Surfacing
Building a Mystery
You come out at night
that's when the energy comes
And the dark side's light
and the vampires roam
you strut your rasta wear
and your suicide poem
and a cross from a faith that died
before Jesus came
you're building a mystery
You live in a church
where you sleep with voodoo dolls
and you won't give up the search
for the ghosts in the halls
you wear sandals in the now
and a smile won't wash away
can youlook out the window
without your shadow getting in the way
oh you're so beuatiful
with an edge and charm
but so careful
when I"m in your arms
Cause you're working
builindg a mystery
holding on and holding it in
yeah you're working
building a mystery
and choosing so carefully
You woke up screaming aloud
a prayer from your secret god
and you feed off our fears
and hold back your tears
Give us a tantrum
and a know it all grin
just when we need one
when the evening's thin
Oh you're beautiful
beautiful fucked up man
you're setting up your
razor wire shrine
Cause you're working
building a mystery
holding on and holding it in
yeah you're working
building a mystery
and choosing so carefully
I Love You
I have a smile
Stretched from ear to ear
to see you walking down the road
We meet at the lights
I stare for a while
the world around us disappears
Just you me
on this island of hope
A breath between us could be miles
Let me surround you
My sea to your shore
Let me be the calm you seek
Oh and every time I'm close to you
there's too much I can't say
and you just walk away
And I forgot
to tell you I love you
and the night's too long
and cold here
without you
I grieve in my condition
for I cannot find the words to say
I need you so
Oh and every time I'm close to you
there's too much I can't say
and you just walk away
And i forgot
to tell you I love you
and the night's too long
and cold here
without you
Sweet Surrender
It doesn't mean much
It dosen't mean anything at all
the life I've left behind me
is a cold one (?)
I've crossed the last line
from where I can't return
where every step I took in faith
betrayed me
and led me from my home
And sweet
sweet surrender
is all that I have to give
You take me in
no questions asked
you strip away the ugliness that surrounds me
are you an angel?
am I already that gone?
I only hope that I won't disappoint you
when I"m down here
on my knees
And sweet
sweet surredner
Is all that I have to give
Sweet
sweet
sweet surrender
is all that I have to give
And I don't understand
by the touch of your hand
I would be the one to fall
I miss the little thigns
I miss everything about you
It doesn't mean much
it dosen't mean anything at all
the life I left behind me
is a cold one
and sweet
sweet
sweet surrender
is all that i have to give
Adia
Adia I do believe I failed you
Adia I know I let you down
don't you know I tried so hard to love you in my way
It's easy let it go
Adia I'm empty since you left me
trying to find a way to carry on
I search myself and everyone
to see where we went wrong
There's no one left to finger
there's no one here to blame
there's no one left to talk to honey
and there ain't no one to buy our innocence
cause we are born innocent
believe me Adia, we are still innocent
it's easy we all falter
does it matter?
Adia I thought that we could make it
but I know I can't change the way you feel
I leave you with your misery
a friend who won't betray
I pull you from your tower
and take away your pain
I show you all the beauty you possess
if you'd only let yourself believe
that we are born innocent
believe me Adia
we are still innocent
it's easy we all all falter
but does it matter?
believe me Adia we are still innocent
cause we are born innocent
believe me Adia we are still innocent
it's easy we all falter, but does it matter?
Do What You Have to Do
What ravages of spirit
conjured this temptuous rage
created you a monster
broken by the rules of love
and fate has led you through it
you do what you have to do
And I have the sense to recognize that
I don't know how to let you go
every moment marked with apparitions of your soul
I'm ever swiftly moving
trying to escape this desire
the yearning to be near you
I do what I have to do
the yearning to be near you
I do what I have to do
but I have the sense to recognize
That I don't know how to let you go
I don't know how to let you go
A glowing ember
burning hot
and burning slow
deep within I'm shaken by the violence of existing
for only you
I know I can't be with you
I do what I have to do
I know I can't be with you
I do what I have to do
and I have the sense to recognize that
I don't know how to let you go
Witness
Make me a witness
take me out
out of darkness
out of doubt
I won't weigh you down
with good intention
won't make fire out of clay
or other inventions
Will we burn in heaven
like we do down here
Will the change come
while we're waiting
Everyone is waiting
And when we're done
soul searching
as we carried the weight
and died for a cause
is misery made beautiful
right before our eyes
will mercy be revealed
or blind us where we stand
Will we burn in heaven
like we do down here
Will the change come while we're waiting
everyone is waiting
Angel
Spend all your time waiting
for that second chance
for a break that would make it okay
there's always one reason
to feel not good enough
and it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
oh beautiful release
memory seeps from my veins
let me be empty
oh and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight
In the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort there
So tired of the straight line
and everywhere you turn
there's vultures and thieves at your back
the storm keeps on twisting
you keep on building the lie
that you make up for all that you lack
it don't make no difference
escaping one last time
it's easier to believe
in this sweet madness
oh this glorious sadness
that brings me to my knees
In the arms of the angel fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you feel
you are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here
Black and White
Unravel me
a distant cord
on the outside is forgotten
a constant need
To get along
and the animal awakens
and all I feel is black and white
The road is long
the memory slides
to the whole of my undoing
put aside I put away
I push it back to get through each day
and all I feel is black and white
and I"m wound up small and tight
and I don't know who I am
Everybody loves you when you're easy
everybody hates when you're a fool
everyone is waiting for your entrance
so don't disappoint them
Unravel me
untie this chord
the very center of our union
is caving in
i can't endure
I am the archive of our failure
and all I feel is black and white
and I'm wound up small and tight
and I don't know who I am
Everybody loves you when you're easy
Everybody hates when you're a fool
everyone is waiting for your entrance
so don't disappoint them
Everybody loves you when you're easy
so don't disappoint them
Don't disappoint them
Full of Grace
The winter here's cold
and bitter
it's chilled us to the bone
we haven't seen the sun for weeks
too long too far from home
I feel just like I'm sinking
and I claw for solid ground
I'm puilled down by the undertow
I never thought I could feel so low
and oh darkness I feel like letting go
If all of the strength and all of the courage
come and lift me from this place
I know I could love you much better than this
full of grace full of grace my love
So it's better this way
I said
having seen this place before
where everything we said and did
hurts us all the more
it's just that we've stayed too long
in the same old sickly skin
I'm pulled down by the undertow
I never thought I could feel so low
and oh darkenss I feel like letting go
If all of the strength and all of the courage
come and lift me form this place
I know i could love you much better than this
full of grace full of grace my love
I know I could love you much better than this
it's better this way...
