? melanie_as_light says, "well..what does everyone think..shall we get started..because have just a few little announcements to make before hand"
? ? melanie_as_light says, "well everyone..have a few announcements if i may.."
Garrs_lil_joy listens.
crimson_kitten_mott pads over to red and curls up against her.
mara_jade171 says, "listens to light"
crimson_kitten_mott listens
? melanie_as_light says, "first..well we have the web site up and running...you can view the past 3 week chats..as well as ironically chats from exactly one year ago..*giggles*..been going through my stash and seems i have about 2 years worth of castl chats that have yet to be seen"
Master_Kisser says, "opens his ears"
? melanie_as_light says, "so if anyone wants to see it..the site is www.oocities.org/SoHo/Canvas/5809/thebdsmcastle.html"
? melanie_as_light says, "i am also asking..rather then just chat if anyon has any pictures, stories, poems, quotes, anything they thing would make it a pretty site..or to contribute..would love to have it..and put it up..please know the site is for all..not just for me"
Master_of_the_Tigers says, "am sorry chaton, was at the web site "
? melanie_as_light says, "ok...umm..tonights meeting wanted to do something different..usually we talk about one topic and give our opinion on an open topic..and in a debate forum.."
Master_of_the_Tigers says, "glad to see you too chaton"
? melanie_as_light says, "but tonight..would like to almost go around the room in a circle type of way..and have everyone..talk about..the root of BDSM for them..and what it means to them...if it works out wonderful..if not..well we'll be back to normal debates next time.."
? melanie_as_light says, "but..tonight..just would like to hear..what BDSM means to you..how you think you got started in it..what brought you into it..the nature vs nurturing aspect..and overall your opinions on what you do and why you do it"
castle_kitten says, "great idea, mel"
mara_jade171 says, "NODS NODS NODS"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "nods "
? melanie_as_light says, "so may i ask in all fairness..do we have any volunteers who would like to begin?"
? red_feline_MotT says, "mine too"
? red_feline_MotT says, "at the bottomLOL"
? melanie_as_light .o0(or do i have to begin..because i came up with this?)..giggles
castle_kitten says, "<<<<< will, but doesn't have a lot to say, is pretty new"
? melanie_as_light says, "go for it kitten...*smiles*..would love to hear what you have to say.."
mara_jade171 says, "will go next"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "never really thought about why until mondays e mail "
jpbear63 enters castle_kitten says, "what brought her into it? it was an accident at first, she had an online friend that that introduced her to it"
? melanie_as_light smiles softly to JP..whispering a warm greeting listening to kitten
Maitre_Remi enters castle_kitten says, "sorry, that, that, lol, anyway, she started looking at websites and chatting and the more she heard, the more she became interested"
? melanie_as_light says, "greetings Maitre Remi..just in time...your little chaton is the first volunteer..*smiles*"
mara_jade171 says, "listens to kitten as she greets JP and M'Remi"
jpbear63 says, "Greeting to A/all"
Maitre_Remi says, "I must have sensed this mel"
crimson_kitten_mott . o O ( oh no did not see JP enter...Greetings JP!! )!
Master_Kisser says, "waves tot he new comers witha warm smile"
? red_feline_MotT says, "greetings as well JP"
Master_of_the_Tigers says, "please continue chaton"
castle_kitten says, "must say, that after 7-8 months, this one has learned abit and had a great many NEW experiences"
castle_kitten says, "r/l has become more than boring, "
? red_feline_MotT says, "giggles"
Master_Kisser says, "lol it always does when your new kitten"
castle_kitten says, "because she hasn't gone r/l yet..."
castle_kitten says, "but will soon, and she is excited, apprenhisive and happy about it"
? red_feline_MotT says, "whispers yeah!"
castle_kitten says, "she lives for this lifestyle now, wants to go r/l!"
? melanie_as_light says, "kitten..may i ask..in your new search in this lifestyle..was there anything that stood out..i mean..any type of information, web site, or something that you learned..that truly made this a part of you completely?"
just_lil_dove enters Garrs_lil_joy says, "huggs dove"
crimson_kitten_mott says, "Greetings dove."
castle_kitten says, "believes that she found a Master that she trusts, he pointed her to the websites, and grins.....(one was yours, Mel)"
Master_Kisser says, "wich one of hers ??"
castle_kitten says, "she has learned to trust and give him everything, she has never done this in r/l"
? melanie_as_light .o0(ackkk)
castle_kitten says, "am a dominant at work, but can be myself with my Master, he "
? red_feline_MotT says, "listens intently to chaton"
castle_kitten says, "encourages me to be me, and"
castle_kitten says, "appreciates me when i am not the dominant one, (which i detest, but have to do at work)"
castle_kitten says, "and, yes, mel, have met a lot of friends online, have neglected my r/l friends at times to be here"
Master_Kisser says, "thats bad never let friends fade away girel"
? melanie_as_light says, "the only thing i worry about kitten is losing touch of reality for here...knows i have done that as well"
Master_Kisser says, "i was like that at first"
castle_kitten says, "giggles, they haven't 'gone' away, just on the back burner"
castle_kitten says, "i know now, that i prefer this lifestyle"
mara_jade171 says, "chaton ... is important to know that r/l is REAL and online is a PART of it .... "
Master_Kisser says, "smile all you neede was an ancor mel"
castle_kitten says, "over r/l"
castle_kitten says, "just have to work towards creating it r/l"
castle_kitten says, "castlerealm was also a great site that aided me"
? melanie_as_light says, "castle realm was one of the first sites i went to myself"
Master_Kisser says, "it was the only site i ues at first"
mara_jade171 says, "light and TKM pointed me to Castle realm when i arrived in yahell"
? melanie_as_light smiles to mara
castle_kitten says, "seems as though real life has become the 'dream' because in real life, i do not trust others like i do my Master"
mara_jade171 says, "smiles to light" Master_Kisser says, "just smiles for the hell of it"
castle_kitten says, "my Master gives me more, makes me feel more complete, more human than any relationship i have r/l"
castle_kitten says, "and that"
Master_Kisser says, "dont lose the real world"
castle_kitten says, "is about it! giggles, long winded, huh?"
castle_kitten says, "no, can not lose it, have to live in it" castle_kitten says, "wish i could, lol"
Master_Kisser says, "ok my turn < i do this now i wont later >"
? melanie_as_light says, "ok..kitten..then may i ask..anyone have any questions for kitten?"
castle_kitten says, "(will probably think of a million things to say, once someone else speaks)"
castle_kitten says, "please, mara"
? melanie_as_light says, "dont worry we can go around again if time permits kitten..*winks*"
castle_kitten says, "giggles, thank you mel!"
? melanie_as_light says, "ok..umm Master Kisser..how about right after mara..since she was next..then you can go if i may ask?"
Master_Kisser says, "ok no problem"
mara_jade171 says, "kitten, online is very consuming ... smiles ... a girl knows ... but r/l D/s is another level of commitment, and discipline, can be harder sometimes"
? red_feline_MotT says, "yes it's a whole new world"
mara_jade171 says, "be aware of that as you move into r/l .... i wish you all the best in your jouney"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "its a wonderful world"
castle_kitten says, "thank you mara, i will and i agree with you totally"
mara_jade171 says, "is wonderful sighs softly"
mara_jade171 says, "ok ... is it my turn now, or are there any other questions for kiiten?"
? melanie_as_light says, "go for it mara.."
? red_feline_MotT says, "naaa"
mara_jade171 says, "ok ... clears her throat"
castle_kitten says, "giggles at red"
? red_feline_MotT says, "smiles"
Master_Kisser says, "sips his tea and litans"
? red_feline_MotT says, "and what?"
Master_Kisser says, "listens even"
? red_feline_MotT says, "oh ok"
mara_jade171 says, "a girl first came to D/s, 5 years ago, in r/l ... her first Master was an old friend"
? red_feline_MotT says, "thought that was something i hadn't heard of"
? red_feline_MotT says, "listens"
mara_jade171 says, "He opened my eyes to D/s as we entered a relationship .... was exciting thrilling and delicious"
morgaine_la_sorciere says, "bw A/all"
morgaine_la_sorciere is back.
morgaine_la_sorciere leaves
Garrs_lil_joy says, "wow " Garrs_lil_joy says, "bw "
mara_jade171 says, "however, was hard ... was His first time as Master, and a girl is willful, while submissive, was hard to learn"
? red_feline_MotT says, "how was it mara"
? red_feline_MotT says, "cool"
? red_feline_MotT says, "giggles looks at the Master"
Master_of_the_Tigers says, "winks"
Master_Kisser says, "like subbies to havw some willfullness"
? red_feline_MotT says, "how long did it last?"
mara_jade171 says, "and she loved Him to much to understand the whole concept of discpline and verbal domination ... took it all to heart"
? red_feline_MotT says, "aw"
? melanie_as_light listens..
mara_jade171 says, "3 months ... then He let me go ... our friendship has suffered for it"
? red_feline_MotT says, "aw am sorry"
? melanie_as_light says, "mara..may i ask.....did you find it difficult being you were both new..i mean..as a trial basis sort of thing..where you both were learning about yourself?"
mara_jade171 says, "was so afraid to try again ... but wanted it so badly ... did alot of reading ... He reminds me of Tristan from the Beauty Trilogy"
mara_jade171 says, "i did light, He was confident but had a difficult sub"
Master_Kisser says, "likes them difficult hehehe"
jpbear63 says, "good books to start with...."
