felt tears come to his eyes.

" I am a turtle. A mutant turtle that went from a regular house pet into what I am now. That picture you asked about, was a pic of my brother like I told you. He is a turtle and so is Donatello and my other brother Leonardo."

" What?! Your joking right ?" He shook his head and slowing took off his robe and hat. She gasped and backed away.

" Please don't scream. I understand if you don't want to be near me anymore. I'm sorry I lied to you for so long." He went quiet and turned away from her. He faced the window and just starred out it. Cam looked at him. He had muscles sticking out and a shell on his back. She looked at the patterns and came to get a closer look.

" I never knew this was what you were. I always wondered what this hard thing was." She said gesturing to his shell.

" I suppose you want to leave now...."

" No Mike, I don't. I can't believe that you are what you are, but it doesn't matter now. If it weren't for you, I'd be nothing right now. You gave me support, hope, love and anything I could want. I fell in love with you a long time ago. I'm not about to waste it just because you're a turtle. You mean too much to me." He turned to her in shock.

" Do you.....do you mean that ?"

" Yes I do." She reached out and touched his hand gently. He looked down at it and watched as she held it in hers. Butterflies began to flutter all over him.

" I feel more nervous now than I do at the race track." He whispered.

" It's ok..." Slowly and softly, she leaned forward and kissed his mouth. His body went rigid and he tried to absorb the shock waves that went through him. He put his arms around her and kissed her more passionately. He wasn't sure how far he should go, but he'd stop when she told him to. So far she had said nothing and he was already moving his hands into her shirt.

Donatello waited as the phone rang.

" Hello ?"

" Hello....Leo?" Leonardo realized who it was and sucked in a deep breath.

" Donny.....I wasn't expecting you to call."

" I know. I uh...wanted to apologize to April for being so rude."

" You really hurt her ya know. I don't even know if she wants to talk."

" Leo, I'm really sorry. I just lost it. I haven't been myself since.....what happened."

" I know Donny. I don't blame you for it. I felt the same way, but April and Casey are different."

" I know and I shouldn't have said what I did or acted the way I did."

" There are a lot of things that he had done that we never should have done. But I understand how you and Mike feel. I know it's hard to deal with what happened, but we all have to deal with it now. It is in the past."

" I know, but it still hurts."

" Donny, it always will." Donatello went silent. He was right. The pain would always last, but making it worse by splitting up hadn't made it any better.

" I'll consider what you said and I'll talk to Mike. I'll talk to you later."

" Alright bro, bye."

" Bye." Leo hung up the phone after he heard the click of Don's. He turned to see April looking at him along with Casey.

" Donatello said he was sorry. He didn't mean to do what he did and is going to talk to Mike. I don't know what will happen next."