After witnessing and reviewing what a girl did to her fellow sister..She questions the concept of "first girl"...A girl truly wonders besides Master's choice..what makes a first girl truly a first girl..is it attitude, experience, favorability?...in her opinion it is a combination of all of these things.
When a girl was appointed first girl in the books...immediately she became a "dominating Mistress"..they were harsh, fierce, and used the switch to beat the hell out of anyone "below" them..o0(with the exception of slave girl of gor) In a sense..she quoted the word below..for she has a problem with that definition in questioning the heirarchy of slaves. Within the institution of slavery of course there is a heirarchy..you have slaves that are more talented, pleasing, beautiful, skilled, desirable, trained..better then others...But all in all slaves are nothing more then slaves. They are property owned by a Free person. So is there anyone truly "below" them? For they are indeed one in the same..but yet so different.
When a slave was given first girl switching rights they would immediately use it to dominate, control and keep order of the other slaves. Some times it was done for personal vendettas, laziness, or just overall cruelity but the "first girl" was indeed Mistress. She questions though the natrue and psychology of being placed in that position. Does the girl automatically by advancement become the dominatrix..due to her rise in position..or is it an inbred nature within..that certain people lead..while others follow?
When a girl took her "place" as first girl and corrected her sisters...it seemed that she was "picking" on her..as her sister said so well. In her mind she wasnt "picking"..she was correcting a fellow sister to be upmost pleasing and perfect..laziness is inexcusible..especially for one who was trained. But how did a girl feel internally doing something like that to her sis?..Honestly..it was painful. When a girl first started her BDSM journey..she started out surprisingly enough as a Mistress. Ironically that is funny for such a start being a girl was cluessless to beging with...But her Domineering was limited to one thing..and that was helping, training, guiding others to be intuned with their own personal feelings, emotions, and to better themselves for when they find their true dominant. Wonders if a person such as that can ever be called a Dominant?..but many seem to think of her as such. But in Domination..there was always an emptiness inside..sure others got there pleasure, there excitment..but what did she get? Nothing..and there is a simple reason for that..she is not Dommes.
To get back on track..she wonders that although first girls are slaves..they are indeed Mistresses as well...they are the ones..who keep the other slaves in line, who help, guide, correct, and train their fellow sisters. But is it the appointment to the first girl that automatically brings that out of a slave?..or is it truly that not everyone can be a first girl and lead.
The question of switching also is a big debate she has. Should slaves be given switching rights over other slaves?..In her mind..NO WAY..and honestly unless the offense was so great..she would never use a switch on a fellow sister..because..if the offense was too great..would go directly to Master..let him deal with it. A first girl..is there to help and teach..not to beat. There is no reason a first girl should even switch..Talking, communication, discipline, and rigorous exercises..should be the way. Not a beating.
The funny thing a girl wonders..is..jeolousy as well for the "first girl" spot...jeolousy is a big factor that can truly ruin the foundation of the union between a Master and all the slaves...many times a girl was in these so call battles..not because she wanted to be first girl..which untill now..she never was...but because..those that were "above" her felt threatened by her presence..*sighs*..what ever happen to the equality of slaves...in her mind..first girl is NOT the enemy..not the stuck up little brat..who is Masters #1..not the slave you should fear....First girl should be your sister, your equal your guide.
Well to close this up..the concept of "first girl" in her mind is kind of hypocritical..if slaves truly are just that slaves..why is there a heirarchy rathern then an equality?