i was standing in the bedroom
when you came home
i had blood in my hands
but maybe you didnt know?

my mascara was streaming down
along with the tears
thick and blackened
just like the years

you didnt ask
did you care?
you actually smiled
to my empty stare

did you think you could help
by leaving me there?
a gun to my head
tangled up in my hair

did you think it was stupid
missing the freedom i lost?
did you think you could walk out
and not pay the cost?

i needed you more
than i needed my life
i counted the steps to the kitchen
to get a knife

i walked the floor
and played with the trigger
would you never return?
that was what i figured

i stood in the doorway
a cord as my noose
wondering if i could do it
or would i make an excuse?

too bad im not selfish
too bad i cant die
i cant leave you alone
cant answer why

you dont notice im here
youre a broken record to me
i dont know what lifes about
but this isnt where i should be

i could leave in the night
like the sun, disappear
but i dont wanna fade
but i dont wanna be here

i wanna be loved
not be used
wanna be needed
not abused

im tired of being the cure
to your fear of having no love
i wanna be the addiction
something you cant get enough of

cant you see im not the one
cant you set me free
why cant you say goodbye
why cant you let me be

instead you leave me trapped
you give me no space
i hate you so much
i dont wanna see your face

why do you condemn me to death
and torture me like a witch
why dont you just burn me at the stake
dont make me live with this

i cant take it any longer
my breath is growing thin
you wanna take me down
and i know youre gonna win