? red_feline_MotT says, "yes Master K"
mara_jade171 says, "and one who needed more support and training before the dominance"
mara_jade171 says, "anyway ... did lots of reading and remembering, came online (yikes) 1.5 yrs ago ..."
Master_Kisser says, "support is a must and to few give it"
mara_jade171 says, "met light, TKM, and my first online Master M'Fantasy"
? red_feline_MotT says, "agrees whole heartedly to that!"
? melanie_as_light says, ".o0(is there any story that i am not in?)..smiles..just wanting to huggle mara"
mara_jade171 says, "He was a great Master and i learned much from Him ... but complications in our r/l led us to dissolved the bond after 6 months"
mara_jade171 says, "huggles light"
? melanie_as_light awww siggies mara
mara_jade171 says, "also learned from my friends online and the websites ..... have been floating loose changing names, meeting people"
jpbear63 says, "sorry about that mara. it's always tough to end a relationship..."
? red_feline_MotT says, "siggies???"
mara_jade171 says, "giggles"
? melanie_as_light says, "a subbie huggle/giggle...siggies"
? red_feline_MotT says, "oh ok"
Master_Kisser says, "gos afk for a bit"
mara_jade171 says, "tries to find time to be here or at Firth ... but r/l keeps her busy ... so is not here as often"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "group grpoe????"
jpbear63 says, "like a group/cuddle hug?"
jpbear63 says, "very endearing."
? red_feline_MotT says, "back to mara"
jpbear63 says, "woah. is that like the eject button."
jpbear63 says, "wb"
? melanie_as_light says, "we still love you mara..."
crimson_kitten_mott says, "lol"
mara_jade171 says, "a girl does not know what she wants anymore ... is to willfull to truly be a sub anymore, and not strong enought to be a Dom"
castle_kitten says, "wb kitten"
mara_jade171 says, "so she wanders and will know what she wants when she finds it ....."
mara_jade171 says, "the end"
Maitre_Remi nods solemnly.
? red_feline_MotT says, "smiles"
? melanie_as_light says, "is there anything wrong with willfullness mara?..i mean there are so many levels to this....but you will find it mara..i know you will"
jpbear63 says, "Most people have both tendancies...it's a mix."
mara_jade171 says, "thanks light ... still loves you too!"
? red_feline_MotT says, "knows the feeling"
jpbear63 says, "I LOVE a willful sub. makes it fun.."
Maitre_Remi says, "*smiles at red*"
Maitre_Remi is back.
? melanie_as_light says, "any questions for mara?..."
? melanie_as_light smiles to JP with a blush...*giggles*
? red_feline_MotT says, "smiles to Maitre Remi"
mara_jade171 says, "ty all ... is a common problem ... one each must learn to handle in their own way"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "willful brat stubborn its all phases in learning to trully submit "
jpbear63 says, "Maybe a comment to mara.."
? red_feline_MotT says, "oh? well i'm glad to hear that"
mara_jade171 says, "blushes ... thanks JP .... its a trademark of mine
" mara_jade171 says, "listens to JP"
Garrs_lil_joy listens.
just_lil_dove says, "just has one comment about the not strong enough to be a dom/me i and all of the subs i know the ones i respect are incredibly strong it is when you don't need someone to be strong for you... that you can truly submit in all things"
jpbear63 says, "the best horses are the ones that can be only ridden, not broken."
jpbear63 says, "No one like someone with NO spirit."
? melanie_as_light says, "good point dove..*smiles*...."
jpbear63 says, "Find your way, and enjoy.."
? red_feline_MotT says, "i like that JP"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "oh well put dove "
? melanie_as_light .o0(is confused on JP analogy...not into horses)
Master_of_the_Tigers says, "agrees w/ jp"
Your buddy jordains_devotion is in chat jpbear63 says, "*bows and smiles*"
mara_jade171 says, "blushes .... ty Sir ... tis true ... but sometimes ca be a widow maker ..... (giggles)"
jordains_devotion has been invited to join this room. ? red_feline_MotT says, "works for me "
mara_jade171 says, "good point dove ... and so true"
jpbear63 says, "Thank you MotT"
Jordains_devotion enters just_lil_dove says, "ty light, joy, mara" Garrs_lil_joy says, "laffs widow makers still wear the bit " Master_of_the_Tigers says, "nods"
? melanie_as_light says, "greetings dev..*smiles*..."
jpbear63 says, "eve, dev."
? Jordains_devotion smiles warmly to melanie....hi...and thanks
? red_feline_MotT says, "looks at the Master"
? melanie_as_light says, "ok..anything else for mara..or shall we go to Kisser if he is still here?"
mara_jade171 says, "greetings dev"
? Jordains_devotion says, "good evening everyone"
? red_feline_MotT says, "onward"
Master_of_the_Tigers says, "greetings dev"
Maitre_Remi says, "bonsoir dev"
just_lil_dove says, "hello dev smiles" Garrs_lil_joy says, "Master_Kisser's turn"
? melanie_as_light pokes Master Kisser or did he disappear?
? Jordains_devotion smiles to all
Master_of_the_Tigers says, "he is afk i think"
? melanie_as_light says, "umm any volunteers?.."
? melanie_as_light says, "or shall i go?"
? red_feline_MotT says, "i will"
? melanie_as_light says, "go for it feline"
? red_feline_MotT says, "smiles"
? melanie_as_light listens
jpbear63 says, "listens to red..."
mara_jade171 says, "lsitens"
shy_heart_MSH enters
? red_feline_MotT says, "i came into BDSM quite by mistake"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "hi shy )))((((("
just_lil_dove says, "hello shy huggs"
? red_feline_MotT says, "i always new there was something"
? shy_heart_MSH hugs joy and dove
? red_feline_MotT says, "just couldn't quite figure it out"
? melanie_as_light says, "greetins shy..*huggles*..listens to red.."
? shy_heart_MSH smiles to Mel, settles in to listen
? red_feline_MotT says, "when i read on it i thought for sure i must be Domme"
mara_jade171 says, "waves hello to shy heart as she listens to red"
? melanie_as_light .o0(whispers..to those who just walked in..topic is what BDSM means to us..and we are going in a circle type meeting sharing..our thoughts experiences..ect)
Master_Kisser says, "ok im back"
? red_feline_MotT says, "was too strong willed to be sub so i thought"
mara_jade171 says, "smiles to red"
? red_feline_MotT says, "so i entered as a Domme"
Master_Kisser says, "whatch domme?"
? red_feline_MotT says, "very quickly i began to realize that i was not cut out for the Domme life"
? red_feline_MotT says, "i could not take care of myself let alone someone else"
? red_feline_MotT says, "and to guide them "
? red_feline_MotT says, "i continued to read more and more and asked alot of questions"
? red_feline_MotT says, "watched others"
? red_feline_MotT says, "and found someone who knew more than i on the subject"
? red_feline_MotT says, "my present Master "
? red_feline_MotT says, "though he is fairly new as well we have learned plenty together"
? red_feline_MotT says, "and he is a wonderfull guide and teacher for me"
Master_of_the_Tigers says, "smiles"
? red_feline_MotT says, "castle realmn has been wonderfull for me as well as other sites"
? red_feline_MotT says, "though i know i have a long way to go, i am eager and willing to learn"
? red_feline_MotT says, "smiles"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "awww smile s"
? red_feline_MotT says, "that is all"
castle_kitten is back.
castle_kitten says, "<< ? melanie_as_light says, "...*smiles*..thank you feline..."
? red_feline_MotT says, "for a year" castle_kitten says, "and would like to tell all, red feline has an awesome website as well!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
Jordains_devotion is away (Auto-Away) ? red_feline_MotT says, "smiles"
? red_feline_MotT says, "thanks kitten"
? Jordains_devotion hates when that happens.... I am here still Jordains_devotion is back. ? Jordains_devotion smiles
castle_kitten says, "this one looks at red as a 'mentor' of somewhat"
mara_jade171 says, "whats the addy red ... would love to see it"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "wb dev"
? shy_heart_MSH smiles checking self
? melanie_as_light says, "would love to see it red...if you wish to post it."
castle_kitten says, "she has taught this one many things"
? red_feline_MotT says, "we haven't got it up yet"
mara_jade171 says, "tosses dev the non-boot cushion"
castle_kitten says, "your old one, red"
? red_feline_MotT says, "we have learned alot together kitten"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "wb shy )))))shy(((((Garr sends His huggles"
? red_feline_MotT says, "oh"
castle_kitten says, "loved it"
? melanie_as_light says, "ok..when you have it posted red...please feel free to add it to the link section..would love to see it as well"
? shy_heart_MSH giggles huggles joy and Sir G (kicks ISP)
Maitre_Remi says, "well most of it, oui, chaton ?"
