Life in the New Millenium
Just let me lie here
make me feel
crushed
and broken
And watch me
crash
crash down
to the floor
Life is lovely
for those with heart
for those with strength
for those with love
and determination
We stand here alone
on our mountain tops
looking out at the world
with longing for what
we cannot have
Well, that's life for you.
Waiting for Maturity
Cool is my fire
put on the backburner
while my insides
slowly turn to mush.
You turn my head like no other.
My heart is in your gentle hands.
I want you near me always
like the words in the song
and they are true, you know.
My world has left me
in my insanity
to love you unreservedly
in my passions.
It seems too cruel to leave me
here
watching as you walk away.
You are the light at the end of
my tunnel.
Once I thought
to never hear
your voice
calling to me again
and that you were gone
for good.
But I know that you will
come back to me
expecting me to be here
waiting for you still.
You will come crawling back
on hands and knees
looking for my love.
And maybe I'll be here.
And maybe I'll be gone away
far from here
living out me own
shattered fantasies.
And you won't be able
to win me back
For once scorned
I am not wasy to reclaim.
But for now I am here waiting patientlyl
for your maturity.
But not forever...
The Fire's Embrace
So what if what I see
isn't what's really there
Maybe it's all an illusion and dreams
But- winding from one day to another,
the world is alternately
cynical
magickal
bittersweet
A cinnamon twist
all spun together
to mesmerize
tantalize
to beckon.
And maybe it's all in you
Calling out to me
"Come, embrace the fire- you won't burn."
Disbelieving, I go
for you are like that illusion
only with a depth of
reason
feeling
that makes you almost real.
Fire can't burn a living flame,
so hot at the core as to consume
the world
bit by bit
passion
anger
hate
love
And you are Fire
and I am your Flame.
Who's the Voodoo Lady Now
So it's not love.
Maybe it's obsession.
A compulsory feeling on my part
for my eyes to follow you
down the halls
and through a crowd
to seek out yours
in a frozen moment
for my fingers to reach out
searching for yours
to touch your face
to brush your hair
they itch to feel your skin
for my lips softly murmuring
your name under my breath
like a litany, a prayer
a wish upon a falling star
a kiss is more than a thousand words.
So what is it, then?
a crush
an attraction
a young girl's dream
No- dreams don't last forever
and certainly don't happen to me.
But maybe I want you.
And maybe you want me.
I catch
your passing glances
full of what, I cannot say
amusement
longing
wonder
But I won't be her voodoo lady
And you won't be the Dark Angel
I sigh........
more's the pity
she isn't a sprite anyway,
and i couldn't be a voodoo lady if I tried.
(Thank goddess for small favors)
Independence
You spark my candle
with only your presence
and I am drawn
as a moth to the Fire.
My heart is fond of your companion soul
but it is grown weary of reprimands.
Fading slowly, I am still your Flame
and my spark is the last to go.
I hate to look in the mirror now,
and see the pain in my eyes.
But even more I hate to see
you in my eyes,
for it means you are filling
the blank spots in my life
and I can't let you do that
for you aren't really there.
I won't lean on your presence
I won't depend on your strength
I'll be my own person
and stand on my own two feet
I'll make my Flame exist on its own.
What if I'm something you can't fathom or ever be or ever have been? The mystery at the heart of all time, holding still and silent in the echoing darkness, waiting for you to span the miles and years, to come to me in that single moment when your cry shatters the stillness.
Happiness evades me like the plague, I think.
The semblance of feelings is all I possess in
this world. That and an awful realization
to shatter common sense. I don't belong.
All they do and say and think is so far
beyond me, I can't fathom how they work.
It would drive me crazy, to be like that, yet
sometimes I wish for it. For normal. For
comfort and security and love and happiness.
But I know it's already on its way to the next
great adventure and I am left behind to
pick up the pieces.
the wall rising between us
built by our own hands
made of love and hate and all that lies
between us
When and if fate descends
cool time passes by
slipping through my fingers
like sand in an hourglass
and the waiting is over
time is no factor
while the wind blows
on my face so gently
the sand under my feet
the sun on my arms
the smell of the water
on the evening breeze
carrying the beauty of the lazy summer day
onto another sad face and morosely painted soul
Wave-Seeker
Wind-Mistress
I call to you, you with your
empty promises
to dash our hopes
on the rocks below.
