Down Fall of Love
Knows it has been a while since i wrote to you...well i know you will understand..so i am writing now..not only because i want to keep in touch and it has been a while..but because i have been thinking about a lot of things...o0(ok..well that is nothing new..lol).. but seriously..i am worried about us...i am wondering what is happening. Is that the future for all couples whether online, real life, married or in anytype of relationship..is the future dont want to say boredom but separation?...what i mean is..we used to talk..all day long...it was wonderful...used to be so much to say...even the minimalist thing...i would tell you..and it would mean the world to me to tell you...but now..i find myself in that uncomfortable silence..staring at you..only wanting to be held,touched, embraced in your warmth...I love you will all my heart...but there is just so much holding and touching that can be done...*sighs*..i know this isnt sounding to good is it..i am not trying to make it sound so negative..i am just wondering what is going on..sure i have my theories..and sometimes you know what i have to say about my thories...i should just screw them...why must i have to analyze, look at, go through everything in full detail..of ever acction...maybe that is why i am so streesed at times..i should just enjoy life..and enjoy things as they come and no worry about anything else.
So what happen to us... well my answer..is we lost communication...not love..just the foundation of what we are based on...and why did we lose it..maybe because we both feel there is nothing good to say..the very thing we represent..which is good..is all that is good in our opionions in our lives..sure that sounds pessimistic..but..you said it yourself..you are not happy...and in a sense i am not happy where i am either...yet ironically there is nothing to be unhappy about....i guess it is just simple as boredom...are we both truly bored with the way things have turned out? *sighs*.. You know you are probably wondering why i am thinking like this..funny things is..had a dream last night...and well it kind of bothered me...and even now just thinking of it bothered me..and the dream was about losing you...that..you died in a car accident..but you did so the day after you broke up with me...horrible thought isnt it..*sighs*..maybe that is why i am troubled and worried..for that dream did bother me..and still does..because i wonder..what would happen if i ever did find out something like that....
well things in general...i realise..i have absolutly nothing to say..*sighs*...ACKKKKK..this is bad.... Master...maybe you can find something to say..for it is true..been a while since you wrote to me as well and i miss the letters you used to write..even if you didnt say much..i still liked to see them...i really dont know... all i want to do..which i am going to do know and take full advantage of is..wants to just hug you and love you all night long..*smiles*...so with that.. *wraps arms snuggly around you feeling your warmth...laying head gently upon your shoulder...falling asleep in your arms of warmth*..smiles... *placing a gentle kiss upon your lips*.. Master i love You..and hope to see you soon...wants to see you soon..have to talk about something..no matter what it is...if not we can play Q & A...dont think we ever played that before..just back and forth questions..about ourselves...who knows..may be an intersting game.... for now..going to say farewell Master..have a wonderful day..and wishes you well....hopes to see you soon..and chin up..smile...things will get better..please dont be upset by this letter..but..just had to talk and tell you want is on my mind... I love You ..........
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