Fumbling Towards Ecstasy
Possession
Listen as the wind blows from across the great divide
Voice trapped in yearning
memories trapped in time
the night is my companion and solitude my guide
would I spend forever here and not be satisfied
and I would be the one to hold you down
kiss you so hard
I'll take your breath away
and after I'd wipe away your tears just close your eyes dear
Through this world I've stumbled
so many times betrayed
trying to find an honest words to find the truth enslaved
oh you speak to me in riddles and you speak to me in rhyme
my body aches to breathe your breath
your words keep me alive
and I woudl be the one to hold you down
kiss you so hard
I'll take your breath away
and after I'd wipe away the tears
just close your eyes dear
into this night I wander
it's morning that I dread
another day ofknowing of the path I fear to tread
oh into the sea of waking dreams
I follow without pride
nothing stands between us here and I won't be denied
and I would be the one to hold you down
kiss you so hard
I'll take your breath away
And after I'd wipe away the tears
just close your eyes...
Wait
Under a blackened sky
far beyond the glaring streetlights
sleeping on empty dreams
the vultures lie in wait
you lay down beside me then
you were with me every waking hour
so close I could feel your breath
When all we wanted was the dream
to have and to hold that precious little thing
like every generation yields the newborn hope unjaded by their years
pressed up against the glass
I found myself wanting sympathy
but to be consumed again
oh I know would be the death of me
and there is love that's inherently given
a kind of blindness offered to deceive
and in that light of forbidden joy
oh I know I won't receive it
when all we wanted was the dream
to have and to hold thatprecious little thing
like every generation yields
the newborn hope unjaded by their years
You know if I leave you now
it doesn't mean that I love you any less
it's just this state I'm in
I can't be good to anyone else like this
When all we wanted was the dream
to have and to hold that precious little thing
like every generation yields
a newborn hope unjaded by their years
Plenty
I looked into your eyes
they told me plenty I already knew
you never felt a thing so soon forgotten
all that you do
in more than words I tried to tell you
the more I tried I failed
I would not let myself believe that you might stray
and I would stand by you no matter what they'd say
I thought I'd be with you until my dying day
I used to think my life was often empty
a lonely space to fill
you hurt me more than I ever would have imagined
you made my world stand still
and in that stillness there was a freedom
I never felt before
I would not let myself believe that you might stray
and I would stand by you no matter what they'd say
i thought I'd be with you until my dying day
Good Enough
Hey your glass is empty
It's a hell of a long way home
why don't you let me take you
it's no good to go alone
I never would have opened up
but you seemed so real to me
after all the bullshit I've heard it's refreshing not to see
I don't have to pretend she doesn't expect it of me
so don't tell me I haven't been good to you
don't tell me I haven't been there for you
just tell me why nothing is good enough
hey little girl would you like some candy
your momma said it's ok
the door is open come on outside
no I can't come out today
it's not the wind that cracked your shoulder
and threw you to the ground
who's there that makes you so afraid
you're shaken to the bone
You know I don't understand
you deserve so much more than this
So don't tell me why he's never been good to you
don't tell me why he's never been there for you
and I'll tell you that why is simply not good enough
oh so just let me try and i will be there for you
I'll show you why you're so much more than good enough
Mary
Mary walks down to the water's edge
and there she hangs her head to find herself faded
a shadow of what she once was
she says "how long have I been sleeping
and why do i feel so old
why do i feel so cold
my heart is saying one thing
But my body won't let go"
With trembling hands she reaches up
a stranger's flesh is offered
and I would be the last to know
I would be the last to let it show
and I would be the last to go
Take her hand she will lead you through the fire
give you back hope
and hope that you don't take too much
respecting what is left
she cradled us
she held us in her arms
unselfish in her suffering she could not understand
that no one seemed to have the time to cherish what is offered
and I would be the last to know
and I would be the last to let it show
and I would be the last to go...Mary walks...
Elsewhere
I love the time and inbetween
the calm inside me
in the space where I can breathe
I believe there is a distance I have wandered to touch upon the years of
reaching out and reaching in
holding out holding in
I believe this is heaven to no one else but me
and I'll defend it as long as I can be
left here to linger in silence if I choose to would you try to understand
I know this love is passing time
passing though like liquid
I am- I'm drunk in my desire
but I love the way you smile at me
I love the way your hands reach out and hold me near
I believe
I believe this is heaven to no one else but me
and I'll defend it as long as I can be
left here to linger in silence if I choose to would you try to understand
oh the quiet child awaits the day when she can break free
the mold the clings like desperation
Mother can't you see I've got to live my life the way I feel is right for me
Might not be right for you but it's right for me
I believe
I believe this is heaven to no one else but me and I'll defend it as long as
I can be left here to linger in silence if I choose to would you try to understand it
I would like to linger here in silence if I choose to
would you understand