? red_feline_MotT says, "geocities/red_feline"
? Jordains_devotion says, "thanks joy"
castle_kitten says, "nods.....the new one will be wonderful as well!"
? red_feline_MotT says, "thank you"
castle_kitten says, "blushes, oui, mon Maitre"
? melanie_as_light says, "then if that is all feline...then Kissers turn"
? red_feline_MotT says, "ok"
mara_jade171 says, "smiles to red ... and MoT, so glad to hear another good story"
Master_of_the_Tigers says, "ty mara"
? red_feline_MotT says, "ty"
? melanie_as_light says, "Master Kisser...?" ? melanie_as_light says, "umm..think he is away.."
? melanie_as_light says, "ok...next victim?..*giggles*..i mean volunteer?"
? red_feline_MotT says, "again?"
jpbear63 says, "Sir JP leans back in his chair and listens.."
Garrs_lil_joy says, "how come when its kissers turn hes afk"
? melanie_as_light shrugs..
castle_kitten says, "giggles"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "coinky dink?????"
mara_jade171 says, "hmmmm ... i wonder"
jpbear63 says, "what does that mean?"
? melanie_as_light says, "Ok..my turn..*giggles*"
castle_kitten says, "next!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
jpbear63 says, "afk?"
? melanie_as_light says, "<--ME.."
? Jordains_devotion laughs thinking joy has great observation skills
? shy_heart_MSH coinky dink?
Maitre_Remi says, "I'll take his turn ..."
mara_jade171 says, "away from keyboard"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "away from keayboard"
jpbear63 says, "Go Remi, take it away!"
castle_kitten says, "away from keyboa,,,,,,never mind lol"
mara_jade171 says, "coincedince"
mara_jade171 says, "wishes she could spell"
? melanie_as_light says, "ok Maitre Remi..i am patient go for it..*smiles*"
Maitre_Remi says, "I could easily flip the wonderful things that chaton has already said about our D/s relationship"
Maitre_Remi says, "but that would be cheating"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "joy has horrible spelling skills 2 that why she wrote co inky dink????"
? melanie_as_light listens
.. jpbear63 says, "settle down, mel. Let Remi speak..."
castle_kitten says, "grinz"
mara_jade171 says, "lsitns"
Master_Kisser is back.
Master_Kisser says, "now im back for real"
mara_jade171 says, "listens"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "wb Kisser staying long Sir ?????"
? melanie_as_light pokes JP softly..whispers i am....
castle_kitten says, "well Sir, you got bumped"
? melanie_as_light listens to Maitre Remi..
Garrs_lil_joy says, "or just ubtil your turn "
Maitre_Remi says, "with mon journey down the path to becoming the true Maitre that lurks inside moi ... I have learned much about myself"
Master_Kisser says, "lol damn"
jpbear63 says, "(mel, never poke a jp bear.)"
Maitre_Remi says, "and that is that I see the D/s relationship as one that nurtures both the Dom & the sub"
jpbear63 says, "true."
Maitre_Remi says, "improving each one ... both sides learn and grow, never achieving full knowledge of one another, always learning"
Master_Kisser says, "but joy would Kisser ever let his secrest be known??"
? red_feline_MotT says, "hey Maitre is talking"
castle_kitten says, "smiles at moan ami!"
jpbear63 says, "keep going Remi, I'm listening..."
Garrs_lil_joy says, "moan louder amy"
Maitre_Remi says, "I recognized chaton's submissive nature during our conversations ... seduced her ... somewhat willingly"
just_lil_dove says, "(is listening but wants to know M Kissers secrets... is the nosy one but cute so i can get away with it )"
Maitre_Remi says, " "

castle_kitten says, " "
Master_Kisser . o O ( lol cute goes only so far )
Maitre_Remi says, "we have had some bumps along the road of our journey together ... many laughs"
Maitre_Remi says, "and a few tears"
Maitre_Remi says, "always growing closer to one another as each new day dawns ..."
? red_feline_MotT says, " "
Maitre_Remi says, "and bon amies ( good friends ) to be there to help us when we need a ear to talk to ... "
Maitre_Remi says, "ou type to ... *grinz*"
Maitre_Remi says, "of course some could knock the nature of our relationship .... that we don't fit their "mold" of BDSM .... and they can all go kiss a toad !!!"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "cest vraiment "
Master_Kisser says, "lol remi"
Master_Kisser says, "Remi even"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "is that a new avenue of kink kissing toads"
mara_jade171 says, "smiles"
? shy_heart_MSH giggles kinda like bubble wrap wear?
castle_kitten says, "non, just more polite than saying.....kiss my ass !!!!"
Maitre_Remi says, "I feel that our success revolves around our daily communications, phone calls when we can .... and to think our meeting all occurred due to mon typo "
Garrs_lil_joy says, "bess eme bess em coolo "
castle_kitten says, "cula, joy!"
Maitre_Remi says, "lol ... si joy ou is Garr ?"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "cula por joy culo por Garr"
? red_feline_MotT says, "giggles @ the typo"
Master_Kisser says, "lol joy its frogs you kiss to find princes"
castle_kitten says, "oui, no one knows of this mon Maitre"
castle_kitten says, "chaton mentioned it as well, but vaguely"
Maitre_Remi says, "we learn and we grow together .... the key of our D/s relationship is that it evolved from a relationship first"
Maitre_Remi says, "fini ...."
Garrs_lil_joy says, "AMEN"
? red_feline_MotT says, "smiles"

just_lil_dove says, "(thought you kissed princes til you found the frog)"
Master_of_the_Tigers says, "nods"
mara_jade171 says, "lol"
jpbear63 says, "Remi, I gotta say that's one of the best ways to start a D/s, a real relationship.
" ? red_feline_MotT says, "yes SIr"
jpbear63 says, "congrats..sir."
Garrs_lil_joy says, "i think if the only thing 2 can learn is no relationship can blossum w/o communication then your journey is off to a good start"
? red_feline_MotT says, "we started ours that way"
Maitre_Remi smiles a big toothy grin
Master_of_the_Tigers says, "so true my dear"
castle_kitten says, "nods"
? melanie_as_light .o0(wonders if the worst way to start out a relationship is answering a personal add?)
? red_feline_MotT says, "we have been through ups and downs together haven't we chaton?"
? melanie_as_light giggles..
Garrs_lil_joy says, "only to slave master"
? shy_heart_MSH giggles to mel
castle_kitten says, "oui, red, many!!!! lol"
mara_jade171 says, "lol light"
Maitre_Remi says, "and heart THROBS"
castle_kitten says, "giggles, oui!"
? red_feline_MotT says, "omg"
Master_Kisser says, "lol Mel"
? red_feline_MotT says, "yes heart throbs as well"
? melanie_as_light says, "ok....was there anything else Maitre Remi?"
just_lil_dove says, "light i would say not if you both know and are honest about what you are looking for then it can be a good way to meet and weed out obvious mismatches"
castle_kitten says, "you never know, mel?!!!"
? red_feline_MotT says, "snickers"
castle_kitten says, "grinz at red"
? red_feline_MotT says, "sorry"
? melanie_as_light says, "ok...ummm Master Kisser..may i ask are you now ready?"
Master_Kisser says, "lol ya"
? melanie_as_light giggles..or is he AFK again
Maitre_Remi smiles at melanie ... "Oui, never give up on a F/friend."
Garrs_lil_joy says, "are Garr and i the only ones here married to eachother???"
? melanie_as_light says, "go for it Master Kisser.."
Master_Kisser says, "ummmm oges afk??"
Master_Kisser says, "laughs"
? shy_heart_MSH giggles to joy
mara_jade171 says, "covers her mouth as a yawn escapes .... am sorry A/all ... a girls empty bed calls"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "figures hes at it again hog tie em "
just_lil_dove says, "bw mara"
? melanie_as_light says, "no Maitre Remi....never give up on a friend..no matter what one feels..for moods change from one day to the next...it is only true friends who can learn to forgive"
castle_kitten says, "bw mara"
? shy_heart_MSH says, "be well mara "
Master_Kisser says, "be well mara" Master_of_the_Tigers says, "bw mara"
? melanie_as_light says, "wishes you well mara..*huggles*..have a wonderful evening and thank you sis..*siggies*"
jpbear63 says, "Empty? that's too bad...sweet, naughty dreams Mara."
