Hillcrest or Mission Valley-2BD/2BA Apartment for Rent-$1000. Oh, what I wouldn't give to see this sign posted somewhere. Sigh... yoh, what a week. Full of more househunting and jobsearching and whatnot. I'm not quite sure which one is more urgent, and incidentally which one to focus more on, because who's gonna give you a job without an address? On the other hand, who's gonna give you an apartment without an income? This is my dilemma. Dilemma (noun)- a difficult choice between two things. Me- In it. Hmmm. Tonight was good though. I tagged along with Danica to a birthday party for a girl I just met a couple weeks ago. She's real fun and nice, and so were her friends. So that took my mind of the craziness for at least a couple hours. Who knew there were still cool people at Point Loma? ;)
Dude! Sweet! As I was cleaning up for the move, I found a bunch of my old notebooks in my old papers. Characteristically, of course, they had less of class notes in them and more of personal, bored-in-class crap. Drawings. Old poetry. Beginnings of lyrics, some of which I didn't even remember existed. The most entertaining ones to read were the stupid crush poems where I couldn't remember who I wrote them about. Judging by the time period of everything else in the notebook, there are only a couple people they could have been about, and it doesn't seem to fit either of those situations at the time. But it sure as shootin' fits my situation now. Heh. Kinda creepy. I realized, too, that I used to write a lot more poems about my dreams, the things I wanted to do with my life. How passionate I was about those things. I should start writing like that again. I should start thinking like that again.
Five Reasons I Need to Go to Europe Immediately:
1. Apartments there cost less than your soul.
2. There's something utterly romantic about being surrounded by a language you can only half understand.
3. I like to write, and Europe is inspiring.
4. I dream about it. All the time. What a shock to dream about San Diego and wake up to Europe as the reality. Best shock of my life!
5. It's on my list of things I have to do before I die, so I have to do it sometime. Immediately sounds good to me.
Love, or something like it: I was wondering today if there are actually people out there for whom it is impossible to fall in love. And I came to the conclusion that there are. Not only that, I think they might even outnumber the ones who still can. I was going to go into more detail about this, but now that I'm actually writing it out I think I'd rather not. If you're truly interested in hearing my theories about love, ask me. Then ask me again the next day. I'm sure they will have changed at least slightly by then. :)
Quote of the Week: "Love anything and your heart will be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact you must give it to no one, not even an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements. Lock it up save in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket--safe, dark, motionless, airless--it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable. To love is to be vulnerable." - C.S. Lewis
İOctober 20, 2002 by me.