Q: How far have you come since you had your first panic attack?
A: After years of having physical symptoms of anxiety, I still have panic attacks at night if I have a difficult day or problem or rejection.

Q: How do you explain how you are feeling to your child (children)
A: I have always been open with my children as they grew. Now they are almost all grown and one daughter also suffers from panic symptoms.

Q:Which symptom do you fear most...and why?
A:Racing heart, pauses in my heart beat, I worry about getting high blood pressure.



Q: When you are depressed, what helps you climb out of that "black hole"?
A: My friends, talking with them, getting out and doing fun things, watching a funny movie, hobbies, gardening, reading, exercising, taking good care of me.

Q: Do you think that panic disorder/anxiety is hereditory? If so, why?
A: Some people because of their basic makeup, I'm very sensitive, on the quiet side, shy, may be more prone to have severe panic but the thing that brings it out is our lifestyle, our upbringing, our speeded up world that is making everybody sick!

Q: How have you been treated by the medical profession?
A: Get away from taking drugs which are not solving the problems, trying meditation, exercise, yoga, visualization, spending time with family and friends if they are terrific positive people, getting out in nature and away from machines, finding love, hobbies bring a lot of pleasure and distraction, going to the health food store and getting products that are natural and relaxing like valerian, chamomile, kava kava, and so on, keeping away from drugs like caffeine, alcohol, tobacco, all poisons and eating a semi-vegetarian diet low in fat and sugar. Getting into cognitive therapy if needed

Q: Do you think sufferers of panic/anxiety are selfish?
A: NO

Q: What would you like to say to your support person(s)
A: Most people you will meet are willing to be supportive and understanding. After all, they may be in a crisis someday too and find they are having physical symptoms of stress overload. It can happen to anyone.

Q: What would you consider the best advice given you..and if so, by whom?
A: There is lots of ideas, advice out there today and we have to find what works best for us.

Q: If you didn't have panic disorder, what would be your life-style today?
A: My life would have been so different. I grew up with two parents who drank and there was plenty of war around me till the age of 8, that affected my personality so much. I was afraid, insecure, unable to express most emotions, I had symptoms of stressoverload even then. I'd wake up and couldn't breathe. I couldn't develop my true personality, it's a shame because I had a lot of creativity, talent, that was wasted. Well, not entirely, I brought up four wonderful kids and they all got a good education. Now I'm facing the empty nest, trying to leave a man who never committed to me in over 18 years, looking for a soul-mate because I don't feel good living alone, wanting to start a home business and not knowing if I can do these things because I have very little support, no money, no car, and no extended family. I brought up my kids on welfare, and we lived poor but it didn't show! My children always had the best mom and teacher they needed and now I tell them they have to carry the ball and that I'm living in the meantime, getting myself together so I can find some happiness for me! It's not easy when you are over 50 and going through the menopause. I was happy to hear Oprah say that being a good parent is the toughest job in the world. Especially in this sex, violent, materialistic society we live in today. I hope it changes, it's still tough to pay the basic bills....



Q: How far have you come since you had your first panic attack?
A:My first panic attack was a year and a half ago. I didn't know what was happening to me. I started to stay away from places that I thought triggered my attacks. (But the truth is, I trigger them and I cant stay away from me.) So far, things have been very tough for me. I'm trying my hardest to get back into life's normal routines. I've been staying in my house now for almost 6 months. Just last week I drove 9 miles from home all by myself. And that is a start. Each day, I have to push myself to get out of bed. And it is a blessing when I can do it with out fear of what the day will bring. I thank the Lord for his strength when I can get into my car and drive 1 mile to get the mail from the post office.

Q: How do you explain how you are feeling to your child (children)
A:~N/A

Q: Which symptom do you fear most...and why?
A:The symptom that I fear the most is Nausea. Ever since I was a little girl, throwing up was just as bad as being tortured, in my mind. So not only have I carried that childhood fear, I now have the fear of losing control of how I feel. Throwing up is an involuntary action (short of putting your finger down your throat), and I dont like to NOT be in control. Although, I did JUST RECENTLY read a book about people who suffer panic attacks. The author stated that she had NEVER seen, or heard of anyone throwing up while experiencing the attack. As of yet, I haven't been able to prove her wrong. :o)

Q: When you are depressed, what helps you climb out of that "black hole"?
A:I like to write poetry, play the piano, and compose music. Keeping a journal has helped out a lot. These are all ways for me to express how I am feeling and move on.