Maitre_Remi says, "I hope I didn't drive you to your bed. I have that affect on females, mara."
? mara_jade171 says, "was nice to see and meet you A/ll .... may peace and contentment be yours this eve ..."
? red_feline_MotT says, "be well sis" jpbear63 says, "and to you.." Maitre_Remi says, "soyez bien mara" Master_Kisser says, "lets see where do i start"
mara_jade171 says, "smiles ... no M'Remi ... is a girls bedtime ... she is getting old" jpbear63 says, ""I was born...""
mara_jade171 says, "thanks for the condolence JP"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "not by going afk "
? Jordains_devotion says, "sweet dreams mara jade"
? red_feline_MotT says, "waits"
mara_jade171 says, "huggles light ... g'night sis .... see you A/ll soon ....."
Master_Kisser says, "oddly i first found D/s after i left a chat room as a reg there"
jpbear63 says, "Mara? Get a teddy bear, they never let you down.."
Your buddy mara_jade171 leaves chat mara_jade171 leaves Master_Kisser says, "i saw the name slave Auction and had to see what it was about"
? melanie_as_light .o0(hopes he didnt buy me long ago..lol)..listens
Master_Kisser says, "i sliped in and just watched"
jpbear63 says, "(slipped in? sorry. I'm a perv.)"
Maitre_Remi says, "lol@JP"
? red_feline_MotT says, "giggles"
jpbear63 says, "*pick mind OUT of the gutter*"
Master_Kisser says, "then i met a subbie that caught my intrest she was firey and opinonated"
Master_Kisser says, "yopu mite know her as __flame"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "would but its lower in the swer"
crimson_kitten_mott leaves Master_Kisser says, "well that was it i came again and again"
Your buddy mara_jade171 has gone off pager ? red_feline_MotT says, "woohoooooo"
? shy_heart_MSH says, "multiorgasmic"
? red_feline_MotT says, "sorry"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "omg " Master_Kisser says, "then i bought one called magic faierie and as i talked to her she gave me the insotes on D/s"
jpbear63 says, "settle down, kitty."
? red_feline_MotT says, "it's the scorpio in me"
? red_feline_MotT says, "smiles"
just_lil_dove says, "smiles big heya Kes"
? KestrelMaster says, "hello A/all"
? red_feline_MotT says, "listens like a good girl" Master_of_the_Tigers says, "greetings KM"
Master_Kisser says, "i doned the name Master Kisser as more a joke that a title but it stuck for i fell in with the beats teacher i could find"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "))))Kes(((((("
Master_Kisser says, "Misstress of Time and i was a natural"
Master_Kisser says, "so i hung out in the auction chaseing Flame"
? KestrelMaster says, "hugged yourself right out of the room, joy "
Master_Kisser says, "learing as a went"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "laffs"
Master_Kisser says, "to me a D/s relationship is the dome finding the thuings a subbie need in her and binging them to light"
Maitre_Remi nods to Kestrel
? Jordains_devotion says, "excuse me for a moment... a sister needs my assistance.... but I will be peeking in from time to time"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "to light eh ????"
? melanie_as_light says, "light?"
? melanie_as_light giggles..shrugs<
br> Garrs_lil_joy says, "bw sis " ? melanie_as_light says, "wishes you well dev..."
Master_Kisser says, "A Dom need to nurture and build"
? red_feline_MotT says, "agrees"
? shy_heart_MSH says, "be well dev "
Master_Kisser says, "do does the subbie"
Master_Kisser says, "one thing is all important TRUST"
castle_kitten says, "oui, "
jpbear63 says, "trust is not give...it's earned..."
Master_Kisser says, "in one i had i saw much striegnth and brought it out through her art giveing confedance as i whent"
jpbear63 says, "'given""
Master_Kisser says, "i never siad it was given jp"
castle_kitten says, "please, Sir, we got it, let him finish, we are interrupting to much"
jpbear63 says, "not a comment about you, kisser."
Garrs_lil_joy says, "round table????? no debates"
Master_Kisser says, "its ok"
Master_Kisser says, "now ive had my on line subbies"
? red_feline_MotT says, "yes i agree"
? melanie_as_light listens quietly to Master Kisser....
Master_Kisser says, "there was sultry and lilly and agreeable"
? melanie_as_light coughs
? red_feline_MotT says, "quite a list lol"
Master_Kisser says, "and the best of all Kissers _____"
? shy_heart_MSH hugs Mel, joy and dove...whispers be well someone is asking for her presence...slipping out quietly
just_lil_dove says, "isn't trying to be contrary (this time) but... you say finding what a sub needs and bringing it to light... do you not feel that both should know what they want and need from this lifestyle before trying to form a relationship?"
just_lil_dove says, "huggs shy bw"
shy_heart_MSH leaves ? melanie_as_light says, "wishes you well shy..*huggles*"
Master_Kisser says, "dove i said the domes part"
? red_feline_MotT says, "i think he mean certain qualitys"
just_lil_dove says, "listens"
Master_Kisser says, "i mean find what she has but not know is there and buils it up for her"
You tell jpbear63 i am subjected to slashes in his eyes..POUTS..*shrugs*. but this is actually a healing process..because i can be in the same room without cursing him out...or crying..that is a VERY good sign
castle_kitten says, "oui, nods in agreement"
Master_Kisser says, "just as i did with one"
just_lil_dove says, "ah okay"
Master_Kisser says, "to see what she can be and help her get there"
Your buddy shy_heart_msh is in chat
Master_Kisser says, "just as i found Mels poetry"
just_lil_dove says, "smiles"
Master_Kisser says, "mel tell then about that will you"
Your buddy perkygirl_68 is on pager ? melanie_as_light .o0(umm..i am in too many stories)
? melanie_as_light giggles..smiles..
? melanie_as_light says, "i will.."
castle_kitten says, "Sir, you are side tracking, lol"
Master_Kisser says, "purrrrrrrs plaease"
Master_Kisser says, "not im not example are neede at time"
Master_Kisser says, "pluse i cant type to save my hide"
castle_kitten says, "sorry?"
Master_Kisser says, "its ok"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "......." Master_Kisser says, "wb joy"
castle_kitten says, "wb, sis!" Garrs_lil_joy says, "thank You Sir " Garrs_lil_joy says, "thanks kitten" Your buddy lord_kalkin is on pager just_lil_dove says, "wb (((((joy)))))) ))))))))Garr((((((((" castle_kitten says, "Sir, are you finished, then?"
? melanie_as_light says, "ummm..anything else Master Kisser?"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "smiles and sighs just joy Garr went nighters" Master_Kisser says, "to cont.."
? melanie_as_light listens
jpbear63 says, "thank you kisser."
Garrs_lil_joy says, "the suspense is killing me "
castle_kitten says, "me too!"
Master_Kisser says, "im the first Dom tosay we Dom have fears and douta"
castle_kitten says, "Sir, this one believes you all do and you all should"
castle_kitten says, "life is uncertain, can not always know the answer"
Master_Kisser says, "why ?? for in admiting im human maybe the subie can see even a Dom can faluter and wonder and hope and need"
castle_kitten says, "human, Sir"
Master_Kisser says, "yes Domm/es are human and we make mistakes"
castle_kitten says, "we subs, do not believe you have all the answers, believe we subs have to contribute at times"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "round table????? no debates"
castle_kitten says, "does not make you weak, makes you human"
Maitre_Remi says, "deja vu"
? melanie_as_light says, "thank you joy..*smiles*..giggles"
jpbear63 says, "who are you? King Arthur?"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "nods to Maitre_Remi"
Master_of_the_Tigers says, "yes we are human and do make mistakes"
Maitre_Remi says, "round table ??? no debates"
Master_Kisser says, "but ive seen to many Dom/mes act as if they are god and even if they F@#$ up that never admit it"
Maitre_Remi says, ""I thought I made a mistake once ....""
? melanie_as_light says, "please everyone let Master Kisser continue..then when everyone goes..we can debate all we want..Listens"
castle_kitten says, "sorry, joy? what did that mean? was i out of line in responding? am sorry if i am"
Maitre_Remi says, "but I was wrong."
just_lil_dove says, "(Casey's only flaw is that he is too humble i know cuz he told me... i think Kes and Garr are the same) "
jpbear63 says, "please kisser, continue."
Master_of_the_Tigers says, "one must always admit to the mistakes or suffer for it later"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "noooo kitten not at all but is intrested in kissers journey "
? KestrelMaster says, "I humbly agree, dovie"
castle_kitten says, "oui, as am i, smiles and listens...."
