Everything How can I help myself falling time and time again when you make me so happy     deliciously         deleriously             happy You are nothing special; and yet you are- you are everything. Your smile is not the brightest; and yet everything lights up when I see you. I live from moment to impossible moment hoping to see you, to see you smile, to hear your voice. Your eyes make me dizzy can I hold onto you? I'll hold you up too How could I not when you're my everything I don't want to leave you now- an hour is eternity to the ever-impatient heart.

Tempest Swirling under my skin beneath my eyes and you you're not there why?  are you afraid of my love all-consuming turbulent force careening 'round the corner headed for your light and finding upon barely reaching the flame blown out you nowhere in sight

We fit you fit with me we are together even when we are apart you make me want to do something crazy like conquer the world or lie down in a nice spot and feel the breeze blow over me while you tell me how much you love me

Stuck on You I'm stuck on you and I don't know how to express it other than I'm stuck on you When I feel this ache to hold you be near you hear your voice I know I've fallen in deeper than I expected So stuck on you It hurts so much not to be with you knowing I could wondering if you would I get so tired sometimes and all I want is to see you and rest my head on your shoulder, and as we sigh. . . it couldn't get any better than that Why am I the one to chase the one to face the longing I hate that I need you am I incomplete? Am I missing the adventure, the hysteria, the dizzy mindlessness that is loving you? Absolutely and completely I am stuck on you When I'm cold and you're not there to hold my hand When I'm laughing and you're not there to get the joke When my thoughts hit the brick wall of realizing I'm stuck on you and you're nowhere near.

Haven't you ever felt like all you ever knew was wrong? Like the dark clouds that rolled in off the water           you thought they would be gone were reality all along This sun and blue were tricks to get me to feel secure You were there once standing in the rays All of a sudden I caught on to my own deception-- it's coming together now I couldn't help it couldn't stop it couldn't see it I've sold out to the crowd to the masses I'm really no different-- I am different to be the same as the other different kids. I get no flag to wave, no home-coming cheer amid the awful silence the pain turned to numbness. I woke up changed as i drive through the days I feel I've been moved and pulled away       but I'm missing       missing a part of something       something inside maybe it's you?  Maybe I woke up and saw that part of myself is missing and you were blamed for it. How could you know? How could you not? I feel the scream rising, clawing, pounding, pouring out The scream is the pain is the awakening is the barrenness is me, alone, here, overlooking the water and the clouds.

I woke up changed somehow; lighter, as if the weight of our love had evaporated in the face of the moon It is not my intention to leave you behind completely it is up to you to catch up to me I shall go on now, with head held high but with heart wide open listening out for you. Take your time as you've already insisted on doing, but remember:  I am not the same.

I have been freed from something I never wanted freedom from I have been saddened by something I thought would always make me happy. Somehow  I never noticed the thorns before but one prick was enough to remind me that some things are too good to be true I'm sorry, but I'm tired of being hurt I'm tired of your games your fear half-hearted intentions Spare me your words, they will find no welcome in my heart. Please know I didn't want to let go- I held on till the very last but finally it all slipped just beyond my tiring grasp I'll watch you with a lonely, wasted heart for a while until that lonely, wasted love disperses Don't think I didn't try- just know that I was the only one.

There's this soft place that wasn't there before you left it's bruised and tattered and rough around the edges tender to the touch Each step brings more pain each breath is a reminder that somehow I'm still alive somehow my head is above water. I don't know when the bitter taste will leave my mouth or when the gaping scars that your words left will heal Round and round in my head-- there is nothing now that does not remind me of my pain and my love for you! And. . . the love you might have had, too. Where is the future?  I can no longer see it without you next to me. You won, you won-- you got away! There is no flame, no torch that could burn you the way your simply sighed sentence could torture me. Tell me what to do! Suddenly I am without you-- although I had refused to see that you backed out-- like a coward-- long before words ever came. To feel anything but this. . .this indescribable, vague, glowing pain all over-- I would gladly put my hand in the fire. I had to let you go I had no choice But you did You had the choice to cut me off, to do it kindly, to grant a little charity. You had the choice to take the initiative for once. But you chose to fade away You chose to keep me in the dark And with five stinging words It is over.

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