Q: Do you think that panic disorder/anxiety is hereditory? If so, why?
A: I do believe that this disorder is hereditary. My father's aunt went through the same thing, and didn't leave her house for 23 years. This was all before the public took much notice of Agoraphobia, so it was hard for her to get help sooner. I would like to add that now, though in her 80's, she is in EXCELLENT condition, and loves to be out. She NEVER thought that she would be normal again. Exercising and eating healthier helped her to improve..

Q: How have you been treated by the medical profession?
A: I have seen doctors, and have had MANY MANY tests and x-rays. I was given medications. Some of which I had allergic reactions to. And others, I just didnt feel like giving a chance because of the possible side-effects.

Q: Do you think sufferers of panic/anxiety are selfish?
A: I believe that SOME are. Not all. I say that because I often think of myself as being selfish. But then I also have to see that I'm trying to get better. In some ways, I am much stronger than before. So I guess a little selfishness could work for me. :o)

Q: What would you like to say to your support person(s)?
A: Just thank them (my parents) for supporting me these extra years. And that I'm sorry for not being able to show them how much I appreciate it right now. I never expected to be like this, but I love them and respect them for their love and prayers.

Q: What would you consider the best advice given you..and if so, by whom?
A: The best advice that I have recieved, has been to KEEP GOING. If I can make it 2 miles from home, why shouldn't I try for 3. And so on. Many people have expressed this, so there are too many to mention.

Q: If you didn't have panic disorder, what would be your life-style today?
A: I don't like to think about it too much, but I graduated in 1997 from high school. I would probably have a job, and be on the road to fame and fortune. :o) Honestly, I do believe that EVERYTHING happens for a reason. Maybe this is in God's plan for me to help others in the future. If I dwell on what I HOPED would have been the life for me, I'll never appreciate what the Lord has in store for my future.



Q: How far have you come since you had your first panic attack?
A: It is hard to say as I have been having them since I was a child and I have had periods of remission, there seems to be a trigger of stressful events that make them return and the process starts all over again

Q: How do you explain how you are feeling to your child (children)
A: When the children were younger I didn't tell them anything, I just coped as best I could all that they knew was that I had bad nerves.

Q: Which symptom do you fear most...and why?
A:The symptoms I fear the most are the confusion when you are panic and the fear that you will embarrass yourself some how.

Q: When you are depressed, what helps you climb out of that "black hole"?
A: I try to keep myself busy,and to think positve thoughts. I have found exercise a great stess reliever.

Q: Do you think that panic disorder/anxiety is hereditory? If so, why?
A: I do believe that panic/anxiety is hereditory, a lot of my family members suffer it in one form or another starting with my Mother .

Q: How have you been treated by the medical profession?
A: The medical profession has been telling me for years that it is just my nerves,finally about 5 years ago I said" OK if it is my nerves do something about it" not much help at all, I tried a psycologist but it was too expensive.

Q: Do you think sufferers of panic/anxiety are selfish?
A: I don't believe selfish is the right word, we can not help how we feel and it is a lot to ask for understanding but that is no more selfish than a person with a medical problem.

Q: What would you like to say to your support person(s)?
A: I would like to say thank you for your understanding and support for 31 years, for believing in me and celebrating the smallest conquest with me.

Q: What would you consider the best advice given you..and if so, by whom?
A: Just be yourself and don't worry what anyone else thinks of you,let them take you as you are...

Q: If you didn't have panic disorder, what would be your life-style today?
A: I hope my lifestyle would be more normal, a job, driving my car, not worrying about every little thing and all of the "what if's in life. Just going out with out thinking about it.

Other comments... Take one day at a time, look for the best not the worst and be thankful for everyday that you have and most of all Laugh, that is your best medicine...



Q: How far have you come since you had your first panic attack?

A: Very far!!!! :O)

Q: How do you explain how you are feeling to your child (children)
A:Luckily I don't have children...that would be such a hard one!!!

Q: Which symptom do you fear most...and why?
A: I fear that i am going to pass out, I'm petrifyed of passing out in public!

Q: When you are depressed, what helps you climb out of that "black hole"?
A: Sleep, initially then getting on with 'stuff' I've been putting off.

Q: Do you think that panic disorder/anxiety is hereditory? If so, why?
A:I believe it is. My Gran is claustrophobic and my Mum finds that sometimes she just has to 'leave' where ever she is. This doesn't happen often but I believe it's got something to do with it all.