Master_of_the_Tigers says, "sorry..listens"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "smiles to her sis loves to hear all about the journeys makes mine less lonely"
castle_kitten says, "please continue, Sir"
Master_Kisser says, "and i know that a Dom should walk a mile in a subbies shoes before ever judgeing"
just_lil_dove says, "grinz (sorry will shut up and listen now... for the moment at least)"
jpbear63 says, "Kisser? go on, please."
Master_Kisser says, "and one great revilation Im a Switch i know both sides of the coin"
castle_kitten says, "listens"
jpbear63 says, "listens."
Master_Kisser says, "in R/L im more subbie wanting to give my heart totlay to a gal"
Master_Kisser says, "i know the frear and the need and the longing but on line im more the Dom i know that side of things"
Master_Kisser says, "and now i met a gal who her self is more a switch"
? Jordains_devotion says, "ok back"
? melanie_as_light says, "wb dev.."
just_lil_dove says, "wb dev"
? Jordains_devotion says, "thanks" castle_kitten says, "Sir, please continue....."
Master_Kisser says, "and we are trying iin her past relatetionships shes been the one to take care of her Boy freinds and then meets me i take care of her be there and try to understasnd her so we are starting out right"
Master_Kisser says, "but i degress"
Master_Kisser says, "i see d/s as a seprate from BDSM or it can be"
? red_feline_MotT says, "yes"
Master_Kisser says, "most dont see it that way"
Master_Kisser says, "but to be you master i need not tie you uupm"
? red_feline_MotT says, "oh?"

? red_feline_MotT says, "not"
Master_Kisser says, "i can bind you more in though and emmtions that any rope can"
Maitre_Remi says, "I see online as being only D/s"
Maitre_Remi says, "good point Kisser"
Master_Kisser says, "but those ties can be whips in the wrong hands"
? red_feline_MotT says, "a good Master can"
Master_Kisser says, "and they can be knives in the crule hands"
Master_Kisser says, "that is why im a gor hater"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "okies then "
jpbear63 says, "very true. i know doms that have no compassionS Calendar:"
? melanie_as_light .o0(umm would say dont go there..but i am going to bring it up in my story)
? melanie_as_light says, "*shrugs*"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "shrugzzzzz"
Master_Kisser says, "smile and hugs Mel"
Master_Kisser says, "ok now im done"
? Jordains_devotion smiles at melanie
Maitre_Remi says, "oooh are you next mel ? let moi get the popcorn and settle in"
? red_feline_MotT says, "very well done Sir"
? red_feline_MotT says, "giggles"
Master_of_the_Tigers says, "lol @ Maitre"
? melanie_as_light says, "noo..do we have any volunteers?"
jpbear63 says, "Hmmm."
Garrs_lil_joy says, "ahemm...."
? melanie_as_light says, ".o0(or is this finally my cue?)"
jpbear63 says, "how ...eager you are.."
? melanie_as_light says, "we still have joy, dev, Master of tigers..me and JP"
Master_Kisser says, "now any questions"
Master_Kisser says, "no... good i got to go"
castle_kitten says, "wonders if we will finish tonite, ok, ok, this one had her turn, but asks.....should we continue this next week, so that everyone has an equal opportunity to speak?"
? red_feline_MotT says, "go Master go"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "will go next "
? red_feline_MotT says, "giggles
" ? melanie_as_light says, "go for it joy.."
Master_Kisser says, "feline !! lol"
jpbear63 says, "Kisser? Good luck with the new girl.."
? melanie_as_light says, "do we get to hear from Both you and Garr?"
? melanie_as_light smiles*
Master_Kisser says, "thank you"
? red_feline_MotT says, "???"
Master_Kisser says, "byre and blessed be"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "alas Garr is sleeping but will expell my journey such as it is "
? melanie_as_light says, "wishes you well Master Kisser..have a wonderful evening.and thank you for comming.."
jpbear63 says, "take the stage, joy."
jpbear63 says, "nite, kisser."
Master_of_the_Tigers says, "bw MK"
just_lil_dove says, "looks at the also invisible Kes and grinz"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "31/2 years ago i was surfing and found a meadow for realaxation "
Maitre_Remi says, "oui .. I turn into a pumpkin at midnight"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "found lots of people that seemed like a family "
? melanie_as_light smiles listening to joy..
? red_feline_MotT says, "pumkin head"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "settled in thinking i was a lump of clay that needed to be molded"
jpbear63 says, "listens..."
? KestrelMaster (turns on a light behind me and watches it shine through)
castle_kitten says, "listens"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "found out that if i gave someone else permission to mold this lump it wasnt going to be my true forem just someones thought of what i was to be"
just_lil_dove says, "smiles at joy then winks at Kes"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "read alot visited sites and read more "
Garrs_lil_joy says, "i hung out with the subbies and got into trubble thinking being a brat was they way for attention "
Garrs_lil_joy says, "it only proved fruitless as becoming myself was harder to do i was a blind sheep "
Garrs_lil_joy says, "one day while talking with a dear sister named kiana i realized that o/l was not for this one had no discipline what so ever once the pc was off so was my so called sublike qualites"
? melanie_as_light listens..
Garrs_lil_joy says, "talked it over with Garr who was as vanilla as a friggin bean and he laffed"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "called me a kinky weirdo "
? red_feline_MotT says, "giggles"
jpbear63 says, "(i get alot of that too)"
? melanie_as_light giggles..my how both of you changed..listens
Garrs_lil_joy says, "until one day he saw that with in me was a fire that burned so intense he had to get involved"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "he read visited sites and read some more "
Garrs_lil_joy says, "our marriage straitened out "
Garrs_lil_joy says, "the roles were clearly defined"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "and our journey into the life style stated "
Garrs_lil_joy says, "started even now im just part of the funiture here and watch as people come and go on their journies some trully searching some just blindly following the pack "
Garrs_lil_joy says, "thats all done fini "
? melanie_as_light smiles softly to joy
just_lil_dove says, "huggs dat joyful one"
castle_kitten says, "smiles....thank you joy, for sharing "
Garrs_lil_joy says, "smiles sorry so long winded "
jpbear63 says, "wonderful. *smiles and thanks joy for telling such a warm tale*"
? melanie_as_light says, "just have to say this joy..it truly is amazing the way both of you turned out..*smiles*.....and no that wasnt long winded"
? melanie_as_light huggles you joy.
? red_feline_MotT says, "great story"
castle_kitten says, "ohhhhhh, nooooo, sis, you were quite concise!"
? melanie_as_light says, "ok....then if there is no more questions..it is now down to Dove, dev, jp, MotT and me..next victim?"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "only because were on the same page luv both learning and yearning for the same things i got lucky"
? red_feline_MotT says, "Master???"
Maitre_Remi says, "victim ?" Master_of_the_Tigers says, "well...
............." ? melanie_as_light says, "is MotT here?"
? melanie_as_light says, "ahh there he is..go for it Master of Tigers Sir.."
Maitre_Remi says, "you make it sound painful to talk here melanie "
Master_of_the_Tigers says, "i am new here, i have been around the life for almost 17yrs"
Maitre_Remi says, "and must everyone talk ... "
jpbear63 says, "like you?"
? melanie_as_light testing
Master_of_the_Tigers says, "i met feline about 3 yrs ago.......and we discussed it"
? melanie_as_light says, "Maitre Remi..someitmes it is painful to share ones personal side..but..if victim offends you i am sorry..just dont want to be rude and rush in..want everyone to get a chance..*ok..shuts up and listens*"
? melanie_as_light listens to Master of Tigers..
Master_of_the_Tigers says, "and a yr ago we began our journey"
Master_of_the_Tigers says, "we have been i think the most important part of each others lives"
? red_feline_MotT says, "smiles"
Master_of_the_Tigers says, "i try my best to please her as she pleases me and i hope a lifetime will be before us"
Master_of_the_Tigers says, "i'm not much of a talker so i think i'm done ......... I Love You my feline"
? red_feline_MotT says, "i love you too Master"
castle_kitten says, "omg!!!!!!!!!!!! how cute!"
castle_kitten says, "smiles at MotT"
? melanie_as_light smiles..
? melanie_as_light says, "may i just ask MotT..you are both together real life?"
Master_of_the_Tigers says, "yes we are now"
jpbear63 says, "thats GREAT!!!!!"
Master_of_the_Tigers says, "well i moved in"
? melanie_as_light says, "*smiles*..congratulations Sir..."
jpbear63 says, "good for you both..."
Maitre_Remi says, "oui ... it is "
castle_kitten says, "TOTALLY AWESOME !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "smiles very great i bet "
Master_of_the_Tigers says, "we have been for about a yr in this life in r/l off and on"
? red_feline_MotT says, "it is great!!!"
just_lil_dove says, "smiles well said Master of the Tigers i was pleased to see you mention that you both try to please each other quite a few i meet don't understand that"
Master_of_the_Tigers says, "ty A/all"
jpbear63 says, "welcome..."
