Need sleepy! Note to self: must start trying to get more than four hours of sleep a night. Last night was my going-away party for work. Although not as wild and crazy as Tracy's going-away party, (read: I did not come home with cake frosting plastered in my hair from ginormous cake fight incident like after said party)I was so excited and honored at practically the whole store showing up. Especially since I'm only moving to the store like 4 blocks away. :) Crazy dancing, pool playing, karaoke-ing, and fun times abounded. Excellent.
Thoughts on new "w/bf" status. It feels funny to not be single anymore. I think it's sort of funny and ironic that those people who have met me in the past six months or so are shocked that I would "settle down" with one guy (seeing as how before that, I was pretty much always in a serious relationship, oh yeah). The thing is, I really had grown to *like* being single. Love it, actually. As Mikey said in Swingers, "What? You can do whatever you want!". You can flirt with, dance with, date whoever and it ain't no thang. Yep. It's been great. Oodles of meeting new people and self-discovery and all that. And I realize saying all of this makes it sound like I'm bummed to be in a relationship. But wait! You must read to the part where I write, I wouldn't have gladly relinquished my singleton status for just anybody. All of this only means it would have taken someone really amazing to break me out of my crazy whirlwind... to let me let them in. And the thing is, sometimes I think you have to let the right time choose you. It becomes right based on whether you accept it or not. Otherwise relationships tend to feel scripted to me, like, "Ok, I"m ready to be in a relationship again...hey, you look like good boyfriend material..." and whatnot. All that aside, I guess what it really comes down to is, this boy is worth a thousand exciting flirtations with strangers. It took me awhile to wake up to that (months?!), but now that I have, it's not even that I don't regret this. It's that I couldn't.
Say bye-bye to wickedly long hair... chopping it all off this week! Ahhh!
??? The "moving? staying?" question still hangs heavy on the air, but these days there's a new twist on it. After my "went pretty well" tryout with J's band in L.A., J asked me, "Well ok so if this works out, how are we going to handle the fact that you're in San Diego?" Well (i told him), ...if it works out, I'd move to L.A. Without blinking. This is my dream we're talking about here, for crying out loud. Not that I'm real keen on L.A. or anything (who is?), but oh man. To sing with a great band...!!!
Cool band of the week: System of a Down. ...can't get Chop Suey out of my head. Wake up WAKE UP!
Five Things I am Currently Completely Enamored Of:
1. Catchphrase. Only the funnest game on the entire planet!
2. Watermelon margaritas from Chevy's. Have you TRIED those things? Good grief.
3. Black-haired, blue-eyed boys. Or one in particular.
4. Salsa dancing. I've been practicing!
5. All things Dostoyevsky. The man's just a freakin' undeniable genius. Been reading Brothers Karamazov again, obviously. :)
What's in my CD player this week? (like you care) A Perfect Circle- "A Perfect Circle", Smashing Pumpkins- "Siamese Dream", Radiohead- "Hail to the Thief", Me- "JLR Mix", U2- "Best Of 1980-1990", Jane's Addiction- "Strays"
Quote of the Week : "Men do not accept their prophets and slay them, but they love their martyrs and worship those whom they have tortured to death." -Father Zossima, "The Brothers Karamazov"
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