Q: How have you been treated by the medical profession?
A: HAH!! What a joke!!! They mostly seem to treat you as if you are weak and just not 'coping' with your life. LONG LIVE NATUROPATHS!!

Q: Do you think sufferers of panic/anxiety are selfish?
A: I can only speak for myself.....I go out of my way not to be, it would be to easy to just give in to myself all the time.

Q: What would you like to say to your support person(s)?
A: I love them all very much and although I hope I never have to, I hope I could do the same for them.

Q: What would you consider the best advice given you..and if so, by whom?
A: My naturopath, he said.....'accept that you will have good days and enjoy them, accept that you will have bad days....then let them go!'

Q: If you didn't have panic disorder, what would be your life-style today?
A: A lot less stressfull!! LOL As I am improving all the time it is hard to say, because of PD I have forced myself into making some huge decisions that perhaps I wouldn't have made.

Other comments... There are always days when I wish that I could just go to sleep and not wake up. Luckily for me those days are becoming fewer and fewer. I was so lucky that from the start I WOULD NOT GIVE IN. I took out a loan and bought a new car, just so that I HAD to go to work....I've forced myself to so many things and it's been so hard but the good thing is that I feel PROUD of myself, I really do. I don't think this will ever go away, not completely but the thing is....don't the bad days make the good days extra good??? Good luck to every one....WE CAN DO IT!!!!



Q: How far have you come since you had your first panic attack?

A: About 20 years too far down the road of anxiety....I am in setback last 3 years so this is a difficult one...I know of course more about anxiety from tons of therapy and research yet it is frustrating since there are NO definites...cures.....just a bunch of theories....and we sufferers have to deal with added anquish of asking why??????

Q: How do you explain how you are feeling to your child (children)
A: My daughters are 19 and 20 and have tinges of anxiety/panic which is hurt right there..When they were little I guess I tried to hide alot my TERROR..so they wouldn't pick it up...can't remember how anxiety became explained...its been soooo long.

Q: Which symptom do you fear most...and why?
A: PANIC is the worst...thats the fear of fear for you...to feel like one is going to DIE..That horrible worse feeling in the world....TERROR....and not being able to get it back under control and you feel you are going to die

Q: When you are depressed, what helps you climb out of that "black hole"?
A: Everyday its a struggle with depression having this anxiety monster loom....I pray alot and count my blessings for what I do have and self talk/mother myself I suppose...try to see the best in things...and DIVERSION...coping skills...that keeping on task....getting deeply involved in a project or in a biz.

Q: Do you think that panic disorder/anxiety is hereditory? If so, why?
A: Think it is a strong possibility that it is...or can be....Feel it is a piece of pie/puzzle...My mother had it...half sister and her daughter...and my mothers sister's daughter.....sooooooo....fortunately they of course never had it to this intensity as I have.

Q: How have you been treated by the medical profession?
A:What a joke! I feel bitterness towards the physicians who are supposed to be doctors to help ill people yet have no sensitivity nor want to....thats my experience.

Q: Do you think sufferers of panic/anxiety are selfish?
A: ABSOLUTELY NOT....I think that thats something the other guy that has never had anxiety thinks...Anxiety/panic is very humbling..

Q: What would you like to say to your support person(s)?
A: Just let me know that you are there for me....with me thru this....that you care! The best words are" I am here...and we are going to get thru this"....

Q: What would you consider the best advice given you..and if so, by whom?
A: So much in the last 20 years that has been said by the professional....I believe being given coping skills and learning what helps reduce anixety and gives one strength....and that for me is baby steps with a SUPPORT system....a safety nest...to be able to build on...

Q: If you didn't have panic disorder, what would be your life-style today?
A: This is the hardest...remember my former therapist asking.....if you didn't have anxiety...what would you want to do..........and I broke down in tears....." I can;t allow myself to even think what it would be to not have anxiety...it hurts tooo much seeing my severe limitations....but yet I have asked myself...in fact the other day....yet it was VERY hard....I couldn't visualize...it would panic me at the thought...to be able to take the car and take off for the whim of it....I DID think if how I would exit from those that control and whom I feel verbally abuse knowing that I am at their mercy.

Other comments... Thank you for this opportunity to express myself.. I pray that God will lighten all of our loads...Lessen this pain that so few understand which only isolates us more...give us strength to make it thru our day.