Bring forth your
torrents of
rain and madness,
howling winds
and cloudy skies.
Storm Queen
of our hearts
and open lusts.
Of all that
is passionate
and sensual.
Keeper of our
wild natures
and mad desires.
But in the end
you always win,
for so do our
true natures.
words like pale stones in my heart
weighing down the joy in my soul
and holding back the flood of words
I will not say
Love, which brings down the mighty
and raises high the low. Of what great
consequence is love that it is feared
and revered alike? The sotrm clouds
gather overhead but beneath the
canopy formed by our thoughts we
shelterand wait and watch the droplets
fall soft against our bare skin.
and so I love you.
what to make of it?
and so you love me.
finally admitting
what I have for
so long yearned
to hear spill
from your lips in
soft percussion
falling like
spring rain
onto my ears,
straining to catch
your quicksilver words
and melting embraces.
Thinking of You
You became my night and day
When you came into my life.
I saw your face in all my dreams
And dreamt of the ever after.
But my own lack of courage
And sense of fear and insecurity
Stayed the words to tell you
That I cared for you
And I thought of you
That I wanted to be with you.
So now it seems our dream is the same
And we're looking to the future.
And if something is holding you back now,
It's ok.
Patience is a small word
But it can only mean so much.
I can be patient if it kills me,
Coz babe, you're worth the wait.
Words Can't Express What I Have to Say
I guess
What I always wanted to say
Was simple and true
Perhaps inconvenient at the time
But so true.
And now, I've told you
But maybe not in as many words
Maybe not in words at all;
They confuse things;
No- I told you in feelings
And looks and touches,
What my words never could.
Your sentiments in return-
Not in prose or poetry,
Or song or dance,
But in simple phrase.
Words can stimulate the mind
But emotions stir the soul
And steal the heart.
So give me emotions please
As I return the favor over again,
But don't leave me empty here,
With only words.
To Make You Mine
Grace and power
In sleek supple lines
Invites my touch
With smooth hands,
Holding strength in like reins,
Nestled in mine
Like a small child.
Staring at a spot
Just above your eyes
And underneath your forehead,
I try to see into you
And to see all of you
And maybe
Just maybe
To make you mine.
To Be With You
You stop my heart with a single glance
And all I want is to be with you.
To rest my head against your chest
And feel your heart beat with mine.
To feel your warmth along my side
And your sweet kisses on my face.
To hold you tightly in my arms
And cradle your head on my shoulder.
Placing pen to paper, letting free my ink
Over page after page of simple verse,
I still won't speak the words
Spilling forth from my gentle heart
For fear of scaring you off.
But soon a day will come
When they shall fall in rhythm
On your patient, listening ears
Releasing my pent-up emotions,
Passion and longing and hope,
For you to do with them what you will.
Take My Breath Away
Your charm,
Your grace,
Your stunning smile,
Capture me in your thrall.
Your magnetism attracts
And I find myself
Wanting to simply
Be near you.
In the darkness of silence
Under the dim blue lights
As the world passes by,
I catch your eye
From across the space
And you smile,
Taking my breath away.
"In Love," They Say
"In Love," they say
what a small, convenient phrase
but I'm not there yet
and maybe I'll never reach it,
even though I'm all yours
for the taking
I'm yours, in love, on standby.
Please Catch Me
You make things harder than the ought to be
You frustrate and anger,
You please and protect,
But it's all so far away from where we are
We are stuck in "limbo,"
As my daughter would like to say
Hiding and Running away from the world,
You can only try for so long
Before you either win or lose.
There is no middle ground in love,
Or if there is, we just left it.
So it is only a matter of time,
Because it doesn't matter what I say.
The mind's patience
Warring with the heart's passion
Is explosive
Untamed
And irrevocable.
So please catch me before I fall to those depths,
For I don't fancy breaking this soon.
Falling
I can finally put pen to paper
And let out what I know:
I finally put it into words, dear.
In the simplest of forms,
The truest of verses: I care.
Not to the depths of a friend
Nor to the depths of a lover,
But somewhere in between, for now.
You pulled me out of that "middle ground,"
To speak metaphorically,
And gave me all you could at the time.
But caring is never enough to last.
To take the next step is to love.
