


Q: How far have you come since you had your
first panic attack?
A: After years of having physical symptoms of
anxiety, I still have panic
attacks at night if I have a difficult day or
problem or rejection.
Q:
How do you explain how you are feeling to
your child (children)
A: I have always been open with my children as
they grew. Now they are
almost all grown and one daughter also suffers
from panic symptoms.
Q:Which symptom do you fear most...and why?
A:Racing heart, pauses in my heart beat, I worry
about getting high blood
pressure.
Q:
When you are depressed, what helps you climb
out of that "black hole"?
A: My friends, talking with them, getting out and
doing fun things,
watching a funny movie, hobbies, gardening,
reading, exercising, taking
good care of me.
Q:
Do you think that panic disorder/anxiety is
hereditory? If so, why?
A:
Some people because of their basic makeup, I'm
very sensitive, on the
quiet side, shy, may be more prone to have severe
panic but the thing
that brings it out is our lifestyle, our
upbringing, our speeded up world
that is making everybody sick!
Q:
How have you been treated by the medical
profession?
A:
Get away from taking drugs which are not
solving the problems, trying
meditation, exercise, yoga, visualization,
spending time with family and
friends if they are terrific positive people,
getting out in nature and
away from machines, finding love, hobbies bring a
lot of pleasure and
distraction, going to the health food store and
getting products that are
natural and relaxing like valerian, chamomile,
kava kava, and so on,
keeping away from drugs like caffeine, alcohol,
tobacco, all poisons and
eating a semi-vegetarian diet low in fat and
sugar.
Getting into cognitive therapy if needed
Q:
Do you think sufferers of panic/anxiety are
selfish?
A: NO
Q:
What would you like to say to your support
person(s)
A: Most people you will meet are willing to be
supportive and
understanding. After all, they may be in a crisis
someday too and find
they are having physical symptoms of stress
overload. It can happen to
anyone.
Q:
What would you consider the best advice given
you..and if so, by whom?
A:
There is lots of ideas, advice out there today
and we have to find
what works best for us.
Q:
If you didn't have panic disorder, what
would be your life-style today?
A:
My life would have been so different. I grew
up with two parents who
drank and there was plenty of war around me till
the age of 8, that
affected my personality so much. I was afraid,
insecure, unable to
express most emotions, I had symptoms of
stressoverload even then. I'd
wake up and couldn't breathe. I couldn't develop
my true personality,
it's a shame because I had a lot of creativity,
talent, that was wasted.
Well, not entirely, I brought up four wonderful
kids and they all got a
good education. Now I'm facing the empty nest,
trying to leave a man who
never committed to me in over 18 years, looking
for a soul-mate because I
don't feel good living alone, wanting to start a
home business and not
knowing if I can do these things because I have
very little support, no
money, no car, and no extended family. I brought
up my kids on welfare,
and we lived poor but it didn't show! My children
always had the best mom
and teacher they needed and now I tell them they
have to carry the ball
and that I'm living in the meantime, getting
myself together so I can
find some happiness for me! It's not easy when
you are over 50 and going
through the menopause.
I was happy to hear Oprah say that being a good
parent is the toughest
job in the world. Especially in this sex,
violent, materialistic society
we live in today.
I hope it changes, it's still tough to pay the
basic bills....

