.

blood

.

.

Brother

.

If only I could laugh like

my brother,

lushuous grins and twinkling

eyes, (where)

to him

it's all a joke, a vibrant

world of color,

.

he has no responsibilities,

he never will.

.

he needs to explanation as the

laughter bubbles out-

his mouth curled up in a smile

watching untouched pure skies

darted with clouds,

(maybe an airplane or two).

.

it's the sounds that make him cry,

.

only sounds move him to tears-

wailing tears,

tears that stop the stars and form a

blur of existence.

.

for me, it's everything else,

everything makes me cry.

nothing will ever make me laugh as

proudly as my brother.

.

.

autism

.

autism is not a curse

nor a bad dream,

but a crutch

from reality

with bitter pills

in your own happy bubble

sheltering you

from harm,

your own planet,

your own language,

where you can fall in love

when you want to-

without scars

or grudges

or nitemares that shock you

as you wake up,

seeing it is yet another day-

grey, maybe blue, maybe yellow,

sometimes white with snow.

.

autism does not take these things away,

reality does.

.

structured

silence