A chance and a leap of faith,
A test of trust and emotion
I don't want to scare you off with words,
But I'm near the edge, babe,
And it's up to you, now,
Whether I jump or not.
Perhaps it's harder to jump
Or maybe I'm already falling;
Life is inconstant and never sure,
So take a deep breath
And just jump.
But will I be with you when you fall?
Expression
You say you crave
My lips,
My kiss,
My touch;
And that you wish to be with me.
So I have to say,
Expression is words is not my forte.
In a thousand words
And a hundred sweet poems
All I can do is try.
All of You
I want your touch
Your hands on my body
And your lips on mine
I want you close
To cradle in my arms
And protect from all things
I want all of you
But can I ever reach it?
I hear rumors in the halls
Like the whispering of the lonely wind.
They spark hope and determination
In a young mind.
Love is the fire you kindle
Red hot and waiting for consumption.
So What
So what if?
What if you kissed me-
What if you held me in your arms-
What if you tried to say, "You're mine"-
What would they do?
Well, life treats us indifferently
So there are those who's be upset
And those who would look
Down pointed noses
Walking down the hall
And if you care, tell me now
And we'll stare them in the face
But, my darling, I have to say:
I'd welcome you with open arms
To return your kisses
And hold you close
To call you mine
And ignore the world
I want you in every way I can
So let the world go to hell
For all I could care
And we will be together.
Day One- The Windy City
I miss you with passion
And sadness
And madness
When you've been gone a day
-a day that stretched forever-
But to go without your face
your touch
and your words
Is a new feeling for this girl,
For the world seems emptier
And so much smaller
without you
with me
I imagine you here as normal
But you evade my lingering mind.
There is no sense to my days
No pattern
No light
I miss your somple presence, darling,
Cast away to the Windy City.
So please come back soon, my dear.
Day Two- I Miss You, Sweetheart
I'd adore for you
To call me yours
And love me
With wild abandon,
But simply to hear
My name fall
From your lips
(in grace, they fall
you know)
would light my day
like a candle's flame
in the darkness
of forever's time.
I miss you, sweetheart
With all my being
And wish that
You were here
To appease my senses
With your joy
And light the way
To your open arms.
Wonderful
You drive me crazy
with your temptation,
You tease my senses
with your presence,
and you bring me joy
with your smiles.
Yes,
you drive me slightly mad, my dear
but in the best of ways.
Yearning so long
for what I could never have
and waiting patiently
for a chance at more
I rest, unbelieving, in your arms
not quite hearing your words
my mind simply spinning.
You still hold for me
an unreal quality
that I can't comprehend.
I adore you, darling,
in every way I can
and wish for nothing more
than to be with you,
to hold you close,
to cover you with kisses.
So, I just wanted you to know.....
You're wonderful
Warring Against Myself
A part of me is still lost and floundering
Amongst all these new feelings and emotions
A part that refuses to let go completely
That still holds a hand on my heart in warning
It tells me that no,
I shouldn't, I can't, it won't let me
While warring with the rest of me
Which is saying that this is my chance
What I've been waiting for
For so long patient and silent
Is here, and mine, that I should let go
Let go and love freely with all my heart
Let myself fall into you headfirst
But the restraint that I force myself to
Is uncertainty of the future.
I don't want to jump
Only to meet the cold, hard cement
I am afraid of hurting
And maybe I am afraid of us
After so long of it just being me
With your half a long-distant dream
Cherished and held close in the night, yes
But long-distant in that you stood so far away.
Still, I will take that deep breath
And peer over that edge
If only to see what awaits me
On the other side.
The Dock
Staring up in the darkness
Bright pinpoints of light
Shine down from the sky
Yet I could swear
They're close enough
To touch.
The cold air bites my skin
As the wind brushes my face
And peering over the edge
I can almost see myself,
Reflected in the dark waters
Among the stars.
A spray of shadowed light
Plays across the sky
Dancing across the northern horizon
And catching passing eyes
With its movement in the dark
And frozen beauty.
Sweet Words
Sweet words spill
From your foreign lip,
Falling like gentle rain
Upon my upturned ear.
And I simply melt into you.
Niche
Whatever comes our way on this road
And whatever conspires between us
You were my first love
And that small knowledge
Burns you a niche in my heart
To stay with me forever
No matter what happens
Or who comes and goes
A part of me will always love you