Q:
How far have you come since you had your
first panic attack?
A:My first panic attack was a year and a half
ago. I didn't know what was
happening to me. I started to stay away from
places that I thought triggered
my attacks. (But the truth is, I trigger them and
I cant stay away from me.)
So far, things have been very tough for me. I'm
trying my hardest to get back
into life's normal routines. I've been staying
in my house now for almost 6
months. Just last week I drove 9 miles from home
all by myself. And that is
a start. Each day, I have to push myself to get
out of bed. And it is a
blessing when I can do it with out fear of what
the day will bring. I thank
the Lord for his strength when I can get into my
car and drive 1 mile to get
the mail from the post office.
Q:
How do you explain how you are feeling to
your child (children)
A:~N/A
Q:
Which symptom do you fear most...and why?
A:The symptom that I fear the most is Nausea.
Ever since I was a little girl,
throwing up was just as bad as being tortured, in
my mind. So not only have I
carried that childhood fear, I now have the fear
of losing control of how I
feel. Throwing up is an involuntary action
(short of putting your finger down
your throat), and I dont like to NOT be in
control. Although, I did JUST
RECENTLY read a book about people who suffer
panic attacks. The author stated
that she had NEVER seen, or heard of anyone
throwing up while experiencing the
attack. As of yet, I haven't been able to prove
her wrong. :o)
Q:
When you are depressed, what helps you climb
out of that "black hole"?
A:I like to write poetry, play the piano, and
compose music. Keeping a
journal has helped out a lot. These are all ways
for me to express how I am
feeling and move on.
Q:
Do you think that panic disorder/anxiety is
hereditory? If so, why?
A: I do believe that this disorder is hereditary.
My father's aunt went
through the same thing, and didn't leave her
house for 23 years. This was all
before the public took much notice of
Agoraphobia, so it was hard for her to
get help sooner. I would like to add that now,
though in her 80's, she is in
EXCELLENT condition, and loves to be out. She
NEVER thought that she would be
normal again. Exercising and eating healthier
helped her to improve..
Q:
How have you been treated by the medical
profession?
A: I have seen doctors, and have had MANY MANY
tests and x-rays. I was given
medications. Some of which I had allergic
reactions to. And others, I just
didnt feel like giving a chance because of the
possible side-effects.
Q:
Do you think sufferers of panic/anxiety are
selfish?
A: I believe that SOME are. Not all. I say that
because I often think of
myself as being selfish. But then I also have to
see that I'm trying to get
better. In some ways, I am much stronger than
before. So I guess a little
selfishness could work for me. :o)
Q: What would you like to say to your support
person(s)?
A: Just thank them (my parents) for supporting me
these extra years. And that
I'm sorry for not being able to show them how
much I appreciate it right now.
I never expected to be like this, but I love them
and respect them for their
love and prayers.
Q:
What would you consider the best advice given
you..and if so, by whom?
A: The best advice that I have recieved, has been
to KEEP GOING. If I can make
it 2 miles from home, why shouldn't I try for 3.
And so on. Many people have
expressed this, so there are too many to mention.
Q:
If you didn't have panic disorder, what
would be your life-style today?
A: I don't like to think about it too much, but I
graduated in 1997 from high
school. I would probably have a job, and be on
the road to fame and fortune.
:o) Honestly, I do believe that EVERYTHING
happens for a reason. Maybe this
is in God's plan for me to help others in the
future. If I dwell on what I
HOPED would have been the life for me, I'll never
appreciate what the Lord has
in store for my future.

Q:
How far have you come since you had your
first panic attack?
A: It is hard to say as I have been having them
since I was a child and I
have had periods of remission, there seems to
be a trigger of
stressful events that make them return and the
process starts all over
again
Q:
How do you explain how you are feeling to
your child (children)
A: When the children were younger I didn't tell
them anything, I just
coped as best I could all that they knew was
that I had bad nerves.
Q:
Which symptom do you fear most...and why?
A:The symptoms I fear the most are the confusion
when you are panic and
the fear that you will embarrass yourself some
how.
Q:
When you are depressed, what helps you climb
out of that "black hole"?
A: I try to keep myself busy,and to think positve
thoughts. I have found
exercise a great stess reliever.
Q:
Do you think that panic disorder/anxiety is
hereditory? If so, why?
A: I do believe that panic/anxiety is hereditory,
a lot of my family
members suffer it in one form or another
starting with my Mother .
Q:
How have you been treated by the medical
profession?
A: The medical profession has been telling me for
years that it is just
my nerves,finally about 5 years ago I said" OK
if it is my nerves do
something about it" not much help at all, I
tried a psycologist but it
was too expensive.
Q:
Do you think sufferers of panic/anxiety are
selfish?
A: I don't believe selfish is the right word, we
can not help how we feel
and it is a lot to ask for understanding but
that is no more selfish
than a person with a medical problem.
Q:
What would you like to say to your support
person(s)?
A: I would like to say thank you for your
understanding and support for
31 years, for believing in me and celebrating
the smallest conquest
with me.
Q:
What would you consider the best advice given
you..and if so, by whom?
A: Just be yourself and don't worry what anyone
else thinks of you,let
them take you as you are...
Q:
If you didn't have panic disorder, what
would be your life-style today?
A: I hope my lifestyle would be more normal, a
job, driving my car, not
worrying about every little thing and all of
the "what if's in life.
Just going out with out thinking about it.
Other comments... Take one day at a time, look for the best not
the worst and be
thankful for everyday that you have and most of
all Laugh, that is
your best medicine...

