Phone Scene 1 (july 8)
Dearest Master,
*takes a deep breath slightly trembling*...After i
was left in that position on the bed..and although the
heated sweat was on my body..i did continue
on...hanging up the phone and with the left hand
reaching down to caress my clit adn tease it..was
still so wet that it almost dripped downwards unto
it..being pressed into the bed..and the vunerability
of my ass in the air..problem was fan was on..and was
drying me off..which made my clit dry..and flicking
and teasing it even more..created a friction that was
almost too exciting.
God even now i want to go back and do more...go
again...release even more..maybe i didnt do so as much
as i can or needed..but released a little each time..
Getting off the bed..i realized then my nipples were
hard as a rock although my knees were weak as
anything..was swaying a bit..but just needed water..my
throat was dry as anything..and scarfed down an entire
glass of water..all of it completely..but even holding
it i trembled..and even now writing this to you Master
i am trembling..is it fear, is it excitment..i dont
know what it is..i am just still trembling.
My thoughts upon what happened Master...that is the
first thought Master??..does that mean you are now my
Master?...in my heart, belly, oh god..everything just
says yes you are..but yet my mind is asking
you..fuck..it shouldnt even be asking you..why do i
want you to spell it out...Master..you are my
Master...
Am i your slave?..i dont know..the more pain i
pressed..when you had me pressing into my clit..i
pressed so hard..i even cut myself a bit..*sighs*..its
throbbing a bit in pain...but have to be careful with
my nails..o0(dont have acrylic..but nails are
naturally long and well cared for)..but i went a
little too hard and deep..but it just felt so
good..preessing deep against my clit feeling it
throb..as it press it into the bone..*shudders*
I am your slave Master...i just question if i have
always been..you always said i was a sub...i just
consider myself a person.never bothered with
lables...but if being a slave is what it meant
today..i dont want to stop..in fact..i didnt want to
stop..was almost very disappointed we did..maybe that
is why i am trembling..and still doing so...
I will admit Master.i dont feel shame..i am not
ashamed of what i did or what was done..questions i do
have..but more of the line..i just want to go
on..didnt want to stop..i just wondered if i truly did
please you..yes you said so..but i wonder if there was
anything that didnt please you if so..what should i
have done Master?
That is another stupid question..may i call you
Master?. does this mean i have the right to call you
Master..even though i resisted calling you that during
it..i just wanted to so badly..*shudders*..
OH GOD..how can i stop the trembling
weakness...*takes a deep breath* The tormenting thing
is now i want to talk to you..now i want to see you
more..there is so much i wish to do Master...
.o0(why of all times do i turn to God now..even when
on the phone i must have said oh god at least 50
times..i never say that)
I am disappointed with the slap Master..was my
fault..i hesitated,,i resisted..i have never been
asked, told, or desired to do something like that to
myself..and was almost like doing that one slap..put
all but nothing into it...could have been much
harder..yet a tiny red mark did appear...but that was
whimpy..but difficult to do so in that position.had to
adjust myself..even that position alone..being buried
into the bed..was even surprised that it was done
correctly as you said..thought i had it wrong.
*takes a deep breath*..there is so much i want to say
in this letter..and so much i could probably go
on..but going to end it here Master until next we
speak...i am going to try to figure out how to calm
down a bit..and hope you can forgive me for the fact
although still alone..i did get dressed when it was
done..because even though i am down stairs..family
still can walk through that door any min.
actually before i go..do have to mention one
thing...I do question can i ever do this real
life..would i be able to do exactly what i did
today..i wouldnt be able to look at you...even if you
pulled my hair and told me to "watch me girl"..my eyes
would still flutter until closed...just had to be that
way..the whole time was closed.
I wish you well Master..
Sincerely
Your
Melanie
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