July 19, 1997

Suspicion
   Suicide
Pain 
Love
all doesn't matter
   Confusion is my ruler now
I love you
   I worry about you
I sense you need to tell me something
   You said you'll call
Shortly
     A certain something
In your voice
I dont know what
Is it sadness
   Avoidance
If only I knew
Me stomach aches
   My mind boggles
I stay up late at night 
Thinking
Wondering
About you
I have already given you my essence
Though you don't know it
If it wasnt for him
I'd already love you now
More than I do
I want to be your everything
I want to be your world
I miss you
   though have scarcely left
I want to weep
   i want to laugh
I want to run
   i want to hide
Oh Kristin
What have you done to me
   you seem so fragile
Yet so strong
   so innocent
Yet so knowing
Why am I behaving like this
   I wish I knew
Wish i knew what you did to me
I hope you call soon