Q:
How far have you come since you had your
first panic attack?
A: Very far!!!! :O)
Q:
How do you explain how you are feeling to
your child (children)
A:Luckily I don't have
children...that would be such a
hard one!!!
Q:
Which symptom do you fear most...and why?
A: I
fear that i am going to pass
out, I'm petrifyed of passing out in public!
Q:
When you are depressed, what helps you climb
out of that "black hole"?
A: Sleep, initially then
getting on with 'stuff'
I've been putting off.
Q:
Do you think that panic disorder/anxiety is
hereditory? If so, why?
A:I believe it is. My
Gran is claustrophobic and my
Mum finds that sometimes she just has to 'leave'
where ever she is. This
doesn't happen often but I believe it's got
something to do with it all.
Q:
How have you been treated by the medical
profession?
A: HAH!! What a joke!!! They mostly
seem to treat you as if you
are weak and just not 'coping' with your life.
LONG LIVE NATUROPATHS!!
Q:
Do you think sufferers of panic/anxiety are
selfish?
A: I can only speak for myself.....I go
out of my way not to be, it
would be to easy to just give in to myself all
the time.
Q:
What would you like to say to your support
person(s)?
A: I love them all very much and
although I hope I never have to, I
hope I could do the same for them.
Q:
What would you consider the best advice given
you..and if so, by whom?
A: My naturopath, he
said.....'accept that you will have
good days and enjoy them, accept that you will
have bad days....then let
them go!'
Q:
If you didn't have panic disorder, what
would be your life-style today?
A: A lot less
stressfull!! LOL As I am
improving all the time it is hard to say, because
of PD I have forced myself
into making some huge decisions that perhaps I
wouldn't have made.
Other comments... There are always days when I
wish that I could just go
to sleep and not wake up. Luckily for me those
days are becoming fewer and
fewer. I was so lucky that from the start I
WOULD NOT GIVE IN. I took out
a loan and bought a new car, just so that I HAD
to go to work....I've forced
myself to so many things and it's been so hard
but the good thing is that I
feel PROUD of myself, I really do. I don't think
this will ever go away,
not completely but the thing is....don't the bad
days make the good days
extra good??? Good luck to every one....WE CAN
DO IT!!!!

Q:
How far have you come since you had your
first panic attack?
A: About 20 years too far down the road of
anxiety....I am in setback last 3
years so this is a difficult one...I know of
course more about anxiety from
tons of therapy and research yet it is
frustrating since there are NO
definites...cures.....just a bunch of
theories....and we sufferers have to
deal with added anquish of asking why??????
Q:
How do you explain how you are feeling to
your child (children)
A: My daughters are 19 and 20 and have tinges of
anxiety/panic which is hurt
right there..When they were little I guess I
tried to hide alot my TERROR..so
they wouldn't pick it up...can't remember how
anxiety became explained...its
been soooo long.
Q:
Which symptom do you fear most...and why?
A:
PANIC is the worst...thats the fear of fear for
you...to feel like one is
going to DIE..That horrible worse feeling in the
world....TERROR....and not
being able to get it back under control and you
feel you are going to die
Q:
When you are depressed, what helps you climb
out of that "black hole"?
A:
Everyday its a struggle with depression having
this anxiety monster loom....I
pray alot and count my blessings for what I do
have and self talk/mother
myself I suppose...try to see the best in
things...and DIVERSION...coping
skills...that keeping on task....getting deeply
involved in a project or in a
biz.
Q:
Do you think that panic disorder/anxiety is
hereditory? If so, why?
A:
Think it is a strong possibility that it is...or
can be....Feel it is a piece
of pie/puzzle...My mother had it...half sister
and her daughter...and my
mothers sister's
daughter.....sooooooo....fortunately they of
course never had
it to this intensity as I have.
Q:
How have you been treated by the medical
profession?
A:What a joke! I feel bitterness towards the
physicians who are supposed to be
doctors to help ill people yet have no
sensitivity nor want to....thats my
experience.
Q:
Do you think sufferers of panic/anxiety are
selfish?
A:
ABSOLUTELY NOT....I think that thats something
the other guy that has never
had anxiety thinks...Anxiety/panic is very
humbling..
Q:
What would you like to say to your support
person(s)?
A:
Just let me know that you are there for
me....with me thru this....that you
care! The best words are" I am here...and we are
going to get thru this"....
Q:
What would you consider the best advice given
you..and if so, by whom?
A: So much in the last 20 years that has been said
by the professional....I
believe being given coping skills and learning
what helps reduce anixety and
gives one strength....and that for me is baby
steps with a SUPPORT system....a
safety nest...to be able to build on...
Q:
If you didn't have panic disorder, what
would be your life-style today?
A:
This is the hardest...remember my former
therapist asking.....if you didn't
have anxiety...what would you want to
do..........and I broke down in
tears....." I can;t allow myself to even think
what it would be to not have
anxiety...it hurts tooo much seeing my severe
limitations....but yet I have
asked myself...in fact the other day....yet it
was VERY hard....I couldn't
visualize...it would panic me at the thought...to
be able to take the car and
take off for the whim of it....I DID think if how
I would exit from those that
control and whom I feel verbally abuse knowing
that I am at their mercy.
Other comments...
Thank you for this opportunity to express
myself.. I pray that God will
lighten all of our loads...Lessen this pain that
so few understand which only
isolates us more...give us strength to make it
thru our day.
 
|