11-22-00 Hey everybody.  You didn't think I'd forgotten you, did you?  How do you like this orange background?  I think it's ugly, but hey it's Thanksgiving, so deal.  I've been busy with doing nothing and I also started a new webpage on Blogger.  It's really, really baaaad actually, but Michael said he'd help me with it. Arrgh, god am I tired.  One would think i'd go to bed....and i will eventually. tomorrow is thanksgiving.  and it's a no-homework weekend and yet somehow i still have a ton to do.  The teachers basically say, "Well, you don't technically have any homework but if you know what's good for you, you'll...."  Yeah.  Just like that too.  It's not really entertaining keeping these rants up anymore.  This is really the only part of the webpage that changes and yet everything i would rant about that's going on in my head is really private so I can't write it here.  It's one of those things where i have SO much to say but have neither the desire nor the will to say it?  Pretty much that, yeah.  So therefore, all my rants kind of lack something and that something is the major something that's in my brain right now. I went Xmas shopping and was completely unsuccessful.  I also saw Bounce, which was a good movie if only guys were really like that in real life, what with emotions and feelings and consciences...(are you starting to get the idea what's been happening?) God, I try to forget, you know??  blaaaaah.  I've already written too much here.  I"ll stop.  The whole Bounce plot just reminded me how much guys can totally suck sometimes. As much as it appears otherwise, sometimes I DO NOT WANT TO TALK ABOUT MY FEELINGS.  I WILL COME TO YOU , OK?  SO BACK OFF!  Sorry that was directed at only one person who doesn't come to my website anyway. So I listen to James Taylor and I listen and I listen and I think about how much I'd like to be out in the air somewhere under the blue fall sky not here in this box with your face plastered on every wall sweet baby james will carry me away because carolina's in my mind I want my cheeks to burn with the cold to come alive amid the unforgiving wind be a speck on a hill on the road away from here anywhere but here please please anywhere but here strange, that just came out.  i better go.