? melanie_as_light says, "ok..that means dev, dove JP and me is left......"
just_lil_dove says, "whispers and Kes"
just_lil_dove says, "why don't you go light"
? melanie_as_light says, "Kes isnt here?"
? red_feline_MotT says, "yes he is"
just_lil_dove says, "yes he is"
? KestrelMaster says, "no He isn't"
? red_feline_MotT says, "giggles"
? melanie_as_light says, "he isnt on my list"
jpbear63 says, "go ahead, mel." just_lil_dove says, " Kes"
? red_feline_MotT says, "aw"
? melanie_as_light says, "geeze..when did KM get here..didnt even see him and not on my list"
? melanie_as_light says, "ok..never mind..i guess i am going.."
? KestrelMaster says, "been here since 9:00, light"
castle_kitten says, "grinz..........at least you didn't have to go first, mel!"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "laffs"
? Jordains_devotion says, "lol at light"
? melanie_as_light says, "umm my story is actually al ong one good thing i type fast..but would say my first bondage kink happened when i was about 8 years old..when i handcuffed myself without any keys and was stuck in them for about 6 hours..had to get cut out of it..crazy thing for an 8 year old and at first panicked..but said..you know something i loved the feeling of being bound.."
? melanie_as_light says, "ok..skipping over evrything..with that in mind..we now come to when i am 16..and the worst invention for me to happen..the COMPUTER..i found online...yes i know a 16 year old shouldnt be running around..but i started out in the reg vanilla rooms..trolling like anything..was a horny little troll..."
Garrs_lil_joy says, "was?"
jpbear63 says, "heh heh heh"
? melanie_as_light says, "it was then i found the BDSM rooms a year later..was clicked by EVERYONE...they just clicked me down the line..but one little male subbie found me..and introduced me to BDSM..i didnt even know what the hell it was..even asked him if this is some kind of weird ass cult or something..*giggles*"
castle_kitten says, "giggles"
? melanie_as_light says, "well still is joy ...anyway..he showed me castle realm..and that weekend..i read the entire site cover to cover..and was hooked on it completely....it was almost as if i found the missing link.."
Maitre_Remi says, "lol joy"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "dont ever lose that endearing quality sis "
? melanie_as_light says, "he and i got along great..but difference was i was his Mistress..yes i started out as an online Dommes...and he even said he never met anyone like me who can dominante him in such a way..i loved it...it was until problems in my life starting happening..i mean school, family,ect ect..i was only 16 for goodness sakes..and shouldnt be getting messed up in BDSM"
? melanie_as_light says, "anyway...umm...i was his Mistress for about 2 months or so..until he decided to do a joint suicide with his girl friend..and the night he killed himself..he called me up..and asked for my help...umm..i was undergoing problems myself..and refused to help him..but..this was after we sort of called it off....so...he ended it..and well..i couldnt fit the role of the Mistress in my heart..because i couldnt even control myself either"
? melanie_as_light says, "umm..so..that left me wandering..i met a wonderful Master...AJSpan..whom i truly loved..he was a bondage Master..and was there to help me..and after a while it was he i submitted to...we ended up having a wonderful 14 month online relationship..until i stopped myself..and said what the hell are we doing..i am seeking real life..and reall ife we can never be.."
? melanie_as_light says, "so i broke the collar on the account..i seeked real life...that was the most devastating thing i ever did..after losing AJ..i went nuts...in the mean time with AJ...i also styarted the Castle....and had weekly meetings and everything..which were a hit..and i learned so much from others...o0(geeze am i putting you allt oo sleep)"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "is wide awake"
? Jordains_devotion says, "mel... you never put me to sleep... just listening"
castle_kitten says, "nooooooooooo, we are listening, sis!"
jpbear63 says, "No you're not..***listens****"
Maitre_Remi says, "we are listening "
just_lil_dove smiles, listening
Maitre_Remi munching popcorn here ? red_feline_MotT says, "go on" jpbear63 says, "(jesus, look at the groundswell of support..) Go on girl!"
? melanie_as_light says, "in loosing AJ..i also lost the Castle..gave up on everything turned my back on those i called friends..and basically went from #1 in yahell to zero...because in a sick sense..anyone who is of the past 3 years..always knew the name little moonbeam of light......because i helped so many and loved doing it..but most of all..i couldnt help myself..it was like i reach out to others to do the things i couldnt do"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "human flaw mel loves you for it "
? melanie_as_light says, "so..i killed off the light that i was for over 3 years..and plunged myself Back into gor..i do have to say before AJ i was in Gor...but that is another story..but the reason behind it was going back to gor..was my punishment formyself...lowering myself..abusing myself..getting cyber rapped, used that emotional masochism..was my help"
? melanie_as_light says, "it was by hurting myself..that i found myself...going to Gor..and being hurt..was the way that i found myself...and truth is..whenever i ever was upset i turned to Gor..for it is breaking out of Gor..that gave me the strength...if i lose myself i go to gor to find myself"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "smiles "
castle_kitten leaves jpbear63 says, "*hug*"
? melanie_as_light says, "anyway...the thing i longed for most was a real life Master...someone who i am can learn from..thought i found one in Gor....in fact June 20 we were supposed to meet real life..already had it planned..until he abandoned me saying i am useless..turns out..that whole entire relationship was on on abuse.."
Your buddy shy_heart_msh leaves chat ? melanie_as_light says, "after him..i did go to an old Master..whom i did love even with AJ..was a friend..who taught me the joys and poetic side of my life..he brought out..that i do have a poetic heart and soul....and most of all..he brought back the light i always was..i went from gorean slave named sleen_bait...back to light once again"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "coughs and smiles mile s"
castle_kitten enters ? melanie_as_light says, "but..well things didnt work out...he found his love..and..moved on...it was then..i found someone special in my life..*smiles*..through a personal ad of all thing..who has the patience of a saint..who can keep up with me..and who is so damn knowldegeable makes me quiver and shake all over at times..*smiles*..so starting to explore that area with him..."
Master_of_the_Tigers says, "it saddens me to say feline and I must be off, be well A/all........til next week"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "bw Y/you 2"
jpbear63 says, "nite, mott." ? red_feline_MotT says, "be well and take care" just_lil_dove says, "bw Master of the Tigers, feline" ? melanie_as_light says, "wishes you well Master of tigers and feline..have a nice evening."
Maitre_Remi waves at everyone. Maitre_Remi says, "leaving ...." Master_of_the_Tigers says, "night jp mel and A/all" red_feline_MotT leaves Master_of_the_Tigers leaves jpbear63 says, "Is everyone leaving?" ? KestrelMaster says, "bw MotT, feline" just_lil_dove says, "bw Maitre Remi" castle_kitten says, "be well A/all" jpbear63 says, "Is it my deoderant?" Garrs_lil_joy says, "nighters kitten " Garrs_lil_joy says, "is still hear" castle_kitten leaves Garrs_lil_joy says, "here too " ? Jordains_devotion chuckles at joy
? melanie_as_light says, "Ok..to rapp up a few things..because i know i took too long.......Now is a trying time for me....making the transition from online to real life......and things are hard.......o0(argg everyone is leaving..ok).....but in learning about this..i learn that BDSM is not by the book...you cannot live your life online..nor can you live this in a book."
? melanie_as_light says, "BDSM is about limits, experiences..it is what each and every person makes it within their lives.."
just_lil_dove says, "smiles congrats on going r/l light"
? melanie_as_light says, "Your BDSM is not my BDSM..it is just that i am only beginning tolearn what BDSM means to me"
? melanie_as_light says, "ok..*smiles*..The end..of a new beginning"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "thank you casey"
? melanie_as_light says, "is casey here too?"
? melanie_as_light .o0(i think i lost my room list)
just_lil_dove says, "no he's working again"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "no but the your bdsm is not my bdsm "
Maitre_Remi says, "comment"
? melanie_as_light says, "ooo BTW joy..found that exact quote in the scrolls..he actually said that one year ago today..July 26 1999"
? melanie_as_light says, "yes Maitre Remi?"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "Smiles as good history has a way of reapeating itself 2"
Maitre_Remi says, "the "your BDSM is not my BDSM" comment"
? melanie_as_light .o0(and i know i completely brushed past my story..but if anyone has any questions please feel free)
? melanie_as_light says, "yes Master Remi?"
Maitre_Remi says, "lol ... I was just continuing joy's statement for clarification"
? melanie_as_light says, "we are all different..the way you do your BDSM...is much different then mine.."
Garrs_lil_joy says, "joy left her participle dangling and Maitre_Remi put it up where it belongs"
jpbear63 says, "Well, I guess that's the bdsm equivilent of "Diff strokes for Diff folks""
just_lil_dove says, "grinz cuz Casey's bdsm is my bdsm now "
Garrs_lil_joy says, "woo hoo dovey"
jpbear63 says, "Strokes---lashes?"
? melanie_as_light says, "awww dove..*giggles*"
? melanie_as_light says, "but seriously any questions about me..or can we get onto KM, devs, doves or JP story?"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "NEXT"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "lol"
? Jordains_devotion laughs
just_lil_dove says, "listens"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "mel i love yah but there are only 24 hours in a day"
? melanie_as_light says, "sorry i know took too much time..but hey got to admit i typed a LOT fast..*giggles*"
? Jordains_devotion says, "I take it that you are not going next dove"
? melanie_as_light .o0(geeze if it was up to me..would have typed all 24 horus straight for my twisted tale)
? Jordains_devotion winks at her
just_lil_dove says, "nope enjoying the stories here and eating so can't type fast"
? Jordains_devotion says, "ok will go"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "good observation skills dev" ? melanie_as_light says, "go for it dev..for i love your story.."
jpbear63 says, "So who's next." ? melanie_as_light listens
? melanie_as_light says, "dev is next"
jpbear63 says, "good."
? Jordains_devotion says, "like mel I knew early on...but in my early teens...and being a teen I found ways to attain BDSM literature and anything about SM in fantasies and such"
Garrs_lil_joy listens.
? Jordains_devotion says, "Overall I stayed away from the guys still in high school because they bored me to death...and had a preference to older men"
? Jordains_devotion says, "Once I had graduated, my first serious relationship was with a dominant...and he taught me many things about myself, not to mention the kinky side of things"
? Jordains_devotion says, "but with time he didn't want to limit my growth and he broke up with me to explore more...and I fell into a very vanilla relationship"
? Jordains_devotion says, "but a very loving person...but more submissive than I...and I needed more...there was an emptiness...so I turned back to BDSM"
? Jordains_devotion says, "Took it more seriously and got involved with groups and the local scene but more of a bottom than a submissive...yet this still was not enough"
? Jordains_devotion says, "I found myself in chat...and the perverse lil me found my way to the adult side...and wound up in a Gorean tavern"
Your buddy sailortina is in chat ? Jordains_devotion says, "This was close to what I wanted...but still too fantastical to my liking...and moving around I finally found a home in a place called Arioch's garden...some of you may remember the room"
? Jordains_devotion says, "Many were there to help me and lead me to various sites... primarily castlerealm...although good it was lacking in my interests and LJ pointed me to gloria brame's website of submissive women speak"
? melanie_as_light listens..
? Jordains_devotion says, "ah ha...this is it.... I was seeking a TPE"
? Jordains_devotion says, "but how do I do it??"
Garrs_lil_joy listens.
? Jordains_devotion says, "At the time LJ and I were only friends...he had a collared sub in RL and we lived three thousand miles away"
Your buddy lord_kalkin has gone off pager
? Jordains_devotion says, "so he helped me learn more about myself...and we began talking on the phone.... during this time he had released his submissive.... and we became more personal with one another.... eventually meeting offline and then moving together...that was about three years ago...."
? Jordains_devotion says, "We took things slowly and started with bedroom D/s first and expanded it into other areas of our life... and recently making the transition to TPE...."
? Jordains_devotion says, "It is not the easiest life to lead but it is one in which I find my personal fulfillment"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "and that in a nut shell is the most important thing dev"
? Jordains_devotion says, "I am who I am and LJ is who he is and we feed off of one another's fire and needs"
? Jordains_devotion smiles at joy and agrees
? melanie_as_light smiles...
Your buddy lord_kalkin leaves chat ? melanie_as_light says, "dev i think it is wonderful the way you both have turned out..watching the way you have changed..*smiles*..it is amazing....and i am so happy for you sis" ? melanie_as_light listens..
Garrs_lil_joy says, "isnt it wonderful to know that as Y/you both feed off that fire it doesnt diminish but stays constant ???"
? Jordains_devotion says, "I think that is it... but a warning... to those who don't know me well... my views tend to go against the mainstream...and occassionally will start debates"
Maitre_Remi looks to his watch.... wonders what the record time for Castle chat is ?
? Jordains_devotion says, "yes joy...and other times making it burn even greater"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "nods nods nods"
Maitre_Remi says, "oooh I'm sorry dev .. I thought you were thru ... "
Your buddy maitre_remi leaves chat Maitre_Remi leaves ? Jordains_devotion is done ? Jordains_devotion smiles ? melanie_as_light whispers to Maitre Remi...5am is record time.but that was the insomnica meetings
? melanie_as_light says, "darn.he left anyway" Your buddy maitre_remi is in chat Maitre_Remi enters Garrs_lil_joy says, "ou est Maitre_Remi???" Maitre_Remi says, "ok who has the boot codes" Garrs_lil_joy says, "ah ca va Maitre_Remi" ? melanie_as_light says, "wb Maitre Remi...and to answer your question..5am is the record time"
jpbear63 says, "what happened remi?" ? Jordains_devotion smiles at M Remi...dev is through Maitre_Remi says, "I didn't mean to interrupt dev, a thousand pardons"
? Jordains_devotion says, "no need for such...smiles to him" ? melanie_as_light says, "dev..thank you so much..and wishes you the best of luck in your journy for the total power exchange..."
? Jordains_devotion says, "thanks mel" ? melanie_as_light says, "ok..then that leaves...dove, KM, and JP"
jpbear63 says, "who's next?"
? melanie_as_light says, "think JP should go...*smiles*"
Maitre_Remi says, "I'll go"
? melanie_as_light says, "You went already "
? melanie_as_light giggles
Maitre_Remi says, "oops ... heads to the back of the line"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "looks at the 3 and
wonders"
jpbear63 says, "Hmmm. ok, Remi." just_lil_dove says, "laffs"> jpbear63 says, "Ok ok." ? melanie_as_light says, "go ahead JP...*smiles softly..settling back listening*..."
just_lil_dove says, "(doesn't have to go everyone knows my story though i don't know how i am so shy and retiring) "
Garrs_lil_joy says, "pops more popcorn "
jpbear63 says, "As you know I'm Dom, but I still love being bound--go figure."
Garrs_lil_joy says, "oh dovey your nose is gonna grow"
? melanie_as_light listens
jpbear63 says, "The first time I got excited at bondage was during "Voyage to the Bottom of the Sea""
Garrs_lil_joy says, "??"
jpbear63 says, "some poor actor was being tied up by a rubber octopus."
Garrs_lil_joy says, "does walt disney know bout this"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "sorry will shut up "
? melanie_as_light giggles smiles...listening..
jpbear63 says, "So, that's latex, bondage, breath play, and water sports (more or less)"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "omg"
just_lil_dove says, "laffs"
jpbear63 says, "yeah, i know. lots of therapy"
jpbear63 says, "I'm a perv!!!!!"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "sounds like a good time "
Garrs_lil_joy says, "ooops i said iwas gonna shut up "
? KestrelMaster says, "might want to add bestiality to the list"
jpbear63 says, "So that set the stage for reading and asking alot of 'dumb' ques."
jpbear63 says, "KM, that's another episode."
jpbear63 says, "the 'giant clam'. No comment."
? melanie_as_light perks up..with a wonder.
Garrs_lil_joy says, "ahemmmmm....."
Maitre_Remi says, "lol@KM"
jpbear63 says, "So I read and talked my girls into being boun
d...(and gagged)"
? Jordains_devotion smiles at JP... likes some things listed jpbear63 says, "Loved it."
just_lil_dove says, "bites lips trying really hard to be quiet"
jpbear63 says, "feel free dove..."
? melanie_as_light shudders at the gag
just_lil_dove says, "meant so i wouldn't wake the girls up laughing"
jpbear63 says, "So here I am, in college with a Domme girlfriend."
jpbear63 says, "(I started as a sub..)"
jpbear63 says, "For my birthday...she told me that I was to be "auctioned off""
jpbear63 says, "Did I mention that I'm 100% realtime?"
jpbear63 says, "anyway..."
Garrs_lil_joy says, "for oreos ????"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "ooops i said iwas gonna shut up "
? melanie_as_light whispers to joy..real auction..lol
Jordains_devotion . o O ( real auctions are so much fun )
jpbear63 says, "So she hoods and binds me. Takes me to a private party..and ...sells me." jpbear63 says, "*takes a deep breath*"
jpbear63 says, "Now I learned alot from my new Mistress, but I was very Dom in the real world."
jpbear63 says, "So that started creeping into my nature as we scened. She saw this and trainded me to be a Dom"
jpbear63 says, "Two years later...one of my employees quit without cause. I was baffled"
jpbear63 says, "She said that she could work for me..she wanted to submit."
jpbear63 says, "Well...what could I say.."
jpbear63 says, "The rest is moving from relationship to scene in NYC...and I love it."
Your buddy sailortina has gone off pager Garrs_lil_joy says, "uhm.... never mind is being good"
jpbear63 says, "what?"
jpbear63 says, "...yes?"
? melanie_as_light wants to know what is on joys mind too
Garrs_lil_joy says, "what did you say Sir "
jpbear63 says, "in relation to what?"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "to da girlie dat quit silly "
Garrs_lil_joy says, "you asked us what could you say "
? melanie_as_light says, "*giggles*...in other words..JP did the girl submit to you?"
jpbear63 says, "Ah...when a woman kneel at your feet..what can you do..."
Garrs_lil_joy says, "but never answered "
jpbear63 says, "I taught her and trained her...."
jpbear63 says, "but never collared her..."
Maitre_Remi says, "he said oui ... obviously"
jpbear63 says, "HEY REMI. glad you're here."
Garrs_lil_joy says, "ahhh thanks sublties escape this ones minds sorry when left to inferance i go nuts truyng to oick a direction "
? Jordains_devotion laughs
Garrs_lil_joy says, "oui or w/we "
jpbear63 says, "My philosphy on being a Dom?"
? melanie_as_light listens
? Jordains_devotion wonders if joy is getting tired....
? Jordains_devotion listens
? melanie_as_light .o0(joy is very tired..or needs to shoot the typists)..
Garrs_lil_joy says, "just giddy dev never tire of listining to journeys"
jpbear63 says, "Whatever you're doing: it MUST be hot. I mean burn the wallpaper hot."
? melanie_as_light giggles..
? melanie_as_light bites her lips..listening
Jordains_devotion . o O ( great philosophy )
Garrs_lil_joy says, "dayyyyyyum pass da tabasco "
jpbear63 says, "You don't need to please the sub..but I just cant' get over the sight of
.." ? melanie_as_light the sight of???????
jpbear63 says, "a bound woman moaning and begging for release..."
? Jordains_devotion laughs watching JP making others hang on to his words
? melanie_as_light says, "<--hanging on for dear life"
? melanie_as_light says, "*giggles*"
jpbear63 says, "And it's MY decision whether to ALLOW her to...or to have her suffer..."
Garrs_lil_joy says, "........relaes"
jpbear63 says, "right Garr?"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "shoots my typist"
jpbear63 says, "Remi? Right?"
? Jordains_devotion says, "JP...as a dominant do you negotiate the scene or do you just want to know the limits and safeword and take it from there?"
Maitre_Remi says, "oui ... "
jpbear63 says, "NO NO NO. always talk about everything in the light of vanilla...then TAKE them.."
? melanie_as_light says, "light?..."
? melanie_as_light says, "*giggles*"
jpbear63 says, "Set up a frame that the two of you can work in...
" jpbear63 says, "0="Never""
jpbear63 says, "5=force me"
jpbear63 says, "you get the idea."
Garrs_lil_joy says, "hey ive been framed before waaaaay to confining "
? Jordains_devotion says, "I guess what I was referring to is every detail.... I have seen submissives negotiate every minute movement of the scene and it makes me wonder about who is in control...hopes she is making sense"
? Jordains_devotion agrees everything needs to be discussed in vanilla world first
KestrelMaster leaves ? Jordains_devotion says, "yes"
jpbear63 says, "Dev, it depends. As an answer that sucks; but it's the realtime truth."
? Jordains_devotion says, "yes it does vary with the individual I suppose"
? melanie_as_light says, "dev actually you are right....but even if a scene is negotiated..still would be up to the Dominant on where to take, stretch and extend the limits...umm i know..no debates"
jpbear63 says, "You can't pull out a plasic cane and whup the shit outta someone...w/o permsission."
? Jordains_devotion definitely agrees
Garrs_lil_joy says, "pssst dont tell Garrr that "
? Jordains_devotion says, "lol at joy"
jpbear63 says, "As for subs?"
jpbear63 says, "I gotta tell you, they are like unbroken horses."
Maitre_Remi listens
KestrelMaster enters ? melanie_as_light .o0(that is the sec reference to horses)
Maitre_Remi says, ". o O ( the horses analogy again)"
? melanie_as_light giggles..
jpbear63 says, "I LOVE putting on that saddle for the first time...and watching them get scraed."
Maitre_Remi says, "mel ... high 5"
Garrs_lil_joy says, "doesnt want anything broken in a scene"
? Jordains_devotion says, "LJ uses the horse analogy a lot"
jpbear63 says, "then calming them...training...them to allow me to go and take them further.."
? Jordains_devotion chuckles at joy... had a cane broken on my bottom once
? melanie_as_light says, "so JP it turns you on to have a scared submissive..to work on the fear and inhibitions they have..and letting them go through it?"
Maitre_Remi says, "and two thought bubbles ... I hang out with you too much"
KestrelMaster leaves jpbear63 says, "But they MUST have the spirit..."
? melanie_as_light says, "go through it as in overcome the fears?" ? melanie_as_light shrugs...GMTA?
jpbear63 says, "gmta?" ? Jordains_devotion says, "great minds think alike"
? melanie_as_light says, "great minds think alike..the thought bubble..and statement..too much alike"
jpbear63 says, "ah..creative minds pull from the same pool of though..."
jpbear63 says, "thoght" jpbear63 says, "thought" jpbear63 says, "gggrrrrrrrr" KestrelMaster enters Garrs_lil_joy says, "wb sir " just_lil_dove says, "wb Kes" ? melanie_as_light says, "sorry if i was off track but if i may ask JP Sir..you find submissive with spirit who do have some fears or inhibitions a turn on to help them overcome the fears they have?"
? KestrelMaster says, "ty, did I make it back this time?"
jpbear63 says, "Scared? yes (a little to get them wet) Terrorized? No."
Garrs_lil_joy says, "is smiling " ? Jordains_devotion says, "ok...I have overextended my time online..and I am getting the look... see everyone later"
jpbear63 says, "I think joy likes that" Garrs_lil_joy says, "gigles and winks to mel "
jpbear63 says, "night joy" just_lil_dove says, "bw dev"
? melanie_as_light says, "wishes you well dev..and thank you so much..*huggles*..have a wonderful evening.." Garrs_lil_joy says, "bw dev" ? KestrelMaster says, "bw dev" ? Jordains_devotion says, "good night and sweet dreams to all" ? KestrelMaster says, "nice seeing you again"
Your buddy jordains_devotion leaves chat Jordains_devotion leaves jpbear63 says, "Everyone: what's the best sex organ?"
Maitre_Remi says, "night dev" ? melanie_as_light says, "the mind"

Garrs_lil_joy says, "the mind"
? melanie_as_light says, "and the penis as well..for the girls..*giggles*"
Maitre_Remi says, "melon"
jpbear63 says, "*spank*"
just_lil_dove says, "laffs"
? melanie_as_light says, " <=="
Garrs_lil_joy says, "master says he loves every bone in my body especialy His "
Maitre_Remi says, "lol" ? KestrelMaster says, "laughs, somehow, that sounds like Garr"
just_lil_dove says, "nods nods nods"
jpbear63 says, "right. So if the mind controls the body, then the internal will creates the exteranals reactions?"
jpbear63 says, "I tutor in bio, so forgive me."
? melanie_as_light says, "true...its all in the mind.."
Garrs_lil_joy says, "rut roh dumb it down again fer me pleeze" jpbear63 says, "Right!"
jpbear63 says, "grrr."
? melanie_as_light says, "ok..may i ask JP..do you have anything else to add..because we have 2 more..and it is getting that hour..."
? melanie_as_light .o0(hate to rush..would love to stay here all night)
jpbear63 says, "whoops!"
Maitre_Remi says, "which hour is that mel" jpbear63 says, "sorry."
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Garrs_lil_joy listens to KestrelMaster. ? KestrelMaster says, "I've recently become a Dominant"
just_lil_dove smiles and listens ? KestrelMaster says, "and I'll never stop learning" ? KestrelMaster says, "and I can never have enough experience"
just_lil_dove says, "don't forget lives happily ever after and shops at the big mall "
? KestrelMaster says, "nods nods nods" ? KestrelMaster says, "oh" ? KestrelMaster says, "and I'm trying to figure out where to move Wisconsin too"
just_lil_dove says, "Casey has the same story with shops at wal mart cuz that's the good store here" just_lil_dove says, "(still thinks it would look good in canada and we won't miss it a bit)" ? KestrelMaster says, "good idea dove, there's plenty of empty land up there"
just_lil_dove says, "but is so happy wild is closer than she was to you" Garrs_lil_joy says, "300 miles" ? KestrelMaster says, "yup 400 miles is better then 700" Maitre_Remi says, "be a longer drive for cheese ..." just_lil_dove says, "lol" Garrs_lil_joy says, "amazing how a gap in miles is negated buy the closeness of 2 hearts"
? KestrelMaster says, "smiles @ joy (and sprint 1000 nights)"

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